heyhey..
yesterday was elin's birthday.. miss her soooooooooo much...........
erm, actually, i have something to say..... yesterday, i went back to skool.. stepping into the compound after everything that happened, i was at first, excited.. after spending some time in there, i found myself looking for mr wee.. when i couldnt find him [you know the obvious reasons if you have been my avid reader], i looked for pple i knew.. but i found, besides those sec 2s-4s in gb, those guys who had graduated yet went back to serve their cca; gb bb, eugenia, yong hao, there was no one else.. all unfamiliar faces....... i felt so odd.. suddenly faces of those from innova came to my mind, then i looked back at the skool. and found out that i no longer felt anything for the skool besides the memories i once had.. i hope this is a good sign... most probably, im the one who is looking back the most.. and i know that looking back is not good when pple have to move on..
but, how can i not think abt my frens? how can i not remember the love i once had for the skool? how can i forget the torture i suffered while in there? how can i forget mr wee? how can i forget those that i love soooo much? how can i possibly forget all the fun and pains?
i miss you all so much..
29 January 2005
birthdays..................
heyhey..
yesterday was elin's birthday.. miss her soooooooooo much...........
erm, actually, i have something to say..... yesterday, i went back to skool.. stepping into the compound after everything that happened, i was at first, excited.. after spending some time in there, i found myself looking for mr wee.. when i couldnt find him [you know the obvious reasons if you have been my avid reader], i looked for pple i knew.. but i found, besides those sec 2s-4s in gb, those guys who had graduated yet went back to serve their cca; gb bb, eugenia, yong hao, there was no one else.. all unfamiliar faces....... i felt so odd.. suddenly faces of those from innova came to my mind, then i looked back at the skool. and found out that i no longer felt anything for the skool besides the memories i once had.. i hope this is a good sign... most probably, im the one who is looking back the most.. and i know that looking back is not good when pple have to move on..
but, how can i not think abt my frens? how can i not remember the love i once had for the skool? how can i forget the torture i suffered while in there? how can i forget mr wee? how can i forget those that i love soooo much? how can i possibly forget all the fun and pains?
i miss you all so much..
yesterday was elin's birthday.. miss her soooooooooo much...........
erm, actually, i have something to say..... yesterday, i went back to skool.. stepping into the compound after everything that happened, i was at first, excited.. after spending some time in there, i found myself looking for mr wee.. when i couldnt find him [you know the obvious reasons if you have been my avid reader], i looked for pple i knew.. but i found, besides those sec 2s-4s in gb, those guys who had graduated yet went back to serve their cca; gb bb, eugenia, yong hao, there was no one else.. all unfamiliar faces....... i felt so odd.. suddenly faces of those from innova came to my mind, then i looked back at the skool. and found out that i no longer felt anything for the skool besides the memories i once had.. i hope this is a good sign... most probably, im the one who is looking back the most.. and i know that looking back is not good when pple have to move on..
but, how can i not think abt my frens? how can i not remember the love i once had for the skool? how can i forget the torture i suffered while in there? how can i forget mr wee? how can i forget those that i love soooo much? how can i possibly forget all the fun and pains?
i miss you all so much..
23 January 2005
18 January 2005
innova innova innova
erm... if you actually feel that i have been toking too much abt innova.... i apologise...
but really, i have many things to say abt this jc since i'm new abt jc life............
this time, lemme think.. great, i forgot..
ah yes.
