this is stupid.
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/we-need-a-better-economics-lecturer
blardy stupid.
who petitions against part time lecturers? it's akin to petitioning against MPs who have a fulltime job and oso being an MP la.. it's meaningless and childish and implying that they have nth better to do.
if they find the lecturer inadequate, well just take the blardy notes and STUDY on your own self! if you expect the lecturer to cater to your needs, apparently you have been enjoying being spoon-fed by the educators of your past studying life.
it may seem irritating that sam tends to get agitated over the lecture theatre being noisy and rowdy when we shouldnt, and that he tends to rmb grudges :D it may get irritating that the lecture notes dun tally, or that we only get it AFTER the lecture itself.. but well, just accept it la..... sam should have his reasons rite? and he may not be the best lecturer ever found, but hey he tried to be a good lecturer in his own definition.
somehow, his efforts of helping us students have been overlooked. in order to help us for the first PT test, he took out a few hours out of his precious time to sit down and give doubtful students some guidance for the test. he could veri well just heck care that we'll fail rite? and oso, he isnt the type to simply read off the slides, he actually tries to paint a picture in our thick heads! but some heads are too thick to get it.
we onli know how to be self-righteous and pinpoint the faults of others.
and it's so obvious that he didnt mean it to give everybody a zero for the test today, just bcos the noise level got out of hand. and in the first place, we shouldnt be opening our mouths. he tried to treat us as adults, but apparantly some wanted to be treated as royalty.
and if you dun understand the diagrams, there are texts and classmates on standby. i happen to be able to understand his lecture. and i happen to oso refer to my textbook quite regularly. and i happen to be on sam's side.
the petition thing is just purely a display of stupidity and shows how pampered this particular generation is.
ARGH.
compare him to pamela w., he's an angel la!!
if they find it irritating to listen to his so-called life stories, try being at HER lectures. it's like gg for her autobiography class.
I HATE THOSE CLASSMATES OF MINE. really. im sorry but i have a strong distaste for them.
28 August 2009
today was great!! i love today. no i dun mean the newspaper :D
i mean, i woke up. didnt really go back to sleep, but i felt glued to the bed.. but still, AWAKE.
but i still ended up being late in meeting ching for our morning routine of taking bus to skool together, thanks to my mother's sudden friendliness and keen-ness to chat with me early in the morning.....heh but all the time, i was in a bouyant mood. as in happy. BESIDES THE TIME WHEN THE STUPID BUS DRIVER NEVER BRAKED/RELEASED BRAKE PROPERLY.
anyway....
den lecture.....i was okae la. not moody. not sleepy. not restless. and the lecturer is soooooo cute, cracking lame but amusing jokes, and oso that "innocence" in him whenever he accidentally makes the whole lecture theatre laugh but he just dunno why we're laughing.
and den............................i met him!!! BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY.
waited at the bus stop outside skool for his car to appear....wait wait wait, den i decided to take out my work to study. yesh i've become a study-aholic. and den his sedan came. so i clutched tightly onto my notes and my bag and went up the car :D
but he wasnt in the best of moods......guess he must have been too bogged down by work and other stuff.... (but thank goodness he was at all smiles when the day ended)
we had lunch at ichiban :D and the whole time when we were deciding wad to eat, he suggested that we eat sushi. and just to annoy me, he kept going "let's have some SHUSHI.......where to eat SHUSHI.......you want some SHUSHIII? let's have some SHUSHIIIII..."
when he said it the first time, i naturally corrected him "SUshi..."
but he refuuuuuuuuuuuused to be corrected. on purpose.
and finally, i went "arrrrrrgh it's SUSHI!"
and den he laughed, saying "i really managed to irritate you with that ah?"
and i laughed - he really knows how to make me laugh.
and while we were walking around, he was talking and talking and he said "well, the show (that we're gg to watch later) seems interesting, even though the COMPANY IS BAD..."
he's saying that im poor company!! so i asked, "wad bad company huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?"
and he said, "wah someone knows how to catch words huh..." and he suaned me back with smth that i said in the past. WAHHHHH, PULL HAIR.
found out he doesnt like to eat eggs... means he doesnt like my fav chawanmushi. that's gd in a way, means i dun hafta share my chawanmushi :D and i dun like a lot more stuff :D and he can take all of them. MUAHAHAHAHA, MY RUBBISH BIN.
so after we finished the meal (first time we actually sat side by side to makan wor!! feels a whole lot more different and heartwarming) and at the cashier counter, there was this rather pretty woman. think she's a prc....the way she dress and the fact that she was waving her LV wallet around. and she kept checking him out!!
somehow, rite in front of her, i said "hey, she's checking you out!"
den he said, "no she's checking YOU (me) out!!"
so we had this mini debate abt who she was actually checking out. and by then, she's just left te place, and she was definitely checking him out la!!
but he concluded that she was checking both of us out - cos we look like an absolutely odd couple. his looks are too outstanding, him being botak (his head was rather shiny today - i could spot him from afar as long as there is light above him), chocolate-coloured skin with his sharp facial features.... it just makes pple take a second look at him and wonder wad's his race, and oso wad's his contact number. and then he's with this short, plain-looking chinese gal whose boobs are too big for her stature. and oso fat. we dun look compatible at all, even though we look above average, ALONE :D
after that, shopped for snacks at cold storage. and snacks became fruits. wah, so healthy. being the miser among the two of us, i looked at the price tags and i immediately dismiss the item. so what if the cherries flew all the way from canada? so wad if the grapes came from japan? and it seems like the way i am so price-conscious, amused him a lil..... he saw that i wanted the cherries, so he told me to get a box. but once i got to know that a box cost $9.90, i immediately let down the box of cherries i was holding and told him, "let's look for a cheaper fruit."
and he said the most amazing thing, "wanna play some computer games?"
and it turned out to be ARCADE!! and we really went to the arcade to play. we played racing games, mariokart....and he just keeps winning la. humph. but it's just weird.........seeing a full-grown man playing such games. makes me take a step back and ask, "woah, is this real? is he really playing??"
maybe he's experiencing his second childhood. or maybe it's just to get down to my "level"...
after that, he had cafeine cravings... so we went to coffee bean - was happily queueing when he saw his relative. den he decided not to get seen by her since she was with her *ahem* lover, and told me not to 'kaypoh'.. but i decided not to let this pass! so i went, "eh how ahhh, i veri kaypoh one leiiiiii.............." and pretended to try and peek. hahahahahahahaha, he can suan me, and so i suan him back :D
den we went to watch bruno at great world city's GV!! yesh, bruno is r21. yesh, i managed to watch it. all thanks to him. MY FIRST R(A) MOVIE!!!! WOOOOT.
but it's not that r(a) la..........just that the jokes are a lil too crude for normal audience (ukraine banned the movie), and the show is all about this homosexual who's egoistic and comes up with the most amazing ideas in order to become world famous after being sacked as a fashionista.... and omggggggggggggg, it's sooooooooooooooooooo farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnni!
the two of us was laughing all the way throughout the 80min "documentary"
he was laughing since the very beginning!! and he laughed the loudest most of the times.
and dammit, bruno is downright sexy. in a crude sense. with his dildo machines, the strap-on, the white and black dildos, his african baby OJ aka 13-pounds-of-black-gold, whom he swapped with his limited edition of iPod and then his macbook pro, lutz - the assistant of his assistant, and oso his gay lover, the appearances of bono, sir elton john, etc, and the fact that they actually brought in REAL PEOPLE. as in tom, dick and harry. paula abdul and the mexican worker.. oh and the army officials. "wad's D&G? Dolce & Garbana, hello? HELLO?!" and that amazing video clip he took, saying that it was an interview with harrison ford. 99% was him dancing - with and without clothes. OMG THAT TALKING P**** that went "BRUNO!" totally left me k.o.ed from pure laughter!!
"In October 2006, entertainment blog website Defamer.com jokingly reported the title would be "Bruno: Delicious Journeys Through America for the Purpose of Making Heterosexual Males Visibly Uncomfortable in the Presence of a Gay Foreigner in a Mesh T-Shirt". Numerous websites around the world - including IMDb - reported this to be the actual working title."
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
if i were normal enough, i would be traumatized for life. or maybe not.
but the show definitely left HIM laughing, even after we were leaving!! which is good, considering the fact that it lifted his spirit for the day :D
sorry for the spoilers. but i lurrrrrrrrrrrve the show. and i loved the company. hmmmm, but his shoulder kinda boney la. come to think of it, there's nth soft about him. even his belly is hard. i almost expect some kicking or movement when i feel his belly...haha~
and after that, I SHALL MUG TILL MY TESTS ARE OVER.
budden i'll take an "off-day" from studying on tue, cos i will be...........paktor-ing again :D
i mean, i woke up. didnt really go back to sleep, but i felt glued to the bed.. but still, AWAKE.
but i still ended up being late in meeting ching for our morning routine of taking bus to skool together, thanks to my mother's sudden friendliness and keen-ness to chat with me early in the morning.....heh but all the time, i was in a bouyant mood. as in happy. BESIDES THE TIME WHEN THE STUPID BUS DRIVER NEVER BRAKED/RELEASED BRAKE PROPERLY.
anyway....
den lecture.....i was okae la. not moody. not sleepy. not restless. and the lecturer is soooooo cute, cracking lame but amusing jokes, and oso that "innocence" in him whenever he accidentally makes the whole lecture theatre laugh but he just dunno why we're laughing.
and den............................i met him!!! BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY.
waited at the bus stop outside skool for his car to appear....wait wait wait, den i decided to take out my work to study. yesh i've become a study-aholic. and den his sedan came. so i clutched tightly onto my notes and my bag and went up the car :D
but he wasnt in the best of moods......guess he must have been too bogged down by work and other stuff.... (but thank goodness he was at all smiles when the day ended)
we had lunch at ichiban :D and the whole time when we were deciding wad to eat, he suggested that we eat sushi. and just to annoy me, he kept going "let's have some SHUSHI.......where to eat SHUSHI.......you want some SHUSHIII? let's have some SHUSHIIIII..."
when he said it the first time, i naturally corrected him "SUshi..."
but he refuuuuuuuuuuuused to be corrected. on purpose.
and finally, i went "arrrrrrgh it's SUSHI!"
and den he laughed, saying "i really managed to irritate you with that ah?"
and i laughed - he really knows how to make me laugh.
and while we were walking around, he was talking and talking and he said "well, the show (that we're gg to watch later) seems interesting, even though the COMPANY IS BAD..."
