our dear max told me many many times that he's not max.. so wad should we call him?

lisheng or dear dear?? hmmmm

OKAE LA, CALL HIM DEAR DEAR LA!!

hai, today no chance to meet max le la.. could've went out to meet him budden he knocked off too late~ 7.30pm lehhhhh... my mama wont let me go out at that time de lor.. :(

maybe one day i move out, den i can stay/go out as late as i want! but nah, cannot la.. at least wait until my father comes back to sg to work.. kinda impossible for him to retire now.. not financially stable enough!

been on the phone with max.. and he always say "NI DE TOU"......... wad's wrong with my head?!

heh, i realise that he either laughs as if he's having asthma attack, or he laughs even harder and ends up snorting like a pig.. damn cute la~

ahhh, so tired...

went to skool, had lecture followed by meeting.. den went home to shower, put down stuff, etc.. den go to turf city to look for our dearest max~

wah, he stand there, looking so cool and hansum in his dark, striped office shirt and black pants AND CLOWNISH SHOES..

i was thinking, how on earth did i manage to hook up such a hunk?!

haiiiii.. den went to his car to zuo bo since he havent knocked off.. den shun bian wiped his car.. it's white but there's so much unseen soot around~ my tissue paper and hands got black sia~

after that we went to junction 8 to eat ajisen ramen! hehe, took some pics.. will upload next time :D

den we went to his hse to zuo bo some more.. kajiao each other for a while and it's time for me to go home liao..

super duper didnt want to leave his side.. but no choice.. :(

if possible, we can meet on fri!! yatta!!

Des'ree - You Gotta Be



Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view

My oh my heh, hey

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face

Oh oh oh Remember

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears

My oh my heh, hey, hey

You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

All I know, all I know, love will save the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

All I know, all I know, love will save the day

my past isnt smth worth mentioning. and nth to be proud of.

if he really dun mind, like wad he said, den wad abt me? i'll mind abt how unworthy i am to have him by my side.

one thing i fear most, is that i'll hinder his work. he's the type who will sacrifice himself for others. i wont want him to sacrifice his future just to accompany me..

but the many things that he had done and the many things he had said, touched my heart.

it's the first time that when i kiss a guy and i feel that tingling feeling gg down my spine.. it makes pple shiver but it oso feels so nice~ it makes pple ask for more.

yesterday fly by.. early in the morning, at around 8plus, we oredi started msg-ing each other.. being excited abt meeting each other later on.. den i suggested that he comes to my skool and accompany me, no need to travel home and then come and fetch me from sim..

den he said that he dun like it when pple are looking at him.. den he didnt want to come.. and maybe i sounded angry via sms, den he scared liao.. come all the way to sim from ttsh and then he still dun dare to enter the lecture theatre.. den he decided to go to king albert's park to jalan jalan while waiting for my lecture to end..

lecture ended, and there he was, waiting for me.. just sit at the entrance and watch me walk to him.. den we decided to go to his hse to watch movies and those short commercial clips which are ridiculously funny.. soon, it was dinnertime and i had the meal with his family.. so weird la...... i first time eat with another person's family~ den i keep quiet.. nth to say..

after that we watch some more movie and den we moved on to seletar reservoir to sit down.. sit there, chill, talk abt anything and everything..

and meanwhile, my mama was going crazy, sms-ing me to go home immediately.. so when we were abt to leave and i saw that i had 6 unread msgs from my mama, i quickly called home.. den she told me to go home in a not-so-nice tone..

but when he sent me to the lift lobby of my flat, i just didnt want the lift door to close between us.. den he put his finger to his mouth and signalled to me smth.. i didnt realise wad he was asking for until he said it out.. hehe~~ after that, i let the lift door close and i just felt the sense of loss.. :(

after that, he reached home to bath while i bathed.. den we chatted online again~ chat chat chat, den he read my blog, den he said that he felt sad and wondered if i could let go of the men of my past.

i told him i could.

and i would.

for him, i can.












but how do i break the chain btn me and lawyer fren?

met max today..

this cute boy..... cannot take it sia.. come all the way to sim from ttsh after his checkup on his right hand, den dun dare to enter lecture hall.. in the end, he came all the way to the fourth level and den TRIED to say hi to qian and nisa.. but both gals were shy until they seemed to treat him like an invisible man sia.. den he oso not veri cooperative, act cool sia..

