im sooooooooooo touched!!!
he actually stayed up and came online to talk to me!! and he said he missed me!!!! chatted with him for a while before he couldnt take it and went to sleep... i miss him soooooo much!!!
and it was so obvious that the Z monster was attacking him cos he was starting to type nonsense... so cute!!
28 October 2009
i had a dream
two dreams.
first dream, i was lost on an expressway. that's it.
second dream, it was at home. with a bunch of frens. and a female chinese ghost. she was very pretty and always smiling in a cheerful way.. and she would always hover around one pretty female fren of mine (dun ask me who... i dun recognise a single person in my dream) and facing me. so i tot that she was haunting my fren and i told my fren that..
suddenly something happened and the female ghost became a rocker-dude with jet black hair, had eyeliners and in a typical leather jacket+pants and those chain dangling around. and he was asking me "i tot death amulets are supposed to be like that?!" and he disappeared.
later i discovered that he was one of the members of a rock band, and i had JUST bought their latest album. apparent that album was the death amulet he mentioned.
den i woke up, totally blur and i kept thinking how come there's this story that popped out in my brain. and i was trying to link some bits and pieces together, even as i brushed my teeth... haha
to think that i would dream, in the first place.
two dreams.
first dream, i was lost on an expressway. that's it.
second dream, it was at home. with a bunch of frens. and a female chinese ghost. she was very pretty and always smiling in a cheerful way.. and she would always hover around one pretty female fren of mine (dun ask me who... i dun recognise a single person in my dream) and facing me. so i tot that she was haunting my fren and i told my fren that..
suddenly something happened and the female ghost became a rocker-dude with jet black hair, had eyeliners and in a typical leather jacket+pants and those chain dangling around. and he was asking me "i tot death amulets are supposed to be like that?!" and he disappeared.
later i discovered that he was one of the members of a rock band, and i had JUST bought their latest album. apparent that album was the death amulet he mentioned.
den i woke up, totally blur and i kept thinking how come there's this story that popped out in my brain. and i was trying to link some bits and pieces together, even as i brushed my teeth... haha
to think that i would dream, in the first place.
27 October 2009
CRYIN' by ADAM LAMBERT
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind
Now listen
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do - down on me
Now there's not even breathin' room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we're makin' love
Must be one and the same
It's down on me
Yeah I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil's in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do to me
'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
If you give your heart away
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me,
baby, baby, baby
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do down to , down to, down to, down to
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm dyin' to forget you
Your love is sweet
I was cryin' when I met you
[fade]
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind
Now listen
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do - down on me
Now there's not even breathin' room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we're makin' love
Must be one and the same
It's down on me
Yeah I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil's in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do to me
'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
If you give your heart away
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me,
baby, baby, baby
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do down to , down to, down to, down to
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm dyin' to forget you
Your love is sweet
I was cryin' when I met you
[fade]
25 October 2009
16 October 2009
he's said that i've changed.
im smiling a lot more.
im getting more stylish (onli when i go out with him)
im getting more vocal.
and that i look veri appealing when i smile. or when i half-smile. or when i laugh at jokes (including my own jokes)
wad do i like about him?
this sounds weird, but i love the smells associated with him. the smell of tobacco that lingers on his fingers after he grabs a fag, the smell of crayons that lingers in his car, the cologne he wears. his burps and farts are negligible.
he looks beautiful. he can do almost anything with a form of elegance and grace which you cannot find in other singaporean guys. besides the part that he picks his teeth occasionally if there's food stuck in between his teeth. or when he attempts to dig his nose.
he has his endearing side as well. when he is dazed and confused, i just like to make him more confused, just in order to see that blank look on his face as he tries to register the situation. when he is playing with gadgets and looking like he's totally lost at dealing with them, or when he's playing handphone games and being so amused and totally engrossed in them like a 3 yr old kid.
and the times when he makes fun of me. or when i FINALLY have the chance to poke fun at him and call him "domass" since he's alwayssssssssssss calling me that when i have my bimbo moments.
we'll be doing something, and he poses this problem to me or when we have this problem, i will be looking at the wrong direction and then he will direct me to the correct way and then say "domass" or "silly" or "silly billy"
or when i am in my purple dresses. he'll start singing "mister sun" or the "i love you you love me we are happy family". today he sung "mister sun" and he finished the whole song beautifully and gently. just the way he'll sing it to his gals to lull them to sleep.
and when he's narrating one of his many many experiences, i'll always be listening with attentive ears and an open heart. I HAVE TO, COS HIS STORIES ARE ALWAYS OUTRAGEOUS.
