haiz

heyhey..

yesterday was elin's birthday.. miss her soooooooooo much...........

erm, actually, i have something to say..... yesterday, i went back to skool.. stepping into the compound after everything that happened, i was at first, excited.. after spending some time in there, i found myself looking for mr wee.. when i couldnt find him [you know the obvious reasons if you have been my avid reader], i looked for pple i knew.. but i found, besides those sec 2s-4s in gb, those guys who had graduated yet went back to serve their cca; gb bb, eugenia, yong hao, there was no one else.. all unfamiliar faces....... i felt so odd.. suddenly faces of those from innova came to my mind, then i looked back at the skool. and found out that i no longer felt anything for the skool besides the memories i once had.. i hope this is a good sign... most probably, im the one who is looking back the most.. and i know that looking back is not good when pple have to move on..

but, how can i not think abt my frens? how can i not remember the love i once had for the skool? how can i forget the torture i suffered while in there? how can i forget mr wee? how can i forget those that i love soooo much? how can i possibly forget all the fun and pains?

i miss you all so much..

birthdays..................

heyhey..

yesterday was elin's birthday.. miss her soooooooooo much...........

erm, actually, i have something to say..... yesterday, i went back to skool.. stepping into the compound after everything that happened, i was at first, excited.. after spending some time in there, i found myself looking for mr wee.. when i couldnt find him [you know the obvious reasons if you have been my avid reader], i looked for pple i knew.. but i found, besides those sec 2s-4s in gb, those guys who had graduated yet went back to serve their cca; gb bb, eugenia, yong hao, there was no one else.. all unfamiliar faces....... i felt so odd.. suddenly faces of those from innova came to my mind, then i looked back at the skool. and found out that i no longer felt anything for the skool besides the memories i once had.. i hope this is a good sign... most probably, im the one who is looking back the most.. and i know that looking back is not good when pple have to move on..

but, how can i not think abt my frens? how can i not remember the love i once had for the skool? how can i forget the torture i suffered while in there? how can i forget mr wee? how can i forget those that i love soooo much? how can i possibly forget all the fun and pains?

i miss you all so much..

me

actually... to be honest,

whenever i appear brave and unafraid, in my heart, i am actually trembling with fright....

whenever i seem broken and crying, in my heart, my heart is oredi mending..

yar, that's wad i wanna say for this week...

bye!

me

innova innova innova

erm... if you actually feel that i have been toking too much abt innova.... i apologise...

but really, i have many things to say abt this jc since i'm new abt jc life............

this time, lemme think.. great, i forgot..

ah yes.

when i first stepped into the skool, i was amazed, excited and fascinated with everything i see... but soon, i see an ocean of unfamiliar faces besides the other nine ex-fairsians with the same sleepy look.. haha.. slowly, i feel lonely and awkward in there.. took 2 days to actually start toking freely with my orientation group.. took a veri long time to put faces to names.. the more difficult part is memorizing the names......... haha. before i know it, it's been the second week i have been with my appointed class, kana become secretary.. it was only after last night's chat via msn that i started to really tok with the class.. last night, i found myself chatting with 4 guys and no gals.. one guy was the 30-yr-old civics tutor.. man, he looked much younger than mr ow.. this morning, i was playing soccer with gillian and soon kinda chatting and sitting together with the gals during tutorials.. however, i have been dreaming of elin suddenly disappearing after some time spent together, which was kinda true......... i think i still miss my old frens.. kept thinking of lp, jasmine yong, elin, lorraine, darren, many from 4e, and many from fairfield.. i oso miss my tuition class and tutors from learnwell.. AH!!!!!! i miss them sooooooo much............... gonna cry.. leave me alone!

life

honestly, life's resembles a gamble... since the first second of your birth, your parents have represented you in taking your gamble.. they gambled with your future, your life, with their affections they have for you, everything that your life is worth, they have gambled it with the world, the surroundings... there's no certainty to wad happens when you grow up... you have started gambling when you were months old, when you started learning to walk.. walking either leads you to a brighter future, or a darker path.. soon you learn to talk. you realise that you have to think before you speak, so if you hadnt started learning, maybe your world could have been more quiet, more peaceful.. wont that make the world a better place without gambling? but still, gambling have two alternatives; you either win, or you lose. of course, winning is a good thing. but wad if you lose? you will lose your life, your family, your future, your friends, your material needs, your everything.

okae, i had been toking crap. thanx for reading..

innovian life

heyhey.. before i start, can your presence be felt by you writing a comment on anything...! i feel so lonely here..

innovian life.. hm.. where do i start..? oh yes, lemme tell you how boring the breaks are.. and why.. first, every one hour of lecture, there will be at least half an hour of meaningless break, sometimes, the break can extend to 2 and a half hour, combined with lunch.. and, there's no library, no student lounge, nothing!! nothing else for me to rest my legs or occupy myself while waiting for the next lecture besides studying at that NOISY noisy canteen or the DUSTY classrooms.. during lectures, the lecture theatres still stink of those paint and today, the air con spoiled!! soooo hot.. and most of us had pe before that.. to think of how stinko it was.. EWWWWW!!!! but fortunately, there's this veri veri cute teacher teaching physics.. so at least i have something to look forward to; physics lecture. and his name, so cute.. reminds me of a neopet.. his name is kyris, i think.. forgot how to spell.. oh yar, i've got an olympic player as my pe teacher.. you dun need to look for him in the jc's website, i suggest you check him out in the website dedicated to olympics.. haha.. i remember he's in the air rifle thingy and his surname is lee.. and he is veri muscular............ so during pe, everything is nothing to him.. he runs like nobody's business, torture us like it's nobody's business.. haiz..

haiz, gtg oredi... veri sleepy.. byez!!!