BOTH SIDE SHY. WAD AM I TO DO?!

anyway, after that everybody from the course was like, looking at me and him.. so weird la! he look cute anyway.. :D

well, let the pics tok.

see la, he took my pic when im abt to drift off to sleep..

at lower seletar reservoir :D with the mozzies..

hmmmm..

just back from meeting thomas.. forum fren la, met him once last time.. den today both parties nth to do, den meet lor..

ate pastamania's unagi pasta!! damn nice la~ will go back to eat again b4 they stop selling such a wonderful combination of jap and italian~

and i bought another tie for lawyer fren. $49, leather texture.. damn nice...... looks super cool!

the brand is van garie.. i dun really care abt the brand, the product itself is more impt.. and it looks super cool!!

OH YA, MY PERIOD CAME YESTERDAY!

YATTA!!
IT'S BEEN LATE FOR QUITE SOME TIME, AGAIN.

i felt some cramps last week.. but it didnt come.. and yesterday it flowed out like nobody's business. super stained the bed sia.. first day's cramps are crazy.. had to walk in crouching position and hug my tummy.. but it just cramp cramp cramp.. :(

luckily it's not so bad today :D

yay, i cleared a lil of my wardrobe today.

threw away quite a pile of clothes sia..

but always after that i will have flu.. my clothes always collect dust sia.. :(

A Whole New World




I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

just when im still feeling nice and floaty from the msgs i got last nite and a lil missing him a lot, my lawyer fren is back!!!

i wonder if he actually reports to anyone like this.. almost reminds me of my father sia..

abt to leave, report.
reached that place, report.
gg to sleep, report.
come back, report again.
SO CUTE LA!!

i think he's lonely. that's why he reports.

so lonely that he dun mind spending around 150bucks just sms-ing me.. okae i honestly dun think it's that much la...... heh, he can afford wad.. budden i know my phone bill exceeded the 100-mark for 2 mths liao.. hope that it wont exceed much this month..

and when i dun sms him in the morning and afternoon, he will suddenly sms me and ask me wad happened.. he must be used to me kajiao-ing him oredi la. how?

wad an amazing relationship we have.

suddenly im thinking.

if one lives his life, just doing things and working and such.. not knowing that he means smth to another..

after working so much and accomplishing that much, onli to go back to an empty home..

no matter how successful, it'll feel so so lonely.








suddenly, i feel a pang of sympathy for my lawyer fren.

will sayang him as much as i can, which is within acceptable limits :D

im floating~*

just received the most random msg from lawyer fren (he's in batam now) while i was bathing..

"i miss you too"

"you're v nice and sincere"

"i admire sincerity"

wow............one of the first compliments he gave me!!

so i asked him "are you drunk?"

hehe~~

floating floating.. this feels so good, and yet it's so wrong.

and just now he was complaining that he doesnt like batam.. bcos of one amazing reason which i dun think i can mention here for the fear of polluting the minds of innocent singaporeans..

before that, he was telling me abt the choppy seas (he took speedboat to batam. not ferry, not plane, but speedboat) and i told him to cling onto the seat so that he wont be flung out of the boat (he's skinny enough to be blown away la) and that i cant afford to lose him rite now.. he's kinda my pillar of strength and role model.. if he's gone, i dunno who to look up to oredi la..

NO I DUN ASPIRE TO BE A MAN.

i aspire to be able to do meaningful things.

oh and i think i know why he said he missed me. cos he's impt to me (rite now) and that i let him know it. this sense of "importance" make pple feel that they hadnt lived in vain, that they created some real impact on others' lives.

NICE.

SINCERE.

oh yeaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

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anor thing to mention is, i dreamt of wtc!! we were sitting somewhere, being relaxed with one another and chatting a lil..

i rmb i said, "you good ah, now vice-principal.. soon gg to become principal oredi wor"

and den he smiled a lil and reached out his hand to caress my cheek..

