如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

你曾经不被人所爱，你才会珍惜将来那个爱你的人。

爱上一个人的时候，总会有点害怕，怕得到他；怕失掉他。

爱一个人很难，放弃自己心爱的人更难。

爱上了你，我才领略思念的滋味、
分离的愁苦和妒忌的煎熬，
还有那无休止的占有欲。

为什么你的一举一动都让我心潮起伏？
为什么我总害怕时光飞逝而无法与你终生厮守？

http://post.baidu.com/f?kz=119854284

ah!! nowadays i keep having that idiotic stomachache!!

and it so happens that my mother has been feeding me papayas these few nites!!

so i am putting my stomachache's blame on papayas! hmph.

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oh! shandy! are you there? you mentioned that you like the boyzone's song,

"everyday i love you" rite? i have it!!

i uploaded it onto this page:

http://www.zshare.net/audio/3404594b280337/

go download!! there's no virus, dun worry!

anyway, pple! listen to this song!! veri nice!!

hey!!

im now suffering the effects of some kind of culture shock.

yesterday, i watched ratatouille.
location: paris.
cast: many many rats and many many humans.
main language: english

today, i watched 881.
location: singapore
cast: singaporeans
main language: hokkien

881.... 90% is hokkien. wa eh hokkien bo ho!!
and i finally understand why 881 is 881. say 881 in chinese and you get 3 chinese words which sounds like "papaya" in english. and the main cast is this 2 gals who form a duo called "the papaya sisters"!

pretty nice~ there were some touching scenes abt the gals.. the ending kinda sad... one of the gals died from liver cancer.

and the show is amazing. got magic!!!

who did i watch 881 with?

my mama!!!

and a lot of other ah sohs and ah peks and squeaky chairs and pple who were speaking rather loudly and commenting DURING the show. i was like.....sian.......

there were a lot of singing and sparkling costumes~ veri nice~~

bonjour~

hold on a min, it's not morning.

ANYWAY..

i just watched RATATOUILLE!!! [with my sugarBRO]

omg..... the effects are GREAT~ everything looks so real~

and since it just started screening, i dun think i should tok abt the plot and such rite, pple?? haha~

wad i have to say is that,

a lil rat with a lil talent, meets a lil accident which brought him a lil luck to become a lil chef.

he met strong disagreements from his father but he stood his ground. and crisis after crisis, he was torn btn being the lil chef which he wanted, and being the average street rat which steals rubbish for food. at times, he got disheartened and tot of giving up. but finally, he got the best of both ways.

i saw smth which is rather similar to me being in sunshine.

remy [the main rat] was shown the ugliness of how much humans detest rats, just as i saw how sunshine was condemned and criticised by pple. yes, he was affected by wad he saw. and still, he chose to work with the humans. as for me, i was affected by wad i read and still, i decided to give sunshine a try.

after he decided to continue being with the humans, he met trials and tribulations which tested his faith in the humans [particularly linguini, his human counterpart]. he was tested, and he just passed.

thru a murky puddle of water, saw wad he was: a rat. and he gave up, halfheartedly. but halfway, he was kinda enlightened and he decided. he went back to the kitchen. and he was himself. he was a cook. not a rat, not a human, but a COOK.

as for me, i am still being tested with the many CMI-thinking times and appointment rejections. and i tot of giving up many many many times. but i rmb i promised myself, i will give this a shot for a yr, if i still CMI i shall withdraw. and sugarBRO's always there to spur me on and gimme his valuable opinions and advices~

some may think that he's actually manipulating me and my feelings, some may think that he's just making use of me, some may think of how he can be so nice to me even though we havent gotten to know each other long enough.

but i trust in my sugarBRO.

he can onli earn peanuts when i ever close a deal.

he's oredi earning a considerable amt when he got to know me.

i was the one to go up to him and ask for a job, he did give me the chance to choose whether i wanted to join SE or not. when we were toking to each other on the phone, he didnt mention a single thing asking me to join or smth liddat.

he's nice to me cos.....do we need a reason when pple are nice to other pple? do i need a reason to love my frens? does time matter when it comes to this thing?

but there's one thing abt me trusting pple.
i trust everybody. dammit, sometimes i really hate my gullibility and naviety.

okae, life don't suck.

suddenly memories of him flooded me sia.
the image of him acting cute.
the image of him being so serious.
the way he lead me around.

the way he can make my world change from hell to heaven within a second. with a few sentences.

lifesux.

少女的心声

我对你的好，你不会理解。

你对我的好，我不敢接受。

我情愿你不对我好，
因为我快不行了。

请不要再让我胡思乱想。

请不要让我对你有希望。

不过，请不要不理我。

我知道我很矛盾，
不过请你知道，
我就被你逼疯了。

do you know me??


Create your own Friend Test here

what eunice likes!

Sarah McLachlan - Sweet Surrender ( dj tiesto mix )

i wanna watch "the invasion".

http://theinvasionmovie.warnerbros.com/

sooooo cool!

i wanna watch "perfect stranger".

http://www.sonypictures.com/homevideo/perfectstranger/

soooooooooo thrilling!


well, abt "300".
you know that movie?

well, i dun.
wad i see so far abt "300", is muscle, muscle and more muscle.
well, im hoping smth far more than muscle, blood and gore. and according to the movie review, it's M18.

i wanna buy! okae, someone gimme the money and i go to the counter and pass the cash to the cashier. can? i just wanna try and see if they will check my ic. den i will hum and haw and go "errrrrrrh, here's my ic." and den i will either see their apologetic faces, or that their faces remain emotionless and go thinking, "how long was it when my ic was checked?"

hawhaw~

this afternoon, i was daydreaming of a Guess handbag.

grrrrrrrrrreat.

last nite, i suddenly tot to myself, "eunice, you are no longer the old you."

am i losing my identity?

but wad was my identity in the first place?

will the change in me be good or bad, for me and everybody else?

am i actually getting as shallow and superficial as i think i am getting?








i just feel that something in me has gone missing.

many times, pple will say "if onli i could turn back time and not done this this this and did that that that."

many times, we cant.

so why look back when we know we cant change our past? why not change something we CAN change?

why not change the perceived future? why not change the present us?

even though we know wad happened in the past will leave an ache and that particular sense of regret, why cant we just push it aside and move on in life?

those pangs of regret and remorse will slowly be forgetten wont they?

the future is just in front of us. we can change our future. just by changing our mindset and mentality.

imagine a couch potato sitting in front of the tv and munching on his potato chips. wad do you see that his future will be? bleak eh? at most, he can do some tv commentary, live broadcast from his tv room~

but wad if now the couch potato stands up and decides to change his ways? charging forward, exercising and working and giving his best in wadever he do?

now do you see that his future is much brighter now?

now do you know how our future can change?

Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

With Every Heartbeat Lyrics - Robyn

Maybe we could make it all right

We could make it better sometime

Maybe we could make it happen baby

We could keep trying

but things will never change

So I don’t look back

Still I’m dying with every step I take

But I don’t look back

Just a little, little bit better

Good enough to waste some time

Tell me would it make you happy baby

We could keep trying

but things will never change

So I don’t look back

Still I’m dying with every step I take

But I don’t look back

We could keep trying

but things will never change

So I don’t look back

Still I’m dying with every step I take

But I don’t look back

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

It hurts wïth every heartbeat

this is my 764th post.

and i wanted to tok abt the boring lecture i had today, how i kiasu-ly bought the accounting workbook [it was selling faster than hotcakes], how i met raymond for the first time, how the appointment with him went, how i mustered the courage to ask if someone was SOMEONE, how i got to realise that mr loh junming is now a prodigist, how i went downtown east to pass to valiant his bday card, and den wad valiant told me abt his opinions towards lyam and mlms, abt how i finally got to use those free outgoing talktime~

okae, i shall onli tok abt jun ming for this post.

one, two weeks ago, i called junming and asked him if he wanted to join me. he said he was having his exams and so even if he would like to have the job, he couldnt.

one, two days ago, he called me. and he asked me wad i was working as. naturally i asked him to come down to office and discuss.

