wow i was taken aback.
of all places, i met chantong at anchorpoint.
when i was with HIM.
we were buying me some t shirts and looking around at giordano, when i heard my name being called..
and i wasnt wearing my specs, so i had some difficulty recognising chantong when i first saw him.. den the image got clearer den i was so surprised!
den i was going "oh! hi!!" and waving my hands at him..
den HE was asking, who's that?
and i asked cuteboy across the shop, "why are you here?" and he pointed at the clothes. yea i know, he's buying clothes.... BUT WHY AT ANCHORPOINT!? haiyooooooooooo... den after that, i decided to pay attn to HIM and den we looked at tops le..
den HE picked a top and i went to try it.. i came out and both HE and chantong looked at me (from different spots la).. den i dunno whether i should look at cuteboy anot... and den HE was saying "hmmm.. nice! KIV ah..." and it was skintight... totally hugging my body esp my chest!!
den i faster went back to change.. haha~ so shy la!!
oh ya, today is Nurses Day.
31 July 2009
yesterday, tears fell from someone's eyes whom meant a lot to me. she's the type whom you will want to protect and make sure nobody will make her cry.
but somehow, i couldnt do anything. didnt know wad to do. how to stop the tears from falling? how to heal the ache in her heart? how to tell her that i shared her feelings? how to let her know that i care??
i could onli listen silently as she spoke of what happened. at least let her speak out instead of keeping it all in.
why are guys such bastards? after breaking a gal's heart, they call that gal to "stop giving them pressure"
do they know how much hurt and damage they inflicted with every single word, every single action and every single thing?
my tears had stopped. but i've become a cynic.
i dun want that to happen to her. it's no gd being cynical at such a young age.
but somehow, i couldnt do anything. didnt know wad to do. how to stop the tears from falling? how to heal the ache in her heart? how to tell her that i shared her feelings? how to let her know that i care??
i could onli listen silently as she spoke of what happened. at least let her speak out instead of keeping it all in.
why are guys such bastards? after breaking a gal's heart, they call that gal to "stop giving them pressure"
do they know how much hurt and damage they inflicted with every single word, every single action and every single thing?
my tears had stopped. but i've become a cynic.
i dun want that to happen to her. it's no gd being cynical at such a young age.
29 July 2009
this is cool!!
HE brought me out this evening.. and introduced me to a chef from the US! his name is wayne.. been in sgp for around one and a half yr.. currently at the prive i guess?
and while the two of them were chatting (abt serious stuff k), i was just there listening.. and it's so cool! listening to their life experiences and business ideas, etc...
veri much makes me feel like a small fry.. physically, mentally and everything-ly.. makes me wanna rethink how i want my future to be though :D
do i wanna set up my own biz, or be an employee?
i'll want to have my own biz, cos i like having headaches over such stuff :D i'll wanna think of ideas how to sell my stuff, how to appeal to the masses, how to make the perfect product.
i rmb that i was rather evil in sec skool.. there was once in sec 2 or 3 where GB gals had to sell cookies to raise funds.. i would charge at prices which i deem fit for the quality of cookies im giving, as well as according to how much money is in my classmates' pockets.. not at $2 a packet.. instead, i made smaller packets and sold at 60 cents :D and i would give out phonecards.
the phonecards were given to me by my bro after some uni event.. loads of leftover phonecards and he just dumped them to me.. so i was thinking, hey why not i give out freebies to those who buy $2 of cookies from me? den i give them a phonecard of an equal monetary value? hehe......
and just now, the two of them were talking abt setting up a new biz, and since it's abt fine dining, ambience matters rite? and so on.. and HE mentioned aquaponics! which appealed to wayne since it's a totally fresh idea to him :D and it's damn cool.. designs of an aquaponic system was starting to surface in my mind, i was thinking of using wad to cover up the dirty part of the stuff and enhance the beauty of the beauty of the idea..
and i've started to look out for wad kind of fish to use, and wad plants we can grow, etc :D
this is so exciting!! but maybe, the idea may be shelved if wayne loses passion in this thing.. which is fine, gives more time to generate more ideas anyway :D
HE brought me out this evening.. and introduced me to a chef from the US! his name is wayne.. been in sgp for around one and a half yr.. currently at the prive i guess?
and while the two of them were chatting (abt serious stuff k), i was just there listening.. and it's so cool! listening to their life experiences and business ideas, etc...
veri much makes me feel like a small fry.. physically, mentally and everything-ly.. makes me wanna rethink how i want my future to be though :D
do i wanna set up my own biz, or be an employee?