OMG!! WHY THE HELL DID I DREAM ABT HIM?!

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oh ya, onli one thing ruined my day today. those 2 indonesian students. im not being biased or anything. it's just that they were being damn inconsiderate and kept blabbering in their mother tongue.

in the end i waited one full hour, doing nth and waiting for them to finish printing. the gal print one file by one file.. humming some weird tune, strolling from the printer time and again to get a few pieces of paper at a time. im like "WAH KAO EH, CAN PRINT FINISH EVERYTHING AND DEN SORT THEM OUT LATER ON?!"

and den that (hansum) guy started humming anor song.
im like @$%#$#^@#%@$^#%&$^#$!#$!@$@#%$%^@$@#%$#^%&#$##$#!$!@#@#@#@~@!!@^&*&^&^@!*&@!@(*#@!@#$% so happy must sing song rite!?

so i just stood up and left the com lab.

den i finally found anor printer which was running low on ink and settled down quickly. by the time lecture break came, i JUST started the com.

and den i heard the com lab door open and close, followed by the veri familiar voices of those 2 students.

im like, WAD THE FUCK DID YOU FOLLOW ME HERE FOR!? ARE YOU THAT BENT TO RUIN MY DAY?!

i bet they used up ALL the ink in the 2 printers they hogged.

hope all their notes got wet by the rain and den the paper becomes meshed up like mashed potato. see how they sing their song.

damned pissed with them.

damn pissed, i've been waiting for the past 20min for those 2 indonesian students to finish their printing. and the female student just goes on humming some un-melodious song and slowly print the stuff. wah kao. den the guy acting cool.

humph.

oh and lawyer fren is gg to batam for one day........ means tonite no chance to chat with him online oredi la~ oh well, he promised to lemme sit behind his wheel by next weekend!! he refused to let me drive though.. he said "no one can drive my car but me"~ so cute la~

and i realise that he's taking up my slang online. this is not rite~

The Beatles - Michelle



Michelle, ma belle
These are words that go together well
My Michelle

Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble

I love you, I love you, I love you
that's all I want to say
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know you'll understand

Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble

I need to, I need to, I need to
I need to make you see
Oh, what you mean to me
Until I do I'm hoping you will know what I mean
I love you

I want you, I want you, I want you
I think you know by now
I'll get to you some how
Until I do I'm telling you so you'll understand

Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
And I will say the only words I know that you'll understand
My Michelle

saw this wall art.. damn cute la.. the coconut trees looked damn real..

blue blue sky.. nice~

i saw a similar pic of this droplets-view from longwa's blog.. den i saw the same thing.. damn nice, so i took a pic of it..

this indian boy is SO CUTE!!!

the whole time when his mama went to buy food, he was going "mama.. mama.. mama.. mama.. mama.."

I'd Love You To Want Me
by Lobo

http://www.jamshedpurlive.com/i/songs/sli006.html

When I saw you standing there
I about fell off my chair
When you moved your mouth to speak
I felt the blood go to my feet

Now it took time for me to know
What you tried so not to show
Something in my soul just cried
I see the want in your blue eyes

Chorus :
Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be

You told yourself years ago
You'd never let your feelings show
The obligation that you made
For the title that they gave

Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be

Now it took time for me to know
What you tried so not to show
Something in my soul just cried
I see the want in your blue eyes

Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be

when everybody thinks the worst of you, dun despair.

you've been misunderstood.

most impt, will be how you see yourself.

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why wear revealing-cleavage clothes?

for those who have it, flaunt it.

and for those who dun have it, try to understand it. wad's the use of hiding smth that's obvious? wad else can pple do when there are fats deposited everywhere else and the onli way to bring that attn away is to divert the attn and bring it to somewhere more presentable? i dun happen to have an amazing silhouette. but i happen to have boobs and a lil ass.

so wad if there is body acne? it's not anybody else's fugging problem wad.