3, 4 hours ago. i met him IN OFFICE. and he happily told me that he joined sunshine 1, 2 days ago. and his upline wasnt me. come to think of it, i do feel slightly angry. budden, cant blame anyone else in particular~ well, there are 2 good things. 1. im not alone, 2. he's in MY division.

when he said, "im a prodigist," i cheered and went YESSSSS! oh and tmw, mr jiayuan will be giving a grouping talk!! omg! a BRM!! and im kinda sure that junming will be there for the grouping. so i will try my best to be there :] 2 compelling reasons to go: 1. mr jiayuan is giving the talk! 2. junming is gg, i should like, accompany him for his FIRST grouping rite?

anyway, im dead beat. today has been a long day and i realised that i missed a driving lesson which was scheduled for friday and i tot that it was on sat.

so i see $59.20 fly away just like that.

hai~ nth much to blog for these few days.

but i have some stuff to tok abt for tmw.

tmw, after skool, i have a group meeting which has been promised to take onli 10 min~

after the mtg, i have to meet a guy called raymond and get him to go down with me to the office at tpy.

and then here's my headache. longwa wanna tag along for my appointment with ray and i dunno how to tell her that it's best that we do the appointments individually, as in hers and ray's are at different timings. budden if so, wad time does she go for the appointment? and she's more reluctant to go to tpy cos she knows that it's kinda far from skool~ and den raymond will most probably unhappy that there is an additional stranger who will act as an unintentional "lightbulb" and hinder in our discussion abt the company's plan~

and den after the appointment[s], i have to go down to downtown east for valiant's bday chalet party! omg, and i havent got ready his present yet!

and den just now, valiant told me smth which i got veri vexed abt. he dun welcome sugarBRO. really hope that he was joking in that sms. but when i asked him if lyam was invited, he replied, "no. not welcome :P"

after that i asked him why and den kinda threatened [i think my tone was a lil too heavy] that if sugarBRO couldnt go, i wont go either.. den valiant said okae. as in okae that im not gg. and den he continued that he didnt like lyam and such~ and dat the party's not to please me. i think he think too much~

budden forget it..

after that, talked to lyam on the phone in the midst of my group meeting~ and i didnt know that there was a grouping tonite!!! and this time, i really couldnt make it~ yea, lyam said that my attendance is kinda poor and that it's not veri rite for me to go so irregularly/seldom~ well......i try to go office! but yesterday i was real tired and today's group meeting really went on for tooooooooooo long!

and i tot, "i shouldnt be meeting lyam too many times."

yea, that's wad i tot.

weird thinking i have, eh?

after group meeting, i went to jurong east's popular and bought a plastic briefcase to lug around when im going to office instead of dragging my bulky bag and file to tpy :] and then i went to This Fashion to buy another collared blouse for me to wear to work!

another day of spending after i spent $40.60 on my accounting textbook yesterday!

tmw, i hope that i shall not spend on anything else.

this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite. this is not rite.

THIS IS WRONG!

i shouldnt be doing wad im doing. and i shouldnt be thinking wad im thinking. and i shouldnt have done wad i have done.

but all these have happened and i have to pick up the pieces while hoping and praying that nth bad comes out of these.

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but from wad i have seen, for wadever i've done, there were the good and the bad consequences. i've found worthy frens and made frens with the motley crew..

one fren i never regretted making is lyam. he really opened my eyes.

there are oso many frens i made from the forum who are great pple! there's funniegal jie, minnie mei, pingy, jos jie jie, etc etc..

still, there are those bad pple lurking in the shadows. shall learn from my experiences with them and forget all about them.

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argh. have projects to do. argh. i hate projects. argh. i dun like skool. argh. life is beginning to suck all over again. argh.

boo!

hmmm..... today, i was supposed to meet a prospect. ended up he couldnt make it today. so it has been postponed to fri~ and since im in office clothes, might as well go to office and sit sit and learn from my sidelines and "diagonal-lines"..

and on my way there, i fell asleep on the north south line heading towards jurong east from raffles.. so i missed the toa payoh stop and woke up at braddell, which is just the stop after toa payoh~ ended up i alight at bishan and took the train back to tpy~ and dear mr lyam said, "carry on sleeping lor!"

and when i reached there, it ended up that i didnt even have a chance to meet the sunshine peeps sia~

upon reaching the lift lobby and called sUGaRbRO, he told me to meet him at the basement carpark.. and den he was on the phone with mr lyonel and many others and it was onli when we were halfway there to mr lyonel's hse that finally, he could tok to me~ apparently he had enough of being in office and decided to have lunch with me somewhere AWAY from tpy..

so we got to mr lyonel's hse [poor guy, he's sick] and i got to look at his huge golden retriever [believed to be my size if we stand side by side] called GIANT. suits him sia~ budden i couldnt touch the beautiful dog cos there was the barrier of space and gates. :[

den we went to fullerton hotel~ NOT TO CHECK INTO THEIR ROOMS, MIND YOU.

walked around, looking for restaurants and finally, we settled at a restaurant called and i onli ordered a mochavilla [chocolate syrup + espresso + vanilla ice cream] and he ordered fish and chips, casear salad and a drink in which should rightfully be called SUNSHINE~ in the end, he cancelled the order for casear salad cos his fish and chips had salad~

den i watched him eat, haha! slowwwwwwwwwwww eater sia..

tadah! i took a pic of their menu!

den since he had this sudden tiramisu craving, we crossed over to have dessert at The Courtyard. a place where i will refuse to go regardless wad my annual salary is. omg, a merlion cocktail costs $18 and a small slice of tiramisu is $12. budden the ambience, veri nice.. natural light, big comfy couch, decorated veri nicely~ so yea, paying for the svc as well :]

den he sent me home~ and in the car, he dug out many stuff from his working bag and wosh~ i see lots of $50 bills and $100 bills.. so i immediately grabbed the stack and hid it out of sight.. and he was saying that if anyone dared to open the door and take the money, mr lyam will paper cut that person into shreds~

and den, one looooooooong phone call with maggie [RICH TAI TAI WITH A LOT OF SPUNK]and he was grimacing while toking to her sia~ apparently, she toks a lot~ and halfway, he reached out his hand and rested it on my shoulder while showing me a facial expression which shouts "HELP ME!"

after that, he was exhausted by the phone call~ and he was so tired that he rested his head on my shoulder sia~ imagine a 180cm guy bending over so much to rest on a 150cm gal~ SO CUTE!

and den, he taught me more stuff~ and as encouragement, he gave me H.M.K!!