and his shoulders are the most beautiful i've ever seen in real life. the outline of his collarbone and his broad shoulders are literally sculpted. and it's so strong. so strong that he's been shouldering so many burdens and responsibilities without realising it. and i just love resting my head on his shoulders.
his eyes are beautiful as well. today i noticed that he has triple eyelids on his left eye, and double on the right. so does leslie cheung! esp when the eyes are tired, the triple eyelid thing will pop out even more... as for me, i can never count exactly how many eye-creases i have. haha... and when he focuses on you, his attention is almost fully on you. it's impossible to have the complete attention cos there's the phone :D as for me, i have short attention spans, so............i always try to give him my incomplete attention.
and i met him on april fools' day. leslie's death anniversary. i rmb now. there was this melancholic feeling when i first saw him, bcos i was thinking of leslie. and on leslie's bday, it was the chunk fest. so both days are somewhat meaningful to me.
btw he said that i looked like a witch from macbeth when he first saw me. #$#^#%^#$&@#$@#$@#^@
but his giggles just wash away any kind of frustration i have with him. just as i hope that i will be able help him relieve some stress and at least help him relax and be himself and happy while he's with me.
and according to him, he likes chatting with me on the phone while on the road or something cos we will always be "crapping" and having mini debates about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING..
hence he's labelled me as "comic relief" aka his alternate, walking source of entertainment. hah. domass.
im smiling a lot more.
im getting more stylish (onli when i go out with him)
im getting more vocal.
and that i look veri appealing when i smile. or when i half-smile. or when i laugh at jokes (including my own jokes)
wad do i like about him?
this sounds weird, but i love the smells associated with him. the smell of tobacco that lingers on his fingers after he grabs a fag, the smell of crayons that lingers in his car, the cologne he wears. his burps and farts are negligible.
he looks beautiful. he can do almost anything with a form of elegance and grace which you cannot find in other singaporean guys. besides the part that he picks his teeth occasionally if there's food stuck in between his teeth. or when he attempts to dig his nose.
he has his endearing side as well. when he is dazed and confused, i just like to make him more confused, just in order to see that blank look on his face as he tries to register the situation. when he is playing with gadgets and looking like he's totally lost at dealing with them, or when he's playing handphone games and being so amused and totally engrossed in them like a 3 yr old kid.
and the times when he makes fun of me. or when i FINALLY have the chance to poke fun at him and call him "domass" since he's alwayssssssssssss calling me that when i have my bimbo moments.
we'll be doing something, and he poses this problem to me or when we have this problem, i will be looking at the wrong direction and then he will direct me to the correct way and then say "domass" or "silly" or "silly billy"
or when i am in my purple dresses. he'll start singing "mister sun" or the "i love you you love me we are happy family". today he sung "mister sun" and he finished the whole song beautifully and gently. just the way he'll sing it to his gals to lull them to sleep.
and when he's narrating one of his many many experiences, i'll always be listening with attentive ears and an open heart. I HAVE TO, COS HIS STORIES ARE ALWAYS OUTRAGEOUS.
and his shoulders are the most beautiful i've ever seen in real life. the outline of his collarbone and his broad shoulders are literally sculpted. and it's so strong. so strong that he's been shouldering so many burdens and responsibilities without realising it. and i just love resting my head on his shoulders.
his eyes are beautiful as well. today i noticed that he has triple eyelids on his left eye, and double on the right. so does leslie cheung! esp when the eyes are tired, the triple eyelid thing will pop out even more... as for me, i can never count exactly how many eye-creases i have. haha... and when he focuses on you, his attention is almost fully on you. it's impossible to have the complete attention cos there's the phone :D as for me, i have short attention spans, so............i always try to give him my incomplete attention.
and i met him on april fools' day. leslie's death anniversary. i rmb now. there was this melancholic feeling when i first saw him, bcos i was thinking of leslie. and on leslie's bday, it was the chunk fest. so both days are somewhat meaningful to me.
btw he said that i looked like a witch from macbeth when he first saw me. #$#^#%^#$&@#$@#$@#^@
but his giggles just wash away any kind of frustration i have with him. just as i hope that i will be able help him relieve some stress and at least help him relax and be himself and happy while he's with me.
and according to him, he likes chatting with me on the phone while on the road or something cos we will always be "crapping" and having mini debates about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING..
hence he's labelled me as "comic relief" aka his alternate, walking source of entertainment. hah. domass.
these days, have been meeting him more frequent.
but there's one thing which i need to confess to him. it might risk him being so furious with me that he'll dump me on the spot.
