16 July 2005

i want her to shut up

serious. i want my mother to shut up rite now.

i want her to stop shouting at me as if im the bane of her life.

i want her to talk nicely.

i want her to talk sense.

i want her to hear me out properly

i want her to stop assuming that i hate her. cos if she continues saying that, i will come to hate her.

i want her to stop being so mean to me.

i am starting to hate her rite now.

i dun like the way she gives me the pressure. work does not give me as much pressure as the times when i have to tell her my results. i work so hard, and i get those poor results. i am sad. but i am more afraid than sad. i am afraid of her wrath. she hurts physically and mentally. i hate her for that pain she inflicts on me.

sometimes i wish that she will walk out of the door and out of my life. sometimes i just want her to be with me. but most of the times she irritates me to the limit.