i'll want to have my own biz, cos i like having headaches over such stuff :D i'll wanna think of ideas how to sell my stuff, how to appeal to the masses, how to make the perfect product.
i rmb that i was rather evil in sec skool.. there was once in sec 2 or 3 where GB gals had to sell cookies to raise funds.. i would charge at prices which i deem fit for the quality of cookies im giving, as well as according to how much money is in my classmates' pockets.. not at $2 a packet.. instead, i made smaller packets and sold at 60 cents :D and i would give out phonecards.
the phonecards were given to me by my bro after some uni event.. loads of leftover phonecards and he just dumped them to me.. so i was thinking, hey why not i give out freebies to those who buy $2 of cookies from me? den i give them a phonecard of an equal monetary value? hehe......
and just now, the two of them were talking abt setting up a new biz, and since it's abt fine dining, ambience matters rite? and so on.. and HE mentioned aquaponics! which appealed to wayne since it's a totally fresh idea to him :D and it's damn cool.. designs of an aquaponic system was starting to surface in my mind, i was thinking of using wad to cover up the dirty part of the stuff and enhance the beauty of the beauty of the idea..
and i've started to look out for wad kind of fish to use, and wad plants we can grow, etc :D
this is so exciting!! but maybe, the idea may be shelved if wayne loses passion in this thing.. which is fine, gives more time to generate more ideas anyway :D
26 July 2009
the 18-year age gap
it's actually kinda sad.
this fren of mine. he's in his mid forties, but still hale and hearty. and he looks a lot younger than his actual age - i actually guessed that he was in his early thirties when i havent got to know about his age!! heh, i still rmb how pleased he was when i guessed wrongly~
oh i sidetracked.
and then he got introduced to a pretty japanese gal who's in her late twenties, through his business client... and things progressed.
they enjoyed each other's company a lot, and nth else really mattered to them when they were together. they did things together, shared stories with each other, had debates and both parties got persuaded by each other (they were debating about whether they should have a boy or a gal, he wanted a gal she wanted a boy.. in the end, he decided to have a boy and she decided to have a gal)
he was so mesmerized by her and liked her a lot!!
more like i should say, they're veri much in love with one another.
but they are veri aware of wad obstacles lies ahead of them.
she wanted to have a family, with children.
if he had a child with her now, by the time the child reaches the age of 18, he would be well into his mid sixties.
but she told him that having children would be a bonus, and all that matters, was being with him.
fair enough.
still, i asked him smth. when they were debating whether they wanted a boy or a gal, did he feel that slight emotion of regret, knowing veri well how cruel reality can really be - it's too late for him to have a child and lead a normal parenting life.
he said, yes.
putting myself in his shoes, i feel so sad. as in really sad. given his capabilities and knowledge, he can do almost everything and anything. but he's helpless at this. cos time cannot reverse, and acts of nature cannot be ignored.
almost wanted to cry at that point of time..
AND, under the legal system, he is married.
so wad outsiders will think, is that he's having an extramarital affair, strictly speaking.
BUT he and his wife had been living separately for a looooooooooooooong time, and lived completely separate lives. they view each other as frens! and the wife is currently residing in aussie..
so logically speaking, he's living the life of a bachelor. and being veri comfortable with his currently ambiguous marital status.
and the gal doesnt mind. wad she really minds, is their CURRENT relationship together.
and i asked him, would he like to just blardee sign the divorce papers? he said, nawwwwww.......
left me speechless.
he's shared quite a lot of things about the two of them, and i really feel happy for them! but oso, that sense of regret and helplessness cannot be left ignored.
and i told him, let nature take its course la!
and he retorted, he's got no time for that.. if he were in his 20s or 30s, he could veri well let nature take its course. but he doesnt have the time.
and currently, he's partially employed, that's wad i can say.. been doing freelance work at USD250/hr. and he'll start working officially in september, after a yr-long wait since he tendered his resignation at another firm late last year.. and given his job position, he would have a lot less time for her, as compared to now.. and he was afraid that she would feel neglected.
and he's preparing himself, to let go of this relationship.
cos he didnt want to be her burden. he wouldnt want to drag her down.
he wont be able to bring her complete happiness and her wish of having a normal family would never be fulfilled.
and pple would mind the fact that he's still married - not really an issue to me..
she deserves a much more perfect life. cos according to him, she's the perfect lady.
he may be the perfect *choke* man, but he's a perfectly old man as well..
well, we do know about couples where the husband is a loooooooooooooooooooooooooot older than the wife. but there are a lot more hurdles to clear, and a lot more sacrifices to be made. he wont want her to go through all that turmoil..
