The Great Pretender
Lyrics: Buck Ram
Music: Buck Ram

Oh yes, Im the great pretender
Pretending that I'm doing well

My need is such I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own

I play the game but to my real shame
You left me to dream all alone

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel when my heart cant conceive

Oh, yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not, you see

I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that youre still around

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel when my heart cant conceive

Oh, yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what Im not, you see

I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that youre still around

Julie Simon - You’re A Part Of Me

*1 Everybody loves
Everybody cries
Everyone has feelings on the inside

*2 Everywhere you go
Everything you do
Feelings are a special part of you

Are you sad
Or mad
Or silly and glad
Find a friend and tell 'em how you feel

Are you scared
Or shy
Or bursting with pride
Share the news that's what makes it real

Everybody hopes
Everybody dreams
Everybody wonders what do feelings really mean

Everyone you touch
Everyone you know
Feelings are a part of how we grow

Are you tired
And down
Or just kidding all round
Find a friend and tell 'em how you feel

Are you jealous
Or bursting with pride
Share the news that's what makes it real

*1, *2 repeat

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ahh.. so funny that i cant even bring myself to laugh.

yesterday, i was sick beyond my belief. the flu came to me in full-force. i was feeling a lil blocked and so i felt kinda uncomfortable and found it difficult to breathe on wednesday. den thursday i felt more uncomfortable and that night, i had this bad flu. man i was glad. cos there was this phlegm stuck behind my nose for such a long time and i had to remove it. den the next morning, which is friday morning, i sneezed out a lot of green mucus, which is uncommon sight since for the whole of previous night i was sneezing and blowing out clear mucus, and i felt a lot better when i was at home. den i went to skool, man, i felt like hell. immediately slept on the table beside shaoqin after i bought two packets of tissue from canteen. den during morning assembly i was close to fainting as i listened to the energy-filled conversations of other peeps while i was feeling so damn sick.. even talking became tiring for me. so i couldnt talk much..

for the first hour of skool, which is physics lecture, i was sleeping throughout.. floating in between consciouseness and drowsiness, almost as if i had taken medication.. all the notes i copied during that tortorous one hour were illegible.. gotta borrow notes from the gals for clearer notes now.. den for pe, i didnt join them in the 2.4km run cos i knew that i wont be able to make it and that my flu will get worse if i exert myself any further.. and wow, shandy completed the run first, followed by yiting, den wanru, den jialing and finally shaoqin.. dean hadta accompany shaoqin to pace her but she still didnt make the grade.. he just kept talking to her and getting her to start running since she was kinda persistent in walking.. and den ms koh was kinda upset that wanru stopped, den she was upset that jialing was actually walking at the last 50m and only running at the last 15m.. haha.. so funny la!! den finally shaoqin came~ den meanwhile, i noticed that peng yan is kinda like a grandmother.. haha.. he was wearing his oh-so-nice-blue towel like a headscarf la~ put over his head and he could have tied a bow under his chin if the towel was longer.. but nah, he's not at all like an old grandmother.. he got abs leh! haha.. and he got moobs, the muscle type.. haha..

hey weiling, i saw you running too!! haha.. so cute!

den this morning, i dreamt that i had to submit comics and had brought it along when i went shopping with yiting and the rest.. and there's a problem. i keep forgetting to bring my stuff along whenever i left one location.. will always accidentally leave them behind.. so i actually left the place with empty hands! and i had bought sooooo many stuff and my drawings were in one of the bags! so i kan chiong.. den i saw my teacher [whom i have never seen before] examining my drawings in the kopitiam in the shopping mall!! and she was holding onto my stuff as well as the stuff which other pple had accidentally left behind.. so she was like a mobile lost-and-found box.. haha.. and the reason why i was so absent-minded was bcos i kept thinking of one guy.. kept thinking of push! diao~ rite? haha.. and yiting was like my reminder.. she will ask whether i forgot my stuff and den will laugh at me for being so blur.. haha.. wad an odd dream..

guess im watching too much tv and going to skool too often..

and now, my flu is nearly gone.. no more fever.. no more runny nose.. now abit blocked and i got a bit of a sore throat.. cant talk.. and im coughing a lil.. hope that i will be totally alright by tmw..

man, i feel sleepy after chiong-ing the presentation assignment given by my cca.. had to rush out a ppt and gotta set questions for the audience.. did it from 8pm to 12.30am..

omigosh, now got throbbing headache.

oh btw, now i feel that my friendship with wanru is improving.. hope it continues improving..
yesterday went to jurong point with her and i bought my fav ankle-socks-which-dont-even-touch-the-ankle! red, blue and green! so nice!!!! and i like the material oso.. it's so nice!!!! i love my socks! i love my cortez shoes as well!!!! oh la la~

At The Beginning
-Donna Lewis-

We were strangers,
starting out on a journey
Never dreaming,
what we’d have to go through
Now here we are,
I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected,
what you did to my heart
When I lost hope,
you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road
that I wanna keep going
Love is a river,
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road,
now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming,
how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand,
unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road
that I wanna keep going
Love is a river,
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road,
now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there
when the world stops turning
I’ll be there
when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody,
somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I’ve been waiting so long
Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road
that I wanna keep going
Love is a river,
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road,
now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there
when the world stops turning
I’ll be there
when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road
that I wanna keep going on
Love is a river,
I wanna keep going
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road
that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

yesterday, i woke up at 6.30. the time when i usually go off to skool. and i only ended up reaching skool fifteen minutes later than before..

great, now my nose running like a tap.. mucus is as liquid as water, not those gooey gooey ones.. im like drowning over here~ even talking makes me breathless now.

now im trying to study demand and supply via john sloman.


just now felt like just ending my life. i just feel so damned tired of life.
hm, these feelings must be messages from the damned nose.

"Why Can't I?"

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street,
and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you
when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend,
you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet,
and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak
whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable,
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else
you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch
we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while
for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go,
we're at the beginning
We haven't f***ed yet,
but my head's spinning

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak
whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable,
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you

High enough
for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough
for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'out of this
that we can't control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak
whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak
whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable,
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me


Why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you