hey i am, blowing my nose off to outer space together with truckloads of used tissue paper.. and coughing a lil.
worse thing is, i miss him sooooooo much!!
woke up this morning, and the first person/thing i tot of was him.
spent the next 1-2hours just purely thinking abt him.
recalling how he said i smelt of soap the moment i stepped into his car on fri :D another way of saying i smell nice rite?? haha~ and it was my hair conditioner which i use once a week :D will use it once i feel that my hair is getting coarse and dry :D been stuck with the same tube of hair conditioner for almost 2 yrs. and still using that same tube. it's big. and apparently it hasnt lost its function nor did it spoil :D
gonna repaint my nail polish tmw. you dun wanna know how poorly-maintained those polished nails are... needs a new coat of life!!
stomach's growling though.
my nose is still trying to kill me.
it got worse after i did a mini-tidying up of my wardrobe.. and oso bcos i was crying this evening. NO I DIDNT CRY OF HEARTBREAK. it's just that i got too engrossed with a new manga i found :D it's damned nice and i regret not reading it earlier. it's called 07 Ghost.
it may sound ghost-ly, but there's nth scary abt it. rather interesting plot and storyline. and the characters are just so beautiful. main character is Teito, a teenage boy who experienced lotsa trials and tribulations. lost his father - i cried once. lost his fren - i cried more. and everytime he recalls his fren, i drop another tear.
heh, silly me. but i just love it!!
okae i need rest.
gdnite pple..
08 August 2009
hmmm... suddenly tot about marina. nono not marina barrage/bay/parade/wadever. but marine bte osman :D
wad abt her?
she's veri expressive, emotional, easily agitated, and blur.
there was once at vivo when we were walking around (i was suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of wearing new heels) and she got attracted by a jewellery shop's display of accessories.. and den before we knew it, we heard a veri distinct "bong" and there she was rubbing her head and laughing her head off. the rest of us oso laughed. almost died from lack of oxygen!! esp ching, she couldnt stop laughing la.. den the shop assistant was standing behind her counter, looking at us with this bewildered look, since she didnt see wad that blonde-haired minah did.. had to stifle my laughter before i fainted..
and she thinks a lot as well.. of course she does.
she doesnt have the normal singaporean family. and she's had a rather tough life. so she's not like those brainless bimbos you see in class.
and she's oso a bit slow in processing information, so sometimes i do get impatient with her... hehe~ sorry old woman... but it's real infuriating when it's smth that came naturally to you, and yet she cant get the gist of it.. den you kinda wonder WHY?! maybe cos the golden hair dye killed her brain cells.
and one most impt thing that i rmb from recently, was that this wonderful woman said smth.
she envied me.
the me she saw, had not much worries. no troublesome family issues, not much of a financial crisis, can think faster than her, etc. well, do i really appear to be THAT eunice?
okae, i admit that i can process things faster than her.
but it's not that my family is trouble-free. i just tend to run away from them. im a coward.
it's not that i have no financial problems. it's just that i dun go shopping for zara, pull&bear, armani exchange and all those! otherwise, im as broke as she is. i go to bugis village, scouring for $10 deals. and sometimes, my search pays off :D
but oh well, i dunno. everybody has their own problems. nobody's really BETTER OFF.
and look at me now. after soooooooooo many pple around me, sneezing coughing and wheezing, im down with the cold. HAI..
Marina, my tuition kid, and HIM~ esp yesterday.
morning lecture, there's the bug-carrier #1, marina.
afternoon tuition, there's my tuition kid sneezing and coughing - bug-carrier #2.
evening, i met the still-recovering-but-insists-that-he's-fine darling aka bug-carrier #3 :D
SURE KANA LA.
and now my amazing mother is blaming me for being sick. for not drying my hair. for this and that. which are all insignificant compared to the number of sick pple around me. i havent been blowdrying my hair for as long as i lived. never liked them cos it just feels like my head's heating up and nth else is happening. after that, the hair is STILL damp. and it actually damages the hair la..
so she's screaming and shouting and cursing me. now that's irritation to the core.
and im happily blasting music at my ears. but apparently she managed to get past the earpiece. so i kinda shouted back at her that it's the pple who's spreading the germs, not that the germs attacked me from my hair.
and wowwwwwwww, for the first time. she accepted that explanation!! and stopped shouting.
i was damned amazed!
as in SUPER DUPER AMAZED.
hai, so sian. He's now at bintan, enjoying himself.. im here, blogging about my misery.
