was walking around bugis street, looking for the perfect dress.

den i came to this quiet corner where there's this near-deserted nail saloon.. glanced at it, saw a chiobu having her nails done. and since i wasnt wearing my glasses, i didnt notice who she was. not until she started talking and did some hand actions.

omg it's kaykay!

den my heart went "woah it's her!"

and i didnt realise that she was actually talking to our veri own blogger, xiaxue!

and then ivy called me and i was thinking if i should tell her who i saw.....and before i could say anything, she went "hey! christopher lee called my handphone leh"

wad a downer.....she's got juicier news :(

bought a x'mas present for marc..

told him that and guess wad he said?

"silly gal.."

somehow, when he said that i felt so happy :D even though i can imagine him rolling his eyes but smiling after that..

and somehow, i just keep on giving him more trouble and he would brush it off saying "nasi sudah jadi bubur" and turn around being concerned about how it is affecting me, and tell me that it will be alrite and that it's not the end of the world..

why is it that he's always so gd to me??? argh. i feel so guilty.

oh and when i gave him the custom-made keychain, he was so happy! okae not that hilarious happy, but happy happy :D on the very minute he got it, he immediately whipped out his car's key card and attached the key chain to it! he said, "just nice i was complaining to my mother that i always forget where i place my key card cos it's just like a card! i can shove it into my wallet and the next min i'll forget where i placed it."

and the next day, he showed it to his mother... or maybe she spotted it.. either way he said that she said that it looked pretty nice!

and he is still rather happy with the keychain, cos this morning he showed it off to a fren and said, "see, she gave this to me!"

sooooooooo cute~~

there are soooooo many times when he is just sooooooooo cute!!

once we were queuing for movie tix and still choosing which movie to watch.. he immediately ruled out horror films cos he "didnt like them".. and another time, we were watching tv and we were watching another horror flick, and he went "oh a horror film" and swiftly switched channels while saying, "dun like them. stupid." in his boy-boy voice...

so cute!!

i couldnt help but go "omg you're so cute" after he said that, and he smiled a lil..

there are so many sides of him which i love. i love all sides of him. his childish side, his complaining side, his serious side, his wacky side, his egoistic side, everything!!

i would go "such a big ego..." and he would say "well dun you like it?"

I LOVE IT.

we have so many happy memories, but also it feels insufficient. if he's to leave me rite now, and that i have to survive on those memories, i dunno how long i'll live. i might die. i may lose the will to live cos his departure would remove my day and nite, my soul and my heart, taking them all away.

cos he is the essence to my day and my nite, my heart and my soul.

had dimsum brunch with marc today :D rather enjoyable..

especially the times when he would read off the menu for me.. imagine him reading the whole list of dimsums to me, no matter how long the food's name is he would read.

which is sooooo cute of him!

and den food came after a looooooooooooooong loooooooooooong time, and we picked up our chopsticks. and he said,"wad kind of chinese are you?"

yes yes. i dun hold my chopsticks the "correct" way... yes yes, he does. and it's not the first time that he's pointing it out... so he tried to teach me how to hold it... and it was totally impossible!! and the whole time, this waitress was standing rite at our table watching this uncle trying to teach this gal how to hold her chopsticks! in the end, she offered to bring me fork and spoon - in chinese.

and he burst out laughing!

apparently he knows wad a "cha"(fork) is!!

and he LAUGHED!!!

:(

den i chided him and told him not to laugh, and that he's not supposed to understand mandarin in the first place.. and he said "i dunno, but i managed to catch wad she was trying to say!! haha~"

but he laughed so cutely :)

after brunch, which i didnt eat much... he said "wanna have some ice cream?"

3 min later, when we're at the counter he said "man i dun feel like having ice cream now.." but we still bought it, and he slurped it real fast!!! apparently, "slow eating" does not exist in his dictionary.. the rate that he eats his ice cream is horrendously quick. scary~

on the way back home, i massaged his hand and neck.. and when he parked at my carpark, he pulled the handbrake and slumped forward. for a sec, i was thinking "are you okae?"

den i got the message "massage neck"

massage oredi, this spoilt brat was giving me the drowsy look and was whining "nonono, now it's not balanced..... you massaged my neck, now massage my forehead for me pls~~"

and he fell asleep while i massaged his forehead! so while massaging, i was looking at him. he's got such thick and long eyelashes (untidy oso), big eyes, thick eyelashes, small sharp nose and those masculine lips.. when he pouts, he'll look sooooooo cute!! and his scalp was peeling from the sunburn he got from sri lanka.. so this is the man whom i have fallen for.. not bad :D

once in a while, he would open his eyes a lil to check on me, see if i was showing signs of fatigue from over-massaging him.. and he looked MORE sleepy after that. and he would talk in that sleepy-whining tone which totally makes me wanna tuck him into bed like a lil boy..

utterly cute.

he's so precious to me now.

and thanks to him, i've found a fren in ivy.. she's one of the best frens i've ever made in such a short span of time.. we got to know each other at the end of aug and now we chat as if we're known each other for a long long time! totally honest and open with each other :D and she's veri helpful as well, veri reliable too :) she will do her best to help if she can, otherwise she would give her moral support.. which is why she's gonna accompany me in the bazaar which is gg to take place this sat at the pits building.. i'll be setting up a stall there :D selling my old clothes or clothes which i've bought online but regretted..

she's really veri nice and she would share her problems with me.. as in problems with men.. not really problems, but it's just that there's a lot of men in her life.. so she will share her thoughts and ask for my opinions.. and then we would discuss abt marc and our issues with him.. did i mention that she was his ex-gf when marc just entered the navy? that was more than 15 yrs ago now.. and now they're great frens with one another.. and if ivy didnt like me, marc would have dumped me! but that was in the past, before he got to know me better :D recently ask him wad he would do if ivy decided that she wanted him to dump me, and he said that he wouldnt :) which was real comforting, even if it wasnt true.

i like her a lot. seriously. honestly.