THANKS SIA~ he knows that im rushing out a project and BOOM! h.o.m.e.w.o.r.k.

anyway... after i reached the lift lobby of my flat, i decided to go to je library and find some reference texts for my course~ CANNOT FIND. den i went to popular bookstore, sorry no reference texts for uni course~

so i diam diam go home~

found the above pic veri useful for one of my assignments.. took a pic of it when i was in mr lyam's car..

and it was around that time when he said "i want a new phone~"

i went "HUH? you havent even started USING your N95!"

by the way, i think sooner or later i will have to lug my passport with me whenever i meet him.. cos due to his spontaneity, one sec we could be thinking of gg where to eat, next sec we'll be on our way to jb~ and i have been 配合ing him cos im his SUGARMEI!!

see? how can you ever find such a great sugarmei~?

hai, *shakes head*

this is not rite la...

mr lyam called at around 7 plus, let me know that he's on his way to my area from he-told-me-but-i-forgot~

and den i find myself leaving the hse.

and den, we sorta recognised each other from a distance away sia.. and he was saying that he saw me like wayyyyy before i turned and see him~ yeaaaaaaaa rite.

den we sat down in the food centre at my neighbourhood and he taught me some principles, let me watch him do placement and such~ was kinda tired so i closed my eyes for a while~

after that he looked damn concerned and ask, "sugarmei, are you veri tired? sleep earlier tonite k?"

wad a nice sugarbro i have~ if it were my own bro, he wont even know that im showing signs of fatigue.

den we left the place cos he had to go back to office to attend a meeting [or smth liddat] and while we walked, we talked.. and he was saying many interesting stuff abt himself~ HMMMMMM...

shall not tok abt it here.. cos some things arent meant for others to know :]

leslie~ i miss leslie~~



i want my leslie!



his songs are just so.....nice~

this is saddening.

on weekdays, i've been waking up at 7.15am~ which is 35 min earlier than the time i set for alarm.

on weekends, i've been waking up around 9am, no matter wad time i slept the nite before. i can sleep at 3, 4am and still wake up at 9am. weekend, hello!? i should be sleeping till 12pm!

and according to mr lyam, he just said that i was having confidence issues last week and this week i have 2 appointments and 1 possible followup appointment~
actually, i still have a lil confidence issue and that 1 possible followup appointment is gone~ lim refuse to tok to me now sia~ haha

if you're wondering, wad 2 appointments?

it's that im meeting some guy tmw and longwa will be following me down to office cos she is real interested in the callback svc.. during the weekends, she spent $54 on calls alone~ so in one mth, which will be 8 sats and suns, she will be spending more than 4 x $54 = $216. SHE BETTER BUY MY CALLBACK SVC~ haha.

I Wish You Love - Lisa Ono

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss
But more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best, my very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love



this song was requested by mr lyam. i have spent one hour looking for the song and i finally found it in www.imeem.com and i had to record down the song with my creative muvo player cos i couldnt download the song directly from the website~

so sUGaRbRO? do you know my pain just to find your that ONE song which you liked since listening to it 2, 3 yrs ago? budden nvm, since you sayang your sUGaRmEi, sUGaRmEi shall sayang you back!

and den gotta watch that show "300" with you~ hai~ just to let you know that i sayang you, i shall watch with you~

BUDDEN, i shall think of some conditions for you to fulfill in order to get me as your movie companion! like.........watching horror movies with me!

budden i watch oredi, will be veri scared, some more sleep alone in that ulu room of mine.... i need sleeping companion le~ and after watching Alone, i am a lil skeptical abt hugging my bolster to sleep.

NOTICE: I AM SLEEPY.

erm.

last nite i told my mama that i was going to watch fireworks at marine bay.
well that was wad i wanted.

but instead i went to office to attend a supposed grouping which was supposed to be given by mr jingli at 9pm. ended up smth cropped up and no replacement could be found.

so in the end, i cooped up in the locker room with mr kyros, ms denise and mr jason, and mr sky!

den halfway met mr tinglin and ms huifen.

suddenly, im thinking "when i meet mr tinglin in skool, do i still call him MR TINGLIN??" wad will he be wearing sia? singlet and berms? den after that change to office clothes and go office after skool? for me, i just directly wear office clothes to skool sia.. and den hmmm, dun think mr tinglin will be so kuku to change in skool, anyway his office shirt so ex, wear to skool can show off worh~

anyway, mr kyros showed us many many vids of the recent genting trip and wow.............big boss show them abt KINGDOM. kingdom or smth liddat.. he's oredi done with the procedures with malaysia and woohoo!

there'll be a resort island specially built by EPV. Empire Property Venture. the video presentation of it was AWESOME! omg......i cant believe im in such an amazing company!

the concept is just magnificent.

and they're going abt to build it oredi!

so pple, come join me before it's too late!

there's just so much more potential in wad the company can achieve.

ANYWAY.

after that, went to chevrons with the gang.. den sit there watch soccer and let mosquito feast on my blood~ den chat chat chat as ms denise discussed with the committee over the company's plan.. budden wasnt closed cos she didnt bring anything solid to back up wad she was presenting..

den mr lyam sent me home first.. and then, i studied.

stupid. study at 12.30 am la~ until around 1 plus.... den i started to pack up my study area [it's an area, not onli does my desk have my work, even my standby sofa and standby table are filled with paperwork].. and the whole time when im tidying up, i felt this creepiness as if something's watching me perform sia~ and den i was just beside the window and i refused to look thru the window~ haha, cowardly me.

den i settled down in my bed and read my romance novel which i left halfway unread for my hk trip. found out recently that i hadnt finished rereading it sia.. and yes, i do reread my books. romance novels onli. i dun reread textbooks. i look at a textbook which is thinner than my romance novel and i cringe. i look at my fav romance novels stacked up to my height and i get mesmerised.

in the end i slept at around 3.15 am... and guess wad? i automatically woke up at 8.45 am. i was like cursing and swearing cos i onli slept for 5.5 hours for a SUNDAY! my body clock is being evil...... it's been a while since i slept till 12pm~

and i woke up and heard my mother scolding my father. HAI~ it doubly increased my reluctance to leave the bed.. nowadays, my mother is doing more scolding at my bro, my father and me... budden somehow, she's not so strict on wad time i go home oredi~ last nite i reached home at 12.20am and she was asleep oredi. heh.

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i realised one thing.

when my mother call me eunice, i mentally brace myself for a scolding.

and last nite when mr lyam called me sugarmei in his im-not-joking tone, i oso mentally braced myself for a scolding.

AND I WONDER WHY.

why am i always bracing myself for a scolding?
haha, cos eunice has been a noti gal~? NO!

well, ms denise and i took his car key from him and denise hid it in his jacket.. den the guys all tot that i was still holding onto the key~ so when mr lyam wanted to open his car boot, he called me with that serious tone..

somehow...........i feel uneasy.

real accurate!

try this!

http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=987610

just now, i heard this song on radio. it's been played for the past few years..

it's called "a thousand miles" originally by vanessa carlton.

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making my way

Into the crowd

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

Oh you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

Tonight

It's always times like these

When I think of you

And I wonder

If you ever

Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong

And I don't belong

Living in your

Precious memories

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

Oh you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

Tonight

Na Na Na Na

Don't want to let you know

Na Na Na Na

Drown in your memory

Na Na Na Na

Don't want to let this go

Na Na Na Na

No I don't....