when i first stepped into the skool, i was amazed, excited and fascinated with everything i see... but soon, i see an ocean of unfamiliar faces besides the other nine ex-fairsians with the same sleepy look.. haha.. slowly, i feel lonely and awkward in there.. took 2 days to actually start toking freely with my orientation group.. took a veri long time to put faces to names.. the more difficult part is memorizing the names......... haha. before i know it, it's been the second week i have been with my appointed class, kana become secretary.. it was only after last night's chat via msn that i started to really tok with the class.. last night, i found myself chatting with 4 guys and no gals.. one guy was the 30-yr-old civics tutor.. man, he looked much younger than mr ow.. this morning, i was playing soccer with gillian and soon kinda chatting and sitting together with the gals during tutorials.. however, i have been dreaming of elin suddenly disappearing after some time spent together, which was kinda true......... i think i still miss my old frens.. kept thinking of lp, jasmine yong, elin, lorraine, darren, many from 4e, and many from fairfield.. i oso miss my tuition class and tutors from learnwell.. AH!!!!!! i miss them sooooooo much............... gonna cry.. leave me alone!
but really, i have many things to say abt this jc since i'm new abt jc life............
this time, lemme think.. great, i forgot..
ah yes.
when i first stepped into the skool, i was amazed, excited and fascinated with everything i see... but soon, i see an ocean of unfamiliar faces besides the other nine ex-fairsians with the same sleepy look.. haha.. slowly, i feel lonely and awkward in there.. took 2 days to actually start toking freely with my orientation group.. took a veri long time to put faces to names.. the more difficult part is memorizing the names......... haha. before i know it, it's been the second week i have been with my appointed class, kana become secretary.. it was only after last night's chat via msn that i started to really tok with the class.. last night, i found myself chatting with 4 guys and no gals.. one guy was the 30-yr-old civics tutor.. man, he looked much younger than mr ow.. this morning, i was playing soccer with gillian and soon kinda chatting and sitting together with the gals during tutorials.. however, i have been dreaming of elin suddenly disappearing after some time spent together, which was kinda true......... i think i still miss my old frens.. kept thinking of lp, jasmine yong, elin, lorraine, darren, many from 4e, and many from fairfield.. i oso miss my tuition class and tutors from learnwell.. AH!!!!!! i miss them sooooooo much............... gonna cry.. leave me alone!
17 January 2005
life
honestly, life's resembles a gamble... since the first second of your birth, your parents have represented you in taking your gamble.. they gambled with your future, your life, with their affections they have for you, everything that your life is worth, they have gambled it with the world, the surroundings... there's no certainty to wad happens when you grow up... you have started gambling when you were months old, when you started learning to walk.. walking either leads you to a brighter future, or a darker path.. soon you learn to talk. you realise that you have to think before you speak, so if you hadnt started learning, maybe your world could have been more quiet, more peaceful.. wont that make the world a better place without gambling? but still, gambling have two alternatives; you either win, or you lose. of course, winning is a good thing. but wad if you lose? you will lose your life, your family, your future, your friends, your material needs, your everything.
okae, i had been toking crap. thanx for reading..
okae, i had been toking crap. thanx for reading..
12 January 2005
innovian life
heyhey.. before i start, can your presence be felt by you writing a comment on anything...! i feel so lonely here..
innovian life.. hm.. where do i start..? oh yes, lemme tell you how boring the breaks are.. and why.. first, every one hour of lecture, there will be at least half an hour of meaningless break, sometimes, the break can extend to 2 and a half hour, combined with lunch.. and, there's no library, no student lounge, nothing!! nothing else for me to rest my legs or occupy myself while waiting for the next lecture besides studying at that NOISY noisy canteen or the DUSTY classrooms.. during lectures, the lecture theatres still stink of those paint and today, the air con spoiled!! soooo hot.. and most of us had pe before that.. to think of how stinko it was.. EWWWWW!!!! but fortunately, there's this veri veri cute teacher teaching physics.. so at least i have something to look forward to; physics lecture. and his name, so cute.. reminds me of a neopet.. his name is kyris, i think.. forgot how to spell.. oh yar, i've got an olympic player as my pe teacher.. you dun need to look for him in the jc's website, i suggest you check him out in the website dedicated to olympics.. haha.. i remember he's in the air rifle thingy and his surname is lee.. and he is veri muscular............ so during pe, everything is nothing to him.. he runs like nobody's business, torture us like it's nobody's business.. haiz..