this morning, he called me to tell me that he was at the ferry terminal and that he couldnt take any pics for his holiday trip cos the camera's with me -HAWHAW- and he heard me sniffing away.. asked me if i was sick, or if it was the morning sinus.. i decided to tell a white lie. and said that it was the sinus. he was rather worried abt me, hehe~
and rmb the restaurant business idea? the two men are thinking of setting up a joint! but i better not divulge any part of the business plan here :D P&C wor~ and last nite, we met up for that reason as well.. so we had dinner with wayne at a place called "relish" :D the food is great!! but we two shared a meal cos i wasnt hungry :D and since it was a burger set, i told the waitress to cut the burger into two when they serve the food..
and when the food came, he was pestering me to eat the food (i wasnt touching the food cos i was busy taking down the issues the two men mentioned) and confiscated my notebook and pen
den he realised that the burger was oredi halved.
but i still didnt get my stationery back :(
only when wayne excused himself to go to the toilet, did i reach over to get my stuff back.. haha
haha, the things we do to each other.
the other nite, i confiscated his lighter. den he took it back when i let my guard down. AND THEN i took both the lighter and cigs :DD but in the end, he got both back. shucks.
and i've been giving him head massages whenever we meet. and he was saying that he's been able to sleep a lot better bcos of that :D den i told him that maybe it's bcos im tiring him out. he said, "no, it's not you.. it's the head massages"
and bcos of wad he said, im willing to massage his head everyday, forever.
but i know that's impossible. so lemme rephrase.
im willing to massage his head for as long as we can be together.
wad abt her?
she's veri expressive, emotional, easily agitated, and blur.
there was once at vivo when we were walking around (i was suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of wearing new heels) and she got attracted by a jewellery shop's display of accessories.. and den before we knew it, we heard a veri distinct "bong" and there she was rubbing her head and laughing her head off. the rest of us oso laughed. almost died from lack of oxygen!! esp ching, she couldnt stop laughing la.. den the shop assistant was standing behind her counter, looking at us with this bewildered look, since she didnt see wad that blonde-haired minah did.. had to stifle my laughter before i fainted..
and she thinks a lot as well.. of course she does.
she doesnt have the normal singaporean family. and she's had a rather tough life. so she's not like those brainless bimbos you see in class.
and she's oso a bit slow in processing information, so sometimes i do get impatient with her... hehe~ sorry old woman... but it's real infuriating when it's smth that came naturally to you, and yet she cant get the gist of it.. den you kinda wonder WHY?! maybe cos the golden hair dye killed her brain cells.
and one most impt thing that i rmb from recently, was that this wonderful woman said smth.
she envied me.
the me she saw, had not much worries. no troublesome family issues, not much of a financial crisis, can think faster than her, etc. well, do i really appear to be THAT eunice?
okae, i admit that i can process things faster than her.
but it's not that my family is trouble-free. i just tend to run away from them. im a coward.
it's not that i have no financial problems. it's just that i dun go shopping for zara, pull&bear, armani exchange and all those! otherwise, im as broke as she is. i go to bugis village, scouring for $10 deals. and sometimes, my search pays off :D
but oh well, i dunno. everybody has their own problems. nobody's really BETTER OFF.
and look at me now. after soooooooooo many pple around me, sneezing coughing and wheezing, im down with the cold. HAI..
Marina, my tuition kid, and HIM~ esp yesterday.
morning lecture, there's the bug-carrier #1, marina.
afternoon tuition, there's my tuition kid sneezing and coughing - bug-carrier #2.
evening, i met the still-recovering-but-insists-that-he's-fine darling aka bug-carrier #3 :D
SURE KANA LA.
and now my amazing mother is blaming me for being sick. for not drying my hair. for this and that. which are all insignificant compared to the number of sick pple around me. i havent been blowdrying my hair for as long as i lived. never liked them cos it just feels like my head's heating up and nth else is happening. after that, the hair is STILL damp. and it actually damages the hair la..
so she's screaming and shouting and cursing me. now that's irritation to the core.
and im happily blasting music at my ears. but apparently she managed to get past the earpiece. so i kinda shouted back at her that it's the pple who's spreading the germs, not that the germs attacked me from my hair.
and wowwwwwwww, for the first time. she accepted that explanation!! and stopped shouting.
i was damned amazed!
as in SUPER DUPER AMAZED.
hai, so sian. He's now at bintan, enjoying himself.. im here, blogging about my misery.
