15 August 2009

kns.
was abt to finish one loooooooooong post,
until i decided to follow yiting's suggestion and press ctrl-f5...

and the whoooooooooooooole post disappeared.

dammit.

i dun want to blog oredi la!!!!!

but there's this song which got stuck in my head after our dearest michelin chef, wayne, sang it an octave higher :D

damn cute. and the song is......




The Kinks - Apeman 1970

I think I'm sophisticated
cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybodys multiplying
Till theyre walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the anI'mals sitting in their cages
In the zoo man
cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees
I am an ape man

I think I'm so educated and I'm so civilized
cos I'm a strict vegetarian
But with the over-population and inflation and starvation
And the crazy politicians
I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
and make like an ape man

I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man
I'm an ape man I'm a king kong man I'm ape ape man
I'm an ape man

Cos compared to the sun that sits in the sky
Compared to the clouds as they roll by
Compared to the bugs and the spiders and flies
I am an ape man

In mans evolution he has created the cities and
The motor traffic rumble, but give me half a chance
And I'd be taking off my clothes and living in the jungle
cos the only time that I feel at ease
Is swinging up and down in a coconut tree
Oh what a life of luxury to be like an ape man

I'm an ape, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man

I look out my window, but I cant see the sky
cos the air pollution is fogging up my eyes
I want to get out of this city alive
And make like an ape man

Come and love me, be my ape man girl
And we will be so happy in my ape man world

I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man

I'll be your tarzan, you'll be my jane
I'll keep you warm and youll keep me sane
And well sit in the trees and eat bananas all day
Just like an ape man

I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man.

I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
And make like an ape man.

La la la la la la la.


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yesterday was a gd day for me.

went to republic poly for a talk.....given by someone i ADMIRE TREMENDOUSLY.....and den he thanked me a lot of times, for being there.
and i managed to eat the burger prepared by our world-renowned michelin chef, and den we four (darling, me, wayne and gwen) went drinking somewhere near their apartment (cool place btw)!!

the burger was DELICIOUS. and i know his secret. *shh* cannot tell you!!

and at the end of the day, he said smth.
"i want to meet you MORE THAN you know i want to."
so touching~

today was even better.

it was less than 12 hours after he dropped me at my flat's void deck last nite, that we met again!! and den, he brought me somewhere to show me how his work is like... it's fugging interesting!! and he introduced me to a gal called jackie!! she's really cool :D haha~ and den we went to relish for lunch..

and amazingly, darling spotted the restaurant's owner and so sam -the boss- came to our table and the two men started chatting.

both jack and me found sam REALLY cute!! he's trendy-looking, cute, well-dressed, cute, i like his cologne, cute, has cool glass, cute.... CUTE LA! but darling was like, noooooooooooooooooooooooo~

and den darling spotted one of his ex-gf -name's michelle- coming into the place with her frens.. and he was sweetly reminiscing the time he spent with her... so after that, when we were in the car, he was asking "so wad shall we do next?"

and i promptly replied, "go find michelle la" and folded my arms casually.

and he got soooooooooo surprised and amused. apparently, i got jealous??
yea i think so :D bleah...... but i kept denying that fact :D and he said, "then wad's the with folding of arms??" den i told him that my hands had nth to do and he went "oh! den i should have said OKAE when you told me to find her la!"

then he was saying that michelle was one of his first girls, so it was memorable even though he's had better times with other gals after her... den i was like "yea yea...*laugh*"

had a good laugh.

by the end of our meeting, he was saying that it has been a good day for him :D

im so happy that i managed to cheer him up a lil.... when we first met in the morning, he was in this solemn mood... and he wasnt the bubbly person i knew.. but he soon recovered and he was smiling and being himself by lunchtime :DDD

cos according to him, he's in the middle of the worst time of his life. and it will, and it should, be over by the end of this month. and he needs to keep sane. cos it's driving him crazy.

