you know abt hsu wei lun's recent death?

she passed away last sunday. when she's onli 28. when she's healthy and at her prime. when she is at the time when she is most beautiful. when the future shines for her.

she's gone.

just one BANG.

and everything becomes hell for her loved ones.

and her future goes black. it dissolves away.

when everybody least expects it, death comes lurking. dun you feel spooked by this thinking that you might be dead the next minute? if you're in your bedroom or in the living room while reading my blog, your entire house/building collapses and you get crushed to death. imagine when you cross the zebra crossing and a speeding lorry slams you into your coffin.

used to go around thinking,
"i can do this later." "i will do that tmw."
"i have time, i can give it a try next time."

now i better rethink.

i tot that maybe next time when i am ready, i will accept the status of being his.
problem is, he might have a change of heart and decide not to wait for me anymore.
or, maybe before i can say yes, something happens and separates us forever.

even rite now, i am trying to postpone saying "yes". and i dunno why i am hesitating.
ahh, i know why i am hesitating.

the main question is: wad does a galfren and a boyfren do?

ahh! i forgot to mention one veri special colleague.. guess his name.

it's ringo!!!!

soooo cute la! wonder how he got named like this..
and he's like the leader of the team, among the whole department, besides yona, he's the second "boss".. office politics la.. there are 3 others guys in the whole team, but they arent the leader type..

anyway, ringo veri cute! even though he can be counted as a senior citizen.. should be around his forties ba.. anyway, he veri cute!! just now, the company bell rang as per normal at 5.30pm, and those not doing OT will go down this particular staircase to get to the bus boarding area.. so he was going down infront of me and chinya [my colleague who came to work at the same time as me and happens to be my neighbour] happily.. den a guy who apparently knows him said," wah ringo, go home so early ah!"

den ringo started saying," no, i am going home ON TIME, not early. early means i leave ten minutes earlier before the bell rings. so i am ON TIME." and he emphasizes and re-emphasizes this point as we go down 3 storeys.. while that poor guy who started the whole thing gave a helpless smile.. somehow, ringo dun sound irritating even though he keeps saying the same thing.. sound veri comical! haha.. and he wore a polo t with horizontal stripes and the company pants and carried a small haversack.. i think he looks better in the company uniform..

the way he talks.. remind me of chantong.. both like to prove their point and make sure that their points are taken, no matter how long they tok abt it. haha!

ahh... wad i want from dorothy perkins...

with this....

and this...

and oso maybe this bangle..

and this pair of earrings!

this earrings i can bring home and add some orange to it to help it match the dress even better! its edges can be painted the same reddish orange as the dress.. awesome!!! i am soooooooooooo gonna buy this set.

after i get my pay.

and somehow, i think i cant live without this shoulder bag.

this bag. i like even better.

ahhh... actually i tok so much abt my work, workplace and jap guys.. den i realise i havent mentioned much of the colleagues that i've been working closely with.. haha!

okae... my department is called purchasing.. aiya, actualli i oso dunno.. haha! okae i have 3 pple in charge of assigning me with duties.. they're cam, yuli and david.. den these 3 heads of mine have one head - yona.. yona's one interesting name, and the owner has a unique signature.. veri unique.. i dunno wad she's trying to sign but it looks nice :]

cam's slightly shorter than me, and her hand is the smallest i have ever seen!!!! soooooo small.... but she's on the round side... so chubby, like a baby!

yuli's quite average... but she's soft spoken, gentle.. a bit like shandy, but more gentle..

david.... erm... he got a baby face... but he's balding... and he's not on the young side.. yea, that's all.

hai.. nth much to say abt them le.. haha, tata!

just now i read a msg sent from CHICKEN RICE BOI in friendster.

it read,
"hi there.... you look like a pig... but you got a big breast,,,,,i like... add me leh...''

den i replied.
'' hi. you look like an asshole. go find some shit and fill yourself up. and yup, i will add you.''

ended up i couldnt add him as a ''fren'' bcos i had to enter chicken rice's full name or email address. which i do not have and do not bother having.

