yesterday morning, we broke up. cos he missed his ex too much.

im fine, i encouraged to go for the gal who broke his heart..

anyway, we arent meant to be together.. our lifestyles clash. he's nocturnal, i become panda after sleeping later than 12am.. he's insomniac, i love sleep. he's a smoker, i dun like smoke.

HAIYA, FORGET IT LA. IT DIDNT REALLY START ANYWAY.

You might agree withit, but when it actually happens
96% of girls dont realize it 'til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.

One of the sexiest thing about a girl is her confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood i'm in.

let us pay for you!
dont "feel bad"about it
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.

honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word"handsome"/"beautiful"

Girls, I cannot stress this enough:
ifyou aren't being treated right by a guy,
don't wait for him to change.
ditch him.
sorry, disgrace to the male population ass and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
And first dates wont be the best.
It takes time to get comfortable with that certain girl.

So, girls give us some time.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel, or what you do.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....
and say"i love you"..
and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

so rite now, im somebody's gf? i think it's more like im his fren~~

yes skool is starting tmw. yes there is the welcome and enrolment session at 1030. yes i will have my first lecture at SIM at 1400 to 1700.



on 27th july, i met max aka haiping after getting to know him online. budden he dun like me to call him haiping, so im stuck with max~ and he's a heavy smoker, has suffered a major heartbreak from his previous breakup with his ex, suffering from insomnia, has skin problems, his family is experiencing a financial crisis, 23-yr-old, goes pubbing at stanley's pub @ lavender, has 2 god sisters: priscilla and gladys, etc etc..

and he asked me to be his gf. WEIRD RITE?

even more weird is, I SAID YES, even though i never met him before and vice versa.

somehow, 我的耳根软 so i cant bring myself to say "no" for long~
and i know that he's looking for someone to be the substitute for his ex and to soothe his pain. i dun mind being a substitute as long as i can help him, that's wad think. and when we were on the phone [for 1 hr for the 1st time, den 2hrs for the 2nd time], we really toked sia.. i no tok to a guy for so long on the phone before sia~

and i know from the start that i want the best for him.

i want him to stop smoking cos it's not good for both of us.

i want him to forget his ex so that he can move on.

i want him to know that i dun mind that his skins has sores and that i want to be the one applying the medicinal cream for him.

i want him to know that when he slept on my lap, i wanted to take away his pain and i was willing to suffer in his place.

i want him to know that i love it when he holds my hand and that my heart raced and i couldnt breathe properly whenever we touched.

i want him to know that i wanted to kiss his forehead and his lips looked delectable when he was asleep on my lap.

i want him to know that i dun mind his ah beng behaviours as long as he can practice self control.

i want him to know that i like his frens.

i want him to know that wadeva he does, as long as i deem it correct, i will support him.

i want him to know wad i like as well:
i like to be sent home cos i nv like gg home alone.
i like to be hugged cos i see hugging as a luxury, smth i was rarely given.
i like to hug and i would like to hug his arm on the bus, mrt, when we're seated.
i like to be taken care of.

oh yar, i didnt let you guys know.. i met him at close to 9pm on friday nite after he was dismissed from work, went for a haircut and bathed. we sat bus no.61 from bukit batok to lavender cos he wanted to let me sleep while on the way to pubbing.. well, i'd been awake since 6am that day and i slept at 1.30am the nite before bcos of him. budden i couldnt sleep cos he was there~ so ended up we chatted a lil, watched other passengers, etc.. he was 174cm, has a tummy.. veri cute! he can be my winnie the pooh worh~ and he told me that i dun look that short and that im not that fat.. make me veri happy~

when we reached lavender, he couldnt take it and had to smoke.. well, he needed it and i was in no position to stop him.. but he veri kindly let out the smoke skywards so that i wont get the smoke at full-blast..

at the pub, he introduced me to 5 of his frens: priscilla, gladys, ken, jacky [oh yar, max's idol is jacky wu.... i like jacky wu oso!!], stephen..

and max loves music. he loves to sing chinese pop songs, so he karaoked at the pub... at around 1am, we left the pub and walked around to find a coffeeshop since everybody [besides me] was hungry.. by the time we finished and reached priscilla's hse to play cards, it was oredi 5am.. we played cards and drank a huge bottle of martel... we finished around 3/4 of it sia.... budden given my body system, wadever alcohol i drink ends up as urine sia so i wasnt drunk.. priscilla and me didnt really get drunk cos we kept winning poker and the guys had to drink a lot~ haha.. in the end, jacky downed and max was downing oso..

