really i dunnoe.
i dunnoe why darren seems to be ignoring me. or maybe im over-reacting.
you see, we were toking when he suddenly went offline. he den came back online and told me that he found it "fun" to get online and offline again and again. so i told him that i will not play this "game" with others since i find it rude. yar, i was kinda pms-ing.. i admit.. so, while i was trying to explain why i seemed to be having a bad mood, the damn com signed me out. that time, i think i was swearing under my breath. i got back online and found him offline. i looked at the time and at melbourne, it was quite late and they have skool the next day.. so i tot that he went to sleep.. the next day, i tried to tok to him. i said hi, and he didnt respond.. he signed out.. then he signed in again.. i got kinda pissed off by his "rudeness" and then promised myself never to take the initiative to tok to him ever again.. [if i ever broke this promise, pls understand that gals do have the right to break promises they make] but for that day and the previous days after valentine's day, i kept thinking of wad conversation we had exchanged and argh! his face and voice.. no, i cant afford to have another crush. I CANT. I WILL BREAK DOWN. or maybe i'll crash this laptop.
yar, i am kinda uptight abt this. maybe cos i dun wanna lose a fren. i treasure all frenships. maybe cos he's the only guy whom i can be soooooo open with and i dun wanna lose this guy whom i can be so frank with. yar, there's jun ming, but he's one of my closest fren and i let him know everything, besides my darkest secrets [i dun wanna change wad opinion he has towards me] .. i let darren know my darkest secret and that's all.. he doesnt know abt me having depression all those, i suppose.. ah yar, he only got to know my crush on mr wee thru elin.. gotta ask elin how many pple she actually disclosed my secret to without my permission.. man i trusted her so much that i tot she wont tell anyone. my infatuation for mr wee is not a joke. nor is it a good topic for gossiping. so now, im wishing that darren does not act like wad elin did last time..
aiyar, stomachache. lost my train of tots.. bye bye..