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this shows that you can piss me off veri easily. veri veri easily. unless you're someone who matters a lot to me, i will rmb my grudges for life.

one last note: step on my tail and i send you TNT, pple-who-dun-matter-to-me.

my tastes have matured. i like.

ah... i think im getting too used to working at panasonic.. in my mind, it's all delivery orders, tax invoices, PURCHASE ORDERS.. omigosh, every mon to fri i hafta chase the whole list of suppliers for them to send us the goods and to meet the deadline.. and for some, it seems that i can never reach the salespple when they're away from the desk, or engaged on the line, or being posted elsewhere..

when i saw the delivery order for the mattress king koil sent to my house [my mama bought a new one after ten over years..], i got so damn excited that i understand this thing and the first thing i looked for in that piece of thin paper was their D/O no., which is normally wad i look for when i enter into the system to confirm that we have received this certain item which is mentioned in the paper.

man, i am obsessed and i dun like this obsession. wad do i do when the contract expires?? im gonna miss these pple and my job! erm... maybe not the job.. kinda stressful and every day i have some new job allocation to do, my daily to-do list just gets longer and longer....... den strange words pop up in my job dictionary, like "overhaul", "requistions", etc.

and the first thing i did when i got this job was to fax purchase orders and den calling the suppliers to confirm if they have received the fax. den i slacked for another hour. now i dun even have half an hour to rest. after i finish my lunch and that lunch break isnt over, im oredi itching to go back to my desk and finish my tasks. gonna be a workaholic.. but not yet. there's this guy... he works with the jap department, he's forever among the first few to report to work and his eyes never seem to leave the laptop screen, den he chooses the earlier lunchtime slot and eats alone and he finishes veri quickly.. he dun really socialise, he will become a normal person when the jap peeps group together and have their chat time even though it is still work time.. they really gather their seats, otherwise stand together in the middle of their workspace, chat loudly [MY jap guy do not chat loudly, he maintains his polite demeanour but he oso chats.] and laugh even louder. but nvm, im oredi used to their routine. their chatter no longer intrigues me like it used to.. it's like normal... sometimes i get so engrossed in my work that a bark of laughter from the jap shocks me up and den i realise that they are in their chatter again.. hai... so wad if i listen to wad they say? i dun even know wad they're saying.. i need some translator, or like in animes, have eng subtitles at the bottom of the screen..

now there are 2 men there who intrigue me. the jap guy and the workaholic. man, that workaholic even continues working even though it's knockoff time on a friday.

what is this?

what is this feeling?

to feel so miserable and listless when you dun see him, den when he appears rite in front of you, you turn away and pretend he isnt there, trying so hard to make it seem like you didnt even notice his existence.

to keep watching the door, hoping that the next person who enters the room is him.

to see him and think that wadeva he does is so wonderful. even when he clears his eyewax. even when he sneezes.

to think that even his footsteps are unique, with every click of his leather shoes.

to hear his voice and feel like you can drown in it. it's so niceeeeeee! so soothing.. imagine when you feel down and troubled, hearing his voice will make you feel that nth will ever be bad enough to ruin your day with him around.

to sense someone coming up from behind and around you, den looking up onli to feel disappointed that he's not the someone.

to see that it's gonna be time that he leaves, and chanting silently "pls stay here with me" while entering data.

man, i am gonna laugh my head off at this foolishness of mine when im over him. that is, WHEN i get over him. i never get over crushes. i just keep accumulating them. dammit.

today is closing day.. ah, i dun really know wad it really means.. just a day where we do all the wrapping up for the month, i guess.. so i dunno why.. more relax from the previous 2 days.. the system spoilt, caused so much stress for me sia.. hai

and i havent bought chantong his bag.. maybe there'll be a CNY outing for the class peeps and i can give it to him! cos i lost it for him on new year's day.. so i give him a new one on chinese new year! haha..

