sunday
my bro got into an accident. and he managed to survive.. den both knees kana.. one knee quite serious, the ligament torn. den we no choice bluff my mother that he got rollerblading accident.. no choice.. wait she go bonkers.. she was on the verge of going crazy when she saw him limping like an old man.. he even used his umbrella as his walking stick. why no get the real one? dun ask me.. maybe cos he didnt want my mother to know wad really happened, worse, exaggerate beyond logic..
yesterday
went out for lunch with lydia this afternoon; the other gals not free.. lydia got class, huiyi got cca.. den i forgot to ask evan.. hehe.. the lunch was at jp, she was a lil late.. but nvm.. den we went to mos burger to eat.. but since eels arent available, we ate teriyaki chicken burger.. den after that we went to the pet shop at jp.. the pets there are soooo cute! the hamsters, rabbits, guinea pigs, cats and dogs were so cute! got two rabbits, veri furry, were sleeping close together.. in fact, they were so close that i tot that it was ONE animal with lots of fur.. haha.. den got a veri furry kitty didnt care much abt human presence.. pple, including me, kept molesting it and it just turn around, take a glance at you, turn away, sleep. but sometimes, it will respond by following your hand.. den it will sniff sniff [maybe cos my hand got teriyaki chicken smell] den get tired of sniffing den sleep again.. but its fur veri nice!! it's those long long fur.. then you got notice that the strays normally have extremely short tails? well, this pet shop got all cats with long tails!
den my sis came and got me to watch "harry potter and the goblet of fire" after i bid goodbye with lorraine.. it's nice! budden im too tired to narrate the story to you le...
today
went to the library with yiting and SQ. fruitless trip. i waster my studying day. argh. i'll never study in a group. never!! dun wanna tok abt wad happened in the library. just wanna warn you peeps that the fire alarm has many false alarms and i am veri easily irritated when somebody rocks my table and chair, or shifting every one minute. i expect no movement, no human sound, no disturbance.
den on my way back on the mrt.. it was halfway from bukit gombak to bukit batok that the train suddenly stopped in one of the tunnels.. it just *stopped*.. den it continued moving and advancing to bukit batok.. by the time we reached bb, there was a smell of burnt plastic.. i'll recognise those poison fumes no matter where i smell them. den there's one guy [quite beefy, cute single-lidded eyes.. not my type.] who started sniffing like as if he hated the smell.. the others were like feeling abit discomforted but this guy is exaggerating the smell.. den i coughed cos i couldnt take the smell.. been kinda sensitive regarding my sense of smell, hearing and taste ever since i suffered that untreated case of food poisoning.. but, i havent been digging my ear, so im getting deaf.. regarding that food poisoning, it's easy to pinpoint wad was the culprit. it was nescafe mocha. why do i know? cos that was the only thing i consumed on that day before the discomfort came.. want me to narrate the story? hehe, maybe you're going "NO", but i cant hear you.... sooooo here goes:
i woke up at 4am in the morning. why? it was my last paper; the phy, chem mcq paper. had to study else i get myself strangled. had prepared myself a cold can of mocha to keep my eyelids wide open [but somehow, it cant work!].. while reading thru the notes, i drank. on an empty stomach. so that food poisoning thing, was my fault. when i settled down on my exam table, i started feeling nauseous. but there's no way will i leave the hall WITHOUT completing my paper. that's my last paper for goodness sake. i wont die if i dun go puke in one and a half hour.. so the whole paper had me wanting to dig a hole on those pieces of wood and empty my stomach right there. but you know wad? my science paper scored an A1!!! wow.. okae, back to topic. after that, i rushed to the toilet like a madwoman [must have looked pissed cos elin looked worried] and locked myself in the cubicle. but nth came out. man, that's worse than puking. soon, i managed to forget abt the discomfort. but while watching tv on my stomach, the pain doubled. it was dull, but it's strong. so strong that i could only hug myself into a ball, i couldnt bear the tot of stretching.. my mother and sis notice but i told them nvm.. i still remember how my mother scolded me for being sick when i was around five.. so i didnt want to go see a doc and throw money into the sea again.. so i suffered for around 3 days, the second day was worse. i ate and puked. i drink water, oso vomit out. nth could go in. even when i swallowed the panadol, it could not be absorbed in time. how did i know that? cos when i puked for the third time, i saw it floating on my puke. not in powdery form or anything. it looks just like when it first entered my mouth: a pill. i puked even more. puked out some blood and lots of bile. even when i didnt eat anything, i puked out more bile. man, the yellow bile is BITTER. i'll never forget the taste of it. eeyuck. the sad thing was, the thing carried on for 2 days only.. not enough time to become a skinny eunice.. i want to slim down!!