didnt get to sleep until 9am... budden i woke up at 12 cos im not used to sleeping thru the day.. the rest slept till around 5pm.. so while waiting for them to wake up, i watched a tvb drama serial with priscilla's mother~ diao~~ the show veri nice!!! and it's a gambling show... so i like even more! haha

around 7.30pm, they finally were willing to leave the hse and let priscilla handle her grumbling tummy.. budden i had to rush home cos i was worried that my mama will be worried abt me..

and no choice, i had to major deduct points for max laogong.. he didnt bother to sms or call me to ask if i reached home... GRRRRrrrr.... and one of my frens tested him via friendster, max laogong kinda failed that test..... another 10 points deducted!

haha~~ dun worry, i gave him 200 points to start with~ or should i give more??

oh yar, and he didnt want our relationship to be made known to his frens yet.. so we held hands onli when no one was watching, and he released immediately when someone was abt to notice.. budden i dun mind this secrecy, so im cool abt it. i cant imagine the shock on his frens' face if they ever know that im max's gf~~

cos he's still trying to get over his ex.

http://www.astrology.com.au/12signs/libra.asp

veri true abt me... veri true. try this, peeps!

oh! yar i forgot to blog abt today~

today i went to the cheers at chinese garden mrt station and i saw this cutie at the cashier counter!! and he's sooooo cute!! and i saw that his eyes actually lit up when he saw me.. most prob cos he was bored and that there was this bunch of kiddy boys hovering around the store~

and when i finally went to pay for my jasmine green tea, his eyes opened again! and he smiled so shyly!

omg, i think im imagining things. but i shall go visit cheers tmw at the same time again.. yea! maybe can get his number!

yea, im a desperado~

nonono, i so dun wanna blog abt the hk trip.. until now, im still zonked out by the whole thing.. and i sooooo miss the bedtimes stories from sheryl and june, miss the pleasant receptionists, miss being lost in hk, miss taking the mtr, miss everything!!

and i come home and face my mama's nagging and black face, and tantrums.. HAI~ but i shall continue to tahan. haha~ budden i still missed my mama~

and i posted many many pics on dotphoto.com, but not all.. too many oredi until i lost track of wad i had posted and wad not. HAI~

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


try
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

heyyy...

in 24 hrs, i'd have reached hk international airport.. and missing the internet. yes, i will miss going online and such. haha~

hai, mixed feelings.. i want so much to quickly go hk and SHOP SHOP SHOP! budden....i cant bear leaving my family and frens in sg... and recently i've made quite a number of online frens from a sg forum.. they're one interesting bunch of pple... and the guys there range from act-cutey [disgusting] and no-nonsense-i-onli-want-power type. haha~ the gals there....... hmmmm........ wad can i say? the gals there are all feminists, including me.. haha! so the gals and guys will sometimes bicker over those stereotyping stuff and such..

and go hk, i want to buy sports shoe and sports bra, cos im gonna embark on my fitness regime after i come back from hk.. was veri inspired by one of the guys there to SHED WEIGHT! that guy is wow....incredibly incredible.. dunno how to describe him.. mature, smart [he was an economist, dammit], a metrosexual, extremely fit, etc... and he is motivated. damn, i like to see motivated men who takes care of themselves. haha~

omg, need to prepare so many things. i gtg now, tata! see ya on the 18th or 19th!

Ice - Kon Jai Ngai




Bie - I need somebdy (Karaoke)



today, i realise that thai songs do sound nice.. esp songs with male singers.. even though i dun understand A SINGLE WORD that they're singing~

sweet and sad.

Wait For You lyrics by Elliott Yamin.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone


Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?


So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be


So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you


Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby


What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying


Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough


So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you


So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be


Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do


Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

hey!! did i tell you peeps?

i SOFT STRAIGHTENED my hair!! now it is strrrrrrrrraight~ and so soft~ and it costs $180, including cutting hair.. at kimage and my stylist was xavier [and his helpful and CHIO assistant].. pronounce his name and it sounds like "saviour".. he really saved me cos i reaaaaally like my current hair! i never dared to straighten my hair and now, i look at it and i fell deeply in love with it~ and 48 hrs after the ordeal, my hair still smells of the chemical sia.. but not smelly, heng ah! the ordeal...took around 3 hrs.. and they put stuff on my hair 3 times.. and they washed my hair 3 times.. and they blew it dry 3 times. and my hair was cut twice~ haha..

and now my hair goes well with the shades i bought recently! been looking for THE shades for a looooooooooong time and i finally got it, at a price of $12! cheap eh? i go to dorothy perkins, topshop and i will never buy shades from them. it's 30 over dollars.. haha, i see yiting and jialing buy then my heart break for them sia~

haha~ shall post a pic of me and my shades one day.

Libra, the Scales, is the seventh sign of the Zodiac.

The sun enters it on or around September 23, when the autumn arrives. Libra belongs to the element air, its quality is cardinal and its charge is positive. Its Ruler is Venus, and Mercury exalts in it. Its motto is: "I balance." In the horoscope chart, Libra brings an ethical and logical character to planets or Houses therein.