it's raining so heavily today.... luckily i didnt OT much.. or else i sure stuck in the rain..

hai....... really really wanna go out tmw....... wanna buy stuff.. my hands are itching. shall go to west mall tmw.. maybe i will oso drop by at IMM giant to say hi to shaoqin.. haha.. yea!! i shall go out!! and den....should i go to church to say hi to junming?? it's weird going back there.. i've been gone for sooooo long.. more than half a year oredi.. HAI.

anyway, i just realised that i have to go for my family dinner tmw to celebrate my mama's bday.. mm.. liddat den how? hai... i think i wait until i get my pay den i go shopping le.. budden liddat how i buy my mama's bday present? dunno wad to get her oso.... sian.............. haiya, i go out tmw la... den after that come back and go out again.. tiring, but nvm.. :P

today, is another day i realised i screwed up my work. sian..

dun wanna tok abt it. it's complicated.

anyway, did i mention that i'll be going to the Asia Pacific Brewery on the 15th next month? heard from my brother's gf that there are many macho men around.. this trip there is organised by my colleagues and i heard that there will be a dinner buffet, free flow of tiger beer [i no drink beer b4.. will be one experience that i will have :) ] all until 10 plus.. and everybody has to work the next day. omigosh... might as well stay overnight in office after the tiger beer trip.. since there are onli 6 factories [including F&N Coka Cola] in btn my company and apb.. and i dun even know how i can make it back home when there's no transport provided.. unless i get my bro to fetch me home?? wahhhh.. tough.

hai.... really wanna go kayaking again......... budden how can i go alone? so weird.... and i havent got the chance to sit sentosa's sky ride. i think im gonna give it a miss.. so ex some more.. and nobody wanna sit with me oso.. sian...

ahh.. today was a sian day.. there are so much things for me to do and yet i cant even touch them.. just bcos the system has faults... it's not the first time that i got stuck in a situation where i cant do anything despite having so many things there waiting for me to do..

anyway, today my cute guy goes jakarta.... budden i wonder why his galfren, my other colleague, didnt go along.. maybe it's cos things are getting busier since the month is gonna close and next month's gonna be damn short.. i counted, next month onli work for 15 days. great... i guess i hafta do OT everyday besides wednesdays where there are no OT buses to send me home [and im not entitled to claim any transport fee]... liddat den i can see to getting enough money to pass the month.. gonna give 100 to my mother.. save up for my future laptop and hp.. save up for my overseas trip, suddenly i dun feel like going to bali.. i wanna go to the states....... or australia... but australia closes sooooo damn early.. i cant even shop at night for goodness sake.

still waiting for our sing dollar to appreciate further against the us dollar.. den i can shop happier in the states... i think i can onli go there to shop when im 20+ and having lived frugally...... hai~

ahhh... luckily got my jap guy!! budden even though he looks good-natured, my colleague sandy dun have a good impression of him... actually, somehow she has things to say for everybody. . . . . haha..

den my jap guy veri cute!! i smile at him den he looked so stunned.. den from then on, he will look at me, den i look at him den he turn away.. so cute! haha.. den when i look at him, he look at me, den i turn away.. haha... and i still dunno his name. sian..... -.-''

really wanna know his name.. jap names are so interesting.. like ichigo!!! sasuke!!! sakura!!! too much anime-watching for me.

haha.. suddenly when im abt to blog abt wad has been in my head for days, a tot came to me.

why the hell am i wondering abt the end when the beginning havent even started?

anyway, ever since jun ming asked me THE question, i keep thinking abt our relationship..

it's kinda messy..

