racism

I know, this is a controversial issue. I have met a few instances where others have become victims of discrimination simply because of their skin tone.

I was in this cabin on the train. opposite me was a lady who looked like she was in her mid thirties, she had settled down onto her seat around the same time as i did. And since there were empty seats at both of her sides, ppl would naturally just SIT right? And so an Indian national happily sat down beside her and beckoned his friend to come along. Then the lady stopped whatever she was doing/thinking (including breathing) and stared at him. Then he sensed her looking at him and looked right back at her.

There was that moment of silence between them.

The woman then hurriedly stood up and "fled" to another cabin.

The guy amazingly turned to his already-seated friend and laughed as he narrated what the woman did.

I was actually sniggering to myself as well. She looked at him as if he was a leper. The narrow-mindedness of that woman, made her look like a clown. Well, i was just laughing at her "extreme"-ness at avoiding the foreign workers.

Another instance, was after Marc and i were at the cinema. The movie had ended, the lights had been switched on.

There was this middle-aged lady sitting right at the end of the row, making it a definite thing that Marc and i would have to bypass her in order to leave the place. And i had already noticed that when the two of us were making our way to our seats at the start of the show, she was staring at us. But when we were getting off our seats and moving off, i noticed her eyes.

Her eyes were wide open, as big as saucers. And she had lifted her legs up so high that she looked like she was performing an acrobatic stunt for us. Her entire body was giving us the message that she STRONGLY wished that we do not have any sort of physical contact with her.

Oh, guess who was she staring at with her eyes wide open?

Marc.

Not because of his "striking good looks". But almost definitely, the colour of his skin.

I was infuriated but didnt do anything besides frown. Marc saw me frowning and told me to smile and be happy because it's so seldom that we can have time together and so i shouldnt be frowning the precious time away. I replied with a "Yeah, but......" and trailed off.

Why didnt i go up to her and do what i could have done? I could have went up to her, smile politely and ask her if anything was "wrong". And maybe slap her in the face. She looked like a real refined, elderly lady who was definitely educated. But why is she behaving in such an unrefined manner of ostracising ppl of different ethnic groups without trying to understand them better and see that it is only skin deep?

A person's character is not defined by his skin colour, hair colour, or whatever colour. You cant simply judge them just by looking at their appearance (even though some ppl do look very sneaky)!

Was so pissed at that woman that i couldnt sleep.

i know i havent been blogging.... im sorry...

and this post will be short.... sorry again.

but it's just that the two of us..... marc and me, seems like our chemistry is getting better!

this morning, was busy dreaming about some stuff about some bizarre stuff and attending seminars..... den suddenly, i saw him come out of an elevator and walking into the seminar room! he's gonna be one of the speakers of the seminar that i was attending!!

then the dream went *poof* when i got woken up by the message tone coming from my phone... and it was marc telling me that he dreamt of me being his intern!!!

hahahahahahahahahaha......

and he was being veri evil a few days back. was eating fries and picking out all my fav soggy fries, he spotted my behaviour of wasting fries and asked why... told him that i preferred soggy fries. and he stated, "i guess we're made for each other. cos i love crispy fries."

he's so mean to me. how am i gg to let him go when the time comes where the two of us must go our separate ways? he onli knows how to make it harder :(

this feeling is special. veri special.

he makes me feel special.

he treats me like an adult and at the same time, he looks out for me.

he would walk on the outside of the sidewalk, he would shield me from the rain even though it's useless, he would give me his elbow to hold onto as if we were in a grand event and i was the princess.

he would hold my hand and kiss the back of it. and continue holding it. and den kiss and rub his face into it and kiss again and rub again, as if it meant everything to him that i was by his side. and that it gave him the comfort that almost nothing else can give. even though his stubble was out and his face was being veri veri rough.. that pain was actually veri veri welcomed.

he would let me know how much he appreciated wad i've done for him.

he would encourage me.

he would be interested in wad i wanted to say.

he loved making fun of me and seeing my reaction. and he would always have a good laugh AT me. but i feel good cos i managed to make him laugh.



but all these. makes me extremely stressed. wad would become of me when he leaves me?



i love him so much.

i'm my own grandpa

Many many years ago when I was twenty three,
I got married to a widow who was pretty as could be.
This widow had a grown-up daughter
Who had hair of red.
My father fell in love with her,
And soon the two were wed.

This made my dad my son-in-law
And changed my very life.
My daughter was my mother,
For she was my father's wife.

To complicate the matters worse,
Although it brought me joy,
I soon became the father
Of a bouncing baby boy.

