unbeautiful


Lyrics | Lesley Roy lyrics - Unbeautiful lyrics

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[Verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When We were still untouchable

[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[Bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go

[Chorus] x2
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

... Made me unbeautiful

on the side of me - corrine may

dedicated to sheng

On The Side of Me - Corrinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me

i will be

dedicated to sheng

I Will Be (Feat. Leona Lewis) - Avril Lavigne


There's nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

Bridge:
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Verse 2:
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

Bridge:
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Ending bridge:
Cause without you I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

Chorus:
And I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Chorus:
I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

i hate myself.

i hate me for being so insecure.

i hate me for being so childish.

i hate me whenever i make him cry.

i hate me when i become a possessive monster.



the old me has come back. back from secondary skool days when my world revolved around skool and a gal, elin.

when everyone around me abandoned me, at least elin didnt.

when everyone was pointing mocking fingers at me, at least elin wasnt.

when everyone made me cry, at least elin would stay at my side and let me cry.


that's y i felt like i could never do without her. everything i did, was either for me, or elin. nobody else really mattered.


and just so happened that she had this bullshit boyfriend who eventually broke her heart and left her clearing up the mess. so sometimes, she would seek some comfort and company from a few boys who acted like her brothers during recess. but being the possessive monster, i threw a big tantrum. i tried to keep my tears from flowing, till my eyes hurt so much and i couldnt see a thing. but elin saw my unshed tears and watched them overflow even though i fought so hard to keep them. she cried with me and it was then i knew that she was oso suffering, but in a different way.

and i was adding onto her burden by being so possessive.




so after we graduated from secondary skool, we went our separate ways, but maintaining contact via the internet. and i resolved myself not to get too carried away with anyone anymore.



and so i shut myself off for a few years. until i met lisheng.



it was during our time together that the monster in me started waking up.

i didnt like it that he was gg out with his frens without me while i was at home mugging for exams. i wanted him to be with me every minute, every second.

and he had this female colleague, which i didnt have a gd impression of. well, i first saw her when sheng and i were in his car during office hour, and she came up to the car and talked to him without acknowledging me. maybe she didnt see me, someone who was sitting rite beside him for the whole world to see. and they seemed so friendly together. and she was my age, but prettier and taller and slimmer.

i started having this inferior feeling the moment i knew of her existence. and i didnt want sheng to know that im such a monster, so i kept silent while trying to let him know that i didnt like the way they behaved together. instead of removing my inferiority, he teased me about it and laughed at me. he didnt find anything wrong with it.

somehow, im starting to cry. issit strange?

yes, she was attached. she has a bf working in the same company. but they had issues.

and it was until last week that my monster really came out.

that female colleague and her bf had cold war and she was depressed. the bf - whom sheng dislikes a lot bcos of that guy's attitude towards work and gf - had thrown her the car keys and walked off. so after work, she went to the car to wait for him to come back. she waited for quite some time after she knocked off. after sheng closed the office door, he asked me if the car was still there. i was bewildered and asked y he asked after i told him that the car was still there (cos i havent known wad happened) and he started telling me wad happened.

after that we reached the carpark and we reached that car before reaching his car. without looking at me and keeping his eyes on the car, he passed me everything he was holding onto and told me to go to the car first. to him at that moment, that female colleague was more impt than me. that didnt really hurt until he came to the car, started the engine, talked a lil more abt her and her bf, and left the car without a warning.

he just opened the door and left me.

to go to that gal.




somehow, i felt like i never mattered to him.




and for the rest of the nite, they were sms-ing each other a lot of times. and i was watching. but he never cared that he was messaging another gal while being with me.


he said that he treat her as a sister.


so a sister is more impt than a gf eh?


and he continued that he tend to take care of her bcos of that.


those words hurt like knives. my heart couldnt take it.


y was it that he has another gal in his mind besides me?


y cant he take care of me and me alone?


it's just not fair. i gave him my all. and his heart wasnt with me?