until now i wonder why i actually took the trouble to go all the way to his house to give him a bday surprise, alone.. in primary skool, i was closest to him.. somehow seemed that i dun have any close gal frens in primary skool.. our lives revolved around each other in those 3 years, along with some other frens who werent that close but close enough.. and the whole time i was so stupid. it was later when i found out that he had this crush on me since p5.. and i got to know the news from my other fren.. -.-''

as for me, i still do not know wad kind of feelings i have for him.. i do feel that the times we spent together in primary skool were the best.. and those times were somehow my happiest... sec skool was the start of my hellish life. and in sec skool, we drifted.. sad.. and i actually didnt realise that we had drifted apart... cos my sight and mind was onli on one fantasy. so stupid of me.

maybe i can give the 2 of us a chance?

but i dread the moment of breaking up.

it's my first time. he's a great fren.. a fren i dun wanna lose.. hai, again i am envisioning the end without a beginning. and i dunno how a bgr goes.. long phone calls at night? [omigosh, phone bills..] movies? wad else? confessions of love? i find it hard to blurt out "i love you".. i cant even imagine us hugging! hai... i have so many tots hindering my actions.. wad if he's oredi moved on? and i have to work so early and can onli leave at a time when im all shag from all the stresses of work.. how are we gonna hang out!? and wad if i accidentally fumbled and made him feel even more inferior that he graduated from ite when i wont even mean to.. [but its great that he's going to poly] i noticed how he changed from his jovial state to his introverted state when the cell group peeps and i discussed how hard jc life was when he was around.. he completely kept quiet and withdrew... but there was nth i could do except to quickly change subject..

and there are those eye candies...... how can i say yes to him and den look at other guys!?

hai... headache la.

How Not to Look Fat: Model's Super Tips!

Chances are, if you’re a woman and you wear clothes, you’ve experienced more than one torturous morning staring in the mirror in agony because you simply feel too fat to feel sexy. You realize that you should go to the gym and that you probably shouldn’t have eaten that piece of birthday cake last week, but there’s nothing you can do it about in the 20 minutes you have left to get ready before work.

According to Danica Lo, author of How Not to Look Fat, there are countless simple tricks that will work wonders to magnify your “skinnifying potentials.”

“All these magazines try to give people advice about how to look thinner, but many of the writers writing this advice wear a size 2 or 4 in clothes. I know because I am friends with some of them, but they don’t really understand what it means to live as a full-figured woman,” Lo says.

Now, proud and happy to show off her beautiful size-12 figure, Danica is not ashamed to admit that once upon a time she felt insecure about her perfectly average-sized body. It wasn’t until after her first modeling job, where she bared both her insecurities and her birthday suit, that she decided to put her self-consciousness to rest and put her savvy sense of fashion to good use.

In her insightful guide to creating a slimmer illusion, Danica addresses the harsh realities of how sporting an unflattering hair cut, the wrong makeup or even wearing the wrong style of shoe can pack on the pounds. She then arms her readers with detailed solutions on how every woman, regardless of body type, can look thinner and maximize their gorgeousness without stepping foot in a gym.

“Some of the most common mistakes are so simple. By simply changing the style of underwear you wear, you can shed pounds and add pizzazz to your appearance," says Lo. “So many gorgeous girls and women I know unnecessarily feel bad about themselves. But after just a few tips from this book and a couple of waves of the hair and makeup brush, they can hardly believe their eyes.”

How Not to Look Fat uncovers top tricks of the trade for looking thinner in all situations. Here’s a glimpse of a few fashion tips we got out of her.

CLEAN OUT YOUR CLOSET

Jersey is Not Your Friend

"As far as fabric goes, jersey is one of the biggest mistakes. It doesn’t work on a lot of bodies because if you have any kind of rolls of fat and you’re wearing tight fitting jersey fabric, it shows right away. "

Cut Loose the Crew Necks

"Another really common mistake is crew necks. They just don’t do anything for any type of figure. Even if you are fit and have tons of muscle tone, it doesn’t really enhance your attributes. For somebody who is insecure about their arms, back or chest, crew necks will do absolutely nothing to make you feel better."