this morning, he called me to tell me that he was at the ferry terminal and that he couldnt take any pics for his holiday trip cos the camera's with me -HAWHAW- and he heard me sniffing away.. asked me if i was sick, or if it was the morning sinus.. i decided to tell a white lie. and said that it was the sinus. he was rather worried abt me, hehe~
and rmb the restaurant business idea? the two men are thinking of setting up a joint! but i better not divulge any part of the business plan here :D P&C wor~ and last nite, we met up for that reason as well.. so we had dinner with wayne at a place called "relish" :D the food is great!! but we two shared a meal cos i wasnt hungry :D and since it was a burger set, i told the waitress to cut the burger into two when they serve the food..
and when the food came, he was pestering me to eat the food (i wasnt touching the food cos i was busy taking down the issues the two men mentioned) and confiscated my notebook and pen
den he realised that the burger was oredi halved.
but i still didnt get my stationery back :(
only when wayne excused himself to go to the toilet, did i reach over to get my stuff back.. haha
haha, the things we do to each other.
the other nite, i confiscated his lighter. den he took it back when i let my guard down. AND THEN i took both the lighter and cigs :DD but in the end, he got both back. shucks.
and i've been giving him head massages whenever we meet. and he was saying that he's been able to sleep a lot better bcos of that :D den i told him that maybe it's bcos im tiring him out. he said, "no, it's not you.. it's the head massages"
and bcos of wad he said, im willing to massage his head everyday, forever.
but i know that's impossible. so lemme rephrase.
im willing to massage his head for as long as we can be together.
06 August 2009
Love Me for a Reason
Love Me for a Reason - The Osmonds
Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please
It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be
And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand
I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
I'm just a little olf-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
(Repeat to fade)
haiiii.....
i think i've just been added more stuff into sheryl' worrying bag..
had an sms chat with her last nite.. and i told her wad's been going on... and chantong told her abt the incident!! OMG~ haha.. our amazing cute boy~
and she was asking me, why am i doing these... and that i seem to be having so much problems, money-wise as well.. den i told her why again..
and she got MORE worried.
argh.
i've been dreading this.. didnt want her to worry abt me, so i didnt tell her much.. but i just couldnt say "nope, nth happened" and lie to her rite?
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i think i've just been added more stuff into sheryl' worrying bag..
had an sms chat with her last nite.. and i told her wad's been going on... and chantong told her abt the incident!! OMG~ haha.. our amazing cute boy~
and she was asking me, why am i doing these... and that i seem to be having so much problems, money-wise as well.. den i told her why again..
and she got MORE worried.
argh.
i've been dreading this.. didnt want her to worry abt me, so i didnt tell her much.. but i just couldnt say "nope, nth happened" and lie to her rite?
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
03 August 2009
woke up at 5..
snoozed till 5.15..
started revision at around 5.30..
heard the marikita song on air 15 min before i dozed off again..
woke up again at 6.45~ this time veri awake, haha
today's price theory test......i was doing it rather happily. apparently some of my efforts paid off!! cos i attempted the exam questions, one of which actually came out as one of the structured questions! but for the mcq, i was reeling a lil cos apparently my brain havent woken up.. but after that, i could answer them la :D with some certainty...
should be getting a DI this time!!
i better get it. all the efforts of understanding and memorising!! cannot go to waste!
and i told HIM that the test was "easy peasy", so i cannot afford to perform less than a DI. He wanted to wish me good luck before the test, but he didnt know that i'd be taking it early in the morning, so he ended up messaging me right in the middle of the paper..
but marina was veri upset. methinks her approach to studying for the test was insufficient.. but oso dunno how to help her sia.. haiii..
so damn tired. and i actually continued studying after the lecture. wah liao, why am i not taking a break or smth?! and i was actually trying to start studying for the upcoming biz stats test... OMG when did i become such a study-aholic?!!?
but my head got woozy and my eyes couldnt focus once i flipped open the lecture notes for biz stats.. means that i've reached my limit for today~
but i dun really care abt myself now.. cos HE is sick!!
suddenly he told me that he'd be gg off work to go see doc, made me rather worried.. it's the second time that he's fallen ill since we've met! could it be that i've spread some bug to him!? OH NO!!
and during his visit to the doctor, apparently he got bored and started sms-ing me -.-''
but now, he's taken his medicine and sleeping now.. sms-ed me gdnite half an hour ago.. sleep so early......i oso want~~~~
how i wish i can be at his side now and making sure he's comfortable :( still worried abt him..
hai.
and inspired by his enthusiasm towards producing his band's album, i wrote a few songs!! and those songs are rather sad and actually wad i've been saying to myself.. Titled them as "little girl", "you've lost" and "nothing" :D
but they're just words for now... cant think of a tune for them yet.. damn!!