he's saying that im poor company!! so i asked, "wad bad company huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?"
and he said, "wah someone knows how to catch words huh..." and he suaned me back with smth that i said in the past. WAHHHHH, PULL HAIR.
found out he doesnt like to eat eggs... means he doesnt like my fav chawanmushi. that's gd in a way, means i dun hafta share my chawanmushi :D and i dun like a lot more stuff :D and he can take all of them. MUAHAHAHAHA, MY RUBBISH BIN.
so after we finished the meal (first time we actually sat side by side to makan wor!! feels a whole lot more different and heartwarming) and at the cashier counter, there was this rather pretty woman. think she's a prc....the way she dress and the fact that she was waving her LV wallet around. and she kept checking him out!!
somehow, rite in front of her, i said "hey, she's checking you out!"
den he said, "no she's checking YOU (me) out!!"
so we had this mini debate abt who she was actually checking out. and by then, she's just left te place, and she was definitely checking him out la!!
but he concluded that she was checking both of us out - cos we look like an absolutely odd couple. his looks are too outstanding, him being botak (his head was rather shiny today - i could spot him from afar as long as there is light above him), chocolate-coloured skin with his sharp facial features.... it just makes pple take a second look at him and wonder wad's his race, and oso wad's his contact number. and then he's with this short, plain-looking chinese gal whose boobs are too big for her stature. and oso fat. we dun look compatible at all, even though we look above average, ALONE :D
after that, shopped for snacks at cold storage. and snacks became fruits. wah, so healthy. being the miser among the two of us, i looked at the price tags and i immediately dismiss the item. so what if the cherries flew all the way from canada? so wad if the grapes came from japan? and it seems like the way i am so price-conscious, amused him a lil..... he saw that i wanted the cherries, so he told me to get a box. but once i got to know that a box cost $9.90, i immediately let down the box of cherries i was holding and told him, "let's look for a cheaper fruit."
and he said the most amazing thing, "wanna play some computer games?"
and it turned out to be ARCADE!! and we really went to the arcade to play. we played racing games, mariokart....and he just keeps winning la. humph. but it's just weird.........seeing a full-grown man playing such games. makes me take a step back and ask, "woah, is this real? is he really playing??"
maybe he's experiencing his second childhood. or maybe it's just to get down to my "level"...
after that, he had cafeine cravings... so we went to coffee bean - was happily queueing when he saw his relative. den he decided not to get seen by her since she was with her *ahem* lover, and told me not to 'kaypoh'.. but i decided not to let this pass! so i went, "eh how ahhh, i veri kaypoh one leiiiiii.............." and pretended to try and peek. hahahahahahahaha, he can suan me, and so i suan him back :D
den we went to watch bruno at great world city's GV!! yesh, bruno is r21. yesh, i managed to watch it. all thanks to him. MY FIRST R(A) MOVIE!!!! WOOOOT.
but it's not that r(a) la..........just that the jokes are a lil too crude for normal audience (ukraine banned the movie), and the show is all about this homosexual who's egoistic and comes up with the most amazing ideas in order to become world famous after being sacked as a fashionista.... and omggggggggggggg, it's sooooooooooooooooooo farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnni!
the two of us was laughing all the way throughout the 80min "documentary"
he was laughing since the very beginning!! and he laughed the loudest most of the times.
and dammit, bruno is downright sexy. in a crude sense. with his dildo machines, the strap-on, the white and black dildos, his african baby OJ aka 13-pounds-of-black-gold, whom he swapped with his limited edition of iPod and then his macbook pro, lutz - the assistant of his assistant, and oso his gay lover, the appearances of bono, sir elton john, etc, and the fact that they actually brought in REAL PEOPLE. as in tom, dick and harry. paula abdul and the mexican worker.. oh and the army officials. "wad's D&G? Dolce & Garbana, hello? HELLO?!" and that amazing video clip he took, saying that it was an interview with harrison ford. 99% was him dancing - with and without clothes. OMG THAT TALKING P**** that went "BRUNO!" totally left me k.o.ed from pure laughter!!
"In October 2006, entertainment blog website Defamer.com jokingly reported the title would be "Bruno: Delicious Journeys Through America for the Purpose of Making Heterosexual Males Visibly Uncomfortable in the Presence of a Gay Foreigner in a Mesh T-Shirt". Numerous websites around the world - including IMDb - reported this to be the actual working title."
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
if i were normal enough, i would be traumatized for life. or maybe not.
but the show definitely left HIM laughing, even after we were leaving!! which is good, considering the fact that it lifted his spirit for the day :D
sorry for the spoilers. but i lurrrrrrrrrrrve the show. and i loved the company. hmmmm, but his shoulder kinda boney la. come to think of it, there's nth soft about him. even his belly is hard. i almost expect some kicking or movement when i feel his belly...haha~
and after that, I SHALL MUG TILL MY TESTS ARE OVER.
budden i'll take an "off-day" from studying on tue, cos i will be...........paktor-ing again :D
Ben and Jerry's Chunk Fest auditions
A MUST GO!!!!
Singapore News
Local bands to perform at Ben & Jerry's Chunk Fest
(Posted: 23 August 2009 1650 hrs)
Ben & Jerry's is well known for wacky ice-cream flavours. But now the company is also taking a scoop out of the music scene.
Twenty local bands auditioned this weekend to perform at Chunk Fest, a celebration of everything to do with ice-cream.
To sweeten the deal, five selected bands will also cut a CD produced by local pop gurus Jack and Rai.
Chunk Fest will take place on September 12 at the Marina Barrage.
- CNA/yt
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1000362/1/.html
27 August 2009
was giving tuition as per usual.....and suddenly i got a phone call!
and since i set the ringtone specifically under his name, i knew immediately that he was on the line.
den i answered, "hello?"
and i heard a
"hi darling! I love you, bye bye!"
i went "HUH?"
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~
den he said that he knew im giving tuition, but he just wanted to hear my voice.
sooooooooooooooo sweet la!! omg.
but i've oredi decided that i should hold back. if possible, get a total change of perspective. such that i wont be as vulnerable as i am rite now. and im gradually changing. my feelings for him are still suffocating, but not as terrible as it was previously. *phew*
and i know that i cannot shed any tear in this relationship. cos it will mean that i've sunken too deep into this - it will complicate things, and he dun want our relationship to become complicated.
i havent cried. but somehow, my heart feels strangled by the love i have for him. many times, i feel breathless, with a heavy chest. NO IT'S NOT MY BOOBS.
but im always happy when im with him. completely blissful and at peace. and it seemed like nth else mattered. my present troubles and worries would be left behind and forgotten. maybe cos i tend to feel troubled when i DUN get to see him........heh. that sense of longing can kill!
and since i set the ringtone specifically under his name, i knew immediately that he was on the line.
den i answered, "hello?"
and i heard a
"hi darling! I love you, bye bye!"
i went "HUH?"
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~
den he said that he knew im giving tuition, but he just wanted to hear my voice.
sooooooooooooooo sweet la!! omg.
but i've oredi decided that i should hold back. if possible, get a total change of perspective. such that i wont be as vulnerable as i am rite now. and im gradually changing. my feelings for him are still suffocating, but not as terrible as it was previously. *phew*
and i know that i cannot shed any tear in this relationship. cos it will mean that i've sunken too deep into this - it will complicate things, and he dun want our relationship to become complicated.
i havent cried. but somehow, my heart feels strangled by the love i have for him. many times, i feel breathless, with a heavy chest. NO IT'S NOT MY BOOBS.
but im always happy when im with him. completely blissful and at peace. and it seemed like nth else mattered. my present troubles and worries would be left behind and forgotten. maybe cos i tend to feel troubled when i DUN get to see him........heh. that sense of longing can kill!
26 August 2009
marina said something abt me this afternoon after i kinda spilt the beans to her..
she said that ever since LS and i broke up, it seems like i've changed.
den i asked, for the better or the worse??
Inconclusive answer. she said, it's like, it's gd that you've become YOURSELF....but oso it seems like your dark side has surfaced, after wad you've told me..
soooooooooooooooo, i've become darker??
and she was totally shocked over wad i told her. seems like the real "me" dun correspond with the "me" she sees in her eyes........ haha! imagine the look on her face, mouth open + eyes wide open + nostrils flared + speechless.
i dunno if i should laugh or not sia....
but it's GRRRRRRRRRRRREAT that i've finally let out smth which i've always wanted to share - with someone who can know how it feels. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, burden off my chest.
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oh ya, i fell in the toilet yesterday. got bruise on my knee, and the areas which got hit but didnt bruise.....they hurt like HELL. i keep looking for a physical sign of some bruising or smth, but it's just NOT THERE. but the painnnnnnnnnn is there. owwwwwwwwww~
den ching and marina laugh at me. as if they inhaled laughing gas or smth. HUMPH.
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last nite was a great nite btw :D spent some time with him.... and got to know more abt him.
made me more firm on the decision that i've been trying to make. cos it's just a matter of time, i guess. even though i hate it to happen. i love being with him. i love his company. i love the way that he's changed me. i love the fact that i spoil him with my massages - i dun mind getting "bullied" or indulged by someone whom i like. be it man or woman. NO WONDER I ALWAYS KANA BULLIED BY MARINA. and ching. and nisa. and wanru. and etc etc.
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did i blog abt last sunday where i was at the final band audition for Chunk Fest?? as a supporter la. it was aweeeeeeeeeeeesome!!! his band got shortlisted to perform for Chunk Fest, together with another 6 bands, at marina barrage on 12th sep!!! it's like ubber cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SOOOOO GOING.
and the theme is: RETRO. im stuck. i look like an ah soh if i wear retro. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
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oh my tuition kid - sec 4 gal - totally flunked her maths prelims paper. and she recommended me to one of her classmates to give tuition rite until the Ns........means i got extra income!! YAY!!
she said that ever since LS and i broke up, it seems like i've changed.
den i asked, for the better or the worse??
Inconclusive answer. she said, it's like, it's gd that you've become YOURSELF....but oso it seems like your dark side has surfaced, after wad you've told me..
soooooooooooooooo, i've become darker??
and she was totally shocked over wad i told her. seems like the real "me" dun correspond with the "me" she sees in her eyes........ haha! imagine the look on her face, mouth open + eyes wide open + nostrils flared + speechless.
i dunno if i should laugh or not sia....
but it's GRRRRRRRRRRRREAT that i've finally let out smth which i've always wanted to share - with someone who can know how it feels. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, burden off my chest.