Cheerio Capri Pants

"Capri pants are the worst things in the entire world. They make everybody’s legs look shorter. Even if you look at supermodels on runways and you look at the way these models look in Capri pants, their legs look shorter. Can you imagine an average height woman?"

CLOSET KEEPERS

Long Live V-Necks

I personally believe everyone should have a v-neck sweater. If you are very busty you should have a high v-neck, if you’re not busty you should have a lower v-neck.

Jazz It Up With a Jacket

Every woman should have a great jacket with a great high collar. Not only because it’s dramatic but because it makes your neck look longer, it helps bring out your jaw line and it instantly dresses you up.

SEXY SLIMMING SOLUTIONS

Banish Back Fat

You can fix back fat up in many ways. The number one way is by simply standing up straight. Also, if you wear a really big undershirt, your outer shirt will cling more to the under shirt and, in turn, hide your back fat.

Redeem your Jeans
I know many people believe that if you get a bigger pocket your butt will look smaller or if you get a smaller pocket your butt will look bigger. Really, big pockets make people look shorter. When you put on your jeans look in the mirror then check to see if the middle seams line up and if they are parallel. If they are, then, chances are, you've got a pretty good pair of jeans in your hands.

Say It With Sleeves

Never pick anything that ends at the fattest part of anything on your body. If you have a thick waist, don’t pick a top that ends dead at your waist.

Stick to a Style

One of the things that I started realizing when I started working in fashion is that hardcore fashion people, such as top designers, never look different. It’s better to look the same and be hot and feel good about yourself than having to think about different ways to put yourself together every morning under a whole new look. Fashion people don’t dress like that anyway.

today kinda tiring for me...

0630: woke up
0710: left the house
0745: reached bbdc
0800: had my third basic theory practice to refresh my memory
0915: had my basic theory test, finished it in 6 minutes.. wow..

den when i finished the test, there was this huge word that appear once i clicked " end test".

PASS

anyway, met my p5, p6 ex classmate.. kang sheng! he took the test with me.. haha.. he has grown in size sia.. but his proportions havent changed.. still round and cute.. seems like he never changed. now he's in poly, doing media and film stuff with chi seng, huiqing they all.. at ngee ann...... so cool! had breakfast together.. the nasi lemak costs $3. suck blood sia.. oso not say veri nice..... egg fry until curl into a ball.. luncheon meat so small piece.. chicken wing is on the dry side.. rice, okae la.. not so much of the nasi lemak rice i expect from a $3-nasi-lemak. hai... and den suddenly pop out a fish cake to finish the dish.. -.-''

1045: had my first final theory practice
1205: had my second final theory practice

wah.. 11 booklets la.. my first ftp i completed 5, my second ftp i completed the next 5.. now left one booklet undone... haha.. and most of the booklets i failed like c***

1300: had my final theory evaluation

this time i took 5 min.. im getting fast.. but this time i took the evaluation with half the confidence when i entered for the btt.... btt i was thinking "shit, wad if i screw up? pple had done this stupid test 8 times but to no avail.. wad abt me?!" and den fte i tot" dammit. june said that her fren got stuck at this fte.. am i gonna lose to this touch screen com!? dammit, i failed so many booklets just now. how!??!!?"

in the end, i got 96%. A PASS!!!!

1400: reach lot one...

walked around, bought hair clips, hair bands, combs that can fit into my working uni's breast pocket.. bought a doughnut stuff toy for bouncy.. went to mini toons to buy a handphone key chain.. veri sweet... and it's an assortment of colours, so it can help add colour to my black black k750i..

1430: decided that i have walked finish and resolved to go to sheryl's house instead of going home.