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yesterday was wow.......met him at the rail mall at around 12pm. he was doing his work at coffee bean. and then we went to orchard to meet new frens from the forum from which we got to know each other.. THEN HE BROUGHT ME TO THE RECORDING STUDIO!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!
and so, i reached home at 1am......
and today, i met him again! at west mall.. but it's a lot more brief. accompanied him to change his hp since it broke down :D
and then i went to sleep at 7.30pm...woke up at 11.30pm :D woke up feeling sick. wanted to study late at nite when it's onli me, my notes and the radio. but seems like i cant concentrate when the notes are so blardy messy. so i will be making a trip down to skool tmw to print MORE notes. as in, re-print notes and REALLY ORGANISE them!! and den i can just READ AND READ AND MEMORISE EVERYTHING.
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damn i love him.
but i must make the confession. either tmw. or sat.
but there's one thing which i need to confess to him. it might risk him being so furious with me that he'll dump me on the spot.
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yesterday was wow.......met him at the rail mall at around 12pm. he was doing his work at coffee bean. and then we went to orchard to meet new frens from the forum from which we got to know each other.. THEN HE BROUGHT ME TO THE RECORDING STUDIO!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!
and so, i reached home at 1am......
and today, i met him again! at west mall.. but it's a lot more brief. accompanied him to change his hp since it broke down :D
and then i went to sleep at 7.30pm...woke up at 11.30pm :D woke up feeling sick. wanted to study late at nite when it's onli me, my notes and the radio. but seems like i cant concentrate when the notes are so blardy messy. so i will be making a trip down to skool tmw to print MORE notes. as in, re-print notes and REALLY ORGANISE them!! and den i can just READ AND READ AND MEMORISE EVERYTHING.
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damn i love him.
but i must make the confession. either tmw. or sat.
10 October 2009
i dunno why....but im no longer that possessive over him? or am i still the same ol? i still have the urge to shower him with gifts and love and have him breathing down my neck. as in really coming from behind me, push my hair away and talk to me really close and breathing heavily.
sends shivers down my spine. and he's the onli one who's able to do that to me. im addicted.
and he was sooooooooooo cute yesterday!! i had this chance to tickle his sole, and he went "kekeke, dun you dare tickle ah!!" and he sounded damnnnnnnnnnned cute!!! esp that KEKEKE.
and he did smth really naughty. veri. and so he asked for forgiveness. but at that time, i havent found out wad he had done. he simply texted "i have been a very very naughty boy! Will you forgive me?"
then i said "NO!!" even though i had no clue.
then he called and went "kekeke"
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! HE KEEPS MAKING THAT HAMSTER-Y SOUND WHICH JUST MAKES ME WANNA RUFFLE HIS HAIR. but he doesnt have hair on his head. bahhh.
and then there was this one time at the bar last nite, we kissed real nice and deep :D and then he shivered. SO CUTE!!!! but still, he will bully me whenever he can la. tease me. and i just love him for everything he's done for me, with me and to me.
sends shivers down my spine. and he's the onli one who's able to do that to me. im addicted.
and he was sooooooooooo cute yesterday!! i had this chance to tickle his sole, and he went "kekeke, dun you dare tickle ah!!" and he sounded damnnnnnnnnnned cute!!! esp that KEKEKE.
and he did smth really naughty. veri. and so he asked for forgiveness. but at that time, i havent found out wad he had done. he simply texted "i have been a very very naughty boy! Will you forgive me?"
then i said "NO!!" even though i had no clue.
then he called and went "kekeke"
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! HE KEEPS MAKING THAT HAMSTER-Y SOUND WHICH JUST MAKES ME WANNA RUFFLE HIS HAIR. but he doesnt have hair on his head. bahhh.
and then there was this one time at the bar last nite, we kissed real nice and deep :D and then he shivered. SO CUTE!!!! but still, he will bully me whenever he can la. tease me. and i just love him for everything he's done for me, with me and to me.
08 October 2009
Draggin' Around by Rilo Kiley
Here's to all the luck that pours down on me
Here's to all the melodies that picked us up off our seats
Here's to the younger ones when they replace me
Here's to the bitterness that keeps the sweet so sweet
Here's to all the words that we'll never speak
Here's to all the pretty girls that you're going to meet
Here's to the little lies I tell in my sleep
Here's to the secrets that you're going to keep
Why dont you raise up, raise up your cup?
Ive had enough, raise up your cups
Here's to the company that we used to keep
Here's to the certainty of sickness and sleep
Here's to the death of who we thought we were
Here's to all our kids that'll never be born
Why don't you raise up, raise up your cup?