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making my way

Into the crowd

And I still need you

And I still miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fallInto the sky

Do you think time

Would pass us by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

If I could

Just hold you

Tonight

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makes me feel nostalgic...

hey-yo!

omg, i've been listening to 987fm toking abt this cartoon movie abt a RAT. they've been calling it "rat-a-too-ee" and i havent got to know at it much until just now when i stumbled into the disney pixar's website abt RATATOUILLE.

go to http://www.ratatouille.com.sg/

you get to watch the veri interesting and cute trailer of this rat who likes good food! sooooooooooooooo wanna watch the show~ but it onli opens on 30 aug. SOMEONE accompany me to watch! and i'll be more happy if that person pays for my seat.

budden nvm.....i've given up that tot.

hello!!

just back sia... bathe finish den straight away blog le worh~

anyway, mr lyam fetched me back, together with another 7 more peeps from sunshine! i can name them all out sia.. ms denise, ms huifen, ms ruyi [i dunno her, she dunno me cos we dun tok to each other~], mr sky, mr tinglin, ms ruyi's downline and mr jason [ms denise's guy]!

anyway, after skool i went to do some photocopying and went thru liqian's accounting workings and i dun really understand why the calculation was like this and like that.. haha~ anyway, i shall brainstorm tmw.. now having headache.

and den i took the train to toa payoh. note to all those living in the west. pls do not take the north-south train if you intend to go to toa payoh, you may go crazy from boredom.. thank goon-ness i took the train to raffles den i changed. managed to reach toa payoh in like.......45 min? from clementi~

den when i reached office, i had to drag my heavy heavy skoolbag and thick thick file to long john silver to meet mr lyam and mr sky.. mr lyam's first comment when he saw me after 5 days:

"why you look so 斯文?"

you mean i have looked 粗暴 for all these while!?

den we went on to meet mr sky's prospect called weijun.. talk talk talk..

and i noticed that at the start, weijun toked of having low aspirations for himself, just looking for a driver job. he just ORD-ed and sky invited him down to toa payoh to let him grab hold of this golden opportunity.

after mr lyam gave him all the facts and figures [which can now be shown on glossy and expensive paper], weijun was practically at all smiles. but since his financial situation forbid him to get wad he want, he could onli get wad he could get. the basic membership which can onli give us a maximum of $14,400 a month. but for me, it's more than enough rite now. and rite now, i know i cant attain that max amt sia... thank goon-ness that there's no minimum in this thing, otherwise i kana~

and finally there is the B-pushing from sky and that allowed mr lyam and me to leave the place~ after that, i heard that weijun bought the basic membership and was getting his mum [who was working nearby] down to look at the plan as well.. wow, so efficient.

den mr lyam threw me to ms denise and mr jason and tadah, im left being worried and anxious abt my FIRST APPOINTMENT!

the guy i met [let's call him LIM] is from the forum where mr lyam and i got to know each other and we had never met before.. so there took us some time trying to meet~ in the end, he recognised a blur gal with the phone next to her ear~ yea, that's me.

den i "t-up"ed the company and "t-up"ed mr lyam, who was the presenter for the day! i think i spoke too fast or that lim was slow, somehow..........i think i spoke too fast for a 37-yr-old. he looked a lil blur and overwhelmed.. and he went "WOW" went he stepped into my grand grand office in all its splendour. to me, the head count that time wasnt wow enough. he could have seen it during its peak. cant walk sia! den i did the stuff that mr tinglin and mr lyam taught me, introduced him EGA's companies and oso brought him around the place. halfway, lim asked "where's the toilet?"

argh~ so i brought him to the toilet and den after that i continued being a tour guide. and finally i brought him into the BRM's office room and den we sat down and discussed.. actually i didnt say anything.. i just kept quiet and let mr lyam do the talking.. this time i didnt have to do "b-push" cos it's my first appointment~

wow, first time i set foot into a BRM room, my first appointment, mr lyam's first time using the BRM room, etc.. many first times sia..

and den lim was with us from 7pm to around 8pm.. and he expressed interest in buying our plan! BUT he had to go home first and discuss with his wife~ and i have to consider the worst case scenario. SAD~ but given the way he expressed his interest, IF he nods his head and sins the cheque, i will get close to $700 commission! woohoo! and den there's the incentive which i could get $60 ezlink topup+$150 shopping expense! omg, i see a new bag to bring to skool~~~

*smacks head*

CANNOT! i must always imagine the worst case scenario!

after that i kinda slacked. actually, i slacked a lot.

den...........tok tok tok, bonding session! den we went to the ground level, stationed at mos burger outside.. den i couldnt take it, i was restless, so i went to the nearby watsons and walked around the store.. bought chocolate! yea! my fav type some more! yea!

so far...wad have i eaten for the day? LEMME THINK~

one raisin crossiant during lecture..
one small fries while waiting for lim to arrive.
oh and ice lemon tea.

yup, that's all.. wow that's a lot. and puasa's coming! shall fast with nisa [lecture fren]!

"MAKE IT!" that's wad i've been hearing from mr lyam and huifen..
and mr lyam has this 口头禅.. which i currently cant rmb even though i had heard it umpteen times~

oh and mr lyam has many mottos, one significant motto which i agree with is

"under-promise and over-deliver, NEVER over-promise and under-deliver."

and i never realised that i actually do that until he brought it up.

anyway, MAKE IT!!!

Libra

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type"... successfully!
You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.
You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.
You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...
You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you do.
Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.
Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic.
If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving.
Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.
Soft andsensual - you don't like anything to be rough.
Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.
Try being single for a while.
Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.
Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now.
You'll be happy that you did.

Best color to attract mate:

Green

Best day for a date:

Wednesday

hi~

today, i did the normal routine of dragging myself out of bed.. nowadays, i kept thinking "if onli i could lay on my bed 24/7 until i got sick of it.. if onli i need not do ANYTHING!"

rite now, nothing really motivates me. why so?

and ever since yesterday, i have been fantasising abt being hugged. i wonder why as well..

I WANT HUG HUG!!!

AND, i need longwa to stop acting cute AT me~

sorry pple.. my posts have been rather boring and saddening recently~

today im just purely drained.

maybe bcos i spent too much time with longwa today in the photocopying room for 2 hrs~ she's those kind of gals who will suddenly whip up her hp and take pics of themselves and do those act-cute poses, and den she will act cute AT me, which i wont know how and dun want to react.. and den she keep saying i veri cute~ okae la, i am used to being called CUTE nowadays, by 2 specific pple - longwa and lyam. budden.....she seems to be sucking my energy leh, dunno why oso~

and oh yar, she pinched my cheeks today. second gal to pinch my cheeks, first gal was sheryl~

and den somehow she cant work well with the photocopying machines so there were some problems which prolonged the tortorous time of being coped up in the photocopying room.. anyway, the young photocopying guy veri helpful, haha~ veri initiative. haha.. but try as he might, the machine kept JAMMING.

and.............

i guess i think too much abt working in sunshine. that's part of why i feel drained today as well.

from now on, i shall not concentrate so much on sunshine.

but how?

i cant stop thinking.

gonna apply for 2 jobs.

as a PTPA, or at JustEducation..

wad's PTPA? Part Time Personal Assistant.
PTPA of who? guess la~ whose salary is the highest among everybody i know?

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the Role of a PA:

"The personal assistant job is associated with two contradictory images. The first is that it is an easy, fun, and glamourous position, granting access to the friendship and luxurious lifestyle of celebrities and high-powered people. The other is that personal assistants are merely unskilled "gofers" who perform menial and degrading tasks. Both of those images are inaccurate.