haiz, gtg oredi... veri sleepy.. byez!!!
innovian life.. hm.. where do i start..? oh yes, lemme tell you how boring the breaks are.. and why.. first, every one hour of lecture, there will be at least half an hour of meaningless break, sometimes, the break can extend to 2 and a half hour, combined with lunch.. and, there's no library, no student lounge, nothing!! nothing else for me to rest my legs or occupy myself while waiting for the next lecture besides studying at that NOISY noisy canteen or the DUSTY classrooms.. during lectures, the lecture theatres still stink of those paint and today, the air con spoiled!! soooo hot.. and most of us had pe before that.. to think of how stinko it was.. EWWWWW!!!! but fortunately, there's this veri veri cute teacher teaching physics.. so at least i have something to look forward to; physics lecture. and his name, so cute.. reminds me of a neopet.. his name is kyris, i think.. forgot how to spell.. oh yar, i've got an olympic player as my pe teacher.. you dun need to look for him in the jc's website, i suggest you check him out in the website dedicated to olympics.. haha.. i remember he's in the air rifle thingy and his surname is lee.. and he is veri muscular............ so during pe, everything is nothing to him.. he runs like nobody's business, torture us like it's nobody's business.. haiz..
haiz, gtg oredi... veri sleepy.. byez!!!
07 January 2005
reflections
hey.. many things to say.. but somehow, i dunnoe where to start.. chronological order? or by seriousness? ahhhh, i juz say wad comes to my mind first.. here goes:
hm.. the end of 2004 was horrendous.
first, tsunami happened. hey! it did affect me.. i had to donate hard-earned money.. okae okae, j/k only..
second, it was the end of my secondary skool life.. i was juz getting used to studying for the "O"s...
third, my love left me no more chance of letting me see him again.. how cruel can he get?!
now, the start of 2005 was my nightmare..
first, i had to walk to jc.. it's like im having a daily walkathon before and after orientation..
second, when i was dead tired and blur, some tamil @#%@#%^#W^?*&(*& b****** stole my hp and now im still in shock even though i dun show it.. the first few minutes when that happened, i was veri frightened, i needed someone to be there for me - but there wasnt - after those few minutes, i was calm, i asked a complete stranger to lend me his phone to call home - he interrogated me like a criminal, as if i want his broken hp [it's REALLY broken] - after that, i walked home.. i then went to make a police report with my mother.. after EVERYTHING, i sat down. i felt numbed, but tired.. i became suicidal.. somehow i did think of juz killing myself.. then i thought of the newspaper headline "girl kills herself after losing hp".. ridiculous right?! i slept early that night, in fact, last night.. too tired.. but, the scene kept re-enacting in my mind.. so i couldntt sleep until half an hour later.. today, my sis told me that it was on the radio news of 95.8FM.. haha..
third, elin's flown off to melbourne this evening.. i felt that i had lost the only human on this earth who truly understands me to the aliens in outer space.. damn that watson, he was juz talking abt her departure this morning and he seemed to be happy abt it, and oso he sounded regretful? kinda.. elin deserves someone better than him.
fourth, okae okae, i'll tell the truth here.. my new crush is darren. and he just left with elin juz liddat.. he walked out of my life like, "bye!!!" *poof* happy now? now, everybody i like is gone, and those i dislike is sticking to me like a gluestick. okae, i dun mean you, lorraine.. hey, i go for good guys.. and darren IS a good guy.. he is the world's most understanding male human, besides mr wee.. and hey, nothing about these 2 guys will turn me off. that time during the class chalet, second night, i was lying on the bed with darren lying right between me and the tv.. and there he was, scratching his crotch from the back.. so i could see everything that was happening behind him.. and that didnt turn me off.. cos hey, guys' rule #101: if it's itchy, i'll just scratch it! no big deal.. and i understand it's alright, cos it's just any human's animal instinct.. dun you see a cat licking it's asshole every now and then? it's juz to keep it clean...! hahaha..
