just read wad i blogged on 29 may 2004.. the day i started blogging.

found out that my life had been a cycle of happiness and then disappointment and sadness. after that, i get "reborn" den come happiness and then disappointment and sadness.. and it's all my fault. i wear my heart at my sleeves, i am extremely possessive of my property [that includes pen, pencil.. anything that belongs to me] and i think too much. and i am oso naive.

reading that post makes me feel a lil pathetic.. ahhhh, im still as pathetic as i used to be, aint i?

hello!

wanna shout out wad is in my head now. but i wont. i cant. cos wadeva is in my head, is forbidden. it breaks the rules. it goes against my principles.

but i still wanna shout it out. well, i shall shout it out in my head. but not shiok enough. hai~

stupid la... my bro kana motorcycle accident den his ankle kinda injured.. den this morning he go to the neighbourhood clinic to put on dressing. stupid thing to do. my mama today just nice go clinic and the big-mouthed receptionist said that my bro came.. then my mama ask some more and the receptionist shut her mouth.

hai, dunno who's in the wrong.. is it me? cos i didnt let my mama know that i know that he got into an accident.. or my bro? cos he didnt want to let my mama know? or the big-mouthed receptionist who in the first place should not disclose anything abt their patients?

haiiii..... yesterday was pure fun. today is pure ache.

from my arms down to my legs, there's no place which neither screams "ACHE" nor "PAIN". kayaking made my arms and my shoulder muscles ache like hell, so im taking a lot of effort to even type.. the running and walking in both sand and water made the activity a lot harder than when doing so on proper ground.. and my soles were kinda tortured by the slippers which i have worn for one whole day and night yesterday.. dunno how to say how and why, but it just hurts a lot..

slept at one last night, den woke up at around twelve.. woke up unable to move cos many parts of my body ached like nobody's business.. the weird dream i had before that made me more unable to move.

in this dream, it was veri broken and fragmented.. one part was when i got lost in this street where the buildings look a lot like those in chinatown, geylang, etc.. another part was when someone was teasing me abt liking lenz rite in front of lenz. i was just trying so desperately for that person to stop toking as lenz's face darkened. he looked kinda angry.. and he strictly told me a lot of stuff, mainly saying that i shouldnt have feelings for him and that he dun wanna have any kind of relationships at work etc etc.. i dun even know if i like him or not.. he's so much older than me...

ah, stupid dream.

anyway, yesterday i was roasted. today im onli burnt.. but my skin doesnt hurt, so i am thankful that the sun wasnt cruel.. ahhh... so happy, now i am tanned!!! i missed the tan-ness...

wahhh.. today's one of the shiokest and most tiring days of the year 2007 sia.... woke up at around 8 plus.. which i did extremely reluctantly.. practically rolled myself out of bed to get out of it..

den i met amily, shaoqin, amelia, yiting at vivocity's kopitiam, den we all set off to sentosa.. took the monorail there, wahhh.. nice scenery sia

anyway, we got off at beach station den we walked down the whole stretch of siloso beach.. from one end to the other, carrying our big bags and looking like refugees looking for shelter.. erm, not i say that we looked like refugees.. is amelia!! haha~

den we finally reached the sea sports centre, where we rented a single and 2 double kayaks and 2 lockers, so everybody split and paid $8 each.. for onli 1/2 hour, not shiok enough.. den i took the single cos it somehow seems that the four of them were veri excited in who pairs-with-who while i am fine with anything..

den we kayaked for 45 min since the guy in charge didnt say anything.. hehe, den amily practically loves the life jacket which we rented together with the kayak cos with it, she can swim! yiting oso! haha, i oso!! just that i forgot how to swim la..

after that we walked around while we left our bags in the locker and went to the kopitiam at palawan beach to eat! wahh... we ordered two dishes and one big plate of pineapple fried rice to share and 2 bowls of dessert which we couldnt finish.. hai, im not the dessert type, so i took wad i like, ice mango ice longan ice..