reflecting time
i found MW. i found out that he's working for the skools in the north zone. i found out that he didnt lie to me abt him working as a special assistant. ha, why in the first place will he want to bluff a student like me? there's no need for concealment. and i got his personal office number. damn, google's too good to me.
oso, i dreamt of him recently. i dreamt that i was back in fairfield as a student. i dreamt that he was still a teacher. i dreamt about fairytales being published in fairfield. i dreamt that in "beauty and the beast" had his picture and his autobiography. i dream that i spent many efforts getting the book but i still lost it. i even lost it twice. i left it at the foyer and left without it. i den went back to find it. i den left it behind somewhere else. but i couldnt find it. i combed the whole block and everywhere i went, i saw bits and pieces of him; pictures, him walking past me while walking down the stairs. i woke up without finding the lost book. i'll never find it ever again. cos in the first place, it never was mine. it never was. *sob* my feelings for him shouldnt have been nurtured in the first place. if i could turn time around, i will do the same thing. why? cos he had been my motivation, my reason why i persevered in skool regardless of how much i had been hurt, my christian role model.
wad he appeared to be was wad i wanted to be. and i still want to be like him. i want to be a christian counsellor. but...i still have bad thoughts. i am not yet qualified enough.
you see, i created a theory of leading life while i was showering.
every christian has his or her own mountain to climb. the Lord is just at the peak of the mountain, viewing the beautiful scenery of wad He had created and waiting for you to come sit beside him. however, you have to climb your way up, no matter how treacherous the path is. there may be landslides which either make you slide all the way down the ground bottom, or stop you from continuing your path. you may throw your hands up and shout," i give up!!" and turn back to your comfort zone and back to the arms of the devil. there may be rocks that tumble down and make you stop to think, "is this my tumbling block, or my stepping stone?".. you can happily climb over it and continue climbing your way up to the top, or say, "im tired" and cower back home. there may be the weather, but hey! you just need an umbrella or a poncho to get past the rain.. or maybe bring a heater too.. many things you can conquer. but there's one thing you may not conquer. that's yourself.
now, when you've reached the peak, you'll see that He had prepared everything for you; picnics, a cosy bed and comforter, your fav bolster and pillow, everything you ever needed, will need and wanted.. He'll give you everything, provided you give Him your love and complete effort.
you give Him your everything and only then He'll give you your all.
27 November 2005
for sale
heyhey... i think i list down the topics i selling.
the central problem of economics
price theory - theory of demand, theory of supply, mkt equilibrium, elasticities of demand and supply
theory of production and costs
wage theory
hehe.
the central problem of economics
price theory - theory of demand, theory of supply, mkt equilibrium, elasticities of demand and supply
theory of production and costs
wage theory
hehe.
for sale
heyhey... note that i mentioned selling econs mindmaps in my previous entry?? cant help it, im broke and i happened to be making mindmaps for the entire year.. well, me changing my selling strategy. im gonna charge 50 cents for every topic you order. you order, i get it ready for you.. but there's a restriction; i can only produce up to theory of production and cost.. hehe..
are you asking why im charging so much for one topic?? cos one topic got alot of mindmaps! hehe.. example: for price theory, there are more than 22 pages!!
great, my mother is scolding me for not eating. tata.
are you asking why im charging so much for one topic?? cos one topic got alot of mindmaps! hehe.. example: for price theory, there are more than 22 pages!!
great, my mother is scolding me for not eating. tata.
26 November 2005
yesterday - 25/11
heyhey, notice that i keep toking abt things that happened in the past?
wanna know why?
cos....................................................................................how do i actually blog about something that will only happen in the future!? im no fortune-teller, i dun have crystal balls.
okae, yesterday i went to holland v to meet my cca peeps to have lunch at a cafe called "settlers", it not only serves you food, it serves you extremely interesting board and card games!! many games served were veri challenging but engaging.. i remember a game called "im the boss".. it prepares me to go and set up businesses sia.. abit like monopoly; you roll the dice and you travel around making deals with the other players. the one with the most $$ wins.. this game will take quite a while cos gotta use the brain to either help or sabo pple.. haha..
it was fun! budden the food part.... hmmmmm, it's edible.. quite nice.. i ate spaghetti with beef balls.. the sauce is lots of tomato + ONIONS + a wee bit of mushrooms.. no cheese, budden i nvm.. im not that fussy abt food.. den the beefballs were okae, but there were ONIONS again. argh. the beef balls were kinda crisp on the skin and soft in the inside.. there's beef, budden the beef taste isnt strong; tasted more like potato balls.. haha.. den there's free flow too.. so in the end i drank 3 huge glasses [they dun have small ones] of ice lemon tea.. and when i reached home, the first thing i did was run to the toilet. haha..