fifth, i accidentally rubbed my knee across the cement ground when i was walking around like a duck during the games for orientation.. ow ow ow ow ow......
but there's always something good in my life when im down.. i have my family and friends, still contactable, to be with me.. best still, God has always been by my side.. and, i am still alive...!! gtg to sleep.. bye!!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
hm.. the end of 2004 was horrendous.
first, tsunami happened. hey! it did affect me.. i had to donate hard-earned money.. okae okae, j/k only..
second, it was the end of my secondary skool life.. i was juz getting used to studying for the "O"s...
third, my love left me no more chance of letting me see him again.. how cruel can he get?!
now, the start of 2005 was my nightmare..
first, i had to walk to jc.. it's like im having a daily walkathon before and after orientation..
second, when i was dead tired and blur, some tamil @#%@#%^#W^?*&(*& b****** stole my hp and now im still in shock even though i dun show it.. the first few minutes when that happened, i was veri frightened, i needed someone to be there for me - but there wasnt - after those few minutes, i was calm, i asked a complete stranger to lend me his phone to call home - he interrogated me like a criminal, as if i want his broken hp [it's REALLY broken] - after that, i walked home.. i then went to make a police report with my mother.. after EVERYTHING, i sat down. i felt numbed, but tired.. i became suicidal.. somehow i did think of juz killing myself.. then i thought of the newspaper headline "girl kills herself after losing hp".. ridiculous right?! i slept early that night, in fact, last night.. too tired.. but, the scene kept re-enacting in my mind.. so i couldntt sleep until half an hour later.. today, my sis told me that it was on the radio news of 95.8FM.. haha..
third, elin's flown off to melbourne this evening.. i felt that i had lost the only human on this earth who truly understands me to the aliens in outer space.. damn that watson, he was juz talking abt her departure this morning and he seemed to be happy abt it, and oso he sounded regretful? kinda.. elin deserves someone better than him.
fourth, okae okae, i'll tell the truth here.. my new crush is darren. and he just left with elin juz liddat.. he walked out of my life like, "bye!!!" *poof* happy now? now, everybody i like is gone, and those i dislike is sticking to me like a gluestick. okae, i dun mean you, lorraine.. hey, i go for good guys.. and darren IS a good guy.. he is the world's most understanding male human, besides mr wee.. and hey, nothing about these 2 guys will turn me off. that time during the class chalet, second night, i was lying on the bed with darren lying right between me and the tv.. and there he was, scratching his crotch from the back.. so i could see everything that was happening behind him.. and that didnt turn me off.. cos hey, guys' rule #101: if it's itchy, i'll just scratch it! no big deal.. and i understand it's alright, cos it's just any human's animal instinct.. dun you see a cat licking it's asshole every now and then? it's juz to keep it clean...! hahaha..
fifth, i accidentally rubbed my knee across the cement ground when i was walking around like a duck during the games for orientation.. ow ow ow ow ow......
but there's always something good in my life when im down.. i have my family and friends, still contactable, to be with me.. best still, God has always been by my side.. and, i am still alive...!! gtg to sleep.. bye!!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
05 January 2005
innova innova
heyhey.. how's life???
been in innova jc for three days oredi.. now having muscle aches from all the walking here and there from marsiling to admirality by foot.. owow..
hm.. actually, i've come to say that i may not have much chance to come to the com to type in my blog after this time.. i've come to complete wad i've left undone.. which is to type this blog and later put my pets into the neolodge..
the skool..