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oh ya, i fell in the toilet yesterday. got bruise on my knee, and the areas which got hit but didnt bruise.....they hurt like HELL. i keep looking for a physical sign of some bruising or smth, but it's just NOT THERE. but the painnnnnnnnnn is there. owwwwwwwwww~
den ching and marina laugh at me. as if they inhaled laughing gas or smth. HUMPH.
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last nite was a great nite btw :D spent some time with him.... and got to know more abt him.
made me more firm on the decision that i've been trying to make. cos it's just a matter of time, i guess. even though i hate it to happen. i love being with him. i love his company. i love the way that he's changed me. i love the fact that i spoil him with my massages - i dun mind getting "bullied" or indulged by someone whom i like. be it man or woman. NO WONDER I ALWAYS KANA BULLIED BY MARINA. and ching. and nisa. and wanru. and etc etc.
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did i blog abt last sunday where i was at the final band audition for Chunk Fest?? as a supporter la. it was aweeeeeeeeeeeesome!!! his band got shortlisted to perform for Chunk Fest, together with another 6 bands, at marina barrage on 12th sep!!! it's like ubber cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SOOOOO GOING.
and the theme is: RETRO. im stuck. i look like an ah soh if i wear retro. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
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oh my tuition kid - sec 4 gal - totally flunked her maths prelims paper. and she recommended me to one of her classmates to give tuition rite until the Ns........means i got extra income!! YAY!!
22 August 2009
recently, i had been writing songs....and throwing them...and writing new ones with better lyrics....
now i've settled at one song, and im stuck at the chords!!
so i went to the piano. yes my house has a piano. it's erm, older than me. and it's super out of tune. and i dunno how to tune a musical instrument which happens to be bigger than me.....and the last time we sent it for servicing was.......8yrs ago? ah heck. nobody uses it now... wad a poor thing.
there was the melody of the first stanza in my head.. and i recorded it (my horrible singing)into my handphone recorder....and i tried REAL HARD trying to find out the notes. AND I FINALLY GOT THEM!! YAY!!!
heh, i actually recorded my singing.....and mms-ed it to HIM for QC. and he said that it was great!! i know he's just appeasing me la. OH NO I MENTIONED HIM AGAIN! sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
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oh ya, you guys know wad?? in june, my weight was a freaking 67kg.
damn heavy hor.
and as of today, im 59kg oredi :D
yayyy~~ i wanna aim at least 55kg. but my rate of losing weight is slowing down oredi. i think i really need to starve these days oredi. dieeeeeeee~
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TESTS COMING. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug..................ing time.
now i've settled at one song, and im stuck at the chords!!
so i went to the piano. yes my house has a piano. it's erm, older than me. and it's super out of tune. and i dunno how to tune a musical instrument which happens to be bigger than me.....and the last time we sent it for servicing was.......8yrs ago? ah heck. nobody uses it now... wad a poor thing.
there was the melody of the first stanza in my head.. and i recorded it (my horrible singing)into my handphone recorder....and i tried REAL HARD trying to find out the notes. AND I FINALLY GOT THEM!! YAY!!!
heh, i actually recorded my singing.....and mms-ed it to HIM for QC. and he said that it was great!! i know he's just appeasing me la. OH NO I MENTIONED HIM AGAIN! sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
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oh ya, you guys know wad?? in june, my weight was a freaking 67kg.
damn heavy hor.
and as of today, im 59kg oredi :D
yayyy~~ i wanna aim at least 55kg. but my rate of losing weight is slowing down oredi. i think i really need to starve these days oredi. dieeeeeeee~
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TESTS COMING. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug..................ing time.
wah. pek chek.
today, i got some money from my tuition... so i happily bought two cartons of yougurt milk, den everybody (sadly, that includes the bro who onli know how to take but dunno how to give) can drink them!
so when i brought them home, i've oredi told my near-deaf mother that i bought drinks. and she responded with an "orh"
AND THEN SHE COMES BACK 6 HOURS LATER, WITH ANOTHER TWO CARTONS OF YOUGURT DRINK.
and she gave me a lecture about her buying the drinks to accumulate her NTUC member points, while i bought the drinks for NO APPARENT PURPOSE. so i shouldnt "fight" with her over buying them.
im like WTF!? FINE FORGET IT.
and den i wanted to throw some rubbish and was waiting for my father to finish "adding onto the pile of rubbish"......so when i wanted to throw, she grumbled, "throw rubbish oso want to fight with me."
I WAS LIKE FINE!! I AM GG TO MY ROOM. AM I FIGHTING WITH YOU OVER GG TO MY EFFING ROOM!?
*no i didnt say that to her. i just walked off after complaining to my father*
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh pek chek.
today, i got some money from my tuition... so i happily bought two cartons of yougurt milk, den everybody (sadly, that includes the bro who onli know how to take but dunno how to give) can drink them!
so when i brought them home, i've oredi told my near-deaf mother that i bought drinks. and she responded with an "orh"
AND THEN SHE COMES BACK 6 HOURS LATER, WITH ANOTHER TWO CARTONS OF YOUGURT DRINK.
and she gave me a lecture about her buying the drinks to accumulate her NTUC member points, while i bought the drinks for NO APPARENT PURPOSE. so i shouldnt "fight" with her over buying them.
im like WTF!? FINE FORGET IT.
and den i wanted to throw some rubbish and was waiting for my father to finish "adding onto the pile of rubbish"......so when i wanted to throw, she grumbled, "throw rubbish oso want to fight with me."
I WAS LIKE FINE!! I AM GG TO MY ROOM. AM I FIGHTING WITH YOU OVER GG TO MY EFFING ROOM!?
*no i didnt say that to her. i just walked off after complaining to my father*
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh pek chek.
18 August 2009
went to google again :D
and i've seen him mentioned in some blogs, and how he had managed to influence the ideas and mentality of some pple... and there he is, saying that he isnt all that great. that he just so happened to have access to resources that enabled him to somewhat open up a sub-career path for himself... so technically, he's not the entrepreneur everybody says.
but he's an inspirer.
he's inspired students.
most of all, he's inspired me.
i've never really looked up to someone and really strive to work hard for a better future. but after i've met him and listened/experienced/seen all that he has to offer, i really wanna reach his level. i wanna live a fulfilled life. i wanna bring out my fullest potential. i wanna catch up to him. i want him to be proud of me. i want him to be the one looking up to me, just like the way i look up to him rite now. i want him to go, "wow, this girl has grown up. and she's one amazing young lady!!"
it feels like i had been sleeping all this time. all the 20 years. i have drifted through. as an underachiever.
and he's opened my eyes. and shown me a whole new world. this new world is blinding to the naked eye. but i will adjust and i will walk down this path which i had been walking, and create a new pathway. for myself. for my future. im not as clever as george sorros, im not as smart as milton friedman, im not as bright as adam smith, im not as brilliant as einstein.
but i will learn. and i will work hard.
and harder.
till i reach my goals and dreams.
using the knowledge that i've acquired, together with the thirst to learn more and gain more wisdom. i'll learn to pick myself up, and know wad i've done wrong when i fail.
i wanna die and say, "woo, i didnt waste THIS life!"
i wanna be, just like him.
and i've seen him mentioned in some blogs, and how he had managed to influence the ideas and mentality of some pple... and there he is, saying that he isnt all that great. that he just so happened to have access to resources that enabled him to somewhat open up a sub-career path for himself... so technically, he's not the entrepreneur everybody says.
but he's an inspirer.
he's inspired students.
most of all, he's inspired me.
i've never really looked up to someone and really strive to work hard for a better future. but after i've met him and listened/experienced/seen all that he has to offer, i really wanna reach his level. i wanna live a fulfilled life. i wanna bring out my fullest potential. i wanna catch up to him. i want him to be proud of me. i want him to be the one looking up to me, just like the way i look up to him rite now. i want him to go, "wow, this girl has grown up. and she's one amazing young lady!!"
it feels like i had been sleeping all this time. all the 20 years. i have drifted through. as an underachiever.
and he's opened my eyes. and shown me a whole new world. this new world is blinding to the naked eye. but i will adjust and i will walk down this path which i had been walking, and create a new pathway. for myself. for my future. im not as clever as george sorros, im not as smart as milton friedman, im not as bright as adam smith, im not as brilliant as einstein.
but i will learn. and i will work hard.
and harder.
till i reach my goals and dreams.
using the knowledge that i've acquired, together with the thirst to learn more and gain more wisdom. i'll learn to pick myself up, and know wad i've done wrong when i fail.
i wanna die and say, "woo, i didnt waste THIS life!"
i wanna be, just like him.
17 August 2009
today was like.......a mini emotional roller coaster ride.
in the morning, i felt a lil down that there's the possibility that we wouldnt meet today..
den after class, he said that we could meet. den next message was, might not be able to meet cos of his work.. den he said, got bigger chance to meet oredi.. and den he called, better not meet cos it's been a hectic day for him..
AND DEN FINALLY WE COULD MEET.
waaaaaaaaaaaa~
i didnt even have time to have mood swings.
and so, we met... at holland v
but onli for a while~ didnt do much :D but dammit he looked so handsome today.
and he was smiling a lil more than saturday :D
took a dilly dallying route to my house after that... haha, it's just holland v, but we avoided the route that would have brought me home within ten minutes.. ended up, took around.....15?
and he was saying the most amazing things, as if they were natural and that it didnt mean much to him.
"i dunno, but i just HAD to see you today....even one hour is enough"
i asked him why, he just couldnt come out with a proper reason. cos there wasnt.
he just wanted to see me~ for the sake of seeing me.
thank goodness he has a car!! otherwise, kinda cumbersome rite?? haha~ if he didnt own one, and that he wanted to see me, he'd have to take train, change bus, etc....or waste money and take the cab.
and it felt so good lying on him. as in.....like a perfect fit, when he puts an arm over your shoulder and you just lean against him. SOOOOOOO COMFORTABLE!! and his cologne mixed well with my perfume :D (my sis bought perfume for me.....estee lauder.. kinda nice :D i like the Delight one)
ULTIMATE COMBINATION of comfort!! i almost snuggled up against him to take a snooze.
okae i dun care oredi. one day im gonna snuggle up to him and make sure he dun fall asleep before i do. cos his snore is thunderous, especially when he's snoring rite beside my ear! den i will snuggle against him, and hug a huge teddy bear to sleep.