1500: reached sembawang.

without sheryl's help and being resourceful, i asked the passenger service lady whether there is any shuttle bus service.. [i rmb clearly how sheryl complained abt missing the shuttle bus] got my answer, walked a hundred steps and i reached the bus. board it. called sheryl umpteen times but she didnt answer. call june, no answer. i gave up. den i rmbed that her house is veri near giant.. and giant is in sembawang mall.. so i alighted at sembawang mall.. didnt know where it was, so i asked sheryl.. she told me it was the last stop.. den okae, i got off at the right place.. den she told me to cross the road to springhill.. den i walked and walked.. met with the female security guard and her fren who dun understand eng much.. she gave me wrong info, so nvm........ but luckily i went to the correct row of houses.. and so i finally reached sheryl's hse with lil difficulty. and all the time sheryl was saying that it's hard to describe how to walk to her hse.. haha..

gave bouncy the doughnut.. he sniffed it cautiously.. den he gently bit it and crawled under the altar to with the doughnut still in the mouth.. den i decided to play with him and the doughnut.. so i pulled the doughnut.. he refused to let go so he got pulled out as well.. den he let go adn went crazy.. he jumped after it, bit it.. pounced everywhere.. stood on his hind legs.. den he got tired and went into standby mode.. literally slept beside me and the wet wet doughnut.. patted him to sleep.. so nice.. by that time, i sweated like mad.

1545: accompanied sheryl to giant

to fetch her guy fren whom i do not know his name and we went giant to shop! bought snacks [which we didnt even touch during the whole time we were there] and packet drinks..

1645: reached her hse and i lost track of time after that.

2230: reached home, dead beat.

now my legs are sooooooo tired.... and i couldnt even catch a wink in between.. and it's a weekend!!!!! i shouldnt even be waking up before 11am!!!!!! grrrr...... haha..

happy 21st birthday bouncy!

you can go to casino and play jackpot legally oredi!!

hurray!

and i beg your pardon. the pics i take with my cam is not that i used effects. it's been a long time since i used effects to enhance the pics i take. i just know how to make full use of the available lighting and that the hp cam works with me.

hai, this tot bubble burst in me when behind me, this conversation took place while i was taking bday pics of bouncy.

vin: "her picture veri nice."

june: "of course la, her phone got those effects."

haiiii..... how?? i like my work. stressful, but the pple there are great! okae, near great.. veri friendly and im starting to get used to going to work at panasonic..

im like that. every place i go to, i like. i go skool, i enjoyed going to skool. and now i still miss going to pj. now i go to work, i like working while looking at my eye candies.. and it's just so interesting when the jap there speak their language.. for you info, my workplace is half filled with japanese men. no jap women. haii... behind, in front, beside me, i hear jap... ahhh.. jap heaven. still, the singaporeans there speak massive hokkien, chinese and english.. haha..

ah... and there are the ringtones.. seems like the men there like setting their phones to loud mode while the women set it to silent mode.. so every now and then i hear "you have a letter in your mailbox!" from calvin's hp, doreamon's theme song from darren's hp, some other ringing from bala's, and many others from the jap.. i myself, sometimes set it to silent mode, sometimes i dun.. i guess im a mix.. i grew up as a boy sia... sure i have some guy stuff in me.. or else how come liddat? and i havent had my ~ahem~ period for a looooooooooooooong time.. cant even count now..

anyway, had headache for the whole day and night.. so i screwed up the instructions i received... but lucky me, i didnt screw up the stuff i did.. so no problems cropped up :]

man, today was a busy day..

ahh... suddenly feel like blogging..

i dunno why.. but i miss jun ming. dun ask me why. i dunno. but im not ready to be in a relationship when im actually looking at 2 eye candies in my workplace every mon to fri.. they distract me.. haha.. one of them is in his twenties.. he look boyish, smile den look veri cute!!! den the other is one of the japs working beside my seat.. around his thirties.. and when he smile, he got dimples!! actually, both got dimples..

but i can onli make fren with the young one.. the young one is called calvin.. so cute!! like calvin and hobbes.. but he's going to jakarta next tue until next next monday.. so cannot see him for a long time.. :[

the jap one i dunno how to communicate with him even though he speaks chinese as well.. he speaks fluent chinese.. his jap is awesome.. and he is so charming!! and he is the soft spoken type.. he wont raise his voice and his tone makes pple relax. cant imagine when he gets angry. haha.. and he looks sporty, on the tanned side.. but not as black as zx, so it's good.