I'm choking up, raise up your cups
To dragging around
A cross and a thorny crown
And living because you're willing
And being forgiven, thankfully
Here's to all the melodies that picked us up off our seats
Here's to the younger ones when they replace me
Here's to the bitterness that keeps the sweet so sweet
Here's to all the words that we'll never speak
Here's to all the pretty girls that you're going to meet
Here's to the little lies I tell in my sleep
Here's to the secrets that you're going to keep
Why dont you raise up, raise up your cup?
Ive had enough, raise up your cups
Here's to the company that we used to keep
Here's to the certainty of sickness and sleep
Here's to the death of who we thought we were
Here's to all our kids that'll never be born
Why don't you raise up, raise up your cup?
I'm choking up, raise up your cups
To dragging around
A cross and a thorny crown
And living because you're willing
And being forgiven, thankfully
03 October 2009
You hit me once
I hit you back
You gave a kick
I gave a slap
You smashed a plate over my head
Then I set fire to our bed
You hit me once
I hit you back
You gave a kick
I gave a slap
You smashed a plate over my head
Then I set fire to our bed
My black eye casts no shadow
Your red eye sees nothing
Your slap don't stick
Your kicks don't hit
So we remain the same
Love sticks
Sweat drips
Break the lock if it don't fit
A kick to the teeth is good for some
A kiss with a fist is better then none
A kiss with a fist is better then none
I broke your jaw once before
I spilled your blood upon the floor
You broke my leg in return
So sit back and watch the bed burn
Love sticks
Sweat drips
Break the lock if it don't fit
A kick to the teeth is good for some
A kiss with a fist is better then none
A kiss with a fist is better then none
You hit me once
I hit you back
You gave a kick
I gave a slap
You smashed a plate over my head
Then I set fire to our bed
You hit me once
I hit you back
You gave a kick
I gave a slap
You smashed a plate over my head
Then I set fire to our bed
02 October 2009
there's one thing i have finally observed about me.
i onli care about wad i feel.
when in love, im thinking of how much i love this person. but never about how i am being loved back, how much im being loved and why that person managed loves me back.
when with frens, im thinking of how bad i wanted to maintain this friendship for eternity, but never about how much the other party wishes to remain as a part of my life and how and the reason why it is that they still want me as a fren.
i always manage to come up with new reasons why im falling deeper in love with marc. that's bcos i care about how much i love him. but i never really tot about how much he loves me!
i onli care about wad i feel.
when in love, im thinking of how much i love this person. but never about how i am being loved back, how much im being loved and why that person managed loves me back.
when with frens, im thinking of how bad i wanted to maintain this friendship for eternity, but never about how much the other party wishes to remain as a part of my life and how and the reason why it is that they still want me as a fren.
i always manage to come up with new reasons why im falling deeper in love with marc. that's bcos i care about how much i love him. but i never really tot about how much he loves me!
Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew
So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone
So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
(AND I WALKED)UNDER A BUS
I GOT HIT BY A TRAIN
AND IT FEELT SO GOOD
AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN
WANNA DO IT AGAIN
*HEY EY IEEY*
(WANNA DO IT)
Oh, felt so good
Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest love.
So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
I want to do it again
01 October 2009
it was cool, went to sentosa with ivy and rusty! we walked around siloso beach, went to underwater world and the dolphin lagoon, ate at sentosa golf club.. and rusty paid for most of the stuff la!! so nice of him :D and you know wad? rusty shares the same bday as me!! but he'll be celebrating his bday back in the states...... so yea, im sticking to my original plans.... heh!
dammit la......i totally dun feel like giving tuition today. not when im gg to have my first clubbing session for the last 3 yrs!!! dammit.
EUNICE YING, TAHAN!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
and ivy jie is such a nice lady :D i like her a lot. really. she likes me too ba.... keeps calling me bao bei~ eeeeeeeee..............
and someone's gg to phuket later this evening!! how sweet.
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yesterday, we had coffee. ya i dun drink coffee but i forced the mocha down my throat.
and he let me know his thoughts and how his business is progressing, wad happened during his business trip and how much he wants me to be able to really grow up and face the world and become the successful woman he imagines me to be.
one of the things we spoke about was him being pressurised by me. it's just that he's always so afraid that i'll be upset that i cant see him as much, and that he dun want me to be unhappy. and when im unhappy, he feels the pressure and becomes upset with himself! and he actually realised that i was damned pissed off on tue nite. cos he said that "maybe" we could meet after his meetings were over, so i asked him where and all those... and in the end we couldnt meet. and he tot i was angry at him, bcos he couldnt meet me. BUT the reason why i was so freaking pissed was his use of words at that point of time which made me feel like im being a pest to him. so after the message which got me super frustrated, i gave him the cold shoulder and just told him "sorry for disturbing. bye"
and for the rest of the nite, i didnt msg him AT ALL. not until he finally called after his meeting. and when i answered his call, i immediately stopped being angry at him. and then he decided to bring me out for a drink the next day - which was yesterday.