In fact, to do their jobs well, personal assistants must apply good organizational skills, tact, diplomacy, effective communication skills, and excellent judgement, i.e., the same "soft" skills required for many other professional roles, such as management, public relations, and high-level administrative assistance." - Wikipedia

wah, so cheem.

another job description for PA:

"Typical work activities include:
- screening telephone calls, enquiries and requests, and handling them when appropriate;
- welcoming and looking after visitors;
- organising and maintaining diaries and making appointments;
- dealing with incoming email, faxes and post;
- dealing with correspondence and writing letters, and taking dictation and minutes;
- producing documents, briefing papers, reports and presentations;
- carrying out background research and presenting findings into subjects the manager is dealing with;
- organising and attending meetings, and ensuring the manager is well-prepared for meetings;
- liaising with clients, suppliers and other staff;
- standing in for the manager and making decisions and delegating work to others in their absence;
- devising and maintaining office systems to deal efficiently with paper flow;
- organising and storing paperwork, documents and computer-based information;
- arranging travel and accommodation and, occasionally, travelling with the manager to take notes or dictation at meetings, or to provide general assistance during presentations.

In addition to supporting managers, their team and departments, many PAs also have their own workload and responsibilities. The scope of the PA's role can be extensive and additional duties may include:
- carrying out specific projects and research;
- responsibility for accounts and budgets;
- taking on some of the manager's responsibilities and working more closely with management;
being involved in the decision-making process.

Some PAs will undertake all of the secretarial work themselves, whilst others will take responsibility for recruiting and training junior staff and will delegate some work (excluding confidential work) to them. " -http://www.prospects.ac.uk/cms/ShowPage/Home_page/Explore_types_of_jobs/Types_of_Job/p!eipaL?idno=57&state=showocc

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well, being a PTPA now definitely seems less stressed den being a 传销员！

last nite, i slept at 10.30pm cos i felt too miserable to do anything. budden at 11 plus, mr lyam smsed me.. after that i half slept and half waited for his phone call.. so i listened to a song sung by fergie repeatedly for the second nite and den i just cried.. oso dunno why i cry sia.. feel so useless, simple task of making appointment oredi cannot make it.. to think that i wanna become a BDM~

and he FINALLY called at 2am..

at least after he talked, i felt better.. den i went to sleep feeling less miserable..

this morning, i woke up feeling miserable. cos gotta go to skool. and i cant stop thinking of me being so useless..

den during lecture, the lecturer just goes on and on...... so longwa [new fren] and i kinda chatted softly... and she's interested in emcall!!!!!!! yea! actually, how did i get to tok to her abt it ah? i forgot oredi.. and she's from china, onli child.. and omg, she's rich sia... and den ermmm... so far she keep saying that i veri cute. even when i was sleeping [during lecture], she said that i look veri cute sleeping.

-.-''

so longwa actually helps to boost a lil of my confidence..

BUDDEN...i still feel useless. so i guess i need more pyschoing?

and until now, i still dun dare to tell my mama that i found this job. and i dun dare to tell her that this fren whom i have been toking on the phone is actually NOT my classmate, but someone whom i got to know online. i dun dare to tell her many things.

so i keep everything in my heart.

and i just get more miserable cos whenever she complains and vents her frustrations on me and den i cant tell her that i have my own problems as well.

somehow, life is beginning to suck again. how?

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and den im applying for the job which both shandy and wanru are currently taking up.. intending to work on weekends onli..

sUGaRbRO dun scold me for trying to juggle so many stuff k?

actually, i will love it if anybody expresses concern over me doing so many things at one go... makes me feel like i exist sia.. makes me realise that i actually takes up a place in someone's heart..

do you know that oh-so-sweet feeling?

woah... after i entered that post of being so inspired and set abt meeting my goals... 23.5 hours later, im entertaining the tot of quitting.

wow. i hate myself now.

rite now, i feel miserable.

damn miserable.

seems like everybody in this world has no time for me.

seems like everybody i call can guess out that it's mlm and den they shut off.

maybe i should just quit. call me a loser. a quitter.

i just feel miserable.

why does pple associate the name "MLM" with the word "SCAM"?

why dun gimme the chance by meeting me and letting us discuss face to face?

i simply believe that sunshine is no scam.

and i oso believe that i can make it no more.

yes, it's onli been a few days...... but being rejected so many times, just tires me..

well, i shall see.

so far, i onli have TWO appointments. if this 2 appointments are successful, i might consider carrying on this stressful endeavour.. if not, i shall give all my attention back to studying.

i've oredi been neglecting my studies~

sUGaRbRO! HELP!!

1. belief in Sunshine Empire - check!
2. belief in myself - ermmm..
3. goals set? - check!

i ask myself, do i really believe in Sunshine?

i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think and i think.

yes i do.

i think my loyalty can be compared to a dog's.
wad?! means that i am a bitch!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

now, i dun believe that i can make it. my sideline, is mr tinglin. omg, i oredi feel SUPER DUPER inferior. the situation of mr tinglin's downline, ms huifen, simply makes me more distressed at myself~ hai..

i look at ms huifen's downline, wah so enthu... keep making phone calls.. den i look at myself, dunno who and how to make appointments with.. so i 硬硬打电话 to a guy whom i havent met before and tadah! he's willing to meet me.

it took me so hard to get out of my introversion and i gotta be an extrovert in a blink. WOW. and my online persona does not coincide with my real persona. hai~ if onli i can find prospects online and discuss with them online instead of on the phone. at least i tok better online~ BUT, cannot. phone calls are best recommended!

soooooooo, i shall work hard to polish myself up and become the best 传销员!!!

oh, and if you noticed my posts i have been using chinese characters. why? cos somehow, i getting more cheenapok. yea~

okae, my goals. wad i wanna achieve in Sunshine.
simple.
i want to reach mr lyam's position as a BDM in 1 yr [and earn more than 10k a month] and oso to get everybody to greet me a loud resounding "MS EUNICE , 好!"

*somehow, i oso gotta get used to calling pple "ms this" and "mr that"*

BUT, looking at my current situation...... it is on the difficult side. but i will not 放弃的!!

at most, i go back to fully concentrating on my studies.

oh no!!! i cannot have a backup plan!

AND nowadays during lectures for stupid idiotic "financial statements A" aka ACCOUNTING, i kept thinking of how to make appointments and how to make money and how to let mr lyam not regret bringing me into Sunshine.

now, i will not and shall not let the teachings of mr tinglin, ms denise, ms gini, ms huifen and mr beng woon go to waste! i shall.........go study. havent been studying ever since monday. i know, i have been a bad student!!!