after the meal, we continued playing.. den the teacher got us to her side to tell us abt the camp and such.. i was piao-ing.. haha.. den she gave out the letters from cdac [the sponsor for the camp] to us as proof that we went for that.. hm, they recorded down that i have 51 hours spent on the camp, which means that i have 51 hours of cip fulfilled.. wow.. den liddat adding today's flag day, i got a total of 95.5 hours.. wahhhh.... i liddat can retire le ba.. budden i thinking of going for the skool library's stock-taking stuff for the sake of more cip.. haha.. wanna reach 100 hours.. dunno lar.. maybe next year will have more cip den i overshort le. haha..
den today i went to woodlands to do flag day for metropolitan ymca for 4 hours: from 10 am to 2 pm with shaoqin.. budden we slack like siao.. went to mac to have breakfast, den we went to ask for donations, den we went shopping cos we saw many nice accessories, den we bought yiting some bday pressies [abit too late, but hey! better late than never], den we bought bags for ourselves, den we went to ask for donations, den we went to kfc to have lunch, den we went to minitoons to buy wrapping paper, den we went to comic connections cos i wanted to buy handphone pouch [stoopid me, have one at home and yet i went out to buy.. just found the one at home, so im gonna send the new one to the cold palace].. den just nice 2 pm le.. haha.. den after that we took bus no. 187 to take home.. i sat on the bus for around 50+ mins.. wow... oh yar, guess wad? i bought my first handbag!!! wow!!! tomboyish me buys her first feminine bag on her own!! and it's pink and white in colour.. the pink isnt those pale pink... it's not hot pink either.. it's like the darker but brighter pink.. veri nice!! even if dirty oso not veri obvious!! until someone pukes on it den veri obvious le.. hehe, maybe when i go out to meet you peeps for lunch/dinner den i bring that out to show okae!! hehe.. so exciting.. hahahaha.. why i bought a pink bag? cos i wanna get a bag that complements my slippers, which are pink in colour too.. haha..
okaeokae, i guess i gotta go now.. gotta go do my econs revision.. btw, anybody wanna buy notes for econs? they are in the form of mindmaps and the info is extracted from pjc's lecture notes!! wanna buy? each page costs 5 cents.. budden i made quite a number of pages.. so i now charging10 cents for every 10 pages!! see? i so kind.. haha.. den liddat if i make 100 pages, you pay $1 only!!! budden if you want them to be binded, i will have to charge more.. will add an extra 80 cents le.. hehe.. the price is negotiable since im veri soft-hearted.. so if you want, tag me!! budden you'll only receive it after i have done finish, which i dunno when i will really finish doing.. hehe, remember, if you want econs notes, tag me!!
wanna know why?
cos....................................................................................how do i actually blog about something that will only happen in the future!? im no fortune-teller, i dun have crystal balls.
okae, yesterday i went to holland v to meet my cca peeps to have lunch at a cafe called "settlers", it not only serves you food, it serves you extremely interesting board and card games!! many games served were veri challenging but engaging.. i remember a game called "im the boss".. it prepares me to go and set up businesses sia.. abit like monopoly; you roll the dice and you travel around making deals with the other players. the one with the most $$ wins.. this game will take quite a while cos gotta use the brain to either help or sabo pple.. haha..
it was fun! budden the food part.... hmmmmm, it's edible.. quite nice.. i ate spaghetti with beef balls.. the sauce is lots of tomato + ONIONS + a wee bit of mushrooms.. no cheese, budden i nvm.. im not that fussy abt food.. den the beefballs were okae, but there were ONIONS again. argh. the beef balls were kinda crisp on the skin and soft in the inside.. there's beef, budden the beef taste isnt strong; tasted more like potato balls.. haha.. den there's free flow too.. so in the end i drank 3 huge glasses [they dun have small ones] of ice lemon tea.. and when i reached home, the first thing i did was run to the toilet. haha..
after the meal, we continued playing.. den the teacher got us to her side to tell us abt the camp and such.. i was piao-ing.. haha.. den she gave out the letters from cdac [the sponsor for the camp] to us as proof that we went for that.. hm, they recorded down that i have 51 hours spent on the camp, which means that i have 51 hours of cip fulfilled.. wow.. den liddat adding today's flag day, i got a total of 95.5 hours.. wahhhh.... i liddat can retire le ba.. budden i thinking of going for the skool library's stock-taking stuff for the sake of more cip.. haha.. wanna reach 100 hours.. dunno lar.. maybe next year will have more cip den i overshort le. haha..
