just read wad i blogged on 29 may 2004.. the day i started blogging.

found out that my life had been a cycle of happiness and then disappointment and sadness. after that, i get "reborn" den come happiness and then disappointment and sadness.. and it's all my fault. i wear my heart at my sleeves, i am extremely possessive of my property [that includes pen, pencil.. anything that belongs to me] and i think too much. and i am oso naive.

reading that post makes me feel a lil pathetic.. ahhhh, im still as pathetic as i used to be, aint i?

hello!

wanna shout out wad is in my head now. but i wont. i cant. cos wadeva is in my head, is forbidden. it breaks the rules. it goes against my principles.

but i still wanna shout it out. well, i shall shout it out in my head. but not shiok enough. hai~

stupid la... my bro kana motorcycle accident den his ankle kinda injured.. den this morning he go to the neighbourhood clinic to put on dressing. stupid thing to do. my mama today just nice go clinic and the big-mouthed receptionist said that my bro came.. then my mama ask some more and the receptionist shut her mouth.

hai, dunno who's in the wrong.. is it me? cos i didnt let my mama know that i know that he got into an accident.. or my bro? cos he didnt want to let my mama know? or the big-mouthed receptionist who in the first place should not disclose anything abt their patients?

haiiii..... yesterday was pure fun. today is pure ache.

from my arms down to my legs, there's no place which neither screams "ACHE" nor "PAIN". kayaking made my arms and my shoulder muscles ache like hell, so im taking a lot of effort to even type.. the running and walking in both sand and water made the activity a lot harder than when doing so on proper ground.. and my soles were kinda tortured by the slippers which i have worn for one whole day and night yesterday.. dunno how to say how and why, but it just hurts a lot..

slept at one last night, den woke up at around twelve.. woke up unable to move cos many parts of my body ached like nobody's business.. the weird dream i had before that made me more unable to move.

in this dream, it was veri broken and fragmented.. one part was when i got lost in this street where the buildings look a lot like those in chinatown, geylang, etc.. another part was when someone was teasing me abt liking lenz rite in front of lenz. i was just trying so desperately for that person to stop toking as lenz's face darkened. he looked kinda angry.. and he strictly told me a lot of stuff, mainly saying that i shouldnt have feelings for him and that he dun wanna have any kind of relationships at work etc etc.. i dun even know if i like him or not.. he's so much older than me...

ah, stupid dream.

anyway, yesterday i was roasted. today im onli burnt.. but my skin doesnt hurt, so i am thankful that the sun wasnt cruel.. ahhh... so happy, now i am tanned!!! i missed the tan-ness...

wahhh.. today's one of the shiokest and most tiring days of the year 2007 sia.... woke up at around 8 plus.. which i did extremely reluctantly.. practically rolled myself out of bed to get out of it..

den i met amily, shaoqin, amelia, yiting at vivocity's kopitiam, den we all set off to sentosa.. took the monorail there, wahhh.. nice scenery sia

anyway, we got off at beach station den we walked down the whole stretch of siloso beach.. from one end to the other, carrying our big bags and looking like refugees looking for shelter.. erm, not i say that we looked like refugees.. is amelia!! haha~

den we finally reached the sea sports centre, where we rented a single and 2 double kayaks and 2 lockers, so everybody split and paid $8 each.. for onli 1/2 hour, not shiok enough.. den i took the single cos it somehow seems that the four of them were veri excited in who pairs-with-who while i am fine with anything..

den we kayaked for 45 min since the guy in charge didnt say anything.. hehe, den amily practically loves the life jacket which we rented together with the kayak cos with it, she can swim! yiting oso! haha, i oso!! just that i forgot how to swim la..

after that we walked around while we left our bags in the locker and went to the kopitiam at palawan beach to eat! wahh... we ordered two dishes and one big plate of pineapple fried rice to share and 2 bowls of dessert which we couldnt finish.. hai, im not the dessert type, so i took wad i like, ice mango ice longan ice..