honestly, i think many JC1 students now are looking for new friends, a new life.. since everything's new to everybody now.. but still.. according to my mentality, everybody's looking for shadows of those who used to be around them in sec skool.. when we look at the teachers and students in the jc, we tend to compare them to the teachers and students in the sec skool, and then laugh at the comparisons.. but really, are those laughter out of joy, sarcasm or out of longingness? are they forced out of your throat, or out of your pure heart? mine isnt much of joy.. it's of sadness.. it's of thinking of the sec skool.. it's of having been with pple you knew all your life, and *poof*, they're gone and there you are alone, fending for yourself.. it's of the friendship that you've built with so many pple and suddenly, the foundation seems to have collapsed the minute 2005 came into your life.. it's of sudden loneliness.. ot's off seeing your closest friends, walking out of your life one by one, slowly as the clock ticks away..
i miss fairfield.. more specifically, i miss my class, 4e'04.. i miss the laughter, the dirty yet playful jokes.. the pple. i miss all of you all..
been in innova jc for three days oredi.. now having muscle aches from all the walking here and there from marsiling to admirality by foot.. owow..
hm.. actually, i've come to say that i may not have much chance to come to the com to type in my blog after this time.. i've come to complete wad i've left undone.. which is to type this blog and later put my pets into the neolodge..
the skool..
honestly, i think many JC1 students now are looking for new friends, a new life.. since everything's new to everybody now.. but still.. according to my mentality, everybody's looking for shadows of those who used to be around them in sec skool.. when we look at the teachers and students in the jc, we tend to compare them to the teachers and students in the sec skool, and then laugh at the comparisons.. but really, are those laughter out of joy, sarcasm or out of longingness? are they forced out of your throat, or out of your pure heart? mine isnt much of joy.. it's of sadness.. it's of thinking of the sec skool.. it's of having been with pple you knew all your life, and *poof*, they're gone and there you are alone, fending for yourself.. it's of the friendship that you've built with so many pple and suddenly, the foundation seems to have collapsed the minute 2005 came into your life.. it's of sudden loneliness.. ot's off seeing your closest friends, walking out of your life one by one, slowly as the clock ticks away..
i miss fairfield.. more specifically, i miss my class, 4e'04.. i miss the laughter, the dirty yet playful jokes.. the pple. i miss all of you all..
01 January 2005
last gathering
ello bloggie blog and reader..
went out with elin, huiyi, lorraine and evangeline this afternoon.. we arranged to meet at 11am.. however, i had managed to switch off both my alarm clock and my handphone's alarm while sleeping.. so, i woke up at 10.15am. juz bcos i watched 'interview with a vampire' until 4am.. hey, i had my dream come true, my wishes had been answered by God.. that time, before we set off for the chalet on monday, we went to white sands to walk around.. i managed to find the dvd of the same show.. however, however, however, it was M18.. why on earth is it M18? i watched the show once when i was 7 in australia, dammit!? and there's brad pitt and tom cruise, so how can i miss the chance of being able to watch these two hunks act..?!i was literally cursing to myself when the cashier refused to help me grow older by 2 years.. but i soon got over it, hey, i cant possibly be angry over a stupid dvd.. might as well wait till i turn 18 in 2006.. haha.. to my surprise and joy, the show was soon shown on tv!! luckily it was shown when i was at home, not during my chalet.. cos i would most probably miss it during chalet as the guys and lp will be playing halo-2.. haha..
okae, back to topic..
i practically had to drag myself there as i was sooooo sleepy..