Your sign

Those who have Libra as their star sign are born when the sun was in Libra, normally September 23 - October 22 (it differs slightly from year to year, because of the leap years).

Therefore, it is also - more correctly - called the sun sign.

The sun in your horoscope is your natural self - what you are when you relax, when other planets in your horoscope are not active. It is your basic drive, a character you have as an ingredient - more or less evident in all you do and all you are. It is the most important point in your horoscope chart, but of course it is not the only thing that describes your personality. You need to look at all the components of your birth chart, to get a correct astrological description of yourself.

If your sun sign is Libra, you are a person of principles, striving for balance and order. You prefer agreements to orders, but do insist on what you are convinced is the right way. Sometimes you find it hard to make up your mind, and to decide between opposite alternatives, in other cases you move surely and swiftly from A to B to C. You believe strongly in reason, and in solutions reached by discussions. You do not believe that anything defies logic.

A Zodiac sign does not give exactly the same influence all through its 30. Its first third has something of a cardinal quality, whatever the quality of the sign as a whole is, its second third is slightly more fixed in quality, and the last third is more mutable.

If the sun is in the beginning of Libra, you are quite quick in judgement, and trust your conclusions completely. You do insist on your way being the best one for all. If the sun is in the middle of Libra, you are stubborn with your views and difficult to persuade into anything at all. You have a set of values and morals that you treasure and stay loyal to. If the sun is at the end of Libra, you are constantly searching for principles that you can trust, and moral values to live your life by - but it is difficult, since you easily see the flaws of arguments and the limits of ethics you examine. And you frequently swing between opposing standpoints.


Your father

The sun in the horoscope also represents your father (the mother is represented by the moon).
If you have the sun in Libra, your relation to your father is balanced and ordered, sometimes almost in a formal or ritual way. You deal with each other as if you were diplomats from different countries. You have high expectations on each other, particularly in being consistent and true to one's words. When you feel that your father has treated you unjustly, you insist that he should realize it - even if you have to sharpen your tone of voice and persist for long. Your father, too, can be quite persistent, so disagreements may last for long.

[not true abt me and my father]

The planets

When another planet or other point of the horoscope is in Libra, it is also affected by the sign, getting something of its character. Here are those points, what they stand for, and how they are affected by Libra:

Sun basic drive - Libra brings a logical mind sticking to principles.

Moon longing - Libra brings a need to do the right thing, and frustration in the face of injustice.

Mercury curiosity - Libra brings precise and logical thinking, as well as a clear language.

Venus affection - Libra brings loyalty in any partnership, and a talent for joining with others.

Mars aggression - Libra brings decisiveness and the strength to fight for one's conviciton.

Jupiter luck - Libra brings balance to life and the ability to move forward, step by step.

Saturn duty - Libra brings a very firm and usually conservative moral, and unwillingness to tolerate any deviation from it.

Uranus contemplation - Libra brings a profound capacity for logical thinking, and readiness to revise one's ethics.

Neptune fantasy - Libra brings a fantasy that deals with the abstract, and dreams that focus on good and bad.

Pluto catharsis - Libra brings radical changes on theoretical levels, and renewed ethics.

Ascendant, AC attitude - Libra brings a diplomatic appearance, keen on not being misunderstood.

Medium Coeli, MC self-image - Libra brings a sense of having high moral standards, and a sharp intellect.

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im back!! wahaha~ im finally on the road!!

after just 2 practical lessons on the circuit, im actually on the road! honestly, i was in disbelief when my instructor said that he would be bringing me onto the road.. haha

as for my turnings, i have deteriorated.. sadly.... haha.. but on the road, when i was on the 3-lane road, i could drive smoothly sia.. reached 60km/h once.. SHIOK. budden after that turn into 2-lane roads, den i "haiya~"

the onli compliment that the instructor gave me was the i could speed.. haha... other than that, my hand and leg coordination isnt good enough. haha, i could turn the steering wheel but my foot wont budge. end up the car couldnt turn fast enough. otherwise, i'll be braking or accelerating without steering. hahaha.. many near-accidents sia... the instructor dunno whether he should laugh or cry~

nvm, i tmw drive some more. haha~

yesterday, i met my second online fren for the first time! wahhh... he kinda shuai se~ haha, okae i dun tok abt him le.

and the day before yesterday, we had dinner at zhenfa! to celebrate june's belated bday.. haha.. we kinda flooded her with presents~

actually, i prefer being flooded by many many presents~ pple share one present kinda not veri sincere.. and veri vexing.. there are the money issues which i detest..

okae fine.. i realise that nowadays i getting lazier and lazier in blogging. haha.. im getting lazi~