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maybe i should stop being generous.

maybe i should onli be generous to those who deserve it.

those who happen to care and be your silent confidante. onli those who stood by you, waited for you and sat by you as you struggled with the problem in front. when you have to face the music yourself, it's always that person reminding you that everything will be fine.

thanks qian.

and for shandy, shaoqin, june, sheryl and the other s13 gals, i know that you're willing to be there for me and accompany me as i lick my wounds, but somehow.. i dun wanna burden you gals too much. and im afraid that you wont find me worthy as a fren if i let you know my problems. and we have drifted oredi, havent we?

and i still love you gals as strongly as i ever loved you. nobody can replace you gals in my heart. you are the ones who saw me and accepted me. esp shandy, shaoqin, june and sheryl. wanru oso :D yiting oso :D cherie oso :D amelia oso :) as for jialing, i feel that there's a barrier btn us but i dunno how it got there in the first place.

pls, just be there knowing that im gonna be happy. real happy.

and my dear elin, i love you as well. heh. amazing that we knew each other since p5 and we havent grown an inch since then. i just grew sideways after that :( lorraine, if you're reading this.. do know that i lurrrrrrve you as well, wow we're known each other since p3 together with junming!!

oh and nisa, you're getting cuter everyday. muack.

and if the shaking fren is reading this blog, i hope you dunno who you are :D

and for someone to call you stupid when that person dunno wad hell you're going thru, that kinda hurt. take note of that and stop labelling me as stupid, marina binte osman.

and puddy wuddy, dun think i've forgotten abt you!! you always manage to make me laugh sia.. and your tattoos.. evil laughter.. strong feelings towards racism.. nice, round ass. all memorable :D

and for my lawyer fren (you know who you are cos you're the onli lawyer i know), you're the most awesome guy i've ever seen. sugarbro is the second most awesome :P

today, i met my new online fren. i know i've been meeting a lot of online frens. but pls dun scold me. i just need some company.

today, this new online fren's called max, car dealer.. 26yo.. pleasant looking, drives honda fit.. rather fit sia~

went to makan at junction 8 and watched "the dark knight" with him.. the show ROCKED!! the batmobile malfunctioned halfway after the joker tried to BAZOOKA the police van but the driver (battie) intercepted and let the batmobile get hit instead..

but the bike was cool enough

budden the lead actress this time is so old-looking!! how the hell that 2 hot men is crazy over her!? hmph. so sian, so i kept complaining to max.. and if i rmb correctly, bruce wayne KISSED that woman!! either that, or smth happened and grossed me so much that i just groaned loudly while complaining.

and i was gg "SO COOL...." "OOOOOH, SO SHUAI" everytime bale was doing his stunts and such.. den max will laugh at my oohs and ahhs.. :(

and i rmb batman cartoon/comics had this baddie whose face was half human, half deformed.. well, that baddie came out as well :D budden kinda sad..

and the joker was telling stories abt how he got the scar.. damn funny~

i swear,

i will rebond and dye my hair by the end of october after the exams.

i will polish both my fingernails and toenails.

rite now, i feel super low-maintenance..

one guy commented, "your nails AREN'T POLISHED!!......your hair isnt REBOND-ED OR EVEN DYED!" wah lau, make me feel so funny.. as if im the onli female in sg to be plain and simple..........

my greedy look

ITADAKIMASU!!

wow, i can endorse swenson's oredi :D

den they dun need to have the small-gals-treated-like-puppies advert ;P

durian season now.

wah lau, even the honeydew in the fridge kana the durian smell and now i feel like im eating durian-flavoured honey dew :(

my hansum fsb lecturer for the week!! but too bad, the pics dun do him much justice..

he has big eyes!! and big nose.. and nice ass!!

yes, i've been checking my lecturer out. wad else to see sia.. students got to watch lecturer wad.. haha~ and he's so funny at times, making funny sounds and slangs..

so sad that tmw will be the last day of lecture under him :(

if he's my lecturer for the coming few sem as well, i'll be so happy!!!

my sleeping beauty is resting on the stairs, just waiting for pple to walk on him sia~

nice sky, but the crane ruined the pic.