加油 加油 加油!!

hihi~~

i soooooooooooooooo shouldnt blog now... my eyes are gonna seal shut.
anyway, i reached home at around 12am, with the help of helpful mr lyam..who again, missed the correct expressway exit~ hai, so touched~ pple from wedding dinner purposely come down and fetch me home worh... haha~~

anyway..... left home at about.............. 6.45pm..
reached toa payoh at around 7.45pm~ 1 hour of mrt trip. can kill pple k!?

after that met ms huifen, she was sooooooooooooooooooooooo stressed!!! omg~ so poor thing~ my heart goes out to her when i see her tired look.. may the next few days let her relax a lil... pple, dun let her get near her hp/laptop until thursday!!!

den soon, it was grouping time with ms gini!
learnt many things~ veri inspired. and ms gini's bday is 3rd october... mine's 5th october~ haha.. and someone's bday is 10th march..

anyway, after the oh-so-inspiring talk, we had a debrief outside the building and den denise, jason and i went to mos burger to sit down while i ate my first food for the day: french fries~ eat until got a lil gastric pain~ den denise veri kindly tot me how i can lure appointments~ like wad i can actually mention and get the prospect's attention.

well, i experimented on a 33-yr-old guy i got to know online... and he got real interested in this bill-saving plan~ SUCCESSFUL!! BUT, he oredi has free incoming and outgoing... free 700 to 800 min of outgoing.. still, i'll be selling more than a bill-saving plan to him so actually, he can downgrade his mobile phone plan and actually, sign contract with us! wow, if he buys the GP, i'll be ever so grateful to him~

and den before grouping started, i called up one guy i got to know via the forum and made an appointment with him: saturday 3pm at toa payoh! yea!! got hope oredi worh~ this guy is 37, married with kids, working at tuas, not veri rich, not say poor as well... hey, sUGaRbRO, im doing feedback to you!!! [provided he actually reads the blog, otherwise i shall call him on thursday nite when he comes back]

and then after i finished my fries, waiting for the mrt at the underground train station and lamenting abt taking that one-hr long and lonely journey home, amazing mr lyam called and tadah! im in his car on the way home~

and since it's the first time i actually wore an office blouse and pants to office and in front of lyam, he gave that shocked-and-amazed look~ and with his amazed voice, he let me know his shock that i actually HAVE formal clothes~ wanted to tell him that i have another office blouse in my cupboard but it's RED~ dun dare to wear it to work for now~

and as usual, he started to give me pointers and such abt taking up this job and doing it well.. discussed many other things as well.. and when he parked his car and gave me the impression that he intended to sleep in the car, i decided. i attacked his weakest spot! muahahahahaha, i feel so evil~ well, sUGaRmEi got privilege to bully sUGaRbRO k?! budden i didnt go veri far in attacking cos i got the feeling that he could get angry if i went one step further~

soon, we said our goodbyes and i got home~ HAI, if lyam didnt fetch me, i think im soooooo gonna be dead~ promised my mama that i'd be back by 12midnite.. [i overshot a lil cos i was attacking lyam, but nvm]

and amazingly ms denise reads my blog~ so ms denise!!! thanks for your guidance so far!!!! and how did ms denise manage to know abt my blog? of course, it's thru our dear lyam~~ some more say my blog veri cute... well, you havent seen how un-cute my blog was~!

haha, anyway i gotta go sleep now.. bye readers!

Gal Facts:

When a girl is angry, don't ask her whats wrong.
Think of the answer yourself.
A girl does not like to say the reason.

when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back and smile

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you
she wants you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girl's heart she still feels it
when you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply

When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions,
she is wondering how long you will be around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a girl says she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back,
but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever


Guy Facts:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine." after afewminutes
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you til your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

hihi!! will be leaving the house at around 7.30pm worh~ the latest time in which i actually LEAVE the hse instead of reaching home.....

gotta be at office by 9pm and from that time onwards, im gonna stick to ms hui fen and her downlines! omg, being mr lyam's direct downline dun always mean well when the other direct downlines have closed so many deals whereas i havent even had my first appointment~ feeling kinda inferior~~~ mr tinglin's one of the direct downlines, and his downline is mr brandon.. den under mr brandon is ms hui fren..

means my rank is actually higher den mr brandon and ms hui fen. NOT RITE!

and according to mr lyam, the grouping will end at around 11pm!!! omg, so late.

hihi!!!!

just bathed finish~

reached home at around 1040pm..

where was i? i was at my "official" workplace: the MOS Burger outlet at Toa Payoh HDB Hub~
why wasnt i at the REAL office which takes up the entire 7th floor of HDB Hub? COS THERE WERE NO SPACE AT ALL~ and it's not that the office is small and cramped, it's actually veri spacious.. when nobody's there, you can hear echoes when you speak. but the onli time when there's nobody is there, is when.....actually i dunno when will there ever be an empty office sia... when i went there for the first time on monday, it was rather difficult to find an empty seat.. and it was like during office hours. imagine after office hours, when nearly the entire singapore population knocks off and have time to spare.... so when i went up to office separately at 5.45pm and 9pm, the office was FLOODED.. many pple were standing and straining their ears to listen to wad each other were saying amongst the all the noise..

everytime i enter the "arena", i have to take a deep breath before i walk past the crowd..

so end up, office no space, come! let's go to MOS burger!! sooooooo, that particular MOS Burger outlet is actually like our second office, and since lyam is a manager there, when lyam and me walk into the outlet or take the lift from the office to the outlet, there's bound to have pple greeting lyam in a veri respectful way~ and im like his 跟班 you know?

haha~ actually considered being his PA instead of his downline~ he's sooooooooooooo busy budden since he's my sugarbro, he'll make out some time to accompany me de! so nice rite? even my real bro will just chuck me away to 自生自灭 sia~

and then even though i was SHY, managed to know many peeps :]

like ms huifen, she's been at sunshine for a mth and she is wad i can say as an over-achiever. and huifen is one yr younger than me! omg~

ms gini oso, just this afternoon, she was shopping for LV~ and her LG notebook ROCKS!! and ms gini is veri chio!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mr joseph, he no tok to me, i no tok to him... budden i shall find a day to make him open up to me de! i will!!

ms denise, she's known lyam for 2 yrs and she has a bf called jason! [did i get his name rite? ah, nvm~]

mr kyros! small built and veri cute! so he always kana bullied by ms denise even though his position is actually higher than ms denise..~

mr clifford! omg, he is sooooo cute! cute on the handsome side la.. budden, not my type.. haha! and he's real friendly! he even asked me if i wanted to exchange acct with him so that he could be lyam's direct downline~~ when our dear mr clifford is oredi a manager himself~~

erm, downline is smth like subordinate.

still got alot of pple! budden rite now, i cant really list them all out~ anyway, they're all GREAT PPLE!! definitely not those type of hi-bye frens.

and pple i know before today were huifen, mr tinglin [another over-achiever], mr simon and of course, LYAM!

and ermmmm... i really am starting to like this company alot!!
yes, despite all the bitterness i read and heard from forums and frens regarding MLMs, i've decided to give it a try. well, i have nth much to lose rite? some may say "waste time"... well, if it's time well spent, then im not wasting time rite? better than going online and rot infront of the com rite?!

and lyam praised me that i wasnt affected after reading how sunshine was criticised and condemned...! haha~ and mr tinglin's a great tutor! haha, and just nice, mr tinglin is studying in SIM as well!!

wow, i learnt a lot from them, huifen, tinglin and SB... and actually, after i got to know sUGaRbRO, i really feel my confidence level on the rise~

BUT.

sadly, i know them for a while den they gotta go genting highlands to havoc sunday onwards till thursday~ not say havoc la... company gathering la.. almost THE WHOOOOOOLE SUNSHINE EMPIRE will be going to genting sia~ and the incentive is woowee~ if onli i can go~ really wanna bond with the sunshine peeps~ P DIVISION ROCKS!! [there are a lot of divisions within the company] haha~

p stands for PRODIGY!!!

btw, my position now is just a distributor.. den slowly...i can be business assoc. manager, den business executive manager, den business development manager [lyam's current position, and he sure will be promoted soon], den business regional manager, den GSD and finally, RSD.