den we went to buy tickets for a 2 luge+skyride combo plus a free ride! wahhh... we went up the skyride 3 times until i sian diaooooo.. den luge 3 times until amily actually lost her ticket at the 3rd skyride.. haha.. but the peeps there veri good, let her go.. some more joke with us, "lost ticket? good!" even though i dun really understand why good la..

den we met chantong, sheryl, june and alvin after our first round, hehe.. just nice sheryl, june and alvin were going for skyride.. den we sat with chantong until the three peeps came back.. and we parted in order to continue the riding while the four others went to find a spot on siliso beach and buy ben & jerry ice cream.. after the luge-ing, im more confident in taking my practical driving lessons!

den we-five went to get our bags and it was almost 5 when we reached the centre.. time flew~

den for the first time of my life, we played beach volleyball beach captainball beach frisbee [with some strangers] consecutively.. i feel that the captain's ball was the most fun game i had today.. much more interaction than the others! and i got chantong in my group.. he kinda like a monkey, run here and there, jump here and there to catch the ball and many times i ALMOST langa him sia... haha.. oh yar! during volleyball session, amily and sheryl got a head-on collision and amily's back problem had a relapse.. at first we were thinking that she was just stunned and lying on the sand.. den somehow i rmb-ed her back had been giving her problems and i finally popped the correct question, "your back okae?"

den sheryl massaged amily's tailbone area, which i personally think that it cant help physically, but mentally.. mentally cos when someone pays enough attention, care and concern for another, the one receiving the massage will somehow feel better even though the situation hadnt improved, but the brain processes this act of concern and release some chemical which actually makes us feel that there isnt much pain as a few moments ago.. and if nobody bothered to massage, the one suffering from the pain will feel worse cos apparently nobody cares enough.. that mental hurt will add on to the physical hurt..

i think, i think too much.

den shaoqin and amelia went to bath cos they wanted to go home first.. and before them, amily went to zhenfa to work.. anyway, den a group of 3 guys and 1 gal who were playing frisbee came up to us to ask if we wanted to play with them.. cos for the whole time when we were playing, their frisbee kept flying to our side and even hit us.. haha..

in the end play until 7 plus until we couldnt see the frisbee in the dark.. haha..

den alvin became the introverted alvin and disappeared together with sheryl who went to him to show concern.. den yiting and june disappeared.. den left me alone.. sian!!! den when they FINALLY came back, i had oredi gotten veri irritated.. who likes waiting so long in the dark alone!?

den we went to bath and just nice, alvin and i wore class t!! haha, amelia oso changed into that after bathing but she left too soon.. or else can show a "love triangle".. haha..

wnt to vivocity's carls' jr. to have our late dinner.. hai, couldnt finish the burger AND fries... MAJOR SIAN. next time i dun go to CJ oredi la.... waste my money... $14 leh... for a meal that i cant finish. sian.

finally, took the mrt home at ten plus.. den went to cheers to buy water and instant noodles which i can eat for dinner when i do OT next time!

den thunder and lightning met with strong winds.. so i practically ran home with my veri tired body and heavy bag with another guy who oso apparently didnt want to get wet as well... run until my stitches came again.. ate too much for dinner.. and drank too much water at a time.. i think i got an overdose of water oredi la.. keep drinking water, be it poka green tea, slurpee, sharing 3 1.5L mineral bottles with the peeps [in which i think i drank the most], den getting a milk shake and drinking from alvin's iced lemon tea den the ice mountain water i bought from cheers... wah, den reach home my mother gave me a cup of tasteless chrysanthemum tea which was on the warm side which i absolutely didnt desire since i was hot and perspiring from the run away from the rain.. den after that i drank from my 1.5L water bottle from the fridge which was SHIOK! so now it either means i go sleep now and have eyebags tmw or i dun sleep, wait for another 1 hr and have panda eyes tmw... cos according to studies, if you drank water, for the next 2 hours you cant sleep or else will have water retention at the eyes..