den we went to buy tickets for a 2 luge+skyride combo plus a free ride! wahhh... we went up the skyride 3 times until i sian diaooooo.. den luge 3 times until amily actually lost her ticket at the 3rd skyride.. haha.. but the peeps there veri good, let her go.. some more joke with us, "lost ticket? good!" even though i dun really understand why good la..

den we met chantong, sheryl, june and alvin after our first round, hehe.. just nice sheryl, june and alvin were going for skyride.. den we sat with chantong until the three peeps came back.. and we parted in order to continue the riding while the four others went to find a spot on siliso beach and buy ben & jerry ice cream.. after the luge-ing, im more confident in taking my practical driving lessons!

den we-five went to get our bags and it was almost 5 when we reached the centre.. time flew~

den for the first time of my life, we played beach volleyball beach captainball beach frisbee [with some strangers] consecutively.. i feel that the captain's ball was the most fun game i had today.. much more interaction than the others! and i got chantong in my group.. he kinda like a monkey, run here and there, jump here and there to catch the ball and many times i ALMOST langa him sia... haha.. oh yar! during volleyball session, amily and sheryl got a head-on collision and amily's back problem had a relapse.. at first we were thinking that she was just stunned and lying on the sand.. den somehow i rmb-ed her back had been giving her problems and i finally popped the correct question, "your back okae?"

den sheryl massaged amily's tailbone area, which i personally think that it cant help physically, but mentally.. mentally cos when someone pays enough attention, care and concern for another, the one receiving the massage will somehow feel better even though the situation hadnt improved, but the brain processes this act of concern and release some chemical which actually makes us feel that there isnt much pain as a few moments ago.. and if nobody bothered to massage, the one suffering from the pain will feel worse cos apparently nobody cares enough.. that mental hurt will add on to the physical hurt..

i think, i think too much.

den shaoqin and amelia went to bath cos they wanted to go home first.. and before them, amily went to zhenfa to work.. anyway, den a group of 3 guys and 1 gal who were playing frisbee came up to us to ask if we wanted to play with them.. cos for the whole time when we were playing, their frisbee kept flying to our side and even hit us.. haha..

in the end play until 7 plus until we couldnt see the frisbee in the dark.. haha..

den alvin became the introverted alvin and disappeared together with sheryl who went to him to show concern.. den yiting and june disappeared.. den left me alone.. sian!!! den when they FINALLY came back, i had oredi gotten veri irritated.. who likes waiting so long in the dark alone!?

den we went to bath and just nice, alvin and i wore class t!! haha, amelia oso changed into that after bathing but she left too soon.. or else can show a "love triangle".. haha..

wnt to vivocity's carls' jr. to have our late dinner.. hai, couldnt finish the burger AND fries... MAJOR SIAN. next time i dun go to CJ oredi la.... waste my money... $14 leh... for a meal that i cant finish. sian.

finally, took the mrt home at ten plus.. den went to cheers to buy water and instant noodles which i can eat for dinner when i do OT next time!

den thunder and lightning met with strong winds.. so i practically ran home with my veri tired body and heavy bag with another guy who oso apparently didnt want to get wet as well... run until my stitches came again.. ate too much for dinner.. and drank too much water at a time.. i think i got an overdose of water oredi la.. keep drinking water, be it poka green tea, slurpee, sharing 3 1.5L mineral bottles with the peeps [in which i think i drank the most], den getting a milk shake and drinking from alvin's iced lemon tea den the ice mountain water i bought from cheers... wah, den reach home my mother gave me a cup of tasteless chrysanthemum tea which was on the warm side which i absolutely didnt desire since i was hot and perspiring from the run away from the rain.. den after that i drank from my 1.5L water bottle from the fridge which was SHIOK! so now it either means i go sleep now and have eyebags tmw or i dun sleep, wait for another 1 hr and have panda eyes tmw... cos according to studies, if you drank water, for the next 2 hours you cant sleep or else will have water retention at the eyes..