GSD and RSD, salary SUPER DUPER high.

anyway, after mr lyam sent mr tinglin to jurong east, sUGaRbRO "resurfaced"! haha~
den he parked his car at a parking lot which is not directly under my block [veri clever of him] and den we talked... talk talk talk and den i had to throw his rubbish... budden nvm, i kok-ed his head~ oh yar!! today SB say i wear veri nice! erm, too singlish.. i meant, today my attire had been praised by mr lyam.

so happy sia~ no guy EVER said that i dressed nice.. well, some gals did... like the times when huiyi and elin went "wahhhh, you really went thru extreme makeover sia.." and when evan said "wah, wear so sexy ah?"

pssssst: my bro [REAL BROTHER] just brought home an unknown chio bu! without the knowing of my mama and i had to actually distract my mama in order for the gal to sneak into the hse and into my bro's room~ hai! was thinking of psycho-ing him to join sunshine, budden....my bro has locked his room door~ my BROTHER.

and my bladder is bursting and tmw i got morning lecture.

tata!

recently, my neighbourhood is having upgrading works where almost every block gets to have a the lift stop at every level~ and when i was on my way to skool on monday, this HUMONGOUS crane was driving veri slowly pass me... it was literally crawling~ and den when i walked past it, i realise that the wheel is as big as me!! as in, the wheel is near 1.5m high!! i was EXTREMELY intimidated sia~ haha

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reflection time for eunice:

i realise that i might be the world's most confused female.

i have decided. i shall join.

i went to CNA's forum and read 12 full pages of how pple denounced sunshine empire...

http://forum.channelnewsasia.com/viewtopic.php?t=63474&start=70&postdays=0&postorder=asc&highlight=

some comments were real childish, some were absolutely reasonable..
fortunately, there were actually comments which supported sunshine empire.

the more i read, the more i realised that some stuff that the denouncers mentioned were actually exaggerated. some were under-stated as well..


one supportive comment went:
"Sunshine empire is not a cheating company, it is approved by the government, if it is illegal why would the government let them rent the whole 7th at toa payoh hdb hub stupid right ?? Many people already earned money at the company and regarding the wireless city in taiwan, it is 100x more stable than in singapore. If u surfing internet at macdonald u walk out then dun have liao but in taiwan u sit on very fast bus it will also not disconnect and the speed is very fast too"
- 12win


one upsetting comment went:
"Company is smart, let you all be their dog and work hard while their top management all get good bonus. Don't waste time on this sunshine empire. From what I see, they try to keep a low profile. Want to earn proper money, go do proper work. This MLM = Make you Lose Money."
- Brave_Bear

and one thing i do agree: those who enter late dun stand to gain much.. the number of potential clients actually dwindle~ until it comes to the point where the whole of singapore is involved [kinda impossible, but cant i fantasise sunshine empire getting the whole singapore to particiapte, in my own blog?]

come to think of it, on the day when i was to meet sUGaRbRO for the first time, liqian asked me to guess the colour of his car.

i said "black" without even thinking~

and i was truly amazed to have guessed it rite when i saw the black car..

okae la, normally guys will go for black cars la. so it's predictable..

hihi yesyes... im here to blog again.. cos i feel the need to blog wad happened yesterday~

after skool, i sent liqian to the bus stop and left after she got onto the bus to her shopping destination.. she was considering whether she wanna go je or jp's this fashion~

after that i went back to skool and settled down at the library~ my fav hideout in skool sia!

and suddenly, my phone VIBRATED FURIOUSLY. [since i set it to silent mode~]
and i saw "private no."
i immediately registered that "private no." as sUGaRbRO~ and in the end, it really was lyam~

he was reminding me to eat.. haha, so i veri reluctantly went to the nearest vending machine and bought pocky. after a few sticks, i got sick of that thing. so i gave up eating...

after doing the assigned hmk given by the lecturer, i decided to take a nap and wait for time to pass and den lyam bro will fetch me..

but somehow, i find the library too noisy or smth and i just couldnt slp!!!!!!!! and i close my eyes and my mind is in a whirlpool where thoughts just float around and made me feel dizzy.. so i decided to not sleep and instead, go play the com..

and there was this old man who was using the com opposite me and was being rather irritating in making that stupid sucking noise you make when you are irritated.. after that lyam called and i think i answered with my normal tone since i dunno how to whisper... so that old man actually stared at me. hello!? he oso veri noisy ah~

in the end, i left the library and transferred money over to yiting's bank acct and den went to the drop off point in skool and waited for sugarbro.. and tadah! i see that black car "float" into skool..

den he brought me to jurong east's maybank and i happily welcomed him into my territory~ and muahaha, for once, im leading the way!! and then i watched how he borrowed 10k from them at a rate of 5.88% per month over the period of 1 yr.. so it's $882.33 per month. and he calculated with a calculator, at the end of the yr, he'll be paying an interest more than the principal amt. interest alone, it's a total of $10,587.96. so all in all, he'll have to pay $20,587.96. and it's most probable that he will be making an early repayment so there'll be a 1% processing fee or smth liddat.. didnt hear veri clearly..

and while being there, he oredi had to pay the interest for this month.. after that when we left, the bank called him and told him that he has to make another interest payment before 1 sep. so that means he's been obliged to pay $1,764.66 BEFORE he gets his loan.

anyway, while being there, i tot of me applying for study loan and we asked the bank lady called cheryl cheow [os smth liddat, im testing my memory] abt making a study loan. and our amazing lyam immediately volunteered to be my guarantor. i was in shock. okae, stunned AND touched. and okae, he made me suffer 2 shocks while being in that bank. second shock, is when he took out cold hard cash from his pocket, veri nonchalantly got a $1000 note out of the stack and passed it to the banker as the first interest payment, and i, naturally being kuku, looked at the purple note with amazement and he asked, "wanna touch it?" and den the shocking thing happened, he actually intended to let me keep it sia. until now, i still hope that he was joking with me.

den we went to toa payoh hub and we had dinner with tingling!! my first colleague since lyam! btw, tingling is a guy, in SIM [gonna start skool in second wk of sep], and he is rich [he got rich, AFTER he got the job in the company]... he got a watch which costs 1.4k.........

i still dun see the light: why get expensive watches when all watches do is to tell the time? okae la, i know guys watch can actually tell the status of their wealth but, isnt it a total waste of money? as for me, i cant wear watches cos i will get rashes~

MEN AND THEIR WATCHES.

budden i saw cam's watch which costs around $160 and i absolutely love it................... BUT, TOO EX. haha~

anyway, after that, tingling gave me and 2 other newbies a lesson on how to make a list of potential clients aka frens and family and den how to make an appointment. argh, the 2 newbies were in their own world and i was like, so lonely.... budden luckily i got to know tingling beforehand.. otherwise, i will creep back into my shell~

after that, i could finally go home!!! i wanted to scream into the phone "yea!!! lesson over!!" when i called lyam~ but in the end, i just said it out in an excited voice nia... den he laughed at me...... and den say i cute... den look at me somemore, laugh some more. argh~

finally, we reached my neighbourhood and he parked his car. and we toked. toked abt family, abt my reservations towards this new job, abt stuff... and i never imagined that i will get into this type of scenario where a guy and me actually chat like this in a parked car as if we have all the time in the world and dat nth else matters [which is so not true]..

after that, he went back to toa payoh~
sad sia.....from now on i gotta go toa payoh to work..all the way from jurong east........ haha~

and....around 12.40am, we chatted on the phone~ until.... 2 plus.....