so bright!!

my new shoes which i bought for $4.50 and den went on to decorate them with my own fabric paint!

nice rite? the ribbons look quite real hor!

met another online fren today

wah kao, totally regretted it from the moment i stepped into his car.

so i had this diao-diao attitude towards him..

den when he got out of the car, i was stunned.

he's shorter than me. SHORTER.

total turn-off

and he asked me how i found him. i dun dare to speak my mind sia~ cant possibly tell him that he's making me wanna run home and hide away from him?

so when i finally cannot tahan and he wanted to have a smoke outside jp, i msg-ed puddy wuddy and jio-ed him out :D so funny la, he was drinking sake and eating fried rice for lunch~

around half an hr later, i chased away that online fren and i waited for pud..

we met, went walking around the place.. got this extension at basement, so we went to see.. JAP FOOD CRAZE SIA!!

and being the sashimi-cum-sake fanatic, pud went to jalan jalan around at the "japanese fresh fish market"~ so cute sia... choose and choose the sashimi~

after that we went to watch CHI BI aka RED CLIFF

DAMN NICE!!!! OMG, FIRST TIME THAT AN EPIC MOVIE WONT MAKE ME SLEEP..

and first few min was cao cao sending kongrong to execution simply for speaking up against him in court, and rite in front of the puppet emperor's face.. i dunno whether to laugh or cry that kongrong was mentioned.. rmb kongrong rang li (kongrong give pear)?

and den i saw lin chiling and everytime she appeared, i felt like im watching a leg-massager advert sia~

jin chen wu and tony leung... wowwee~ and i think tony damn happy that time when he acting this show.. cos rite before that, he's in this "lust, caution" in bed with the main actress, now he got bed scene with lin chiling (in which the scene was CUT - stupid censorship)

OKAE I BETTER GO SLEEP NOW. super duper tired liao~

"One Step At A Time"
- by jordin sparks

(remix version)



Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]

hmm.. wad should i blog for today?



today's the start of FSB.. male lecturer!! woohoo!! nisa calls him "ninja turtle"



oh well, he just so happens to look veri much alike to my lawyer fren.. just that the eyebrows are different, my lawyer fren's eyebrows are like macdonald's famous letter! but the noses are the same - big, the eyes are the same, both have deep double eyelids, same smile as well..



but one thing that lecturer did which reminded me of MSF immediately..

he went "uh-huh uh-huh.." once. OMG, so alike~

oh ya, MSF bday coming.. promised to accompany him on that day since he took leave.. so after skool, he'll fetch me from skool! so nice rite? he's always so nice to me.. ^.^

thinking of wad to get for him.. i got him a lighter oredi.. and ties and cufflinks dun prove veri practical for him since he has lil need for formal wear.. WAD ELSE CAN I GET HIM? a wallet maybe.. but a cheapskate wallet wont be veri nice rite? and i oso dunno wad he likes.

HMPH.

hmmmmm, lawyer fren said that it'll be hectic this week for him cos he has to go to the high court to represent his client.. and to those who have forgotten wad they studied abt singapore's law structure.. gg to high court either means it's a criminal case involving death sentence or life imprisonment, or a civil case involving more than s$250k in claims~

anyway, correct me if im wrong abt the structure~!

well, normally shipping and admiralty cases will involved rather huge sums of money.. so i guess he's used to the sum.. and i bet he has that much worth of assets.. maybe much more since he owns landed property and car and investments, etc..

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anyway after lecture, i met a new online fren!! he's called phillip and he's french.

so cool la!! my first french fren~ he's 34 this yr and he's been in sg for 6yrs~

i asked this stupid question "is your name double L or single L?"

he said, "in eng, it's single L.. in french, it's double :)"

cool, lawyer fren realised that i blog! oh well~ he knows how i feel towards him, so no need to hide :D

so funny la, he suddenly read my personal message on msn.. and he asked "who are you falling in love with again tonite?"

who am i falling in love this time? i dun wanna know. but it seems like there's an answer. it's just screaming at me and i try to block it off..

okae, time to sleep!!

so gonna study tmw. MUST STUDY. TEST IS NEXT MTH. 40% SIA.

wow.. dr loo just spoke to me!!

he happens to be the chairman of the sentosa development corporation - in other words, can say that he owns sentosa!!

kinda..

i dunno.. according to salminah la~

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs
B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by
C) continue this game by sending it to other people

#1. if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I’ll slap him in the face if I caught him in person.