den today i went to woodlands to do flag day for metropolitan ymca for 4 hours: from 10 am to 2 pm with shaoqin.. budden we slack like siao.. went to mac to have breakfast, den we went to ask for donations, den we went shopping cos we saw many nice accessories, den we bought yiting some bday pressies [abit too late, but hey! better late than never], den we bought bags for ourselves, den we went to ask for donations, den we went to kfc to have lunch, den we went to minitoons to buy wrapping paper, den we went to comic connections cos i wanted to buy handphone pouch [stoopid me, have one at home and yet i went out to buy.. just found the one at home, so im gonna send the new one to the cold palace].. den just nice 2 pm le.. haha.. den after that we took bus no. 187 to take home.. i sat on the bus for around 50+ mins.. wow... oh yar, guess wad? i bought my first handbag!!! wow!!! tomboyish me buys her first feminine bag on her own!! and it's pink and white in colour.. the pink isnt those pale pink... it's not hot pink either.. it's like the darker but brighter pink.. veri nice!! even if dirty oso not veri obvious!! until someone pukes on it den veri obvious le.. hehe, maybe when i go out to meet you peeps for lunch/dinner den i bring that out to show okae!! hehe.. so exciting.. hahahaha.. why i bought a pink bag? cos i wanna get a bag that complements my slippers, which are pink in colour too.. haha..
okaeokae, i guess i gotta go now.. gotta go do my econs revision.. btw, anybody wanna buy notes for econs? they are in the form of mindmaps and the info is extracted from pjc's lecture notes!! wanna buy? each page costs 5 cents.. budden i made quite a number of pages.. so i now charging10 cents for every 10 pages!! see? i so kind.. haha.. den liddat if i make 100 pages, you pay $1 only!!! budden if you want them to be binded, i will have to charge more.. will add an extra 80 cents le.. hehe.. the price is negotiable since im veri soft-hearted.. so if you want, tag me!! budden you'll only receive it after i have done finish, which i dunno when i will really finish doing.. hehe, remember, if you want econs notes, tag me!!
24 November 2005
hmmm
today is the first HOT day after 3 consecutive cold days starting from monday; first day of the camp.. i extended my hand outside my kitchen window to feel the heat and man, it's scorching.. the previous 3 days were better. i prefer cold-weather singapore.. makes me feel alone yet protected.. there's this feeling that i like.. it's like you're alone to yourself, hugging yourself to keep warm; like comforting yourself.. but if it rains everyday, singapore will be GONE.. one week of rain can ruin everybody's schedule.. den everybody will start running around an dpulling their hair and screaming and running amok. haha.. it's like the rain dun let us do anything besides sleep and stay at home to slack.. we cant tahan slacking for too long a time.. cos singaporeans are kiasu and kiasi.. haha
hmm, had quite a tok with darren.. that tok was interesting. but i forgot wad we really toked abt. haha..
hehe, tmw gonna go for lunch at holland v..but b4 that, im going to west mall to return my bk and den go to comics connections to look for chrno crusade's full episode vcd and poster.. den i gonna go to popular to buy earpiece.. wow, im gonna be broke, but for the right reason.. hehe. in my opinion, it is for the right reason.. den oso gonna buy some more pens.. ah.... den gotta top up my ez-link card.. gonna spend quite alot of $$$ tmw.. lemme calculate. vcd: wont be buying at the spot, just wanna look at the price = $0, poster = $3, earpiece = 5 x $0.30 = $1.50, pens = 2 x $0.95 = $1.90, markers = 3 x $0.85 = $2.55, top up ez link card = $10-$15.. altogether: $33.95 - $38.95/-..
wahhhh.... luckily i got some savings to back me up.. think i better put in $15 into my ez-link card..
so announcing to all robbers/molesters-cum-pickpockets/theives: DO NOT TARGET EUNICE YING TMW OR SHE'LL BLAST YOU TO CHANGI PRISON.
great, now my mother is indirectly scolding me for not loving her. dammit. i just dunno how to love pple ad show them that i do at the same time. and whenever i try, she rejects my movement. GREAT. somebody help me.
hmm, had quite a tok with darren.. that tok was interesting. but i forgot wad we really toked abt. haha..
hehe, tmw gonna go for lunch at holland v..but b4 that, im going to west mall to return my bk and den go to comics connections to look for chrno crusade's full episode vcd and poster.. den i gonna go to popular to buy earpiece.. wow, im gonna be broke, but for the right reason.. hehe. in my opinion, it is for the right reason.. den oso gonna buy some more pens.. ah.... den gotta top up my ez-link card.. gonna spend quite alot of $$$ tmw.. lemme calculate. vcd: wont be buying at the spot, just wanna look at the price = $0, poster = $3, earpiece = 5 x $0.30 = $1.50, pens = 2 x $0.95 = $1.90, markers = 3 x $0.85 = $2.55, top up ez link card = $10-$15.. altogether: $33.95 - $38.95/-..
wahhhh.... luckily i got some savings to back me up.. think i better put in $15 into my ez-link card..
so announcing to all robbers/molesters-cum-pickpockets/theives: DO NOT TARGET EUNICE YING TMW OR SHE'LL BLAST YOU TO CHANGI PRISON.
great, now my mother is indirectly scolding me for not loving her. dammit. i just dunno how to love pple ad show them that i do at the same time. and whenever i try, she rejects my movement. GREAT. somebody help me.