WAH PERFECT!!!
that image i just painted.....will make me look like a little girl, seeking comfort from her father. but OH WELL. it's comfy, i like. that's all.
in the morning, i felt a lil down that there's the possibility that we wouldnt meet today..
den after class, he said that we could meet. den next message was, might not be able to meet cos of his work.. den he said, got bigger chance to meet oredi.. and den he called, better not meet cos it's been a hectic day for him..
AND DEN FINALLY WE COULD MEET.
waaaaaaaaaaaa~
i didnt even have time to have mood swings.
and so, we met... at holland v
but onli for a while~ didnt do much :D but dammit he looked so handsome today.
and he was smiling a lil more than saturday :D
took a dilly dallying route to my house after that... haha, it's just holland v, but we avoided the route that would have brought me home within ten minutes.. ended up, took around.....15?
and he was saying the most amazing things, as if they were natural and that it didnt mean much to him.
"i dunno, but i just HAD to see you today....even one hour is enough"
i asked him why, he just couldnt come out with a proper reason. cos there wasnt.
he just wanted to see me~ for the sake of seeing me.
thank goodness he has a car!! otherwise, kinda cumbersome rite?? haha~ if he didnt own one, and that he wanted to see me, he'd have to take train, change bus, etc....or waste money and take the cab.
and it felt so good lying on him. as in.....like a perfect fit, when he puts an arm over your shoulder and you just lean against him. SOOOOOOO COMFORTABLE!! and his cologne mixed well with my perfume :D (my sis bought perfume for me.....estee lauder.. kinda nice :D i like the Delight one)
ULTIMATE COMBINATION of comfort!! i almost snuggled up against him to take a snooze.
okae i dun care oredi. one day im gonna snuggle up to him and make sure he dun fall asleep before i do. cos his snore is thunderous, especially when he's snoring rite beside my ear! den i will snuggle against him, and hug a huge teddy bear to sleep.
WAH PERFECT!!!
that image i just painted.....will make me look like a little girl, seeking comfort from her father. but OH WELL. it's comfy, i like. that's all.
16 August 2009
at 6.36am, i got a rather sudden sms from him..
not a heavy sleeper, and my msg tone was rather loud, and the phone was RIGHT beside my left ear - i have the practice of placing the phone beside my pillow; gives me a sense of security..
so i woke up immediately to reply him :D
and asked him why was he awake so early on a sunday morning.
his reply made me feel a lil sad, a lil worried, a lil helpless.
he's been so bogged down by the recent events that have been happened, that he couldnt sleep. it's that stressful huh? i bet i would have behaved the same as him, putting myself in his shoes. i'd been thinking and thinking, how do i get out of this mess? is there another solution to which i have overlooked? wad are the consequences of my actions if i do this or that? wad will become of me if everything else fails? how do i move on from here? can i start all over? but how?
*******************
i felt sad.
bcos he's not happy.
i felt worried.
bcos it's affecting him in all sorts of ways. he's started having migraines for the first time in his life. he almost got into an accident. he's frowning and thinking a lot more. and now he's losing sleep.
i felt helpless.
cos no matter how much i wanna help, i cant. im literally helpless. i dun have power nor authority. i dun have money nor the resources. i can onli watch as the problems come washing down on him.
********************
then i told him to go for a jog. cos jogs can help take his mind off things, at least for a while. and he said, "that's a gd idea"
how i wish i can perform magic and transfer some of his problems over to my side, and ease his load.
even better, i could make everything alrite for him.
not a heavy sleeper, and my msg tone was rather loud, and the phone was RIGHT beside my left ear - i have the practice of placing the phone beside my pillow; gives me a sense of security..
so i woke up immediately to reply him :D
and asked him why was he awake so early on a sunday morning.
his reply made me feel a lil sad, a lil worried, a lil helpless.
he's been so bogged down by the recent events that have been happened, that he couldnt sleep. it's that stressful huh? i bet i would have behaved the same as him, putting myself in his shoes. i'd been thinking and thinking, how do i get out of this mess? is there another solution to which i have overlooked? wad are the consequences of my actions if i do this or that? wad will become of me if everything else fails? how do i move on from here? can i start all over? but how?
*******************
i felt sad.
bcos he's not happy.
i felt worried.
bcos it's affecting him in all sorts of ways. he's started having migraines for the first time in his life. he almost got into an accident. he's frowning and thinking a lot more. and now he's losing sleep.
i felt helpless.
cos no matter how much i wanna help, i cant. im literally helpless. i dun have power nor authority. i dun have money nor the resources. i can onli watch as the problems come washing down on him.
********************
then i told him to go for a jog. cos jogs can help take his mind off things, at least for a while. and he said, "that's a gd idea"
how i wish i can perform magic and transfer some of his problems over to my side, and ease his load.
even better, i could make everything alrite for him.
15 August 2009
kns.
was abt to finish one loooooooooong post,
until i decided to follow yiting's suggestion and press ctrl-f5...
and the whoooooooooooooole post disappeared.
dammit.
i dun want to blog oredi la!!!!!
but there's this song which got stuck in my head after our dearest michelin chef, wayne, sang it an octave higher :D
damn cute. and the song is......
The Kinks - Apeman 1970
I think I'm sophisticated
cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybodys multiplying
Till theyre walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the anI'mals sitting in their cages
In the zoo man
cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees
I am an ape man
I think I'm so educated and I'm so civilized
cos I'm a strict vegetarian
But with the over-population and inflation and starvation
And the crazy politicians
I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
and make like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man
I'm an ape man I'm a king kong man I'm ape ape man
I'm an ape man
Cos compared to the sun that sits in the sky
Compared to the clouds as they roll by
Compared to the bugs and the spiders and flies
I am an ape man
In mans evolution he has created the cities and
The motor traffic rumble, but give me half a chance
And I'd be taking off my clothes and living in the jungle
cos the only time that I feel at ease
Is swinging up and down in a coconut tree
Oh what a life of luxury to be like an ape man
I'm an ape, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I look out my window, but I cant see the sky
cos the air pollution is fogging up my eyes
I want to get out of this city alive
And make like an ape man
Come and love me, be my ape man girl
And we will be so happy in my ape man world
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I'll be your tarzan, you'll be my jane
I'll keep you warm and youll keep me sane
And well sit in the trees and eat bananas all day
Just like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man.
I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
And make like an ape man.
La la la la la la la.
-------------*--------------
yesterday was a gd day for me.
went to republic poly for a talk.....given by someone i ADMIRE TREMENDOUSLY.....and den he thanked me a lot of times, for being there.
and i managed to eat the burger prepared by our world-renowned michelin chef, and den we four (darling, me, wayne and gwen) went drinking somewhere near their apartment (cool place btw)!!
the burger was DELICIOUS. and i know his secret. *shh* cannot tell you!!
and at the end of the day, he said smth.
"i want to meet you MORE THAN you know i want to."
so touching~
today was even better.
it was less than 12 hours after he dropped me at my flat's void deck last nite, that we met again!! and den, he brought me somewhere to show me how his work is like... it's fugging interesting!! and he introduced me to a gal called jackie!! she's really cool :D haha~ and den we went to relish for lunch..
and amazingly, darling spotted the restaurant's owner and so sam -the boss- came to our table and the two men started chatting.
both jack and me found sam REALLY cute!! he's trendy-looking, cute, well-dressed, cute, i like his cologne, cute, has cool glass, cute.... CUTE LA! but darling was like, noooooooooooooooooooooooo~
and den darling spotted one of his ex-gf -name's michelle- coming into the place with her frens.. and he was sweetly reminiscing the time he spent with her... so after that, when we were in the car, he was asking "so wad shall we do next?"
and i promptly replied, "go find michelle la" and folded my arms casually.
and he got soooooooooo surprised and amused. apparently, i got jealous??
yea i think so :D bleah...... but i kept denying that fact :D and he said, "then wad's the with folding of arms??" den i told him that my hands had nth to do and he went "oh! den i should have said OKAE when you told me to find her la!"
then he was saying that michelle was one of his first girls, so it was memorable even though he's had better times with other gals after her... den i was like "yea yea...*laugh*"
had a good laugh.
by the end of our meeting, he was saying that it has been a good day for him :D
im so happy that i managed to cheer him up a lil.... when we first met in the morning, he was in this solemn mood... and he wasnt the bubbly person i knew.. but he soon recovered and he was smiling and being himself by lunchtime :DDD
cos according to him, he's in the middle of the worst time of his life. and it will, and it should, be over by the end of this month. and he needs to keep sane. cos it's driving him crazy.
and there's nth else i can do to lessen his load. except to let him forget his worries and relax for the few hours that we've been together.
so wad i should do now, i tell myself, is to not let myself become a nuisance and pester him. let him get busy and find his solutions. and let him find me when he looks for me... otherwise i'd be literally non-existent :D
time to let him have some peace.....at least until this ordeal is over.
but oso remind him that i love him, once in a while~ let him RMB that i still exist la...
was abt to finish one loooooooooong post,
until i decided to follow yiting's suggestion and press ctrl-f5...
and the whoooooooooooooole post disappeared.
dammit.
i dun want to blog oredi la!!!!!
but there's this song which got stuck in my head after our dearest michelin chef, wayne, sang it an octave higher :D
damn cute. and the song is......
The Kinks - Apeman 1970
I think I'm sophisticated
cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybodys multiplying
Till theyre walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the anI'mals sitting in their cages
In the zoo man
cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees
I am an ape man
I think I'm so educated and I'm so civilized
cos I'm a strict vegetarian
But with the over-population and inflation and starvation
And the crazy politicians
I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
and make like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man
I'm an ape man I'm a king kong man I'm ape ape man
I'm an ape man
Cos compared to the sun that sits in the sky
Compared to the clouds as they roll by
Compared to the bugs and the spiders and flies
I am an ape man
In mans evolution he has created the cities and
The motor traffic rumble, but give me half a chance
And I'd be taking off my clothes and living in the jungle
cos the only time that I feel at ease
Is swinging up and down in a coconut tree
Oh what a life of luxury to be like an ape man
I'm an ape, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I look out my window, but I cant see the sky
cos the air pollution is fogging up my eyes
I want to get out of this city alive
And make like an ape man
Come and love me, be my ape man girl
And we will be so happy in my ape man world
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I'll be your tarzan, you'll be my jane
I'll keep you warm and youll keep me sane
And well sit in the trees and eat bananas all day
Just like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a king kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man.
I dont feel safe in this world no more
I dont want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
And make like an ape man.
La la la la la la la.
