im a crybaby, and im not afraid to admit that

i am not afraid of being called a crybaby. cos i am one. almost everyday, i have been crying... almost..... broke my record le..... esp yesterday.. it was like yesterday morning, i cried three times in skool cos i was so damned worried abt elin being in that stupid freak storm in melbourne [dunnoe why i so worried, so dun ask me why..].. then later at night i cry again.. watched a show on E-city [cable channel].. the couple loved each other so much, and yet the gal refused to let her love for him surface juz bcos she felt that they dun fit each other.. in the end the guy A sunk into depression, the gal went to get married with guy B whom she will never love like the way she loved guy A..

this morning cry even worse...

i was so affected by the book written by jude deveraux,''knight in shining armour''.. i will never forget the book... N-E-V-E-R. and no way will i tell you wad is book abt, you go find it out yourself...... the only reason i think of why i cried so badly while reading this book, is that i know how it feels when somebody comes to you, and then you fall in love with him.. only to have him leave you... without a trace, until it's like he doesnt exist anymore, and that only you know that he was once there, there for you to love.... nobody else can understand how much this hurt only until one has met the love of his life and then lose her..forever.

getting overly-emotional nowadays....... God, wad is happening to me!!? why am i breaking down now?