what is this feeling?
to feel so miserable and listless when you dun see him, den when he appears rite in front of you, you turn away and pretend he isnt there, trying so hard to make it seem like you didnt even notice his existence.
to keep watching the door, hoping that the next person who enters the room is him.
to see him and think that wadeva he does is so wonderful. even when he clears his eyewax. even when he sneezes.
to think that even his footsteps are unique, with every click of his leather shoes.
to hear his voice and feel like you can drown in it. it's so niceeeeeee! so soothing.. imagine when you feel down and troubled, hearing his voice will make you feel that nth will ever be bad enough to ruin your day with him around.
to sense someone coming up from behind and around you, den looking up onli to feel disappointed that he's not the someone.
to see that it's gonna be time that he leaves, and chanting silently "pls stay here with me" while entering data.
man, i am gonna laugh my head off at this foolishness of mine when im over him. that is, WHEN i get over him. i never get over crushes. i just keep accumulating them. dammit.