If frens let me know abt the betrayal and have proof to support their claim, I’ll confront him. If he said no he didn’t betray me, I’ll believe him. If he admits, I’ll take it as it is and I’ll consider leaving him. It really depends on whether he has me in his heart. Even if I do decide to continue being with him, I’ll have less faith in him cos the shadow remains and our relationship will be strained. Worse still, he betrays me again and thinks that I’ll forgive him again. In that case, I’ll end the relationship on the spot. No turning back.

In the end, the relationship will end no matter wad. It’ll just be a matter of how long and when. Cos he had already misplaced my trust in him.


#2. if you can have a dream to come true, what dream would it be?

I dream of being happy. Carefree. No need to be burdened by the material well-being of life.


#3. what will your dream wedding be like?

It’ll be as small as it can be.. most probably just the two families and some of each side’s close frens and relatives.. approx 100 pax.. but it’ll be as grand as it can be.. I wont want to scrimp on such things.. but I’ll spend within my means!


#4. are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Im not confused. I see not much of a future just as yet. Just wanna get my degree and den I’ll decide on which path to embark on.. to follow wawd my degree leads me, or follow wad inspires me.


#5. what’s your ideal lover like?

Meticulous and attentive to both our needs. Holds my hand when we cross the road. Walk in front of me in crowds and lead the way as he grabs my hand in case we ever get separated. Let me know that he’s thinking of me and constantly remind me that our love is still there. A lil tall and a lil hansum is gd enough.. big eyes pls.. I dun go for jay chou.


#6. which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?

No such that as being more blessed. Love needs to be reciprocated. If not, it’s not a blessing at all.


#7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

As long as I love him.


#8. if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

I’ll continue liking him secretly and try to move on in life. Will still treat him how I treated him before I knew abt his attachment. Dun want any awkwardness between us. But I’ll subconsciously continue trying to make him like me and forsake his gf, it’s just pure instinct. But I’ll try to curb once I realize my act of selfishness. And oso, I’ll go find other stuff to distract my attention away from him. Cos it actually does hurt to know that you cant be with that person you truly like.


#9. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

EVERYTHING.


#10. is being tagged fun?

I wont say that it’s fun, but it’s heartwarming that someone actually bothers to leave behind a message for you. The tagger could have done a million other things instead of tagging.


#11. how do you see yourself in 10 yrs’ time?

I see nth.


#12. who are currently the most important people to you?

My family and close frens.. and some other frens.


#13. what kind of person do you think the one who tagged you?

She’s veri considerate towards her frens and try her best for those she cherishes.. someone whom pple will never regret getting to know of forever.


#14. would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

rich and single.


#15. what's the first thing you do every morning?

open my eyes. close my eyes again. open my eyes again. look at my handphones and check for messages and missed calls. close my eyes again. den i drag myself outta bed to go wash up.


#16. would you give all in a relationship?

I will. As long as my feelings are reciprocated.


#17. if you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

I’ll pick both. Haha~ depends on who has feelings for me oso wad.. if I like the person but he doesn’t, wad’s the point of choosing him over someone who does like me? If both likes me the same way, den I’ll gauge how far each guy can go with me.. can he weather storms with me?


#18. what type of frens do you like?

Frens who know when to show their care and concern and oso knows when not to interfere into my life.


#19. what type of frens do you dislike?

Whining self-centered pussies of no character


#20. if you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be? (I added this to make 20 questions!)

if my lover threatens to leave me bcos of the company I make, then he is no longer my lover. If my frens threaten to leave bcos of who I love, then they are no longer true frens.

It depends la!!