brain juice count as of now: -100%
snoozed till 5.15..
started revision at around 5.30..
heard the marikita song on air 15 min before i dozed off again..
woke up again at 6.45~ this time veri awake, haha
today's price theory test......i was doing it rather happily. apparently some of my efforts paid off!! cos i attempted the exam questions, one of which actually came out as one of the structured questions! but for the mcq, i was reeling a lil cos apparently my brain havent woken up.. but after that, i could answer them la :D with some certainty...
should be getting a DI this time!!
i better get it. all the efforts of understanding and memorising!! cannot go to waste!
and i told HIM that the test was "easy peasy", so i cannot afford to perform less than a DI. He wanted to wish me good luck before the test, but he didnt know that i'd be taking it early in the morning, so he ended up messaging me right in the middle of the paper..
but marina was veri upset. methinks her approach to studying for the test was insufficient.. but oso dunno how to help her sia.. haiii..
so damn tired. and i actually continued studying after the lecture. wah liao, why am i not taking a break or smth?! and i was actually trying to start studying for the upcoming biz stats test... OMG when did i become such a study-aholic?!!?
but my head got woozy and my eyes couldnt focus once i flipped open the lecture notes for biz stats.. means that i've reached my limit for today~
but i dun really care abt myself now.. cos HE is sick!!
suddenly he told me that he'd be gg off work to go see doc, made me rather worried.. it's the second time that he's fallen ill since we've met! could it be that i've spread some bug to him!? OH NO!!
and during his visit to the doctor, apparently he got bored and started sms-ing me -.-''
but now, he's taken his medicine and sleeping now.. sms-ed me gdnite half an hour ago.. sleep so early......i oso want~~~~
how i wish i can be at his side now and making sure he's comfortable :( still worried abt him..
hai.
and inspired by his enthusiasm towards producing his band's album, i wrote a few songs!! and those songs are rather sad and actually wad i've been saying to myself.. Titled them as "little girl", "you've lost" and "nothing" :D
but they're just words for now... cant think of a tune for them yet.. damn!!
brain juice count as of now: -100%
02 August 2009
i dun like this feeling.
and yet i welcome it.
the feeling that his world is actually veri different from yours.
the feeling that he led/is leading a completely different life.
the feeling that he's made such great achievements and yet you've done absolutely nth worth mentioning. absolutely nth. besides making him smile.
the feeling that we're actually THAT far apart.
but when you're with him in person, he dun feel THAT far! he's down-to-earth and yet not leading the mundane and "tune-down" lifestyle of a typical singaporean (dun make much of a link, but who cares since i havent slept a wink for a loooooooooooong time)
he will speak singlish with me. even though it kinda sounds uncomfortable for the singlish ear.. it's just that he would subconsciously adapt the slang of whoever he's speaking to! how interesting..
and sometimes he would speak cute-ish to me as well, makes me veri tickled. EXTREMELY TICKLED. think that it's a way for him to actually make me feel comfortable, despite our age gap. im sure he wont behave the way he is when he's with ppl in his age group.....he'll hafta be matured - not that he isnt matured when with me.. but he wont show the cute-ish side of him to them RITE?!
haiya, dunno la.
and this invisible distance btn us actually makes me wanna close up the gap by working even harder. in some way or another. to work my way up to be worthy of his attention.
and yet i welcome it.
the feeling that his world is actually veri different from yours.
the feeling that he led/is leading a completely different life.
the feeling that he's made such great achievements and yet you've done absolutely nth worth mentioning. absolutely nth. besides making him smile.
the feeling that we're actually THAT far apart.
but when you're with him in person, he dun feel THAT far! he's down-to-earth and yet not leading the mundane and "tune-down" lifestyle of a typical singaporean (dun make much of a link, but who cares since i havent slept a wink for a loooooooooooong time)
he will speak singlish with me. even though it kinda sounds uncomfortable for the singlish ear.. it's just that he would subconsciously adapt the slang of whoever he's speaking to! how interesting..
and sometimes he would speak cute-ish to me as well, makes me veri tickled. EXTREMELY TICKLED. think that it's a way for him to actually make me feel comfortable, despite our age gap. im sure he wont behave the way he is when he's with ppl in his age group.....he'll hafta be matured - not that he isnt matured when with me.. but he wont show the cute-ish side of him to them RITE?!
haiya, dunno la.
and this invisible distance btn us actually makes me wanna close up the gap by working even harder. in some way or another. to work my way up to be worthy of his attention.
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