and when he was trying desperately to explain that he felt the pressure to meet me and all those, i couldnt help but smile. i felt so happy la.... cos he's the type of guy who wont care abt how pple feel about his actions. and he actually cares about wad i feel. and i was so damned happy. and looking at his desperate face which looked totally comical, i just cant help but grin at him and nod as he asked "you understand anot.....really?"
and i realised that there was this guy who kept turning over to look at us. most of the time he'd look at me, cos if he turned some more to look at marc, his neck will snap. cos his back was facing towards us :D
and when we left coffee bean and moved on to 7-11 for him to get his ciggies..... at the cashier counter, he looked at me. totally focused on me.
and he kissed me straight on the lips.
our noses kinda became deformed after that... and he has this beautiful, small sharp nose which looks totally sculpted by some well-known artist. my nose is like small and flat.
den he said, "i kinda wanted to do that."
how can i not love him??
when out of the store, we lingered at the entrance there and chatted. he rested his arms on my shoulders and kissed me again :D den we continue chatting....about how im being placed on his priority list and all those..
den he walked me to the bus stop -he had a meeting immediately after our coffee so he couldnt send me home- and he said, "see you on monday.. or tue. oh no, definitely on monday. oh wait, do i have anything on for monday?? *looks at me cheekily* HAHAHAHA, of course i have nothing on for monday....!"
he's soooooooo cute!
but yes, i really need him to be gone. im getting way too attached to him. im freaking myself out.
dammit la......i totally dun feel like giving tuition today. not when im gg to have my first clubbing session for the last 3 yrs!!! dammit.
EUNICE YING, TAHAN!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
and ivy jie is such a nice lady :D i like her a lot. really. she likes me too ba.... keeps calling me bao bei~ eeeeeeeee..............
and someone's gg to phuket later this evening!! how sweet.
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yesterday, we had coffee. ya i dun drink coffee but i forced the mocha down my throat.
and he let me know his thoughts and how his business is progressing, wad happened during his business trip and how much he wants me to be able to really grow up and face the world and become the successful woman he imagines me to be.
one of the things we spoke about was him being pressurised by me. it's just that he's always so afraid that i'll be upset that i cant see him as much, and that he dun want me to be unhappy. and when im unhappy, he feels the pressure and becomes upset with himself! and he actually realised that i was damned pissed off on tue nite. cos he said that "maybe" we could meet after his meetings were over, so i asked him where and all those... and in the end we couldnt meet. and he tot i was angry at him, bcos he couldnt meet me. BUT the reason why i was so freaking pissed was his use of words at that point of time which made me feel like im being a pest to him. so after the message which got me super frustrated, i gave him the cold shoulder and just told him "sorry for disturbing. bye"
and for the rest of the nite, i didnt msg him AT ALL. not until he finally called after his meeting. and when i answered his call, i immediately stopped being angry at him. and then he decided to bring me out for a drink the next day - which was yesterday.
and when he was trying desperately to explain that he felt the pressure to meet me and all those, i couldnt help but smile. i felt so happy la.... cos he's the type of guy who wont care abt how pple feel about his actions. and he actually cares about wad i feel. and i was so damned happy. and looking at his desperate face which looked totally comical, i just cant help but grin at him and nod as he asked "you understand anot.....really?"
and i realised that there was this guy who kept turning over to look at us. most of the time he'd look at me, cos if he turned some more to look at marc, his neck will snap. cos his back was facing towards us :D
and when we left coffee bean and moved on to 7-11 for him to get his ciggies..... at the cashier counter, he looked at me. totally focused on me.
and he kissed me straight on the lips.
our noses kinda became deformed after that... and he has this beautiful, small sharp nose which looks totally sculpted by some well-known artist. my nose is like small and flat.
den he said, "i kinda wanted to do that."
how can i not love him??
when out of the store, we lingered at the entrance there and chatted. he rested his arms on my shoulders and kissed me again :D den we continue chatting....about how im being placed on his priority list and all those..
den he walked me to the bus stop -he had a meeting immediately after our coffee so he couldnt send me home- and he said, "see you on monday.. or tue. oh no, definitely on monday. oh wait, do i have anything on for monday?? *looks at me cheekily* HAHAHAHA, of course i have nothing on for monday....!"
he's soooooooo cute!
but yes, i really need him to be gone. im getting way too attached to him. im freaking myself out.
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