today's tiring.. i dunnoe why.. i just feel so tired... lemme find out why..
morning, waited for bus for soooooo damn long... is that the reason why? or is it cos this whole morning when i was at the bus stop my mother kept toking abt wanting me to speak up all those? hello!? who wants to yak when they hardly awake!? nvm..
den for skool, i had one and a half hour of pe.. did 2.4km, budden at fifth round got stitches, so teacher let me off.. [yay!] den do standing broad jump.. i improved!!! i got 150.... well, around there.. maybe 147.. den sit up... i did only 20... why!? i oso dunnoe.. lost the energy halfway.. maybe cos my fren who was doing it beside me suddenly sneezed halfway doing a sit up. den i laugh laugh laugh laugh.... so cannot concentrate on doing sit up... man, i now veri easy laugh with those gals around.. bet i tmw got whole body ache.. somehow i like it when i get sick or when i get full body aches.. make me feel vulnerable and not protected.. i like the feeling.. so that when im cold and that i hug myself, i feel so warm.. and that i get alot of self-pity for myself.. den i'll start telling myself to get strong all those kind of self-encouragement.. den i feel better... im weird right? hahax, it just gives me a desire to be protected and loved.. by somebody else besides God.. hey, i want to be know the feeling of that..
den i got a question.. are we still frens? erm, lemme rephrase it. are still as close as we used to when we were in sec 3 and 4? den why do we have seemed to lost conversation topics..? why do we have so little to say to each other suddenly? has time bridged a gap btn us? or have we built a wall btn ourselves? wad should i do? not care abt it and let this frenship go...? there's no way i wanna let this go rite now.. im still clinging onto the hope that the flame of our frenship will be rekindled just as strong as it used to.. just as strong as i feel for you... just as strong.. or at least stronger than now.. nvm, forget it..