and there's nth else i can do to lessen his load. except to let him forget his worries and relax for the few hours that we've been together.

so wad i should do now, i tell myself, is to not let myself become a nuisance and pester him. let him get busy and find his solutions. and let him find me when he looks for me... otherwise i'd be literally non-existent :D

time to let him have some peace.....at least until this ordeal is over.

but oso remind him that i love him, once in a while~ let him RMB that i still exist la...
omg wad's becoming of blogger nowadays?? i cant post pics like 99% of the time, now i cant even bold or italicize my words.. now even the formatting of the posting window itself looks weird. AHH!! is blogger trying to chase me to other blogging engines like wordpress!?

anyway.

OMG. HE JUST GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT.

after that, i freaked out for a moment.

but.........there wasnt a single scratch.

just a bumper-to-bumper knockity knock.

so pple, do you see why i dun want to drive?? i will definitely start zoning out while driving, and get into some kind of accident.

starting to get worried abt him. really.

and he's been SUPER DUPER ZUPER MUPER BUPER BUSY these days~ like spinning around like a tornado.

13 August 2009

just some random thoughts that popped out in my mind when i was on my way home from tuition.

#1: luxury goods are somewhat getting normal. in the sg context.

you can take the train, board the bus, and even go to my school campus. and most probably you can spot at east one female, lugging along a LV/Chanel/Coach/Gucci/Burberry/etc. Be it imitation or genuine. And even the imitation gds look rather authentic and also costs quite an amount, maybe it's the original price, less one or two zeros from the price tag.

Yes i do have classmates who own bags like that, and still dump it unceremoniously on the ground. that should probably be an imitation. well, i HOPE so. at least show some respect to the fact that the bag could have sustained my survival for at least 5-8 months! shopping expenses included. *im becoming a shoppaholic, at bugis village*

nevertheless, such sight gets so common, that you just dun really see the luxury factor anymore!!

it's most probably due to the fact that singapore's standard of living just keeps rising, even if the pay dont. and parents are more willing to indulge in their children. really. i mean it. i know pple who still receiving "pocket money" even though they're beyond the age of 21. and the monthly pocket money is in 4-digit figures. but not more than 2k la~ dun be silly.

Still, i do know those who scrimp and save and starve, just to buy some bag or clothes. Me, in this case, but not so serious to the point of becoming a scourge or anything. i will just weigh btn food and clothes. sometimes, i value the clothes more. and i go home with a growling tummy, slouching back, but with a bright smile on my face and a bag full of the results of my shopping endeavours. But i do limit myself, alright?

Oh, back to the point. Seems that luxury bags and all those, they have lost that "you can see but you can never have it" factor.....of being exalted to a god-level. it's lost that glimmer and shimmer.

to me, in that case.

im extremely happy with the two bags i bought from dorothy perkins quite a few months back, and i havent gotten sick of them YET. and oh, there's the other handbag i bought from a pushcart stall at IMM... it's just a work of art. and still so affordable for me, after i tighten my belt and empty my wallet :D

#2: One of the reasons why modern women dun divulge their real age, is to fend off those pesky pple who stalk you from a far distance, target you, move towards you and start drilling you with questions that most probably start with, "hi, are you working?" or "hi, how old are you?" or "hi, just knocked off from work?"

and start asking more questions that will hopefully "guide" you to the answers they wanna hear. BUT THANK GOD, I NEVER GIVE THEM THAT SATISFACTION.

firstly im not yet 21yo. so i cant subscribe for a credit card.
secondly, i have no money. so even if it's citibank offering tertiary student card, i cant afford it.
thirdly, i upgraded my medisave.

so there was this guy who approached me just a few hours ago, asked me a long list of questions and finally asked, "so have you upgraded your medisave?"

and i was thinking "THANK GOD I DID!" and i said "yea, i upgraded it under prudential" - i dun necessarily lie.

and then his smile faded and he beamed a fake one before saying "alrite, thanks. bye!"

oh btw, HELLO!? DO I LOOK THAT FUGGING MATURED NOWADAYS!? I WAS IN THE TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN TERTIARY STUDENT CLOTHING ATTIRE, AND HE ASKED IF I JUST KNOCKED OFF FROM WORK.

