dear Lord,
i have so many questions to ask you. so many things to understand. i want to know, if it is alrite to point out pple's faults. i want to know, if it's alrite to tok behind ppl's back. i want to know, is it alrite to call pple "irritating" and such? is it alrite to dislike pple?? why do i feel a sense of injustice when pple around me complained abt someone who is lonely and seeks for attention?
haiz, actually, im toking abt wanru..
she's a classmate of mine.. she likes to complain and tok. she likes being around pple she trusts to be good frens. she has little frens. and this afternoon, the gals were toking abt her "sticking" to someone, abt her "bossiness". two of them even happily voiced their dislike towards her. one, is actually regretting being her fren. when i heard all these, i kept quiet. i felt veri disappointed in them. extremely disappointed. disappointed to the point that for a sec, i despised some of them. i cant seem to come up with any reasons to justify their mean-ness. maybe this happened to me many times that pple toked behind my back, so i will get real agitated abt it.. den i just keep drinking the soup, refusing to listen to wad they continued to say. and you know wad? they dun intend to let her know wad they think abt her, only reason is that they dunno how to put it thru. dammit. they dunno how to help wanru improve and instead, tok behind her back and tok abt all her bad things. "GREAT". just "great". to think that they are christians, they seem more like gossip-mongers to me now.
im gonna write to wanru concerning these. but i wont mention the "toking-behind-her-back" part. i dun want her to lose faith in pple whom she deemed as frens and i gotta get well first. having a fever now. everytime when i feel upset, i get fever and feel extrmely exhausted.
btw, i nowadays burying myself in romance novels. read julie garwood's Mercy and Rebellious Desire recently.. last time i read her Heartbreaker and Killjoy.. den for jude deveraux, i read Forever, Forever and always, Always and i am gonna go to Black Lyon. for judith mcnaught, im currently at Paradise, again. at the same time, im reading anne rice's Interview with a Vampire.
okae, gtg.
tata.
christian bale is hot. veri veri veri veri hot.
and im upset. veri veri veri veri upset.