aiyar, the jap is the good-looking one, the young guy is the cute guy. so cute!!

and den there is this department which the young one belongs to, the pple are veri closely-knitted.. can feel their bond from the other desk sia.. and the guys from that department sure knows how to make pple laugh.. always joking whenever they can.. but they can get real serious if they have to..

anyway, i gotta go sleep now.. tmw will be a long day. gotta go OT.

i couldnt help but keep track.

i wanna know how he's been doing, whether he's being happy. i guess he is happy. i can onli guess.. i havent seen him for a long long time. ha, i cant even call him mine and yet here i am thinking and toking abt him.

i had many things nagging me at the back of my mind and i couldnt seem to rmb those many things that i should rmb.. and slowly, those things start popping into my head. one of those things included looking at his name. i oso wanted to hear his voice again. but i know that it will be impossible. so i can onli go google once in a while, type in his name and find out wad his achievements are so far.. he's an achiever. now, he's now a vice principal of a new skool.. northlight skool.. light. he did bring light into my dark life. he once did. i depended on the image i had created out of him.. i saw him as humorous, knowledgeable, sensitive, all the things i wanted in a man.

and yet, im starting to forget his face. im starting to forget him. or have i? have i just forcefully pushed all memories into the back of my mind while telling myself, "i must get on with life"?

there are so many things to say that i cant express.

damn, this post shouldnt even be posted. it's just the confessions of a lost heart.

I WANT I WANT!

ahhhh..... wad i want for this new year... together with this phone, i want my own personal laptop. on top of this, i wanna go shopping overseas!!

omg, i need to earn a lot of money, otherwise, i have to strike another toto, which is kinda difficult.

Makeup Secrets of Top Models

By Diane Irons
Glee Contributor

Tyra... Gisele... Kate... Heidi -- supermodels we believe can crawl out of bed and put the rest of us to shame in the looks department. If only our best day was as good as their worst, we tell ourselves!

How do the supermodels you love to hate do it? Whether they’re strutting down the runway or gracing the cover of Vogue or Cosmo, you just can’t help but wonder what makeup secrets they know.

Well, as a former model and beauty consultant to the stars, I can let you in on a little secret... Better yet, make that five little secrets. The key lies in learning proper application. When it comes to putting on makeup, forget everything you’ve learned in the past.
Think of your face as a blank canvas. You have the tools and techniques to paint a masterpiece.
Are you ready to transform yourself into a model citizen and achieve the looks you’ve been longing for?

1. To create eye depth, quickly pass your eye pencil over a flame to soften the tip for smoother application. CAUTION: Wait for the pencil point to cool before placing it against your eye.

2. Separate a tissue and gently blot all over your face after applying your makeup to set and blend.

3. To open the eyes and visually slim down a nose, use a glisten stick or a shimmer stick. Apply the stick to the inner corner of each eye and the light will open up the eyes. By running the glisten stick down the center of the nose, it narrows it by bringing the attention to top of the nose, not the sides. Also, use it in the center of the lips to provide a quick pout.

4. Mix a dab of gel toothpaste with a little hair gel for extra hold.

5. Draw in perfect eyebrows with an eye stencil and brow gel. It will look like you've had them professionally done.

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yesterday morning, when i stood at the bus stop waiting for my company bus to come pick me up, i saw many students walking and standing around me.. den after that, until the time i start work, i kept thinking.. of my class 05s13.. quite typical of me, i will miss the class i used to belong to until i find a new class to call my own.

i quite thinking,

i miss how chris' jokes always make me wanna laugh,
i miss how sheryl will pinch our butts [even though she reduced her pinchings after that horrible event],
i miss teasing june abt her small eyes and calling her ah jing,
i miss yiting's hemispherical eyes during class and lectures,
i miss shandy and shaoqin's blurness even though they are not that blur when it comes to studies,
i miss jialing's slow walk,
i miss wanru's noisiness,
i miss getting news of cherie's frequent falls and den half-laugh, half-concerned,
i miss saying hi to amelia and calling her ah ma,
i miss seeing szeyin, nat, sally, amily and shuting hanging around,
i miss khaiboon, juntat being always teased by the gals,

i miss so many things that used to happen around me so often that i started to take it for granted.