and there was the RC car issue. he wanted to buy this real expensive toy car which cost $430.
i personally didnt think that it was worth that much money, and he didnt have much savings to start with. we ended up quarrelling abt it. and finally i relented and he bought that toy car.



and since yesterday and today, he started to question y i was asking so many questions. was i?

it's just that for these past few days, he wasnt replying me as fast as he would in the past. he would take half an hour to reply a short sms even though he wasnt working. and yesterday, he went out with his colleagues and somehow, every sms i send, i had to wait for more than half an hour before i get a short reply.

was i even on his mind?

after that, we met in the evening. before that, i had eaten my dinner at home so i drank teh peng while he ate his.

long after that, while he was playing his RC car with his frens, i had this headache and i felt hungry and i let him know. he said, go macdonalds to buy a packet of fries. but i didnt want fries, i wanted cheeseburger. den he said that, cheeseburger got bread. so i said, dun eat the bread la. den he went on and said that there's meat. i tot, im suffering here and i cant even eat wad i want to eat? so i jokingly raised my voice a lil and said, "dun eat oredi la!"

den he got angry.

he got angry that i raised my voice at him.

how could he be angry at such a thing?

so i got pissed off.

but after that, i apologised.

seems like he refused to accept my apology.





and now he was saying that he didnt dare to meet me cos he never knew when or where i will throw my temper again.

and he didnt want to meet me.





my heart is totally broken now. and the tears keep flowing.

the monster in me has ruined my life again.



i want to die.

i love singapore.. yea yea

had a bad nite last nite..

heck.




ANYWAY, i want to talk about the movie
"the curious case of benjamin button"

IT'S DAMN NICE I TELL YOU.

but i bet my bf will fall asleep while watching it cos it's on the long and slow side..

and even though there are hardly any crying scenes, some scenes are sad enough for viewers to cry.

well, i cried.

a review at http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0421715/ went,

"...age is only a number, and that we as people can choose what we do with our lives, no matter what our age is.

What better way to tell this message than through a story where the titular character ages backwards, and must experience life in such a way?

How does one fall in love when he could one day appear young enough to be his spouse's child?

How does a 5 year old play with the neighborhood children when he's confined to a wheelchair stricken with old age?

Fincher's epic explores our choices, lives, and the timelessness of life itself..."



it's real nice, and it'll be out in sg on feb 5 :D

Singapore says exports falling more than expected

Singapore's key exports fell more than expected in December from a year ago, as recession-hit US and European consumers bought fewer goods from the city-state, the government said Friday.

Non-oil domestic exports tumbled 20.8 percent, faster than the 17.5 percent decline in November and worse than the average 20 percent slide tipped by analysts in a Dow Jones Newswires poll.

It was the eighth straigth month of contraction for the NODX, a closely watched barometer of the health of Singapore's open, trade-driven economy.

Key exports were worth 10.47 billion Singapore dollars (7.0 billion US) in December.

Exports to the European Union fell 34 percent, to neighbouring Malaysia by 26 percent and to the United States by 24 percent. Shipments declined to all of the country's top 10 markets, with the exception of Japan.

On a month-on-month seasonally adjusted basis, key exports declined 13 percent in December.

Total trade dropped 18.7 percent to 58.93 billion dollars.

The government has said the economy could contract by as much as two percent this year after growing 1.5 percent last year, sharply down from the 7.7 percent expansion in 2007.

David Cohen, of research house Action Economics, said exports are likely to fall further as the global economy worsens.

"Hope is still that things will bottom out by the end of the first half but there's just no guarantee, so the markets remain understandably nervous," he said.

Standard Chartered economist Alvin Liew said: "This is likely to be the most painful year in terms of external demand collapsing."

Singapore became the first Asian economy to fall into recession in the third quarter of last year.

The government has said the economy could contract by as much as two percent this year after growing 1.5 percent last year, sharply down from the 7.7 percent expansion in 2007.

- Dow Jones Newswires contributed to this story -