#3: everybody has at least one hp with them these days. BUT THEY JUST DUN FUGGING ANSWER IT WHEN IT RINGS. *pissed*

okae, that's all :D gdnite folks!
was on the train back home.

den suddenly i recalled the one incident that took place when i was rather young....say 5??
my father brought me to his factory (AIWA, rings a bell?) on a saturday or some day where there werent much workers.. and there were quite a number of female workers there la.. i oso dunno why he brought me along to work sia~ i just blurly followed... or rather blindly.

so we went in, my father went to do his work.. den his female colleagues STOLE me.

brought me to their staff lounge/canteen, displayed this huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge array of potato chips and sweets rite in front of me. it was HEAVEN. haha~ den they would ask me, wad should you say if you want this potato chip?? and all those stupid questions la. but i was super shy... so i kept quiet~ haha... but they just kept smiling and all those.. guess i was THAT cute huh?

got a few childhood pics of myself.. but im just lazy to scan them now~ totally lazy.

but the most impt thing is, there are just so lil memories i have of my father when i was young. and i really wanna treasure those memories. and all these years......were wasted. we never got the chance to build that close father-daughter relationship.

felt so regretful that i started tearing on the train. and this bangla was looking at me sia. so scary.


DAMNED FUNNY. but i dunno whether i should laugh, or cry. the animation made me left laughing at a veri sad song!!

Tommy and Laura were lovers he wanted to give here everything
Flowers presents and most of all a wedding ring
He saw a sign for a stockcar race a thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone so to her mother Tommy said

Tell Laura I love her tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late I've something to do that cannot wait

He drove his car to the racing ground he was the youngest driver there
The crowd roared as they started to race
Around the truck they drove at a deadly pace
No one knows what happened that day how his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath they heard him say

Tell Laura I love her tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry my love for her will never die

Now in the chapel Laura prays for her Tommy who passed away
It was just for Laura that he lived and died alone in the chapel she can hear him cry

Tell Laura I love her...
My love for her will never die

11 August 2009


wrote an encouragement letter for my sec 4 gal... havent given her the letter yet though.. haha!! and i drew an angel for her!! so cute rite?!

yay healthy nail is growing!! but it's still an ugly sight. gonna paint my nails again... but let the nail take a breather first :D

awwwwwwwwwwww look at that sunset.
looks like the yolk of a salted egg.

ah!! caught him taking food from my plate!! haha, no la, we're sharing food that time~

these roses were blooming in this brilliant pink, couldnt help but to snap a pic of them :D
i love how romantic these roses look like~
*hint*

ah! my family portrait!! of my sis graduation...that was 11 years ago?? yea. 11 years. i was 10.

this window was just there, waiting for me to take an artistic shot of it. haha :D

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okae, time for some reflection :D

the thing that made me the happiest on tue, was the phone call he made in the morning.

totally unexpected. and it felt so gd to hear his voice again after 3 days of absolute silence. but he coughed. den i heard my heart crack a bit. Cough *Crack* Cough *Crack*

haha, you know how it goes~ breaks my heart to know that he's still not yet well... and yet i cant be there to take care of him cos he just cant afford to slow down and rest..