ANYWAY, IM GONNA TAG 8 PPLE!! READ CAREFULLY!!

LICHING
AMELIA
JASON
WANRU
YITING
EDDY
JOSEPH
DELVINE

someone called me a pain in the ass.

but he's been the pain in my ass.

ah, forget it. thinking abt him made my blood boil. now i no longer have much feelings towards him, be it anger or happiness. his whines make my feel like sewing up his lips. his online complaints make me wanna make me curse and swear. i've used vulgarities at him 2 nites ago, that was the first time. and it will be the last. cos im never gonna let him make my life miserable ever again. but there's one thing i havent told him: what he really is to me.

maybe i shall say it here.

HE'S A WHINING, SELF-CENTERED PUSSY OF NO CHARACTER.

how many times has he said that he want to leave all this behind and forget abt me. how many times has he decided to come back and den onli to end up being chased away by me again.

im the type of person who takes wad pple say. pple say "bye", they mean "bye".. no such thing as saying "bye" and then come back saying "i miss you" and hope that we can get back together (as frens) again.

and i never liked repeating myself. who does? but somebody just keeps repeating wad he doesnt like abt me. and den he elaborates. me? i just say wad i think abt him once, and i never bring it up again. and for me to let me speak up abt how bad i think abt him, means that he had forced me to a corner with all that he has done.

last nite and this morning, i had oredi been rather quiet and i tried to keep my cool. and i stated to him that i dun wanna get too personal with him ever again. den he blah blah blah. and more blah blah blahs. for every one short sms i reply, i get back 2 long smses complaining abt how bad i am to him.

he asked me wad relationship was it between us as of this morning, i let him know wad relationship i wanna maintain with him. den he said tat he dun want that kind of relationship and wanted to be frens with me.. den i replied that i repeated that i didnt want to get too close to him anymore.. and den he begins this monologue of his abt me being able to complain abt how bad he is, and that he has to keep quiet abt wad he thinks.

problem is, he never keeps quiet abt wad he thinks. he just goes on and on and he turns a deaf ear to wad i try to say.

he kept saying that he has to give in, give in, give in and give in again.

problem is, i dun find that he gives in to me at all. not once.

he always gets wad he want from me, provided that he pays the price la. and i always let him make the decisions, be it going where and doing wad.. so wad's that abt me not giving in to him?

sick and tired of his crap.

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dammit, my stomach just growled.

and i saw the hansum asst manager from the golfing office. so HANSUM!!!!

everytime i see someone i like, i will have this pain at the back of my left brain.. it's painful, but at least i get to feast my eyes on hansum men :D

that's wad i say as "there's a price for everything"

anyway peeps, wad am i to do?

there's this lawyer fren whom im starting to grow attached to. so attached that i actually feel possessive/jealous over him!

but circumstances make it impossible for us to have any kind of attachments to each other.. the age, the job situation, family circumstances, everything!!

we're like from 2 different worlds altogether.

so from last nite, i've decided to make it a point not to get too attached to him and put a safe emotional distance between us.. but it's so hard!~

i bet this is just another crush. but every single crush i have, makes it difficult for me to concentrate.

oh well, i admire and respect him. a lot.

here i am by paul twohill



I'm waiting at the door like so many times before
This time, I'll make it right
I know I need to be a different kind of me
This time, I just might
Have a little strength to show you
The reason why I'm here tonight

Here I am. This is the moment
Here I am. Feel the love is waiting
From now, the start of something new
My life is not complete when I'm standing
Standing close to you

I woke up in a dream. There's someone in between
This time, I got it right
They are still in front of you
Then I realised that my wish had just come through
This time I want my fight
This feeling may not last forever
So now I'll brace this magic now

Here I am. This is the moment
Here I am. Feel the love is waiting
From now, the start of something new
My life is not complete when I'm standing
Standing close to you

I doubted my emotions. I can pull this off and make it all away
But now I know I am stronger. And I've finally feel that I am here to stay

Here I am. This is the moment
Here I am. Feel the love is waiting
From now, the start of something new
My life is not complete when I am standing
Standing close to you