-------------*--------------
yesterday was a gd day for me.
went to republic poly for a talk.....given by someone i ADMIRE TREMENDOUSLY.....and den he thanked me a lot of times, for being there.
and i managed to eat the burger prepared by our world-renowned michelin chef, and den we four (darling, me, wayne and gwen) went drinking somewhere near their apartment (cool place btw)!!
the burger was DELICIOUS. and i know his secret. *shh* cannot tell you!!
and at the end of the day, he said smth.
"i want to meet you MORE THAN you know i want to."
so touching~
today was even better.
it was less than 12 hours after he dropped me at my flat's void deck last nite, that we met again!! and den, he brought me somewhere to show me how his work is like... it's fugging interesting!! and he introduced me to a gal called jackie!! she's really cool :D haha~ and den we went to relish for lunch..
and amazingly, darling spotted the restaurant's owner and so sam -the boss- came to our table and the two men started chatting.
both jack and me found sam REALLY cute!! he's trendy-looking, cute, well-dressed, cute, i like his cologne, cute, has cool glass, cute.... CUTE LA! but darling was like, noooooooooooooooooooooooo~
and den darling spotted one of his ex-gf -name's michelle- coming into the place with her frens.. and he was sweetly reminiscing the time he spent with her... so after that, when we were in the car, he was asking "so wad shall we do next?"
and i promptly replied, "go find michelle la" and folded my arms casually.
and he got soooooooooo surprised and amused. apparently, i got jealous??
yea i think so :D bleah...... but i kept denying that fact :D and he said, "then wad's the with folding of arms??" den i told him that my hands had nth to do and he went "oh! den i should have said OKAE when you told me to find her la!"
then he was saying that michelle was one of his first girls, so it was memorable even though he's had better times with other gals after her... den i was like "yea yea...*laugh*"
had a good laugh.
by the end of our meeting, he was saying that it has been a good day for him :D
im so happy that i managed to cheer him up a lil.... when we first met in the morning, he was in this solemn mood... and he wasnt the bubbly person i knew.. but he soon recovered and he was smiling and being himself by lunchtime :DDD
cos according to him, he's in the middle of the worst time of his life. and it will, and it should, be over by the end of this month. and he needs to keep sane. cos it's driving him crazy.
and there's nth else i can do to lessen his load. except to let him forget his worries and relax for the few hours that we've been together.
so wad i should do now, i tell myself, is to not let myself become a nuisance and pester him. let him get busy and find his solutions. and let him find me when he looks for me... otherwise i'd be literally non-existent :D
time to let him have some peace.....at least until this ordeal is over.
but oso remind him that i love him, once in a while~ let him RMB that i still exist la...
omg wad's becoming of blogger nowadays?? i cant post pics like 99% of the time, now i cant even bold or italicize my words.. now even the formatting of the posting window itself looks weird. AHH!! is blogger trying to chase me to other blogging engines like wordpress!?
anyway.
OMG. HE JUST GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT.
after that, i freaked out for a moment.
but.........there wasnt a single scratch.
just a bumper-to-bumper knockity knock.
so pple, do you see why i dun want to drive?? i will definitely start zoning out while driving, and get into some kind of accident.
starting to get worried abt him. really.
and he's been SUPER DUPER ZUPER MUPER BUPER BUSY these days~ like spinning around like a tornado.
anyway.
OMG. HE JUST GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT.
after that, i freaked out for a moment.
but.........there wasnt a single scratch.
just a bumper-to-bumper knockity knock.
so pple, do you see why i dun want to drive?? i will definitely start zoning out while driving, and get into some kind of accident.
starting to get worried abt him. really.
and he's been SUPER DUPER ZUPER MUPER BUPER BUSY these days~ like spinning around like a tornado.
13 August 2009
just some random thoughts that popped out in my mind when i was on my way home from tuition.
#1: luxury goods are somewhat getting normal. in the sg context.
you can take the train, board the bus, and even go to my school campus. and most probably you can spot at east one female, lugging along a LV/Chanel/Coach/Gucci/Burberry/etc. Be it imitation or genuine. And even the imitation gds look rather authentic and also costs quite an amount, maybe it's the original price, less one or two zeros from the price tag.
Yes i do have classmates who own bags like that, and still dump it unceremoniously on the ground. that should probably be an imitation. well, i HOPE so. at least show some respect to the fact that the bag could have sustained my survival for at least 5-8 months! shopping expenses included. *im becoming a shoppaholic, at bugis village*
nevertheless, such sight gets so common, that you just dun really see the luxury factor anymore!!
it's most probably due to the fact that singapore's standard of living just keeps rising, even if the pay dont. and parents are more willing to indulge in their children. really. i mean it. i know pple who still receiving "pocket money" even though they're beyond the age of 21. and the monthly pocket money is in 4-digit figures. but not more than 2k la~ dun be silly.
Still, i do know those who scrimp and save and starve, just to buy some bag or clothes. Me, in this case, but not so serious to the point of becoming a scourge or anything. i will just weigh btn food and clothes. sometimes, i value the clothes more. and i go home with a growling tummy, slouching back, but with a bright smile on my face and a bag full of the results of my shopping endeavours. But i do limit myself, alright?
Oh, back to the point. Seems that luxury bags and all those, they have lost that "you can see but you can never have it" factor.....of being exalted to a god-level. it's lost that glimmer and shimmer.
to me, in that case.
im extremely happy with the two bags i bought from dorothy perkins quite a few months back, and i havent gotten sick of them YET. and oh, there's the other handbag i bought from a pushcart stall at IMM... it's just a work of art. and still so affordable for me, after i tighten my belt and empty my wallet :D
#2: One of the reasons why modern women dun divulge their real age, is to fend off those pesky pple who stalk you from a far distance, target you, move towards you and start drilling you with questions that most probably start with, "hi, are you working?" or "hi, how old are you?" or "hi, just knocked off from work?"
and start asking more questions that will hopefully "guide" you to the answers they wanna hear. BUT THANK GOD, I NEVER GIVE THEM THAT SATISFACTION.
firstly im not yet 21yo. so i cant subscribe for a credit card.
secondly, i have no money. so even if it's citibank offering tertiary student card, i cant afford it.
thirdly, i upgraded my medisave.
so there was this guy who approached me just a few hours ago, asked me a long list of questions and finally asked, "so have you upgraded your medisave?"
and i was thinking "THANK GOD I DID!" and i said "yea, i upgraded it under prudential" - i dun necessarily lie.
and then his smile faded and he beamed a fake one before saying "alrite, thanks. bye!"
oh btw, HELLO!? DO I LOOK THAT FUGGING MATURED NOWADAYS!? I WAS IN THE TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN TERTIARY STUDENT CLOTHING ATTIRE, AND HE ASKED IF I JUST KNOCKED OFF FROM WORK.
#3: everybody has at least one hp with them these days. BUT THEY JUST DUN FUGGING ANSWER IT WHEN IT RINGS. *pissed*
okae, that's all :D gdnite folks!
#1: luxury goods are somewhat getting normal. in the sg context.
you can take the train, board the bus, and even go to my school campus. and most probably you can spot at east one female, lugging along a LV/Chanel/Coach/Gucci/Burberry/etc. Be it imitation or genuine. And even the imitation gds look rather authentic and also costs quite an amount, maybe it's the original price, less one or two zeros from the price tag.
Yes i do have classmates who own bags like that, and still dump it unceremoniously on the ground. that should probably be an imitation. well, i HOPE so. at least show some respect to the fact that the bag could have sustained my survival for at least 5-8 months! shopping expenses included. *im becoming a shoppaholic, at bugis village*
nevertheless, such sight gets so common, that you just dun really see the luxury factor anymore!!
it's most probably due to the fact that singapore's standard of living just keeps rising, even if the pay dont. and parents are more willing to indulge in their children. really. i mean it. i know pple who still receiving "pocket money" even though they're beyond the age of 21. and the monthly pocket money is in 4-digit figures. but not more than 2k la~ dun be silly.
Still, i do know those who scrimp and save and starve, just to buy some bag or clothes. Me, in this case, but not so serious to the point of becoming a scourge or anything. i will just weigh btn food and clothes. sometimes, i value the clothes more. and i go home with a growling tummy, slouching back, but with a bright smile on my face and a bag full of the results of my shopping endeavours. But i do limit myself, alright?
Oh, back to the point. Seems that luxury bags and all those, they have lost that "you can see but you can never have it" factor.....of being exalted to a god-level. it's lost that glimmer and shimmer.
to me, in that case.
im extremely happy with the two bags i bought from dorothy perkins quite a few months back, and i havent gotten sick of them YET. and oh, there's the other handbag i bought from a pushcart stall at IMM... it's just a work of art. and still so affordable for me, after i tighten my belt and empty my wallet :D
#2: One of the reasons why modern women dun divulge their real age, is to fend off those pesky pple who stalk you from a far distance, target you, move towards you and start drilling you with questions that most probably start with, "hi, are you working?" or "hi, how old are you?" or "hi, just knocked off from work?"
and start asking more questions that will hopefully "guide" you to the answers they wanna hear. BUT THANK GOD, I NEVER GIVE THEM THAT SATISFACTION.
firstly im not yet 21yo. so i cant subscribe for a credit card.
secondly, i have no money. so even if it's citibank offering tertiary student card, i cant afford it.
thirdly, i upgraded my medisave.
so there was this guy who approached me just a few hours ago, asked me a long list of questions and finally asked, "so have you upgraded your medisave?"
and i was thinking "THANK GOD I DID!" and i said "yea, i upgraded it under prudential" - i dun necessarily lie.
and then his smile faded and he beamed a fake one before saying "alrite, thanks. bye!"
oh btw, HELLO!? DO I LOOK THAT FUGGING MATURED NOWADAYS!? I WAS IN THE TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN TERTIARY STUDENT CLOTHING ATTIRE, AND HE ASKED IF I JUST KNOCKED OFF FROM WORK.