anyway, i've used up all my energy.. my remaining energy was conserved for this long long blog entry.. haha

anyway gals [shaoqin and amelia], do rmb to post the pics we took onto out dotphotos acct!!

tata~

today, had another 2 bonding sessions with my colleagues before work and during dinner break in the pantry room.. yea! every minute spent with them is worth it.. how? i dun think i can bear leaving them when my contract's expired.

before work, MANY peeps gather in this 2.5m x 1.5m non-air-conditioned room to have breakfast and chat.. once i counted, 11 peeps were in the room together with the refrigerator, cupboards, table and bench, etc.. wah.. mega squeeze~

today had ot with the same peeps.. haha~ calvin, clarice, henry, xiaoling [have i mentioned her b4? nvm~], chin ya, cam, yuli, me.. oh, and the accountant christina from 2nd level!

cam brought instant noodles for dinner! it's erm... smth like herbal chicken noodles.. the herbal smell practically overwhelmed the surroundings.. so pple could smell it from outside the pantry and then pop their heads into the room saying, "wah... smell so nice.."

haha, it's delicious!! wanted to drink the tasty soup, budden decided not to cos i scared spill onto my uniform since my mouth has more than one hole..

den henry and i played with his new handphone and he was practically bugging me to send him the super bomber man game.. haha.. so i blutoothed it to him :] somehow, clarice got jealous that henry and i were in our own world.. haha, so funny! den she said, "see la, henry and eunice, play and play with their hp.." and i gave the oops-i've-been-caught face.. so the peeps kinda laughed at me~ haha..

hai, cant help but say that the panasonic pple have brought much joy into my life ever since i graduated.. love them!

erm, gals and boys, dun be jealous of them k? muah~ you peeps oso mean a lot to me k?

wahh.. gonna extend my contract with panasonic.. which means that im gonna work there for 6 full months.. but it's quite alright with me.. the peeps over there are just so nice! esp henry, weilun, irene, clarice, calvin, CAM, YULI... and so many peeps!

and when the peeps go overseas for short business trips, they tend to bring back to office quite some tidbits! today violet came back to work after her two-day business trip to hong kong and she brought a lot of tidbits back! everyone in the department gets a piece of lau po bing [wife biscuit] which has such thick winter melon stuffing, and oso a handful of bite-size tuna cubes which has wasabi coating on them.. smell a lot like ikan bilis, taste like ikan bilis.. haha.. budden it's quite nice, quite okay.. when your mouth is itchy, it becomes a great snack! haha.. budden cannot eat too much, it's on the salty side.

nowadays kinda busy for my department.. another department was demanding 8 quotations from us and chin ya spent days to raise them and we havent really raised finish even though i helped [it's not within my job scope, but no choice.. will feel guilty if i dun help].. den my side of the department, cam and i are trying our very best to localise our parts such that we dun buy the spare parts from jpn hq and instead buy from local vendors [local as in vendors who are not part of the panasonic group].. kinda difficult cos we onli have a list of panasonic's part numbers and every single vendor have different part numbers for every single item.. so i was practically calling every single vendor on the contact list for the whole day.. listened to their on-hold tone until got headache.. in the end gotta eat panadol.. :'[

tot of not extending my contract with them just bcos of the localising job.. hehe~ veri sian leh.. everytime gotta call vendors, call until they rmb my voice oredi.. and the worse thing is that i dun have a phone at my desk cos im a temp, so i gotta go find an unoccupied phone to make the phone calls.. so embarrassing la! but luckily, one of my colleagues isnt around in office so i practically took over his desk.. haha!

hai, tmw gotta continue the same process of calling and calling and faxing and faxing and typing and typing and walking and walking.. haiiii..

but nvm! weilun lent me his full metal alchemist dvd collection for me to watch! woohoo!! 51 episodes sia, i shall watch slowly.. yea!