22 November 2005
woohooooo!!
woohoo!!!
i finally downloaded the songs for chrno crusade!!!! the opening song was given to me by lorraine quite a long time ago, just that i finally realized that it is the song for chrno crusade.. den i went to ALOT of sites loooooking around when a particular site gave me the instructions in searching PROPERLY.. soooo grateful for the webmaster!!!! but erm, i lost the add, wanted to put it here for the benefit of others..
now, i have 3 extra jap songs, all from chrno crusade!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!! thanks to the Lord!!! im rejoicing!!!!! woohoooo!!!! budden now whenever i hear the songs, i feel soooo sad cos the entire tv show ended with the lead characters [rosette and chrno] dying together... it broke my heart and my dam of tears [again].. but i still love the songs!!!
btw, i saw myself on tv!!! wow! i took such a huge part of the screen... i mean, my BACK appeared.. got a big but fading "darwin" word on my back.. wow, den i saw alot of the new frens i made from this camp on tv.. haiz, this will be the last project this year for my cca since my cca is closing down.. for your info, moe and other skools had been watching my cca closely and such cos it's the first cca reading club in the whole singapore!! but the principal saw no prospect in my cca and closed it down, together with MANY other ccas in skool.. alot of peeps will be cca-less.. so im not alone!!
and den my teacher, who is leaving pj for ac, treated everybody to pizzas!! she ordered ten pizzas and four one-litre soft drinks.. so thankful.. my stomach was grumbling, not rumbling, until it hurt so much the whole morning but nobody had the chance to grab a bite until twelve forty pm.. so i hadnt eaten for 16 hours until the time i grabbed 3 sices of hawaiian pizzas [everybody is entitled to 3 slices and there are actually remainding slices left which were then given to the av peeps who came to help us film and take pics] and gulped down a few mouths of 7up and pepsi.. so gassy, i feel so guilty.. liddat how to slim down!? i must abstain. oh, and my teacher spent $165++.. and she just took a few slices of hawaiian pizzas.. wow, those slices cost a bomb for her.. one slice costs $50+ to $80+.. hahaha..
okae, i gtg.. anymore things that i forgot to add in for today shall be added in tmw. i just got the feeling that i forgot to add something..
tata!
i finally downloaded the songs for chrno crusade!!!! the opening song was given to me by lorraine quite a long time ago, just that i finally realized that it is the song for chrno crusade.. den i went to ALOT of sites loooooking around when a particular site gave me the instructions in searching PROPERLY.. soooo grateful for the webmaster!!!! but erm, i lost the add, wanted to put it here for the benefit of others..
now, i have 3 extra jap songs, all from chrno crusade!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!! thanks to the Lord!!! im rejoicing!!!!! woohoooo!!!! budden now whenever i hear the songs, i feel soooo sad cos the entire tv show ended with the lead characters [rosette and chrno] dying together... it broke my heart and my dam of tears [again].. but i still love the songs!!!
btw, i saw myself on tv!!! wow! i took such a huge part of the screen... i mean, my BACK appeared.. got a big but fading "darwin" word on my back.. wow, den i saw alot of the new frens i made from this camp on tv.. haiz, this will be the last project this year for my cca since my cca is closing down.. for your info, moe and other skools had been watching my cca closely and such cos it's the first cca reading club in the whole singapore!! but the principal saw no prospect in my cca and closed it down, together with MANY other ccas in skool.. alot of peeps will be cca-less.. so im not alone!!
and den my teacher, who is leaving pj for ac, treated everybody to pizzas!! she ordered ten pizzas and four one-litre soft drinks.. so thankful.. my stomach was grumbling, not rumbling, until it hurt so much the whole morning but nobody had the chance to grab a bite until twelve forty pm.. so i hadnt eaten for 16 hours until the time i grabbed 3 sices of hawaiian pizzas [everybody is entitled to 3 slices and there are actually remainding slices left which were then given to the av peeps who came to help us film and take pics] and gulped down a few mouths of 7up and pepsi.. so gassy, i feel so guilty.. liddat how to slim down!? i must abstain. oh, and my teacher spent $165++.. and she just took a few slices of hawaiian pizzas.. wow, those slices cost a bomb for her.. one slice costs $50+ to $80+.. hahaha..
okae, i gtg.. anymore things that i forgot to add in for today shall be added in tmw. i just got the feeling that i forgot to add something..
tata!
camp
heyy... yup! the news reporter came today! and the news showed the camp for the 6.30pm time slot! and guess wad? my fren saw me on tv! BUT, i didnt get to watch tv until 7pm.. so by that time, it's OVER. so i didnt get to see myself on tv.. but nvm, i can just stand infront of the tv and see my reflection on the tv screen.. liddat oso can lar, seeing myself on the tv.. hehe..