anyway, i've used up all my energy.. my remaining energy was conserved for this long long blog entry.. haha

anyway gals [shaoqin and amelia], do rmb to post the pics we took onto out dotphotos acct!!

tata~

today, had another 2 bonding sessions with my colleagues before work and during dinner break in the pantry room.. yea! every minute spent with them is worth it.. how? i dun think i can bear leaving them when my contract's expired.

before work, MANY peeps gather in this 2.5m x 1.5m non-air-conditioned room to have breakfast and chat.. once i counted, 11 peeps were in the room together with the refrigerator, cupboards, table and bench, etc.. wah.. mega squeeze~

today had ot with the same peeps.. haha~ calvin, clarice, henry, xiaoling [have i mentioned her b4? nvm~], chin ya, cam, yuli, me.. oh, and the accountant christina from 2nd level!

cam brought instant noodles for dinner! it's erm... smth like herbal chicken noodles.. the herbal smell practically overwhelmed the surroundings.. so pple could smell it from outside the pantry and then pop their heads into the room saying, "wah... smell so nice.."

haha, it's delicious!! wanted to drink the tasty soup, budden decided not to cos i scared spill onto my uniform since my mouth has more than one hole..

den henry and i played with his new handphone and he was practically bugging me to send him the super bomber man game.. haha.. so i blutoothed it to him :] somehow, clarice got jealous that henry and i were in our own world.. haha, so funny! den she said, "see la, henry and eunice, play and play with their hp.." and i gave the oops-i've-been-caught face.. so the peeps kinda laughed at me~ haha..

hai, cant help but say that the panasonic pple have brought much joy into my life ever since i graduated.. love them!

erm, gals and boys, dun be jealous of them k? muah~ you peeps oso mean a lot to me k?

wahh.. gonna extend my contract with panasonic.. which means that im gonna work there for 6 full months.. but it's quite alright with me.. the peeps over there are just so nice! esp henry, weilun, irene, clarice, calvin, CAM, YULI... and so many peeps!

and when the peeps go overseas for short business trips, they tend to bring back to office quite some tidbits! today violet came back to work after her two-day business trip to hong kong and she brought a lot of tidbits back! everyone in the department gets a piece of lau po bing [wife biscuit] which has such thick winter melon stuffing, and oso a handful of bite-size tuna cubes which has wasabi coating on them.. smell a lot like ikan bilis, taste like ikan bilis.. haha.. budden it's quite nice, quite okay.. when your mouth is itchy, it becomes a great snack! haha.. budden cannot eat too much, it's on the salty side.

nowadays kinda busy for my department.. another department was demanding 8 quotations from us and chin ya spent days to raise them and we havent really raised finish even though i helped [it's not within my job scope, but no choice.. will feel guilty if i dun help].. den my side of the department, cam and i are trying our very best to localise our parts such that we dun buy the spare parts from jpn hq and instead buy from local vendors [local as in vendors who are not part of the panasonic group].. kinda difficult cos we onli have a list of panasonic's part numbers and every single vendor have different part numbers for every single item.. so i was practically calling every single vendor on the contact list for the whole day.. listened to their on-hold tone until got headache.. in the end gotta eat panadol.. :'[

tot of not extending my contract with them just bcos of the localising job.. hehe~ veri sian leh.. everytime gotta call vendors, call until they rmb my voice oredi.. and the worse thing is that i dun have a phone at my desk cos im a temp, so i gotta go find an unoccupied phone to make the phone calls.. so embarrassing la! but luckily, one of my colleagues isnt around in office so i practically took over his desk.. haha!

hai, tmw gotta continue the same process of calling and calling and faxing and faxing and typing and typing and walking and walking.. haiiii..

but nvm! weilun lent me his full metal alchemist dvd collection for me to watch! woohoo!! 51 episodes sia, i shall watch slowly.. yea!