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omg, chantong really LOST his bag.

i will compensate him.

okae, i think i havent blogged for quite a while. no, i do not feel guilty, so do not think that im a blogger addict.

im here just to tok abt the company im working at... it's full name is panasonic factory solutions pte ltd.. in short, it's panasonic... wahhhh.... i working for big company! wah... i just working as ADMIN ASSISTANT. yes, it sounds like a small worthless job position.. but after wad the gal who's in charge of me said, i feel impt!! haha... if i elaborate further abt my importance, 2 things will happen. one, you will yawn. two, i will unwittingly leak confidential stuff out from panasonic and into your eyes and mind.. haha..

anyway, if you dun understand why this company [it's actually just a factory with a big name, but who cares? it's the name that matters in your resume.] got such a long name instead of just PANASONIC, let's just say that it isnt REALLY the panasonic everybody see outside...

there are 2 processes in panasonic.. one is the making, the other is the selling.. let's just say that im in the making part.. yea, if you dun understand, dun bother to.

anyway, i got another point to make.

in the past, i have unknowingly provided free labour to fmss. i was the admin IN-CHARGE of this huge 3rd company of the gals' brigade with no rewards other than the title itself.

but i was happy.

now, i knowingly provide the same labour to panasonic with the position of an admin ASSISTANT and i get A SALARY. i get to see a paycheck every month! i get to see material rewards.. yes, i looooooooooooove material gains, so?

now, im estatic [while counting every cent i earn].

hai... i was so stupid in my younger days.

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hello!! im back from my 4 hours of sleep after clubbing with my class peeps! all in all, we clubbed from 10pm until 7am... in the midst, we got out of the smoky smoky MOS and bought drinks from 7-11 cos we have almost been sucked dry by the entrance fee at MOS, which was $38.. wah, i'll never set foot into any clubs le. haha, i have clubbed enough for this life of mine.

den we went back, den we went out again [to meet chantong and kwan hong and again, drink from 7-11] den we went back to MOS, den we left again [the guys had breakfast, the gals stoned] den we went back to MOS AGAIN. when we finally left the place once and for all, it was oredi 7.30am..

anyway, at the last time we entered the place, we settled down at the second level where there were sofas for us to sit.. that's where i lost chantong's bag.

first, he put the bag at a place where pple will presume to be safe cos it's hidden by the sofa. second, when the second level closed i grabbed all the gals' bags and forgot to take his bag... den i cant blame danny [who was with me while the rest went to club..] bcos i never hoped for him to be responsible person with excellent memory to rmb that chantong left the bag rite beside himself.. third, after going down to the first level, i remained thoroughly and conveniently forgotten abt the bag until chantong came around and asked,"where's my bag?"

den the guy at the stairs refused to let him go up and take his bag for god-knows-wad reasons... c'mon, it's just taking a bag...... den by the time we could go up and look for the bag, it's GONE. VANISHED. and i was the one to let him know this bad news... damn damn, double damn.

den we waited and waited for some good news from the staff, but it seems like they didnt give a damn since it's kinda none of their business..

man, i felt so guilty i couldnt even be bothered to speak up as a response when pple toked to me after that. i could onli give a brief smile..

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anyway, i think i should learn from wanru, isolate myself from the class outings. to save my pride and save my money. i have been forsaken by more than enough pple.

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and lastly, my hair stinks of cigarette smoke. even after i have shampooed it twice. sian.. but at least the smoke smell isnt that strong oredi..