veri tired.. yesterday the camp ended at 5pm for the kids and 6.30pm for me.. today, it ended at 12pm for the kids and 4.30 pm for me. so tired!! den the peeps are planning to treat the rc teacher for dinner as a farewell gift since she's going to leave pj and go acjc from tmw onwards.. but she say she dun want such a thing and kinda opposed to having such a dinner.. so i went "okie! cancel lor!" cos the peeps intended to go to holland v to eat mexican food which costs at least $30.
it's like HELLO!? my savings in my piggy is only $50! and i still wanna buy stuff that can last me longer than ONE MEAL and will even leave some extra savings for me to keep!!!! i cant possibly spend my entire savings on a meal which i may not like! i kana that kind of experience at the founders' day dinner b4 and i dun wanna encounter it again!!!
getting agitated.
veri tired.. yesterday the camp ended at 5pm for the kids and 6.30pm for me.. today, it ended at 12pm for the kids and 4.30 pm for me. so tired!! den the peeps are planning to treat the rc teacher for dinner as a farewell gift since she's going to leave pj and go acjc from tmw onwards.. but she say she dun want such a thing and kinda opposed to having such a dinner.. so i went "okie! cancel lor!" cos the peeps intended to go to holland v to eat mexican food which costs at least $30.
it's like HELLO!? my savings in my piggy is only $50! and i still wanna buy stuff that can last me longer than ONE MEAL and will even leave some extra savings for me to keep!!!! i cant possibly spend my entire savings on a meal which i may not like! i kana that kind of experience at the founders' day dinner b4 and i dun wanna encounter it again!!!
getting agitated.
21 November 2005
yesterday got steamboat
hehe.... so fun! third time in my life that i got steamboat.. second time in my life that i got dinner with 05s13 peeps..
first, i met yi ting, den cherie, den shuting appeared, so we went to meet zhikai, danny, sze yin, den we met june, den amelia and shaoqin.. den jialing.. all at je.. den we met nataline and david at clementi.. den we met shandy, sally and the rest at marina.. sheryl, wanru, kwan hong, daren, desmond no come.... the gals got give reason, the guys dun have... haiz, that's the diff btn gals and guys. gals are responsible.
den we went to take the chin huat shuttle bus.. wah, the whole class flooded the entire small lil bus... den i excited until cannot sit still.. it's almost like we're going on a trip to malaysia to go shopping and den we reserved the entire bus just to go there.. haha..
den at the place, the peeps showed us our table.. den amily popped by to say hi and cook some food.. den she went off.. btw, we collected our class t yesterday! so the gals wore the jersey together... the guys no change..
den we cooked and ate, cooked and ate.. okae, only like me no take those oredi-cooked food... the rest took fried chicken, man tou, siew mai all those... but nvm, i LOVE cooking..when there's no oil splashing in my direction.. den i cooked all my food, nobody cooked for me.. and you know wad? i dun have food poisoning!!!!! haha.. dat means my cooking skills are exceptional at my age! haha, just kiddin'.. everybody can do it. den i noticed that the guys squeezed into one table while the gals spread out on 2 adjoined tables.. before alvin and dean left, there were eight guys.. den dean and alvin left.
come to think of it, dean and alvin leave so early for wad!? i know they going climbing lar.. budden i actually reached skool earlier den them this morning!! den since i can do it, why cant they? and me handling those rascals, waking up at 6am, sleeping at 2am, and rushing to skool on a bus under immense fear of being late after waiting for 15 mins in total, is almost equivalent to them sleeping earlier, waking up later, taking a smooth ride on a car to skool and climbing a mt later.. honestly, i'd rather climb... haiz....
but if i carry the bag dean was carrying for the trip, i wont even be able to walk. it is almost MY HEIGHT!!! and it's even broader than me!!!!!! wow! okae, back to topic.
den after eating all those, we started taking pics. as in ALOT OF PICS. wahhhhh.... faces so oily, places so smoky.. but nvm, it's the experience.. den i uploaded plenty of pics having me inside onto my friendster photo album..
den my bro fetched me home.. den i quickly bathed.. den i was just on time to watch "my date with a vampire".. woohoo!! but even after bathing twice, the smoke smell havent left my hair. it's still there.. there's a lil left.. but still have!!
okae, gtg.. now gonna catch the final episode of "chrno crusade"..
tatatatatata!!
first, i met yi ting, den cherie, den shuting appeared, so we went to meet zhikai, danny, sze yin, den we met june, den amelia and shaoqin.. den jialing.. all at je.. den we met nataline and david at clementi.. den we met shandy, sally and the rest at marina.. sheryl, wanru, kwan hong, daren, desmond no come.... the gals got give reason, the guys dun have... haiz, that's the diff btn gals and guys. gals are responsible.