HAIIIII... headache la.. now i still thinking whether i should apply for sim as back-up plan... should i?? i veri scared cannot enter the 3 unis leh.. wad if i cannot go into the unis? den how? apply for sim oso so ex... $50 leh! haiiiii...... wad should i do? this backup a lil too ex oredi la..

hehe, just played finish a puzzle game.. kinda tested my IQ sia... hey, my IQ not low k!? haha, anyway if you're feeling bored you can go to http://www.arcadetown.com/planned/game.asp and play some games which can actually get you to use up some brain cells! tata!

eunice, out!

recently got some real interesting youtube vids.

utopia vacuum


lyrics:
We can use it to clean the nation
We can use it for a Mars invasion
We can spin around
We go up and come back down
Inside the vacuum cleaner
We go with the flow
It sucks but it never blows
Inside the vacuum cleaner
Suck suck suck suck
Suck
Suck suck suck suck
Suck

Lyrics and music by jdavidb



funny commercials

huayang behind the scene special - epi 1


huayang behind the scene special - epi 2


huayang behind the scene special - epi 3


huayang behind the scene special - epi 4


woohoo! shiok!

haiiii..... how long have i not updated this blog? i dunno.. everytime i have smth to say, but im just lazy to blog..

anyway.. i finally completed my application to smu... as in i submitted everything necessary for undergrad application.. budden for nus, i need to resubmit my choice of courses.. den for ntu, im waiting for my appraisals from mdm ong and cam.. after all these, im soooo ready!

as if im ready. im not ready at all.. if i do get shortlisted to smu, i will have to go for an interview.. den i got headache wad to wear there for the interview.. i think i gotta wear white shirt and black pants with my pumps.. i know, no bling, no big accessories, no revealing clothes, etc etc. bahhh...

so far, i've paid $35 just for application alone.. but it's fine... veri fine.. i just spent $38.90 on a bag i saw at zinc which i veri veri veri like.. it's brown.. made of man-made leather.. i just dun like the idea of using another animal's skin.. so i'd rather go for man-made ones.. ha.. at first the bag cost $45 plus.. den i did my first bargaining in my life! i asked, "can cheaper?" den the guy kinda emotionlessly said, "okae, i give you 10% discount.. staff discount.. so that'll be 38.90.." haha.. kinda weird la...

hai.. my bro now having erm.. lemme count.. 3 jobs.. he'll be making deliveries for poultry and seafood from 7pm to 5am.. den he has relief teaching at the sec skool where my sis is working at from 7am to 1.30pm.. den he comes home to get some sleep before going to do the delivery work again.. and there will always be days where he gives chem tuition to some sec 3 boys.. cos he really needs the money.. for a guy with 3 bikes, 1 scooter, 1 car and 1 van, he needs money.. and oso he lost quite a lot of money in the stock market... hai, that's my bro..

hai.. nowadays ants in my house are getting more vicious.. there are ants which crawl around the computer table in the living room.. every night, i sit at the computer table and suffer some bites from them.. nasty lil things.. kinda stinging pain which lasts as long as they bite.. irritating leh.. i no do anything to them, some more provide them food which i didnt mean to, and they still bite me. and last night, i ate some choc biscuit and left the wrapper on the computer table for a while.. den i took up the wrapper, onli to find the wrapper flooded with those small red ants.. so i decided to do my ant extermination with scissors and a lot of tape.. woohoo, got soooo many ants on my tape sia.. so happy. haha... they're just irritating. some crept onto my computer screen leh.. irritating..

anyway, i started watching huayang hanakimi since last weekend.. just finished watching the entire idol drama this afternoon.. 15 episodes.. not enough la... in the end, her secret remains a secret.. hai.... i really really wanna know the reactions of the guys when they find out that reixi is a gal.. especially senior nan and siuyi.. and meitian is just so wow~ tong zhi wan sui!! [translation: comrades rule!!]

will be posting the mv of the show's 2 theme songs + the makings of the mv.. veri nice... the mvs are okae la.. budden i prefer the show's mvs..

haiiiii... i want a part 2 of the show!! just like meteor garden.. maybe part 2 can be a new handsome guy gets into the pic and tries to snatch reixi away from quan.. den quan himself got his family problems which didnt get off in the show.. so maybe part 2 can show a lil more family parts.. and wad abt reixi's parents? maybe they can get into the picture~ there are so many more things which can be emphasised.. BUT. too bad. ella's stepping out of the acting industry cos of some reasons.. you can know the reason in one of the behind-the-scenes which is aired in youtube..