NOT RITE!!! PHONE BILL GONE CASE!!!

cannot cannot cannot, cannot tok to him on the phone liao... cannot cannot cannot cannot....... *SHAKES HEAD VIOLENTLY* cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot!

haha~

sUGaRbRO! quick quick! go to your genting highland!!!

to my dear sUGaRbRO:

weiii... how come you make me sound like my life is complicated?? i read thru my blog for these few days, nth much mar... mostly abt you nia~~ haha!

great to know you.
if there really is a God, i wanna thank Him for you.

from your sUGarMEi..


PS: and, dun be angry k? i got take a pic of you when you were driving!! haha~
budden i scared you not happy, so im not gonna post it here..


instead, i will post a pic of.......SENTOSA! from delifrance~

and then i took a pic of OUR VERY OWN STRAWBERRY BEER!!!

and yup, im blogging at this "unearthly" hour again..

well, still being veri excited that my sugarbro so nicely fetched me to skool this morning!!! why? cos he lives in ang mo kio, im in jurong east and my skool is in clementi AND he does not have the obligation to wake up early since he got a weird job where you can wake up anytime in the day~ and he actually woke up at 7.45 am when we actually slept rather late the nite before!

haiya~ bad lifestyle of slping late and waking up early.. budden i like!

anyway, yes im toking to him rite now on the internet.... and tmw i gotta meet him abt the job's commission and stuff... den we gonna have dinner, if everything goes as planned..

tata, peeps!

yes, i know i shouldnt be blogging at this hour when i should be going to slp and that i have to reach skool by 9am~

but, i really have to blog this time.

met lyam today~ supposed to meet at 2pm at my skool's drop off point, budden he had to send his mama to somewhere last min, so he was late by half an hour.. budden since he's so filial, i forgive him :] haha

and wow, he drove a BMW SEDAN! okae la, i know i kuku.. budden once i see cars like BMW, MERC, JAGUAR, FERRARI, PORSCHE, etc my eyes lit up and i go wahhhhh... and wow, he just bought that car in may this yr and now he's thinking of buying a convertible.. he showed me the brochure featuring his current dream car and i went "WAHHHH"... and den he told me to look at the price. i stopped breathing when i saw the numbers. the car he's eyeing is at least S$188k and that is the normal one.. with additional features, the price reaches up to more than S$220k. den he explained that the company will actually sponsor 16K if he reaches a target.. and then he says that he onli has to pay 20% of the price as deposit and he can slowly pay off the remainder~

i was like, "hai~ rich man."

den we were toking abt gg to vivocity to eat lunch.. and on the way there, he said "i have this crazy idea" and off we went to sentosa's delifrance to have lunch.

yes, sentosa.

and we walked along the beach to reach delifrance restaurant... him in his officewear and me in my dress and pumps. and yes, there were actually pple at the beach.

after that, we left sentosa and he had to go to his workplace at toa payoh hub: sunshine empire. it sounded childish to me...budden it's actually a large pte company and it can actually sell bonds, acquire listed companies, etc. and according to my finance notes, companies which can sell bonds are real huge.

and since i wanted to work and earn as much money as poss, i listened to how he actually promoted and i was in awe~ he gave many facts and figures and he could prove that wad he said was true by presenting us the hard copy of the company's performance.. and blah blah blah... haha~

den........we went to novena to meet the other forum peeps! had strawbery beer at last!

okae, i really hafta go slp oredi~ even though i promised lyam that i will send him a song which he heard on the radio and liked it alot~ TIRED.

tata~

hihi peeps! yes, im blogging again..

and again, i have chatted with lyam until the weeeeee hours of the nite.. this time, when we were toking, the phone went bonkers and the line was cut off~ in the end we went online to chat SOME MORE~ it's omg.. haha..

from 11.45pm to 3am plus, we chatted and chatted from when he knocked off from work until the time he reached home and went to sleep..

and he veri amazingly asked me to give him a morning call the next morning [as in just now] cos he had to do some admin work before gg to work today~ hello!? he has to work on sundays as well!? i was oredi kinda pitying him when he said that he works on saturdays as well.. haha~~

anyway, have been looking for a part time job to cope with my lifestyle of buying stuff on impulse~ heh.. and lyam is offering me the job of working under his wing! the hours are flexible and the job sounds interesting! there'll be lots of interaction with customers since i will be in the MLM.. and so tmw, i'll be having an informal interview with him at bukit timah area cos it's near my skool.. and he'll be fetching me with his car!!! omg, he got a real nice automatic car!! haha~ i love automatic cars..

yes, i trust him.. and trust my judgement k? dun be too worried for me! haha~

hihi...

okae, at 1am last nite i was foruming [you peeps should know that i have been to a forum chatting my time away~] as per normal... and at 1.30am, lyam [one of the forum guys and "lyam" is not his real name] and i chatted on the phone.. it's not the first time, and it's veri common for him to call at the wee hours..

and one damn funny thing he tells me is, chatting with me makes him recall his jc days~ okae, he was a nerdy acjc-ian and his psle marks is 256. real interesting 25-yr-old guy~

most fascinating thing is, we chatted from 1.30am to 3.30am! SO NOT RITE.. i am still amazed at how we had a 2-hr-long phone conversation~ so long! and it's not that i cant sleep, in fact i had woken up early in the morning to go for a torturous 3-hr lecture.. and he oso had a long day at work.

hai~ and he had become my SuGArBrO!! you know sugardaddy? somewhat liddat cos i asked him to gimme all his money! and he's damn rich nowadays since his salary nowadays are 5-figure sums~~~

anyway, if you peeps are worried abt me that i will be conned by him, you can go check his friendster acct and i assure you peeps that i will not go out on a solo date with him [the forum peeps and i will be going out veri soon, so it's group dating!].. go to http://www.friendster.com/3117884 if you want :]

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today, i met valiant lee rong ming... second time meeting since we got to know each other online.. damn nice~ he rears CATS!!!!! went to see his 2 cats for first meeting, one's called pila and the other has damned nice fur!!! omg..... first time i got to know a cat-owner!

anyway.....today he bought me flowers. *smack head*

and he said he like my smile....veri sweet. *smack head again*

and he sent me home even though he would be meeting the forum peeps later and sending me home wasnt "along the way". *smack head again and again*

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apparently, i do have some market value~ im actually wanted! haha... okae, im not that despo.... not keen to be in a relationship rite now~

hey peeps!!

for those who have been trying to while and waste their time away online, might as well go read this love story
!!

it is real nice and it's always great to support our singaporean authors!

and yea, let him earn some advertising fees~~

numa numa project



omg, so funny!!!

today i was on a bus home. from the start i oredi noticed that the bus driver had poor braking skills.. everytime he brakes, i was a lil thrown forward.

den this 3 loud ah sohs came up the bus, 2 went to sit 1 went to stand at the standing area which most double-deck buses have.

and at the cross junction near imm, the bus driver jam-braked. most likely he wasnt paying attention to the traffic light.. dammit, if it were me, i would have sped up and reach the other side..

anyway, when he BRAKED the standing ah soh was thrown forward and whammed into the wall hard... and she landed with a low thud on her butt... her frens went "aiyooo.." and remain seated there~ diao la. i almost stood up and ran towards her sia and there they are being stunned~

and the woman's fine in the end. her reason for not sitting when there are many empty seats: chair dirty, dun want to sit.

hello!? your butt oso not that clean!

anyway, dun wanna tok abt that oredi.. getting real sleepy.