okae.. i am gonna go to church soon.. am going for a "test drive".. see if i like church life.. will be going to aldersgate methodist church.. not known to many pple, but definitely known by all fairsians and ex-fairsians.. there are just so many conflicting beliefs abt being a Christian that im gonna get confused.. somehow, the more we look into it, it gets more complicated..
imagine you're watching a rabbit chew on it's food. at first, it registers to you that it's just eating.. but the more you look at it, the more it seems like it's looking at you while it's eating. den you think, wad is it thinking rite now? is it angry that i watching it eat and invading its privacy and such?
okae, all i know is that salvation is by faith and i truly believe in the daily bread.
but there is a problem. am i receiving the exact messages from God or izzit just from the thoughts and beliefs of pple around me? many things i learn abt God is from pple. are wad they're saying true 100%? many things that pple say conflict with wad each other says.. so im now choosing to not hear wad they're saying. budden how do i listen to God's word liddat???
haiz..
okae, abt the church going thingy.. it's the 40DOP.. i really really wanna go, but im also afraid that i will be left alone cos lor mee got his own frens there whom he's familiar with.. so rite now im trying to catch pple to accompany me to church.. hehe.. den after church, i go to the library to do some reference work from my econs and such.. den maybe chiong some hmk with my classmates who may be going to study with me.. hehe..