"NO MORE NOTES. I DUN READ NOTES AT ALL. YOU VERI NO MANNERS."

these are wad she said when wad i tot was being veri tolerant of her self-imposed cold war.

yesterday, i went to nus openhouse with my sis and after that we went to watch movie at jp.. so it kinda took the whole day la. den i came home and i saw my mother's black black face. and she refused to tok to me.. so fine, i dun tok to her since she dun wanna tok. and den we all went to our rooms. next morning, she refused to tok to me. i told her that i was going out to work.. no reply. i said "bye, mummy." she didnt even make a f**king sound. so i went out and kicked the walls to vent my frustration. was almost late for the company bus cos i was trying to tok to her.

den at around 4 plus, she sms-ed me "you ot?" den i replied yar, coming home for dinner.. den i tot that the cold war was over.

den dinner went on fine, we toked, commenting on the 7 o'clock show, on the food that she bought.. den i went on to bath, den watch youtube.. den she erupted.

GREAT. she started saying that i got no jia jiao, aka no house manners. she keep telling me that i should have toked to her. for hell yea. when she refuse to tok to me. den she starts shouting that she hates me and such. smth that i have heard for YEARS. since she hate me so much why did she even give birth to me? she could have given me away. put me up for adoption. get me out of her sight. maybe my life could have been better. mayeb hers could have been better as well.

i hate being on this earth. how many times have i said that i hate this life?

wahhh.. just saw cameron yaw at my flat's void deck.. just nice when i walking towards the lobby, i see him walking towards me.. den he turns and walks up to his other big fren and says "sorry im late."

somehow i just cant stop myself from laughing at this..in fmss, i see him.. in pjc, i see him again.. now when i just got off from work, i see him. haha.. this is called you yuan wu fen. in eng, it's like, we are fated to meet but we dun have the affinity.. or something liddat, cant describe in eng sia..

anyway, i go bath.. havent bath yet.. need to get some oil off my face. tata!

okae, according to my mama... the indian boy's mama came over to tell my mama that her boy admitted to putting the thorny stem at the doorstep..

at least he admitted.. but somehow i dun hope that he gets some caning or beating.. just tell him not to do such things again. it's just stupid. it cant prove anything. and i dunno wad he's trying to prove. maybe it's just for fun. but there's no fun in hurting someone. hai, i dun understand why he did that.. i hadnt done anything to him. didnt even say hi.. haha~

anyway.. i forgive him oredi.. if he just admitted once i asked him, i would have forgiven him rite away after telling him not to do that again. no need so much trouble.. the hole has healed anyway, i think.. it's sealed up oredi.. just a red mark there now..

and my mama just keeps laughing.. wonder why..

damn angry.. some stupi idiotic kid put one thorny stem at my doorstep.. den i stupidly stepped onto it without looking. barefooted. so the entire thorn rammed up into my feet. was cursing and swearing at this kid's action in my mind. so angry that i was trembling. slammed the gate closed so loudly that the whole block could hear it.

and rite after i stepped onto the thorn, i saw my first suspect: the indian boy whose family just moved in. before they came, no such thing happened. just that the malay kids used to press my house doorbell and den dash off. the boy was watering the family plants and the plant he was at IS the plant which the stem came from. no doubt abt it. cos it's the onli plant there with thorns and nobody will be so stupid to climb up/down, purposefully walk up to your doorstep and place the stem there. and you cant say that it got blown there or otherwise. it's not as light as a feather.

and if you ever came to my house, there is nothing placed outside my house. the town council had oredi requested that my family and another neighbour do not place any furniture/plants outside out hse after a dispute between my mother and the neighbour. but that neighbour isnt that childish to put a thorny stem there.