"Save The Last Dance For Me"



You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much

You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me

'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.

my auntie called.

she was sobbing as she said "ah ma's gone"

that was almost two hours ago.

he's endearing to the limit

he cant take pressure. he gets stressed easily and it puts him in a bad mood. he's reactive, so we cannot shake him too much. when he's in a bad mood, there is no other way to make him feel better besides leaving him to sort out his thoughts, better still just sit beside him and stay quiet and try not to sound too happy.. otherwise he'll say "it's not funny" and show his foul mood..

and so, his flight back was a nightmare. it was supposed to be a pure transit from las vegas, to san francisco and then fly to sg.. but due to some cock-ups, instead of coming back to sg from san fran, he was "deported" to tokyo instead.. and when they finally reached tokyo, they gave him two options: wait for the next-day flight at tokyo and stay there for a nite, or take a flight down to bangkok and find their own way back to sg....

tried to crack a joke, but he gave me the "it's not funny" line... sensed that he was not in a good mood, and i decided to give him a call (my first overseas outgoing call!)... den he said that he'd call me back later, cos he was having a nightmare come true.. heh. a while later, he finally called back and told me the whole story of how he's gg to make his way back to singapore.. and we will finally meet on tue!!!! YAY!!!! and he was gg "fark no am i gg to go back to work on tue. okae maybe i'll be there in the morning till afternoon, but it's onli for a while. no way will i be back to work. they can fuck off if they expect me back to work on tue. i definitely wont be meeting you tmw (mon), but we are definitely gg to meet on tue k?"

ahhhhh, he's so cute

in the end, they (him and another fren) managed to arrange a morning flight from tokyo and touch down at sg at around 5pm..

means his arrival has been delayed for 17hours in total, together with a helluva stress..

and just now, i suddenly received the impact: HE'S COMING BACK TO SG!!

so i was talking to myself "omg he's coming back. he's really coming back."

cant wait to hug him, cant wait to feel his "fur", can wait to hold his hand.. cant wait to hear him coo to me.. the way he would lazily whine out his sincerest thoughts to me, totally endearing. cant wait to feel his warmth. cant wait to refresh my memory of every inch of his body. cant wait to caress his dimple. cant wait to feel protected once more. i think i need that sense of security.

cos today, i went to my late grandfather's urn lot at lim chu kang... it was the first time i had so many things to say to him. bcos of my grandmother. i was asking him to bring her along cos it was just so helpless seeing how near-dead she was but it's just like she's doing this helpless struggle against the impending death.

after that we went to visit my grandmother again.. she looks so much weaker now.. and she looked so much more different from when i saw her last week.. so much more sunken. and she no longer had the energy to even talk now.. she would just groan a lil with her mouth agape.. she could not even close her mouth now cos there was just no more energy to keep it closed.

and when i held her hand, it felt extremely warm. too warm. totally not wad i'd expect... i was waiting to feel hands as cold as marble. but it felt so warm. and no matter how i caressed, there wasnt a response. cos my grandmother couldnt even move her fingers anymore.

and her face was extremely white. as white as paper. it was the first time i'd ever seen such a pale and white face.

she looked so fragile.

life is that fragile eh?

that makes me yearn even more for his strong arms to be around me again, and saying "i love you so much" like it meant everything to him.

damnnnn i miss him soooooo much!

4.22am: SMS received

i didnt hear the msg tone. remained asleep and dreaming.

4.25am: 1st phone call

"hi darling, can i know wad's your size? im at the store now and i need to know your bra size."

"it's 34DD"

"oh it's 34D........"

"nono, DD"

"34DD, are you sure it's not 32?"

"nono, it's 34DD"

"okae thankiew!! bye"

"bye"

4.28am: 2nd phone call

"okae, there are thousands of designs.. so which type of bra do you want? the normal ones or the fun ones?"

"erm... anyone will do la"

"no no you have to choice, no 'anything'"

"eh... okae okae the fun ones"

"the fun ones ah? okae byebye"

"bye"

4.35am: 3rd phone call

"okae im buying two bras for you.. one with leopard prints......you know that i like leopard prints rite?"

"erm... leooooooooooopard prints *immediately tot of ris low* ermmmmm..... oooooooookae ya"

"you dun like leopard prints?"

"nono, i mean... leopard prints are a new thing for me *mentally stabbing myself*"

"okae okae, oh btw wad time is it over there now?"

"4.30am"

"OH oh... so sorry to wake you up... so i'll get the leopard prints ah? oh ya, it comes as a set, so wad's your panty size?"

"no no, im wide awake now :) get me an L la"

"you sure L? you're a lot slimmer now, not gonna get an M?"

"nono, L will do"

"okae, L ah.... okae, byee!"

"byeee"

4.59am: SMS received

"Ok wow. They're not cheap. Bought you one set, leopard print. And one turqoise lace bra"

5.54am: 4th phone call

"SORRY SORRY!! I just called to tell you that i love you and i miss you!"

"okae i miss you too. bye"

"bye"






AND FINALLY, I COULD SLEEP IN PEACE!!

and he ended up buying a size M thong for me. incorrigible.