hi my love.
today is friday oredi.. how long havent i met you? how long havent i felt your hand in mine? how long havent i hugged your arm like my bolster? how long havent we done wad we always do together?
it's been more than 3 weeks, my love.
lemme take a look my calendar.
our last meeting was 3rd march. today's the 21st.
it's been 18 days.
the meeting before that was before valentine's am i rite?
so wad are we doing?
one meetup for each month?
you were busy bcos of sunshine. but now, sunshine's not dragging you down.
den you were busy bcos of your pubs and company. den you are busy with the new disco and the company business. you're always busy. even as i blog now, you say that you're now at the airport again, settling the business.
and why do you chiong the work now?
cos you had been sick for the most of this month. at your home at tpy.
and it's not that i dun want to visit you. it's that you dun want to let me know your hse address. and william dun want to tok to me, so how am i to get to know where you live other than the one at west coast?
why are you so far away from me?
there are many times when i want to give up this relationship.
and there are many times when you told me to wait.
yes, i have waited.
am i supposed to wait some more?
i told you that im an impatient gal and i hate waiting.
but for you, i waited.
everytime you promise me with the promise of "these 2 days,..."
any promise you gave, you promised to fulfill within these 2 days. i've waited for much more than that.
and now, i dun want any more promises from you.
im tired of the way you give me hope with those promises and end up breaking them over and over again, with those excuses which just make me have to forgive you.
if i hadnt taken pictures of you, i could have forgotten your face. maybe. i dunno.
and it's not that we meet for a long time. our meetings cant go beyond those few hours bcos you were eating out of your sleeping time to meet me. after that you would have to meet your partner again to work.
i am touched that you had to skip sleep just to accompany me.
but why is it that our world is in the opposite?
why is it that you work at nite and sleep in the day?
why is it that i sleep at nite and study in the day?
and why do i always have that feeling that you dun intend to give me that job you promised as well?
im fine with the fact that we didnt celebrate xmas, new year, cny and even valentine's day together. cos somehow, you will be sick, busy or simply sleeping.
but im just getting tired. of everything. of your promises. of the way that we're actually strangers with each other.