so i angrily opened the gate again, took the thrown-away stem and slammed the gate close even harder. i dun intend to let anyone take that stem back. den i put on the plaster and cursed some more. dammit, there's soil on the stem and wad if the bloody bacteria from the stem get transmitted into my blood? there were pple who died after having broken skin get into contact with the soil.

so i asked the boy if he placed the thorn there. he said "no" and gave me the frown as if he felt extremely accused and innocent. den i tot, "fine. i dun intend to believe him anyway. i gave him a chance to admit it."

den i left. for a while. walked a few steps down the staircase before i heard the mother's voice and all the tamil words btn mother and son. so i decided to confront the mother who's in the house but the window's open. so we communicated with the window as a barrier. she repeatedly said that they did own that stem, but that they had thrown away all the other cut-off stems and she had no idea how the stem ended up rite at my door step, that they never ever went to my side and such. okae, i believe that the mother was ignorant of this matter. but i do not believe that the boy's innocent. i absolutely do not.

he was TOO defensive of himself.

and i do not believe that the malay kids had done that prank. cos the entire malay family had went out.

and my bro and my mum had left the house onli one and a half hours ago and they did not encounter the stem. so the stem was placed there within that one and a half hour time interval.

in the end, i left the stem [stained by my oh-so-precious blood] with the mother and told her to throw it away for me and told her that i do not want to have another stem at my door step with a smile on my face.

den i left, thinking "fine, it's just a prank. luckily im the one who got pranked. dun want it to happen to my mama.. if my bro kana, he sure curse out loud. everybody else's reaction will be so much better than mine. and they better make sure i dun get infected by the soil."

but im still angry abt being pranked. blood has been shed k!?

and it was a big thorn. and the hole created at my sole is big.

hihi.. wah.. i finally know how much i've been spending on ebay... it's near hundred dollars.. so im trying to save on the postage money by having COD, Cash On Delivery, where i meet the seller and i pay on the spot.. postage money is so ex!! i think i'll temporarily stop going to ebay.. so someone, pls recommend something for me to do while im online!! besides youtube.

will be going to meet one of the sellers at boon lay control station later at 1.30pm.. to get ermmmm...... leggings.. ah yes, leggings. it'll cost $8.. so i hope that it'll look nice~ after that will be meeting the gang at the same spot at 2pm... wow, wad a coincidence.. havent eaten... sad.. maybe i go out a lil earlier to have some food.. oh oh! im gonna wear mostly stuff i got from ebay.. mostly la.. my blouse and my leggings and my necklace will all be from ebay.. den my pumps, bangle and bag will be wad i bought at stores.. haha!

ahhhh... so nice... and if you want the song, ask me... i have!!

i cant stand it. i cant stop looking at lenz. cant stop thinking of lenz.

he has nice skin, i like.
he has big eyes, i like.
he has double eyelids, i like.
he is tanned, i like.
he is short but still taller than me, i like.
he is trilingual, i like.
he has dimples, i like.
he is mature, i like.
he is financially stable [i think], i like.
he has good fashion sense, i like.
he has nice voice, i like.

he is married, i dun like.
he speaks mostly in jap, i dun like [cos i dunno wad he's toking abt].

haiiiiiiii....... im just being stupidly, morbidly fascinated in a veri interesting guy. i hate cases of infatuation happening to me. i just hate it. makes me seem so desperate. grrrr..

hai, im sleepy.. done my "window shopping" at ebay.. yes, i bidded for a pair of shorts this time..... costs $15, so it's fine.. havent give my mama allowance. dammit.

ah! i have rmbed!!

wad i have been wanting to say is...

i've been addicted to both youtube and ebay......
at ebay, i see my money fly away.. [it rhymes!]
at youtube, my eyes get glued. [eh, i tried to make it rhyme..]