den we went to take the chin huat shuttle bus.. wah, the whole class flooded the entire small lil bus... den i excited until cannot sit still.. it's almost like we're going on a trip to malaysia to go shopping and den we reserved the entire bus just to go there.. haha..
den at the place, the peeps showed us our table.. den amily popped by to say hi and cook some food.. den she went off.. btw, we collected our class t yesterday! so the gals wore the jersey together... the guys no change..
den we cooked and ate, cooked and ate.. okae, only like me no take those oredi-cooked food... the rest took fried chicken, man tou, siew mai all those... but nvm, i LOVE cooking..when there's no oil splashing in my direction.. den i cooked all my food, nobody cooked for me.. and you know wad? i dun have food poisoning!!!!! haha.. dat means my cooking skills are exceptional at my age! haha, just kiddin'.. everybody can do it. den i noticed that the guys squeezed into one table while the gals spread out on 2 adjoined tables.. before alvin and dean left, there were eight guys.. den dean and alvin left.
come to think of it, dean and alvin leave so early for wad!? i know they going climbing lar.. budden i actually reached skool earlier den them this morning!! den since i can do it, why cant they? and me handling those rascals, waking up at 6am, sleeping at 2am, and rushing to skool on a bus under immense fear of being late after waiting for 15 mins in total, is almost equivalent to them sleeping earlier, waking up later, taking a smooth ride on a car to skool and climbing a mt later.. honestly, i'd rather climb... haiz....
but if i carry the bag dean was carrying for the trip, i wont even be able to walk. it is almost MY HEIGHT!!! and it's even broader than me!!!!!! wow! okae, back to topic.
den after eating all those, we started taking pics. as in ALOT OF PICS. wahhhhh.... faces so oily, places so smoky.. but nvm, it's the experience.. den i uploaded plenty of pics having me inside onto my friendster photo album..
den my bro fetched me home.. den i quickly bathed.. den i was just on time to watch "my date with a vampire".. woohoo!! but even after bathing twice, the smoke smell havent left my hair. it's still there.. there's a lil left.. but still have!!
okae, gtg.. now gonna catch the final episode of "chrno crusade"..
tatatatatata!!
day-camping with nightmares
heyyy
veri tired. those rascals in this day camp dat i have been toking about are....horrendous.
as they get more enthu, i get more tired... haiya, alot of things happened.. i lost one of my earpieces for my mp3 player.. *heart breaks*
den the teacher i/c said that got mediacorp news peeps coming tmw to do a report on this camp.. budden lucky they not interviewing me.. they will be interviewing the 2 camp commandants and one of the skool journalists who has been following up on our camp since last week.. hehe..
okae, i am VERI tired. legs feel detached from my body now. wont be able to stand up until i have recuperated..
wahhhh, dun wanna go to skool tmw....
gtg, tata.
veri tired. those rascals in this day camp dat i have been toking about are....horrendous.
as they get more enthu, i get more tired... haiya, alot of things happened.. i lost one of my earpieces for my mp3 player.. *heart breaks*
den the teacher i/c said that got mediacorp news peeps coming tmw to do a report on this camp.. budden lucky they not interviewing me.. they will be interviewing the 2 camp commandants and one of the skool journalists who has been following up on our camp since last week.. hehe..
okae, i am VERI tired. legs feel detached from my body now. wont be able to stand up until i have recuperated..
wahhhh, dun wanna go to skool tmw....
gtg, tata.
20 November 2005
i want
heyy
i just wanna say.. I WANT CHRNO CRUSADE!! I WANT THE VCD, THE SOUNDTRACK, THE POSTERS, EVERYTHING!!!!!
as for inuyasha, i have one of the movies, so im contented, i have the sountracks in my mp3, so im contented, i have one inuyasha poster pasted on my bedroom wall, so i am more contented in the view of inuyasha.. i....i......now i want chrno and rosette!!!!!! i want the ending song!!!! i want the vcd showing all 26 episodes!!!! and im gonna look for them.
i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am. i will.
i just wanna say.. I WANT CHRNO CRUSADE!! I WANT THE VCD, THE SOUNDTRACK, THE POSTERS, EVERYTHING!!!!!
as for inuyasha, i have one of the movies, so im contented, i have the sountracks in my mp3, so im contented, i have one inuyasha poster pasted on my bedroom wall, so i am more contented in the view of inuyasha.. i....i......now i want chrno and rosette!!!!!! i want the ending song!!!! i want the vcd showing all 26 episodes!!!! and im gonna look for them.
i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am. i will.
