yea, if you remember, the title is the same as one of elin's past nicknames in msn messenger.. if you dunno who im toking abt, nvm..
and yea, im feeling this rite now.. i kinda feel detached from her le.. how to say leh?
you see, in her friendster account, where i can see alot of her frens, i can see that they're all those gals who dare to doll up, gals who are so unlike me.. im still the same introvert. i still dun dare to go out. i lack the self-confidence.
she definitely looks like she's leading a new life in mel.. that's absolutely great!! veri good!! she's moving on!! yea!!
but im not really moving on.. im just the same ol' me. i still dun have the strength to move on. maybe cos im still confined in the safe premises of skool timetables and procedures.. and i think that if i carry on being the same ol' me, i'll never be able to get pass university life..
i feel like im like carrie. you know who's carrie? have you been watching tv? well, lemme tell you abt the show. it's called "carrie".. carrie's the outcast of the entire skool. she was odd, she never socialises, she freaks out easily, she looks plain [i look hideous, so i win her over that point]. but she does have telekinetic powers which ended up killing the whole skool by burning them crisp on prom night. but i do not have the powers to do so.. if i have, i'll be setting up a barbecue eatery.. btw, the show's kinda nice! it's stephen king's first work to be transformed into a movie. made in 1976. wow!
i got outta point.
you may be thinking, why am i making such a fuss abt becoming an outsider in elin's life? well, i dunno. but i know that she's the first gal to make me feel important.. she's an extremely nice gal whom everybody will want as a good fren.. to me, that's all i need to want to be part of her life.. hehe..
and jasmine yip is the first gal to show me the ugliness of humans. when we were primary 3, she was the best fren.. she changed in sec2. when you know her now, you'll grow to hate her. she's a slut. a bitch. a flat-chested sucker.
i've never felt such distaste for anybody before. i miss the old jasmine.