been buying clothes via ebay.. well, such "investments" are risky.. so i lost and i gained.. bought some stuff which i regretted buying cos either they didnt fit according to wad i wanted them to fit, or the quality of the item i bought SUCKED. really.. this bag i bought sucked... made me for the first time, give a non-positive feedback to the seller.. the colour's so faded, and it feels like it's made out of cardboard with only a piece of rough cloth wrapped around it.. the onli thing i saw that was nice was the decoration of the bag.. so im choosing to just leave it on one of my shelves as a display bag literally. thank goodness i didnt spend much on it.. less than $10 in total for that thing.. but my heart still aches..

then there's this pair of leggings which was 100% nylon, made me feel so scratchy and uncomfortable in it and when i wore it, i looked and felt like a clown in stockings. immediately banished it into the dark corner of my wardrobe. but the seller was veri sweet and nice.. so i decided to leave a positive feedback on the seller and not tok abt the item at all.. hehe..

haha~ den this purple belt which i paid for so much, onli to realise that i could have bought it anywhere else at around half the price. and i had seen the belt as a black one, not purple.. apparently the seller has a bad camera. if i rmb correctly, i didnt even bother to leave any feedback for this.. cant possibly scream, "the seller cheated me!" when i chose to take the risk of getting smth which i couldnt stand there and touch and feel and see the item....

yea.

luckily, i gained quite a number of things.. i bought this top which has a necklace to come along, and i felt that it looked great on me!! soooo happy... den there's this other pair of leggings i bought which can thoroughly go along with the top!! woohoo!! if i dye my hair to auburn brown, wow, i will look my best! haha, along with some makeup.. every gal i see in 05s13 [excluding me] had done smth to their hair besides cutting off those locks off.. rebond... dye.. highlight... perm... im the onli gal left who's onli done the locks-cutting.. and forget abt prom night where everybody did their hair; not counted. haha..

i soooooo wanna dye and perm my locks!! budden...i still dunno wad's stopping me. laziness? afraid that it wont come out the way i want? ah, heck. see first...

den youtube.. damn, i chiong-ed too much for naruto.. rite now, im stuck at episode 224... they havent uploaded any new episodes.. and i onli started watching like a few weeks ago........ haha.. chiong until my dark eye rings veri obvious.. oso bcos i've been waking up earlier than i want to.. hai.. wake up at 5.55am... just to catch the company bus at 6.57 am... it's THAT accurate.. the bus arrives on the dot. it's one of the great wonders that i can never decipher...

hehey, im back...

realised that i missed out blogging something..

now, i realise i've forgotten wad i wanna blog abt.

great..

hai.. rite now, im thinking whether i should continue working for panasonic... im oredi able to dial the vendors' phone no. without referring to the contact list, i can print reports blindfoldedly. omigosh. even the vendors can recognise my voice by now.. haiii.. im oredi used to going to work at panasonic.. used to being with cam, yuli and the rest.. used to looking at lenz san.. used to looking forward to lunch and tea break.. used to eating snake with henry.. used to having making-face competitions with weilun.. used to irene's blur-ness.. used to many things.. hai.. i dun mind being a perm there.. haha. the peeps there are just so nice, they remind me of a big family.. and i really like being around this "family"..

hai.. peishi quit officially today.. nowadays, ever since monday, she didnt report to work until today.. there was this filipino guy called jerome who was touchy to her.. and worse, he's oredi married.. there were a couple of times when he grabbed her hand without her permission.. there were some other incidents which i dunno how to describe.. his actions made her so paranoid that she couldnt sleep at night, didnt dare to be even near him.. she couldnt even bear to see him.. den finally the company let her go without requesting that she compensates for annulling the contract of four months.. wah, she onli work for one month leh, if she need to compensate, she has to compensate an amount which amouts to the next 3 months' salary..

dun even know if jerome will receive disciplinary actions.. he looks normal.. can even joke with krisanto..

MEN..

