28 January 2006

suddenly, i wanna say..

i may forget the jokes we told.
but i wont forget the laughter we shared.

i may forget who you are.
but i will never forget that there was someone who impacted my life.

i may lose your contact.
but i will not forget your name if i ever see you walking down the street.

we may go our separate ways.
but our paths will cross one day.

we may be sad at times.
but we can always look back at the joy we had.

if i ever die, dont cry.
i want you to scream my name out loud so that i can hear you either from up there or down there.

everytime i look at the neoprints we took together, i think of how we can ever live without each other when we grow up. as the day of graduation gets nearer, my heart gets heavier. i cant bear the tot of pple leaving my side and that i gotta start all over again. why izzit that it's now that im starting to treasure you peeps? why is it that i cant bear to graduate from skool? why am i afraid?

why do i feel numb-ed and tired of living? many times i dun find a reason to live. i dun find the motivation to move on. many times i wanna feel the pain of cutting myself but i never dared to cos i am afraid of pain and blood. sometimes i just wanna sleep myself to death.