My little baby then became
A brother-in-law to dad.
And so became my uncle,
Though it made me very sad.

For if he was my uncle,
Then that also made him brother
To the widow's grown-up daughter
Who, of course, was my step-mother.

Father's wife then had a son,
Who kept them on the run.
And he became my grandson,
For he was my daughter's son.

My wife is now my mother's mother
And it makes me blue.
Because, although she is my wife,
She's my grandmother, too.

If my wife is my grandmother,
Then I am her grandchild.
And every time I think of it,
It simply drives me wild.

For now I have become
The strangest case you ever saw.
As the husband of my grandmother,
I am my own grandpa!

This Kiss lyrics
Songwriters: Chapman, Beth Nielsen; Lerner, Robin; Roboff, Annie;I don't want another heartbreak

This Kiss - Faith Hill

I don't want another heartbreak
I don't need another turn to cry(no)
I don't want to learn the hard way
Baby hello, oh no, goodbye
But you got me like a rocket
Shooting straight across the sky


It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss
It's that pivotal moment
It's (ah)impossible
This kiss, this kiss.. unstoppable..
This kiss, this kiss


Cinderella said to snow white
How does love get so off course(oh)
All i wanted was a white knight
With a good heart, soft touch, fast horse
Ride me off into the sunset
Baby, i'm forever yours


It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss
It's that pivotal moment
It's (ah)unthinkable
This kiss, this kiss..unsinkable..
This kiss, this kiss


You can kiss me in the moonlight
On the rooftop under the sky (oh)
You can kiss me with the windows open
While the rain comes pouring inside (oh)
Kiss me in sweet slow motion..
Let's let everything slide
You got me floating, you got my flying


It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss
It's that pivotal moment
It's (ah) subliminal
This kiss, this kiss.. it's criminal..
This kiss, this kiss


It's the way you love me, baby
It's the way you love me, darlin'


It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss
It's that pivotal moment
It's (ah) subliminal
This kiss, this kiss.. it's criminal..
This kiss, this kiss


It's the way you love me, baby
It's the way you love me, darlin'

was walking around bugis street, looking for the perfect dress.

den i came to this quiet corner where there's this near-deserted nail saloon.. glanced at it, saw a chiobu having her nails done. and since i wasnt wearing my glasses, i didnt notice who she was. not until she started talking and did some hand actions.

omg it's kaykay!

den my heart went "woah it's her!"

and i didnt realise that she was actually talking to our veri own blogger, xiaxue!

and then ivy called me and i was thinking if i should tell her who i saw.....and before i could say anything, she went "hey! christopher lee called my handphone leh"

wad a downer.....she's got juicier news :(

bought a x'mas present for marc..

told him that and guess wad he said?

"silly gal.."

somehow, when he said that i felt so happy :D even though i can imagine him rolling his eyes but smiling after that..

and somehow, i just keep on giving him more trouble and he would brush it off saying "nasi sudah jadi bubur" and turn around being concerned about how it is affecting me, and tell me that it will be alrite and that it's not the end of the world..

why is it that he's always so gd to me??? argh. i feel so guilty.

oh and when i gave him the custom-made keychain, he was so happy! okae not that hilarious happy, but happy happy :D on the very minute he got it, he immediately whipped out his car's key card and attached the key chain to it! he said, "just nice i was complaining to my mother that i always forget where i place my key card cos it's just like a card! i can shove it into my wallet and the next min i'll forget where i placed it."

and the next day, he showed it to his mother... or maybe she spotted it.. either way he said that she said that it looked pretty nice!

and he is still rather happy with the keychain, cos this morning he showed it off to a fren and said, "see, she gave this to me!"

sooooooooo cute~~

there are soooooo many times when he is just sooooooooo cute!!

once we were queuing for movie tix and still choosing which movie to watch.. he immediately ruled out horror films cos he "didnt like them".. and another time, we were watching tv and we were watching another horror flick, and he went "oh a horror film" and swiftly switched channels while saying, "dun like them. stupid." in his boy-boy voice...

so cute!!

i couldnt help but go "omg you're so cute" after he said that, and he smiled a lil..

there are so many sides of him which i love. i love all sides of him. his childish side, his complaining side, his serious side, his wacky side, his egoistic side, everything!!

i would go "such a big ego..." and he would say "well dun you like it?"

I LOVE IT.

we have so many happy memories, but also it feels insufficient. if he's to leave me rite now, and that i have to survive on those memories, i dunno how long i'll live. i might die. i may lose the will to live cos his departure would remove my day and nite, my soul and my heart, taking them all away.

cos he is the essence to my day and my nite, my heart and my soul.