But still, i kinda drifted off when he started talking a lil too fast and the background was getting a lil too noisy... so i just enjoyed his voice :D haha, im pathetic. then i heard the words "...meet for coffee..." den i went "OKAE!!"

haha~ even though i dun drink coffee, i'll do anything to meet him.

and he demanded to know my bank account number. so cute rite? and he thanked me after i gave it to him... left me thinking, wad have i done to deserve such kindess from you? HAIIII~

and when we met, he was still veri busy!! to think that he abandoned his post to just meet me~ so he had to make phone calls, answer calls, send smses, reply smses... so i was sitting at the passenger seat, minding my own business and keeping quiet.. dun wanna disturb him, especially when he looks so stressed out and whispered "this is starting to piss me off"

and suddenly, he was silent and went "HI!!! Sorry, i was busy..."

that "hi" made me jump.

and he was talking to me, haha~~ to think he noticed that i was keeping quiet... and despite having some last min problems and such, he still bothered to think abt my feelings~ aww, so touched.

den i asked some questions about his business... and cool, i learnt new stuff!!

and im fugging tired now.

gdnite peeps!!!
OMGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!

i just went to The Sail! you guys know wad's that? go google.

it's the one at marina boulevard. dun ask me why or how i got there. but just know that i got there cos HE knows someone who lives there :D

marina/liching/nisa, rmb the time when we were taking the shuttle bus from marina barrage to the drop off point near the mrt station and marina was pointing at this glass building which she said was rumoured to be for residential purposes but look a lot like an office building and that it's IMPOSSIBLE for it to be a residential block? WELL IT IS FOR RESIDENTIAL PURPOSES. and you can just look out of the window, and see the floating platform and all those.. and it's facing the singapore river and all those. imagine, during ndp rehearsals and the actual ndp, you just need to go home, lie back on your sofa and watch the fireworks from the comfort of your home. no need to squeeze, no need to ballot, no need to sweat it out.

and f1's coming rite? you can just look down, and those machines will be zooming rite past your bloody feet!!!

im sooooooooooo gg there when the f1 race is on. i'll just plant my butt there and NOT MOVE AN INCH.

and being the suaku, my mouth was open and my eyes were big and round like saucers. and i was going "waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah" the whole time!! super disgraceful. need to learn how to keep my excitement in.

btw, mkt price....around 2k psf. and his apartment is around 800++ square feet. soooooooooooooooooooo, you know la. damn expensive. and it's actually quite small. well, EVERYTHING'S SMALL NOWADAYS.

and the owner's great :D he knows chinese. his chinese is better than HIM. haha!!! damn cute...

and i was pleasantly surprised when i heard OLD chinese songs being played on the stereo player. and mike -yea the owner- was humming along and even sung a few words!! im like OMG and my mouth opened again. but i quickly shut it when he looked over.. haha!!

den i asked HIM to speak his version of chinese.. and he sung "wo he ni wen bieeee~~~~"

i literally fainted.

these two guys are amazing!!

OH YA, WAD WAS THE REASON WHY I WANTED TO BLOG?

ohhhhh, i wanted to talk abt one of my amazing tuition kids :D

it's feroz!! my p4 boy :D he's damn cute la! veri active, has this diehard passion for football, loooooooves spinning cranky stories and dun like science hmk. or any hmk. and his bday is coming!! and he's inviting me to his bday dinner!! that makes me the one and onli CHINESE there. cos.............i dunno. he's indian, relatives are indian, he dun intend to invite his classmates or football buddies. im like OMG, you're gonna throw me amongst the sea of strangers!?

think i'll just be there, watch him cut his cake, give him his present and say "I HATE TO SAY THIS, BUT I GOTTA GO... HAPPY BDAY FEROZ!" and vanish into thin air.

but it's kinda heartwarming to know that your tuition kid likes you that much yea? he often bullies me in his own way, but i like him :D sometimes, i'll even play a mini football game in his small living room, den we'll do some tackling and all those.. sometimes i manage to steal his ball, sometimes i cant.. sometimes, im just pure lucky to be able to steal it. and im always either in a dress or wearing a skirt when im playing with him. HAHA.

okae im like, damned tired. all the adrenaline rush i got from the house visit, is kinda ebbing......and i gotta go back and hit the books. i wanna own that kind of house one day. and still have enough money in my bank account to buy another similar apartment. and still have lotsa money :DDDD

okae, im greedy. haha