pics with class t

suddenly, i wanna say..

i may forget the jokes we told.
but i wont forget the laughter we shared.

i may forget who you are.
but i will never forget that there was someone who impacted my life.

i may lose your contact.
but i will not forget your name if i ever see you walking down the street.

we may go our separate ways.
but our paths will cross one day.

we may be sad at times.
but we can always look back at the joy we had.

if i ever die, dont cry.
i want you to scream my name out loud so that i can hear you either from up there or down there.

everytime i look at the neoprints we took together, i think of how we can ever live without each other when we grow up. as the day of graduation gets nearer, my heart gets heavier. i cant bear the tot of pple leaving my side and that i gotta start all over again. why izzit that it's now that im starting to treasure you peeps? why is it that i cant bear to graduate from skool? why am i afraid?

why do i feel numb-ed and tired of living? many times i dun find a reason to live. i dun find the motivation to move on. many times i wanna feel the pain of cutting myself but i never dared to cos i am afraid of pain and blood. sometimes i just wanna sleep myself to death.

low carbo diet and getting rid of dark eye rings

yea! im in it now!

so now in skool, i will no longer consume a single grain of rice. will only eat the dishes. and for drinks, i will only take natural fruit juices or water, no drinks with sugar content.

my daily calorie intake should only be between 1200 - 1300 calories.

and regarding my dark eye rings, i gotta take more of vitamin k.

sources are: spinach [im popeye the sailorman], lettuce, kale, cabbage, cauliflower, wheat bran, organ meats, cereals, some fruits, meats, dairy products and eggs. for eggs, i will only take the egg white cos egg yolk got alot of cholestrol.. but even though the egg white holds no danger, i will not be indulging in it.

see? im so health conscious now. haha.

to orchard to orchard we had a long day

wore class jersey... it's so orange! i like! budden everybody looked at me when i was on the bus.. cos everybody else was wearing white, blue, or black and i was the only orange... btw, skool ended so early! 10.30 am.

after that sheryl went off to meet her guy fren while us [june, cherie, shandy, jialing, amelia, yiting] went to town.. went to the bk at far east to eat first.. den we saw sheryl with her guy fren.. she may deny it, but they looked like they are in a r/s.. they went to the subway outlet beside our bk.. haha..

den we went to take neoprints! still, no matter how many pics we take, it seems like the ones we took on the eve of national day last year is the nicest.. i wonder why.. must be cos me dark eye rings are super serious nowadays.. lydia was the first to notice and tell me abt it during the dec hols last year.. hehe.. one day gotta use photoshop to get rid of the darkness under my eyes from those neoprints..

the neoprints arent scanned into the internet yet, so you gotta wait if you wanna see my dark rings.. hehe..

aiyar, legs cannot take it.. budden the top part of my body still okae.. haha.. okae, gtg le. tata!

skool

today was abit quiet.. sheryl no come to skool.. but the guys today veri active! especially nicholas and ying han.. christopher forever active, so dun care abt him.. and den by econs, the last lesson, nicholas was practically floating round the room, playing with almost everything in sight.. he played until pencils spilled out from a box and he went "oops" and that innocent-yet-guilty face..

had econs mcq test and when we were going thru the answers, the guys were practically woken up and veri energetic.. veeri FUNNY.. haha..

woohoo! tmw is smart-casual attire to skool.. budden still gonna wear skool skirt since we gotta wear SHOES.. cannot find a bottom that goes with sports shoe.. we arent allowed to wear slippers or sandals.. sad~ but nvm, cos tmw can wear class jersey!! woohoo!

nightmare

had a bad dream. real bad dream. made me cry.

dreamt that my mother died and left behind a letter. almost woke up from the dream when i started crying; was partially awake and i sensed my muscles twitching but i couldnt open my eyes.

not now Lord, dun take any of anyone of them away from me now. please. i cant afford to lose any one of my loved ones. not now, not ever. maybe AFTER i die? at least i wont know..

40 days of purpose

wanna be on a mission?

a mission for God.

wanna join the 40 DOP?

it gives you the answer to a question you have been asking yourself,

"what on earth am i here for?"

for more details, go to http://www.40dop.org/

location of mission: Aldersgate Methodist Church [Dover]

days of mission: weekends [saturdays and sundays if you dunno wad "weekends" mean]

i will be there, will you?

if you lazy to sign up but wanna go,

just gimme your particulars

and i will fill it in for you, my darling.