#3: everybody has at least one hp with them these days. BUT THEY JUST DUN FUGGING ANSWER IT WHEN IT RINGS. *pissed*
okae, that's all :D gdnite folks!
was on the train back home.
den suddenly i recalled the one incident that took place when i was rather young....say 5??
my father brought me to his factory (AIWA, rings a bell?) on a saturday or some day where there werent much workers.. and there were quite a number of female workers there la.. i oso dunno why he brought me along to work sia~ i just blurly followed... or rather blindly.
so we went in, my father went to do his work.. den his female colleagues STOLE me.
brought me to their staff lounge/canteen, displayed this huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge array of potato chips and sweets rite in front of me. it was HEAVEN. haha~ den they would ask me, wad should you say if you want this potato chip?? and all those stupid questions la. but i was super shy... so i kept quiet~ haha... but they just kept smiling and all those.. guess i was THAT cute huh?
got a few childhood pics of myself.. but im just lazy to scan them now~ totally lazy.
but the most impt thing is, there are just so lil memories i have of my father when i was young. and i really wanna treasure those memories. and all these years......were wasted. we never got the chance to build that close father-daughter relationship.
felt so regretful that i started tearing on the train. and this bangla was looking at me sia. so scary.
den suddenly i recalled the one incident that took place when i was rather young....say 5??
my father brought me to his factory (AIWA, rings a bell?) on a saturday or some day where there werent much workers.. and there were quite a number of female workers there la.. i oso dunno why he brought me along to work sia~ i just blurly followed... or rather blindly.
so we went in, my father went to do his work.. den his female colleagues STOLE me.
brought me to their staff lounge/canteen, displayed this huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge array of potato chips and sweets rite in front of me. it was HEAVEN. haha~ den they would ask me, wad should you say if you want this potato chip?? and all those stupid questions la. but i was super shy... so i kept quiet~ haha... but they just kept smiling and all those.. guess i was THAT cute huh?
got a few childhood pics of myself.. but im just lazy to scan them now~ totally lazy.
but the most impt thing is, there are just so lil memories i have of my father when i was young. and i really wanna treasure those memories. and all these years......were wasted. we never got the chance to build that close father-daughter relationship.
felt so regretful that i started tearing on the train. and this bangla was looking at me sia. so scary.
DAMNED FUNNY. but i dunno whether i should laugh, or cry. the animation made me left laughing at a veri sad song!!
Tommy and Laura were lovers he wanted to give here everything
Flowers presents and most of all a wedding ring
He saw a sign for a stockcar race a thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone so to her mother Tommy said
Tell Laura I love her tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late I've something to do that cannot wait
He drove his car to the racing ground he was the youngest driver there
The crowd roared as they started to race
Around the truck they drove at a deadly pace
No one knows what happened that day how his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath they heard him say
Tell Laura I love her tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry my love for her will never die
Now in the chapel Laura prays for her Tommy who passed away
It was just for Laura that he lived and died alone in the chapel she can hear him cry
Tell Laura I love her...
My love for her will never die
11 August 2009
wrote an encouragement letter for my sec 4 gal... havent given her the letter yet though.. haha!! and i drew an angel for her!! so cute rite?!
yay healthy nail is growing!! but it's still an ugly sight. gonna paint my nails again... but let the nail take a breather first :D
awwwwwwwwwwww look at that sunset.looks like the yolk of a salted egg.
ah!! caught him taking food from my plate!! haha, no la, we're sharing food that time~
these roses were blooming in this brilliant pink, couldnt help but to snap a pic of them :Di love how romantic these roses look like~
*hint*
ah! my family portrait!! of my sis graduation...that was 11 years ago?? yea. 11 years. i was 10.
this window was just there, waiting for me to take an artistic shot of it. haha :D-------------------------------
okae, time for some reflection :D
the thing that made me the happiest on tue, was the phone call he made in the morning.
totally unexpected. and it felt so gd to hear his voice again after 3 days of absolute silence. but he coughed. den i heard my heart crack a bit. Cough *Crack* Cough *Crack*
haha, you know how it goes~ breaks my heart to know that he's still not yet well... and yet i cant be there to take care of him cos he just cant afford to slow down and rest..
But still, i kinda drifted off when he started talking a lil too fast and the background was getting a lil too noisy... so i just enjoyed his voice :D haha, im pathetic. then i heard the words "...meet for coffee..." den i went "OKAE!!"
haha~ even though i dun drink coffee, i'll do anything to meet him.
and he demanded to know my bank account number. so cute rite? and he thanked me after i gave it to him... left me thinking, wad have i done to deserve such kindess from you? HAIIII~
and when we met, he was still veri busy!! to think that he abandoned his post to just meet me~ so he had to make phone calls, answer calls, send smses, reply smses... so i was sitting at the passenger seat, minding my own business and keeping quiet.. dun wanna disturb him, especially when he looks so stressed out and whispered "this is starting to piss me off"
and suddenly, he was silent and went "HI!!! Sorry, i was busy..."
that "hi" made me jump.
and he was talking to me, haha~~ to think he noticed that i was keeping quiet... and despite having some last min problems and such, he still bothered to think abt my feelings~ aww, so touched.
den i asked some questions about his business... and cool, i learnt new stuff!!
and im fugging tired now.
gdnite peeps!!!
totally unexpected. and it felt so gd to hear his voice again after 3 days of absolute silence. but he coughed. den i heard my heart crack a bit. Cough *Crack* Cough *Crack*
haha, you know how it goes~ breaks my heart to know that he's still not yet well... and yet i cant be there to take care of him cos he just cant afford to slow down and rest..
But still, i kinda drifted off when he started talking a lil too fast and the background was getting a lil too noisy... so i just enjoyed his voice :D haha, im pathetic. then i heard the words "...meet for coffee..." den i went "OKAE!!"
haha~ even though i dun drink coffee, i'll do anything to meet him.
and he demanded to know my bank account number. so cute rite? and he thanked me after i gave it to him... left me thinking, wad have i done to deserve such kindess from you? HAIIII~
and when we met, he was still veri busy!! to think that he abandoned his post to just meet me~ so he had to make phone calls, answer calls, send smses, reply smses... so i was sitting at the passenger seat, minding my own business and keeping quiet.. dun wanna disturb him, especially when he looks so stressed out and whispered "this is starting to piss me off"
and suddenly, he was silent and went "HI!!! Sorry, i was busy..."
that "hi" made me jump.
and he was talking to me, haha~~ to think he noticed that i was keeping quiet... and despite having some last min problems and such, he still bothered to think abt my feelings~ aww, so touched.
den i asked some questions about his business... and cool, i learnt new stuff!!
and im fugging tired now.
gdnite peeps!!!
OMGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!
i just went to The Sail! you guys know wad's that? go google.
it's the one at marina boulevard. dun ask me why or how i got there. but just know that i got there cos HE knows someone who lives there :D
marina/liching/nisa, rmb the time when we were taking the shuttle bus from marina barrage to the drop off point near the mrt station and marina was pointing at this glass building which she said was rumoured to be for residential purposes but look a lot like an office building and that it's IMPOSSIBLE for it to be a residential block? WELL IT IS FOR RESIDENTIAL PURPOSES. and you can just look out of the window, and see the floating platform and all those.. and it's facing the singapore river and all those. imagine, during ndp rehearsals and the actual ndp, you just need to go home, lie back on your sofa and watch the fireworks from the comfort of your home. no need to squeeze, no need to ballot, no need to sweat it out.
and f1's coming rite? you can just look down, and those machines will be zooming rite past your bloody feet!!!
im sooooooooooo gg there when the f1 race is on. i'll just plant my butt there and NOT MOVE AN INCH.
and being the suaku, my mouth was open and my eyes were big and round like saucers. and i was going "waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah" the whole time!! super disgraceful. need to learn how to keep my excitement in.
btw, mkt price....around 2k psf. and his apartment is around 800++ square feet. soooooooooooooooooooo, you know la. damn expensive. and it's actually quite small. well, EVERYTHING'S SMALL NOWADAYS.
and the owner's great :D he knows chinese. his chinese is better than HIM. haha!!! damn cute...
and i was pleasantly surprised when i heard OLD chinese songs being played on the stereo player. and mike -yea the owner- was humming along and even sung a few words!! im like OMG and my mouth opened again. but i quickly shut it when he looked over.. haha!!
den i asked HIM to speak his version of chinese.. and he sung "wo he ni wen bieeee~~~~"
i literally fainted.
these two guys are amazing!!
OH YA, WAD WAS THE REASON WHY I WANTED TO BLOG?
ohhhhh, i wanted to talk abt one of my amazing tuition kids :D
it's feroz!! my p4 boy :D he's damn cute la! veri active, has this diehard passion for football, loooooooves spinning cranky stories and dun like science hmk. or any hmk. and his bday is coming!! and he's inviting me to his bday dinner!! that makes me the one and onli CHINESE there. cos.............i dunno. he's indian, relatives are indian, he dun intend to invite his classmates or football buddies. im like OMG, you're gonna throw me amongst the sea of strangers!?
think i'll just be there, watch him cut his cake, give him his present and say "I HATE TO SAY THIS, BUT I GOTTA GO... HAPPY BDAY FEROZ!" and vanish into thin air.
but it's kinda heartwarming to know that your tuition kid likes you that much yea? he often bullies me in his own way, but i like him :D sometimes, i'll even play a mini football game in his small living room, den we'll do some tackling and all those.. sometimes i manage to steal his ball, sometimes i cant.. sometimes, im just pure lucky to be able to steal it. and im always either in a dress or wearing a skirt when im playing with him. HAHA.
okae im like, damned tired. all the adrenaline rush i got from the house visit, is kinda ebbing......and i gotta go back and hit the books. i wanna own that kind of house one day. and still have enough money in my bank account to buy another similar apartment. and still have lotsa money :DDDD
okae, im greedy. haha
i just went to The Sail! you guys know wad's that? go google.
it's the one at marina boulevard. dun ask me why or how i got there. but just know that i got there cos HE knows someone who lives there :D
marina/liching/nisa, rmb the time when we were taking the shuttle bus from marina barrage to the drop off point near the mrt station and marina was pointing at this glass building which she said was rumoured to be for residential purposes but look a lot like an office building and that it's IMPOSSIBLE for it to be a residential block? WELL IT IS FOR RESIDENTIAL PURPOSES. and you can just look out of the window, and see the floating platform and all those.. and it's facing the singapore river and all those. imagine, during ndp rehearsals and the actual ndp, you just need to go home, lie back on your sofa and watch the fireworks from the comfort of your home. no need to squeeze, no need to ballot, no need to sweat it out.
and f1's coming rite? you can just look down, and those machines will be zooming rite past your bloody feet!!!
im sooooooooooo gg there when the f1 race is on. i'll just plant my butt there and NOT MOVE AN INCH.
and being the suaku, my mouth was open and my eyes were big and round like saucers. and i was going "waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah" the whole time!! super disgraceful. need to learn how to keep my excitement in.
btw, mkt price....around 2k psf. and his apartment is around 800++ square feet. soooooooooooooooooooo, you know la. damn expensive. and it's actually quite small. well, EVERYTHING'S SMALL NOWADAYS.
and the owner's great :D he knows chinese. his chinese is better than HIM. haha!!! damn cute...
and i was pleasantly surprised when i heard OLD chinese songs being played on the stereo player. and mike -yea the owner- was humming along and even sung a few words!! im like OMG and my mouth opened again. but i quickly shut it when he looked over.. haha!!
den i asked HIM to speak his version of chinese.. and he sung "wo he ni wen bieeee~~~~"
i literally fainted.
these two guys are amazing!!