okae, i summarise wad we did.. first, we walked all the way to suntec, to eng wah.. to watch kungfu hustle.. i had wanted to watched phantom of the opera.. but i had oredi missed the first showing and the next will be at 8.20pm..kungfu hustle was sooooooooooooooooo funny!!!! i couldnt stop laughing the whole time.. oh, on the way to the cinema, we went in and out of shops selling cds and vcds.. like HMV all those.. lorraine and i wanted to find inuyasha's cd.. but to no avail.. walked till my legs almost gave way.. after the movie, we walked everywhere, we went to a shop selling engraved names, to times bookshop cos i wanted to find dick lee's autobiography.. oh yar, i managed to find "my date with a vampire III".. i was soooo happy.. but i looked at the price : 39.90.. SO EXPENSIVE!!!.. after some thinking, i gave up the chance of buying it.. then, we went to heeren.. to take neoprint.. met kevin ban, elin and my ex-classmate at the same place.. after the neoprint part, we went to HMV again to look for cds.. in the end, elin had to go for dinner at her auntie's house in hougang... so she left first.. then huiyi, evan and lorraine and i started discussing buying a cake for elin on the day she flies to melbourne.. but we broke off the discussion as the crowd in orchard increased.. we went up the mrt train.. we couldnt sit, we couldnt find a pole to hold onto for balance cos a BIG malay guy literally glued himself to the pole - he had the pole at the crack of his ass dammit..! so lorraine and huiyi, who were much nearer to the pole than i myself, didnt dare to even touch the pole until he finally got off the train.. haha..
we were quite reluctant to leave each other, even though we bade farewell with smiles, as we were uncertain abt when we will ever meet again.. haiz.. sad ending.. oh yes, my legs did give way when i reached home..
went out with elin, huiyi, lorraine and evangeline this afternoon.. we arranged to meet at 11am.. however, i had managed to switch off both my alarm clock and my handphone's alarm while sleeping.. so, i woke up at 10.15am. juz bcos i watched 'interview with a vampire' until 4am.. hey, i had my dream come true, my wishes had been answered by God.. that time, before we set off for the chalet on monday, we went to white sands to walk around.. i managed to find the dvd of the same show.. however, however, however, it was M18.. why on earth is it M18? i watched the show once when i was 7 in australia, dammit!? and there's brad pitt and tom cruise, so how can i miss the chance of being able to watch these two hunks act..?!i was literally cursing to myself when the cashier refused to help me grow older by 2 years.. but i soon got over it, hey, i cant possibly be angry over a stupid dvd.. might as well wait till i turn 18 in 2006.. haha.. to my surprise and joy, the show was soon shown on tv!! luckily it was shown when i was at home, not during my chalet.. cos i would most probably miss it during chalet as the guys and lp will be playing halo-2.. haha..
okae, back to topic..
i practically had to drag myself there as i was sooooo sleepy..
okae, i summarise wad we did.. first, we walked all the way to suntec, to eng wah.. to watch kungfu hustle.. i had wanted to watched phantom of the opera.. but i had oredi missed the first showing and the next will be at 8.20pm..kungfu hustle was sooooooooooooooooo funny!!!! i couldnt stop laughing the whole time.. oh, on the way to the cinema, we went in and out of shops selling cds and vcds.. like HMV all those.. lorraine and i wanted to find inuyasha's cd.. but to no avail.. walked till my legs almost gave way.. after the movie, we walked everywhere, we went to a shop selling engraved names, to times bookshop cos i wanted to find dick lee's autobiography.. oh yar, i managed to find "my date with a vampire III".. i was soooo happy.. but i looked at the price : 39.90.. SO EXPENSIVE!!!.. after some thinking, i gave up the chance of buying it.. then, we went to heeren.. to take neoprint.. met kevin ban, elin and my ex-classmate at the same place.. after the neoprint part, we went to HMV again to look for cds.. in the end, elin had to go for dinner at her auntie's house in hougang... so she left first.. then huiyi, evan and lorraine and i started discussing buying a cake for elin on the day she flies to melbourne.. but we broke off the discussion as the crowd in orchard increased.. we went up the mrt train.. we couldnt sit, we couldnt find a pole to hold onto for balance cos a BIG malay guy literally glued himself to the pole - he had the pole at the crack of his ass dammit..! so lorraine and huiyi, who were much nearer to the pole than i myself, didnt dare to even touch the pole until he finally got off the train.. haha..
we were quite reluctant to leave each other, even though we bade farewell with smiles, as we were uncertain abt when we will ever meet again.. haiz.. sad ending.. oh yes, my legs did give way when i reached home..
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