*shake head*

boo.. today is application day... hehe, applied online for smu and ntu's business admin courses.. couldnt apply at nus' yet.. gotta wait.. den decided to make cash payment for the $15 application fee for applying at smu.. oredi paid the $10 application fee for ntu's admission.. hai.. money fly away again..

oh, and i need to look for pple to give me appraisal... cos ntu want at least one person to give the applying candidate to be given an appraisal.. hai.... sian.. shall ask mdm ong :]

went to thomson rd with my family to eat crab!!! pepper and chilli crab are so nice!!! mmm.. the smell of the pepper crab still lingers on my fingers.... nice. haha, this dinner is to kinda celebrate me passing the 'A's.. haha...

hihi... i finally got my a level results...

C

B

D

i hate the letter D rite now.

it ruins everything.

but nvm... my a level results are DEFINITELY much better than my prelims results..

my prelim results consisted onli of Es, Os, and Fs.. i cant rmb much abt them cos i didnt want to rmb.

bahhh... forget it. im hungry and tired. onli had a meal today. but it was one full meal. tired cos i slept too late and woke up too early. i could've woken up at 12 noon, for goodness sakes.... but i had to go meet the ebay seller to get my leggings.. my first pair of leggings! and i hope that it'll be my last.. or else im going bankrupt at this rate.. and omigosh, i bought pumps as well! and bangles! and another necklace! all in one day.. i guess i wanted to get some pressure off my chest by shopping.. man, i cant be alone by myself outside.. i tend to over-shop, i cant control my hands..! when im with peeps, at least i wont really shop unless im really determined to buy smth.. cos somehow, when im with my frens, i feel too inferior abt my size until i cant bear to show affection for any piece of clothing or shoe or anything..

hungry and tired. and sleepy.

waaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... "under the canopy of love" ended with such a romantic setting and so nicely!!! sooooooooooooooo nice.............. so touching.. no wonder the guy got such good comments for this show!

anyway.. will be going to clarice's hse for visiting tmw.. den oso going to have a crabby dinner with my family after that.. hope that the day will go on successfully..

there's smth which i wanna blog but i cant rmb wad it is.. random thoughts just keep popping up in my head..

anyway.... haii... i miss work.. for one day, im oredi thinking,"i wonder how cam and yuli and david are coping.. i wonder if lenz san is in office.. i wonder how chinya and peishi are now.. i wonder if auto-receiving is okae.. i wonder if the vendors have met their delivery schedule, man, today quite a number of them will be delivering the goods to airport, i wonder if they have sent it.." when i was with the class..

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oh oh!! i rmb wad i wanted to add on to my blog!!

all i wanted to say was,
" my hands were trembling like shit when i reach out to receive the result slip. so damn excited.."

hiiii..... omigosh. im gonna get my a level results in 15 hours. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat. i bet in 14 hours time, my stomach will be in knots and i'll feel woozy and wanna puke from the excitement of getting the long-awaited and yet dreaded results.

now is the time to reminisce.

i rmb when i was getting my o level results.. the day before was the same as today. everything seems normal, but there's smth in the air that tells me that everything is getting abnormal. smth in my life is going to change for good. some of my colleagues have oredi encouraged me and told me that i'll make it, but they havent seen my performance in jc, so i dun feel encouraged at all.. clarice had ordered me to let her know the results when i get them.. aaaaah, wad a difficult task.

now im preparing a plan b... wad if i dun get past the hurdle?
i either retake a level [NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! NOT STUDYING AGAIN!?]

or i go SIM.

there's no way that im going overseas to study.

first, i'll miss the food here. the laksa. roti prata. my mother's homecooked food. chicken rice. bak ku teh. chilli crab, pepper crab, all the crabs. toking abt them makes me hungry oredi.

second, i can never survive alone.

third, im short. and the caucasians are tall. i stand beside them, i will feel like digging a hole. and even though im influenced western-ly, my singlish will overpower my english. and im afraid of being the victim of racism.

fourth, the money. im poor.

fifth, i gotta wash my own clothes!?

ah, there's just a lil part of all the excuses i've come out of just to avoid going overseas to study, even if it means going to m'sia [m'sia? no kidding....... i prefer singapore sia..]

hai, i dun wanna blog oredi. sian. i go watch naruto.