OH YA, WAD WAS THE REASON WHY I WANTED TO BLOG?
ohhhhh, i wanted to talk abt one of my amazing tuition kids :D
it's feroz!! my p4 boy :D he's damn cute la! veri active, has this diehard passion for football, loooooooves spinning cranky stories and dun like science hmk. or any hmk. and his bday is coming!! and he's inviting me to his bday dinner!! that makes me the one and onli CHINESE there. cos.............i dunno. he's indian, relatives are indian, he dun intend to invite his classmates or football buddies. im like OMG, you're gonna throw me amongst the sea of strangers!?
think i'll just be there, watch him cut his cake, give him his present and say "I HATE TO SAY THIS, BUT I GOTTA GO... HAPPY BDAY FEROZ!" and vanish into thin air.
but it's kinda heartwarming to know that your tuition kid likes you that much yea? he often bullies me in his own way, but i like him :D sometimes, i'll even play a mini football game in his small living room, den we'll do some tackling and all those.. sometimes i manage to steal his ball, sometimes i cant.. sometimes, im just pure lucky to be able to steal it. and im always either in a dress or wearing a skirt when im playing with him. HAHA.
okae im like, damned tired. all the adrenaline rush i got from the house visit, is kinda ebbing......and i gotta go back and hit the books. i wanna own that kind of house one day. and still have enough money in my bank account to buy another similar apartment. and still have lotsa money :DDDD
okae, im greedy. haha
10 August 2009
hey i am, blowing my nose off to outer space together with truckloads of used tissue paper.. and coughing a lil.
worse thing is, i miss him sooooooo much!!
woke up this morning, and the first person/thing i tot of was him.
spent the next 1-2hours just purely thinking abt him.
recalling how he said i smelt of soap the moment i stepped into his car on fri :D another way of saying i smell nice rite?? haha~ and it was my hair conditioner which i use once a week :D will use it once i feel that my hair is getting coarse and dry :D been stuck with the same tube of hair conditioner for almost 2 yrs. and still using that same tube. it's big. and apparently it hasnt lost its function nor did it spoil :D
gonna repaint my nail polish tmw. you dun wanna know how poorly-maintained those polished nails are... needs a new coat of life!!
stomach's growling though.
my nose is still trying to kill me.
it got worse after i did a mini-tidying up of my wardrobe.. and oso bcos i was crying this evening. NO I DIDNT CRY OF HEARTBREAK. it's just that i got too engrossed with a new manga i found :D it's damned nice and i regret not reading it earlier. it's called 07 Ghost.
it may sound ghost-ly, but there's nth scary abt it. rather interesting plot and storyline. and the characters are just so beautiful. main character is Teito, a teenage boy who experienced lotsa trials and tribulations. lost his father - i cried once. lost his fren - i cried more. and everytime he recalls his fren, i drop another tear.
heh, silly me. but i just love it!!
okae i need rest.
gdnite pple..
worse thing is, i miss him sooooooo much!!
woke up this morning, and the first person/thing i tot of was him.
spent the next 1-2hours just purely thinking abt him.
recalling how he said i smelt of soap the moment i stepped into his car on fri :D another way of saying i smell nice rite?? haha~ and it was my hair conditioner which i use once a week :D will use it once i feel that my hair is getting coarse and dry :D been stuck with the same tube of hair conditioner for almost 2 yrs. and still using that same tube. it's big. and apparently it hasnt lost its function nor did it spoil :D
gonna repaint my nail polish tmw. you dun wanna know how poorly-maintained those polished nails are... needs a new coat of life!!
stomach's growling though.
my nose is still trying to kill me.
it got worse after i did a mini-tidying up of my wardrobe.. and oso bcos i was crying this evening. NO I DIDNT CRY OF HEARTBREAK. it's just that i got too engrossed with a new manga i found :D it's damned nice and i regret not reading it earlier. it's called 07 Ghost.
it may sound ghost-ly, but there's nth scary abt it. rather interesting plot and storyline. and the characters are just so beautiful. main character is Teito, a teenage boy who experienced lotsa trials and tribulations. lost his father - i cried once. lost his fren - i cried more. and everytime he recalls his fren, i drop another tear.
heh, silly me. but i just love it!!
okae i need rest.
gdnite pple..
08 August 2009
hmmm... suddenly tot about marina. nono not marina barrage/bay/parade/wadever. but marine bte osman :D
wad abt her?
she's veri expressive, emotional, easily agitated, and blur.
there was once at vivo when we were walking around (i was suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of wearing new heels) and she got attracted by a jewellery shop's display of accessories.. and den before we knew it, we heard a veri distinct "bong" and there she was rubbing her head and laughing her head off. the rest of us oso laughed. almost died from lack of oxygen!! esp ching, she couldnt stop laughing la.. den the shop assistant was standing behind her counter, looking at us with this bewildered look, since she didnt see wad that blonde-haired minah did.. had to stifle my laughter before i fainted..
and she thinks a lot as well.. of course she does.
she doesnt have the normal singaporean family. and she's had a rather tough life. so she's not like those brainless bimbos you see in class.
and she's oso a bit slow in processing information, so sometimes i do get impatient with her... hehe~ sorry old woman... but it's real infuriating when it's smth that came naturally to you, and yet she cant get the gist of it.. den you kinda wonder WHY?! maybe cos the golden hair dye killed her brain cells.
and one most impt thing that i rmb from recently, was that this wonderful woman said smth.
she envied me.
the me she saw, had not much worries. no troublesome family issues, not much of a financial crisis, can think faster than her, etc. well, do i really appear to be THAT eunice?
okae, i admit that i can process things faster than her.
but it's not that my family is trouble-free. i just tend to run away from them. im a coward.
it's not that i have no financial problems. it's just that i dun go shopping for zara, pull&bear, armani exchange and all those! otherwise, im as broke as she is. i go to bugis village, scouring for $10 deals. and sometimes, my search pays off :D
but oh well, i dunno. everybody has their own problems. nobody's really BETTER OFF.
and look at me now. after soooooooooo many pple around me, sneezing coughing and wheezing, im down with the cold. HAI..
Marina, my tuition kid, and HIM~ esp yesterday.
morning lecture, there's the bug-carrier #1, marina.
afternoon tuition, there's my tuition kid sneezing and coughing - bug-carrier #2.
evening, i met the still-recovering-but-insists-that-he's-fine darling aka bug-carrier #3 :D
SURE KANA LA.
and now my amazing mother is blaming me for being sick. for not drying my hair. for this and that. which are all insignificant compared to the number of sick pple around me. i havent been blowdrying my hair for as long as i lived. never liked them cos it just feels like my head's heating up and nth else is happening. after that, the hair is STILL damp. and it actually damages the hair la..
so she's screaming and shouting and cursing me. now that's irritation to the core.
and im happily blasting music at my ears. but apparently she managed to get past the earpiece. so i kinda shouted back at her that it's the pple who's spreading the germs, not that the germs attacked me from my hair.
and wowwwwwwww, for the first time. she accepted that explanation!! and stopped shouting.
i was damned amazed!
as in SUPER DUPER AMAZED.
hai, so sian. He's now at bintan, enjoying himself.. im here, blogging about my misery.
this morning, he called me to tell me that he was at the ferry terminal and that he couldnt take any pics for his holiday trip cos the camera's with me -HAWHAW- and he heard me sniffing away.. asked me if i was sick, or if it was the morning sinus.. i decided to tell a white lie. and said that it was the sinus. he was rather worried abt me, hehe~
and rmb the restaurant business idea? the two men are thinking of setting up a joint! but i better not divulge any part of the business plan here :D P&C wor~ and last nite, we met up for that reason as well.. so we had dinner with wayne at a place called "relish" :D the food is great!! but we two shared a meal cos i wasnt hungry :D and since it was a burger set, i told the waitress to cut the burger into two when they serve the food..
and when the food came, he was pestering me to eat the food (i wasnt touching the food cos i was busy taking down the issues the two men mentioned) and confiscated my notebook and pen
den he realised that the burger was oredi halved.
but i still didnt get my stationery back :(
only when wayne excused himself to go to the toilet, did i reach over to get my stuff back.. haha
haha, the things we do to each other.
the other nite, i confiscated his lighter. den he took it back when i let my guard down. AND THEN i took both the lighter and cigs :DD but in the end, he got both back. shucks.
and i've been giving him head massages whenever we meet. and he was saying that he's been able to sleep a lot better bcos of that :D den i told him that maybe it's bcos im tiring him out. he said, "no, it's not you.. it's the head massages"
and bcos of wad he said, im willing to massage his head everyday, forever.
but i know that's impossible. so lemme rephrase.
im willing to massage his head for as long as we can be together.
wad abt her?
she's veri expressive, emotional, easily agitated, and blur.
there was once at vivo when we were walking around (i was suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of wearing new heels) and she got attracted by a jewellery shop's display of accessories.. and den before we knew it, we heard a veri distinct "bong" and there she was rubbing her head and laughing her head off. the rest of us oso laughed. almost died from lack of oxygen!! esp ching, she couldnt stop laughing la.. den the shop assistant was standing behind her counter, looking at us with this bewildered look, since she didnt see wad that blonde-haired minah did.. had to stifle my laughter before i fainted..
and she thinks a lot as well.. of course she does.
she doesnt have the normal singaporean family. and she's had a rather tough life. so she's not like those brainless bimbos you see in class.
and she's oso a bit slow in processing information, so sometimes i do get impatient with her... hehe~ sorry old woman... but it's real infuriating when it's smth that came naturally to you, and yet she cant get the gist of it.. den you kinda wonder WHY?! maybe cos the golden hair dye killed her brain cells.
and one most impt thing that i rmb from recently, was that this wonderful woman said smth.
she envied me.
the me she saw, had not much worries. no troublesome family issues, not much of a financial crisis, can think faster than her, etc. well, do i really appear to be THAT eunice?
okae, i admit that i can process things faster than her.
but it's not that my family is trouble-free. i just tend to run away from them. im a coward.
it's not that i have no financial problems. it's just that i dun go shopping for zara, pull&bear, armani exchange and all those! otherwise, im as broke as she is. i go to bugis village, scouring for $10 deals. and sometimes, my search pays off :D
but oh well, i dunno. everybody has their own problems. nobody's really BETTER OFF.
and look at me now. after soooooooooo many pple around me, sneezing coughing and wheezing, im down with the cold. HAI..