and it's not like closing a book if and when he ends the relationship. both parties would be left brokenhearted. she's made an extremely deep impression on his heart. and she could be left thinking that she can never find such happiness again.
but it would do good for them in the end. maybe, maybe not.
me being in her shoes, of course she would have thought about ALL THE THINGS that he had been worrying about. and i guess she had sorted them a lil when she decided to be with him! she's prepared to make the necessary sacrifices for the relationship to work. but will it really work??
nobody knows.
this is just depressing.
this fren of mine. he's in his mid forties, but still hale and hearty. and he looks a lot younger than his actual age - i actually guessed that he was in his early thirties when i havent got to know about his age!! heh, i still rmb how pleased he was when i guessed wrongly~
oh i sidetracked.
and then he got introduced to a pretty japanese gal who's in her late twenties, through his business client... and things progressed.
they enjoyed each other's company a lot, and nth else really mattered to them when they were together. they did things together, shared stories with each other, had debates and both parties got persuaded by each other (they were debating about whether they should have a boy or a gal, he wanted a gal she wanted a boy.. in the end, he decided to have a boy and she decided to have a gal)
he was so mesmerized by her and liked her a lot!!
more like i should say, they're veri much in love with one another.
but they are veri aware of wad obstacles lies ahead of them.
she wanted to have a family, with children.
if he had a child with her now, by the time the child reaches the age of 18, he would be well into his mid sixties.
but she told him that having children would be a bonus, and all that matters, was being with him.
fair enough.
still, i asked him smth. when they were debating whether they wanted a boy or a gal, did he feel that slight emotion of regret, knowing veri well how cruel reality can really be - it's too late for him to have a child and lead a normal parenting life.
he said, yes.
putting myself in his shoes, i feel so sad. as in really sad. given his capabilities and knowledge, he can do almost everything and anything. but he's helpless at this. cos time cannot reverse, and acts of nature cannot be ignored.
almost wanted to cry at that point of time..
AND, under the legal system, he is married.
so wad outsiders will think, is that he's having an extramarital affair, strictly speaking.
BUT he and his wife had been living separately for a looooooooooooooong time, and lived completely separate lives. they view each other as frens! and the wife is currently residing in aussie..
so logically speaking, he's living the life of a bachelor. and being veri comfortable with his currently ambiguous marital status.
and the gal doesnt mind. wad she really minds, is their CURRENT relationship together.
and i asked him, would he like to just blardee sign the divorce papers? he said, nawwwwww.......
left me speechless.
he's shared quite a lot of things about the two of them, and i really feel happy for them! but oso, that sense of regret and helplessness cannot be left ignored.
and i told him, let nature take its course la!
and he retorted, he's got no time for that.. if he were in his 20s or 30s, he could veri well let nature take its course. but he doesnt have the time.
and currently, he's partially employed, that's wad i can say.. been doing freelance work at USD250/hr. and he'll start working officially in september, after a yr-long wait since he tendered his resignation at another firm late last year.. and given his job position, he would have a lot less time for her, as compared to now.. and he was afraid that she would feel neglected.
and he's preparing himself, to let go of this relationship.
cos he didnt want to be her burden. he wouldnt want to drag her down.
he wont be able to bring her complete happiness and her wish of having a normal family would never be fulfilled.
and pple would mind the fact that he's still married - not really an issue to me..
she deserves a much more perfect life. cos according to him, she's the perfect lady.
he may be the perfect *choke* man, but he's a perfectly old man as well..
well, we do know about couples where the husband is a loooooooooooooooooooooooooot older than the wife. but there are a lot more hurdles to clear, and a lot more sacrifices to be made. he wont want her to go through all that turmoil..
and it's not like closing a book if and when he ends the relationship. both parties would be left brokenhearted. she's made an extremely deep impression on his heart. and she could be left thinking that she can never find such happiness again.
but it would do good for them in the end. maybe, maybe not.
me being in her shoes, of course she would have thought about ALL THE THINGS that he had been worrying about. and i guess she had sorted them a lil when she decided to be with him! she's prepared to make the necessary sacrifices for the relationship to work. but will it really work??
nobody knows.
this is just depressing.
25 July 2009
boys_like_girls_-_love_drunk.mp3 -
Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurts
But girl, in case you haven't heard
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So dont call me crazy
Say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
That would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over
Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
With the world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now im so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a rush
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So dont call me crazy
Say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
That would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over
All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab
Cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now i'm sober
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So dont call me crazy
Say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
That would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over
Now it's over
Still taste it on my tongue
Now it's over
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