Marina, my tuition kid, and HIM~ esp yesterday.
morning lecture, there's the bug-carrier #1, marina.
afternoon tuition, there's my tuition kid sneezing and coughing - bug-carrier #2.
evening, i met the still-recovering-but-insists-that-he's-fine darling aka bug-carrier #3 :D
SURE KANA LA.
and now my amazing mother is blaming me for being sick. for not drying my hair. for this and that. which are all insignificant compared to the number of sick pple around me. i havent been blowdrying my hair for as long as i lived. never liked them cos it just feels like my head's heating up and nth else is happening. after that, the hair is STILL damp. and it actually damages the hair la..
so she's screaming and shouting and cursing me. now that's irritation to the core.
and im happily blasting music at my ears. but apparently she managed to get past the earpiece. so i kinda shouted back at her that it's the pple who's spreading the germs, not that the germs attacked me from my hair.
and wowwwwwwww, for the first time. she accepted that explanation!! and stopped shouting.
i was damned amazed!
as in SUPER DUPER AMAZED.
hai, so sian. He's now at bintan, enjoying himself.. im here, blogging about my misery.
this morning, he called me to tell me that he was at the ferry terminal and that he couldnt take any pics for his holiday trip cos the camera's with me -HAWHAW- and he heard me sniffing away.. asked me if i was sick, or if it was the morning sinus.. i decided to tell a white lie. and said that it was the sinus. he was rather worried abt me, hehe~
and rmb the restaurant business idea? the two men are thinking of setting up a joint! but i better not divulge any part of the business plan here :D P&C wor~ and last nite, we met up for that reason as well.. so we had dinner with wayne at a place called "relish" :D the food is great!! but we two shared a meal cos i wasnt hungry :D and since it was a burger set, i told the waitress to cut the burger into two when they serve the food..
and when the food came, he was pestering me to eat the food (i wasnt touching the food cos i was busy taking down the issues the two men mentioned) and confiscated my notebook and pen
den he realised that the burger was oredi halved.
but i still didnt get my stationery back :(
only when wayne excused himself to go to the toilet, did i reach over to get my stuff back.. haha
haha, the things we do to each other.
the other nite, i confiscated his lighter. den he took it back when i let my guard down. AND THEN i took both the lighter and cigs :DD but in the end, he got both back. shucks.
and i've been giving him head massages whenever we meet. and he was saying that he's been able to sleep a lot better bcos of that :D den i told him that maybe it's bcos im tiring him out. he said, "no, it's not you.. it's the head massages"
and bcos of wad he said, im willing to massage his head everyday, forever.
but i know that's impossible. so lemme rephrase.
im willing to massage his head for as long as we can be together.
06 August 2009
Love Me for a Reason
Love Me for a Reason - The Osmonds
Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please
It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be
And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand
I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
I'm just a little olf-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
(Repeat to fade)
haiiii.....
i think i've just been added more stuff into sheryl' worrying bag..
had an sms chat with her last nite.. and i told her wad's been going on... and chantong told her abt the incident!! OMG~ haha.. our amazing cute boy~
and she was asking me, why am i doing these... and that i seem to be having so much problems, money-wise as well.. den i told her why again..
and she got MORE worried.
argh.
i've been dreading this.. didnt want her to worry abt me, so i didnt tell her much.. but i just couldnt say "nope, nth happened" and lie to her rite?
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i think i've just been added more stuff into sheryl' worrying bag..
had an sms chat with her last nite.. and i told her wad's been going on... and chantong told her abt the incident!! OMG~ haha.. our amazing cute boy~
and she was asking me, why am i doing these... and that i seem to be having so much problems, money-wise as well.. den i told her why again..
and she got MORE worried.
argh.
i've been dreading this.. didnt want her to worry abt me, so i didnt tell her much.. but i just couldnt say "nope, nth happened" and lie to her rite?
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
03 August 2009
woke up at 5..
snoozed till 5.15..
started revision at around 5.30..
heard the marikita song on air 15 min before i dozed off again..
woke up again at 6.45~ this time veri awake, haha
today's price theory test......i was doing it rather happily. apparently some of my efforts paid off!! cos i attempted the exam questions, one of which actually came out as one of the structured questions! but for the mcq, i was reeling a lil cos apparently my brain havent woken up.. but after that, i could answer them la :D with some certainty...
should be getting a DI this time!!
i better get it. all the efforts of understanding and memorising!! cannot go to waste!
and i told HIM that the test was "easy peasy", so i cannot afford to perform less than a DI. He wanted to wish me good luck before the test, but he didnt know that i'd be taking it early in the morning, so he ended up messaging me right in the middle of the paper..
but marina was veri upset. methinks her approach to studying for the test was insufficient.. but oso dunno how to help her sia.. haiii..
so damn tired. and i actually continued studying after the lecture. wah liao, why am i not taking a break or smth?! and i was actually trying to start studying for the upcoming biz stats test... OMG when did i become such a study-aholic?!!?
but my head got woozy and my eyes couldnt focus once i flipped open the lecture notes for biz stats.. means that i've reached my limit for today~
but i dun really care abt myself now.. cos HE is sick!!
suddenly he told me that he'd be gg off work to go see doc, made me rather worried.. it's the second time that he's fallen ill since we've met! could it be that i've spread some bug to him!? OH NO!!
and during his visit to the doctor, apparently he got bored and started sms-ing me -.-''
but now, he's taken his medicine and sleeping now.. sms-ed me gdnite half an hour ago.. sleep so early......i oso want~~~~
how i wish i can be at his side now and making sure he's comfortable :( still worried abt him..
hai.
and inspired by his enthusiasm towards producing his band's album, i wrote a few songs!! and those songs are rather sad and actually wad i've been saying to myself.. Titled them as "little girl", "you've lost" and "nothing" :D
but they're just words for now... cant think of a tune for them yet.. damn!!
brain juice count as of now: -100%
snoozed till 5.15..
started revision at around 5.30..
heard the marikita song on air 15 min before i dozed off again..
woke up again at 6.45~ this time veri awake, haha
today's price theory test......i was doing it rather happily. apparently some of my efforts paid off!! cos i attempted the exam questions, one of which actually came out as one of the structured questions! but for the mcq, i was reeling a lil cos apparently my brain havent woken up.. but after that, i could answer them la :D with some certainty...
should be getting a DI this time!!
i better get it. all the efforts of understanding and memorising!! cannot go to waste!
and i told HIM that the test was "easy peasy", so i cannot afford to perform less than a DI. He wanted to wish me good luck before the test, but he didnt know that i'd be taking it early in the morning, so he ended up messaging me right in the middle of the paper..
but marina was veri upset. methinks her approach to studying for the test was insufficient.. but oso dunno how to help her sia.. haiii..
so damn tired. and i actually continued studying after the lecture. wah liao, why am i not taking a break or smth?! and i was actually trying to start studying for the upcoming biz stats test... OMG when did i become such a study-aholic?!!?
but my head got woozy and my eyes couldnt focus once i flipped open the lecture notes for biz stats.. means that i've reached my limit for today~
but i dun really care abt myself now.. cos HE is sick!!
suddenly he told me that he'd be gg off work to go see doc, made me rather worried.. it's the second time that he's fallen ill since we've met! could it be that i've spread some bug to him!? OH NO!!
and during his visit to the doctor, apparently he got bored and started sms-ing me -.-''
but now, he's taken his medicine and sleeping now.. sms-ed me gdnite half an hour ago.. sleep so early......i oso want~~~~
how i wish i can be at his side now and making sure he's comfortable :( still worried abt him..
hai.
and inspired by his enthusiasm towards producing his band's album, i wrote a few songs!! and those songs are rather sad and actually wad i've been saying to myself.. Titled them as "little girl", "you've lost" and "nothing" :D
but they're just words for now... cant think of a tune for them yet.. damn!!
brain juice count as of now: -100%
02 August 2009
i dun like this feeling.
and yet i welcome it.
the feeling that his world is actually veri different from yours.
the feeling that he led/is leading a completely different life.
the feeling that he's made such great achievements and yet you've done absolutely nth worth mentioning. absolutely nth. besides making him smile.
the feeling that we're actually THAT far apart.
but when you're with him in person, he dun feel THAT far! he's down-to-earth and yet not leading the mundane and "tune-down" lifestyle of a typical singaporean (dun make much of a link, but who cares since i havent slept a wink for a loooooooooooong time)
he will speak singlish with me. even though it kinda sounds uncomfortable for the singlish ear.. it's just that he would subconsciously adapt the slang of whoever he's speaking to! how interesting..
and sometimes he would speak cute-ish to me as well, makes me veri tickled. EXTREMELY TICKLED. think that it's a way for him to actually make me feel comfortable, despite our age gap. im sure he wont behave the way he is when he's with ppl in his age group.....he'll hafta be matured - not that he isnt matured when with me.. but he wont show the cute-ish side of him to them RITE?!
haiya, dunno la.
and this invisible distance btn us actually makes me wanna close up the gap by working even harder. in some way or another. to work my way up to be worthy of his attention.
and yet i welcome it.
the feeling that his world is actually veri different from yours.
the feeling that he led/is leading a completely different life.
the feeling that he's made such great achievements and yet you've done absolutely nth worth mentioning. absolutely nth. besides making him smile.
the feeling that we're actually THAT far apart.
but when you're with him in person, he dun feel THAT far! he's down-to-earth and yet not leading the mundane and "tune-down" lifestyle of a typical singaporean (dun make much of a link, but who cares since i havent slept a wink for a loooooooooooong time)
he will speak singlish with me. even though it kinda sounds uncomfortable for the singlish ear.. it's just that he would subconsciously adapt the slang of whoever he's speaking to! how interesting..
and sometimes he would speak cute-ish to me as well, makes me veri tickled. EXTREMELY TICKLED. think that it's a way for him to actually make me feel comfortable, despite our age gap. im sure he wont behave the way he is when he's with ppl in his age group.....he'll hafta be matured - not that he isnt matured when with me.. but he wont show the cute-ish side of him to them RITE?!
haiya, dunno la.
and this invisible distance btn us actually makes me wanna close up the gap by working even harder. in some way or another. to work my way up to be worthy of his attention.
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