19 November 2005
today
erm.. today got nothing much happened again..
and den i suddenly feel quite tired of blogging.. must be called "severe holidaying mood down syndrome".. haha..
haiyar, i just came to say that i dun intend to slack anymore.
i am going to study.
i must study.
ermmm, i think i just keep repeating myself nowadays.. hehe.
okae, now it's night time and i dun feel like studying.. but i am gonna study!
i am going to study econs! starting from the first chapter: the central problem of economics.
and den i suddenly feel quite tired of blogging.. must be called "severe holidaying mood down syndrome".. haha..
haiyar, i just came to say that i dun intend to slack anymore.
i am going to study.
i must study.
ermmm, i think i just keep repeating myself nowadays.. hehe.
okae, now it's night time and i dun feel like studying.. but i am gonna study!
i am going to study econs! starting from the first chapter: the central problem of economics.
18 November 2005
yesterday
suddenly, when i was typing down this letter, a song came to my mind..
"yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away.. oh it seems like they are here to stay.. "
well, my troubles came everyday, so this song dun apply to my life..
okae, lemme tell you wad happened in the days i didnt sign in.. hm, when was the last time i blogged?? oh, it was a tuesday.. so that means that i gotta report from wednesday onwards rite?
okae
16 nov
i went to skool to join in the meeting on discussing and rehearsing the camp which will be held for p3 and 4s this coming monday and tuesday.. it is a day camp; first day is from 9 to 5, second day is from 9 to 12.. and then the hours spent discussing on this camp and the camp itself will most probably be counted in as cip hours.. so that means i earned quite alot... around 30 hours.. wow.. liddat this year, my cip hours total up to around 70+.. okae, so i next year retire from cip le. woohoo! den can truly concentrate on my work.. and then the skool tell me to go for electives rite? den i say i second year, gotta study, den i show them my end of year results.. see whether they can see no to my studying or not. hmph. must study....! must catch up! i cant lose to this few stacks of paper!!
den the meeting commenced at 8.30 am.. and it ended at 5pm.. it's woah, veri tiring.. den i reached home at around 6pm.. den i lost complete memory of wad i did at home besides playing com games from yahoo!..
17 nov
today, i kana another meeting.. budden i cant stay for long since i wanted to go and bake muffins!! shhhh... cannot tell teacher, i told her i got tuition. hehe..
den i met cherie at 11.45am sharp leh! she not late, i not late!! wow, it's a miracle.. haha.
den we went to library cos i kept thinking that we needed a recipe. BUT, we dun need a recipe from the start; we're using cake mix. we just need the cake mix, 1/2 cup of oil, 1 1/3 cups of water and 3 eggs.. see? so easy to memorise.. budden i oso tot that one packet of cake miz not enough for 30 muffins [stoopid me].. in the end we made TOO MUCH MUFFINS. we made 60 large muffins, 30 small muffins.. there's no medium sized ones cos...... the medium ones expanded into big ones and the small ones did expand, but they were constricted by the tinny cupcake paper.. hehe.. and we only wanted to make 30 medium sized ones! ahh!! so many leftovers! i ended up taking 16 big ones and a few small ones... the small ones was meant to be split among the 2 of us, budden i suddenly tot of putting the small ones into the container meant to carry the muffins meant for the class.. so i put alot of my share of small muffins into the class'.. den cherie stuffed one of her leftover big muffins into my share.. haiz.. so i went home witha much bloated bag.. felt so "burdened".. haha..
18 nov
today, i was so tired that i woke up at around 11.30.. den liddat i only slept at 2.30am.. so liddat i slept for 9 hours.. hm, acceptable lar. at least i got some rest.. didnt do much besides writing econs notes and napping.. felt veri lethargic when halfway writing, so i slept at my studying table.. hehe..
aiyar, today nothing much happened, so far..
tonight is the last episode of chrno crusade.. i cant bear the tot of this. i love two animes so far. it's inuyasha, and chrno crusade.. how can these two be taken away from me so quickly? izzit a sign for me to start studying? hm, i think so...
btw, i started thinking abt the singaporean teens' language usage.
see ar.. when typing "coming", some will actually type "cumming". it's obscene.
"cumming" was used in msn chatrooms which contained many horny pple. okae, lemme simplify wad i just sad. "cumming" is used as another word for "erecting". you know wad's "erecting" rite? it involves sexual intercourse remember?? so how can confuse the simple word of "come" with "cum"?! and "cum" is actually sexual discharge! ahh! i was almost pulling out my hair when i kept seeing this word. irritated. is it meant for the english language to end with us!?
and there're MANY other words which have become distorted and disgusting. i dun wanna think abt it for now.. haiZ.
"yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away.. oh it seems like they are here to stay.. "
well, my troubles came everyday, so this song dun apply to my life..
okae, lemme tell you wad happened in the days i didnt sign in.. hm, when was the last time i blogged?? oh, it was a tuesday.. so that means that i gotta report from wednesday onwards rite?
okae
16 nov
i went to skool to join in the meeting on discussing and rehearsing the camp which will be held for p3 and 4s this coming monday and tuesday.. it is a day camp; first day is from 9 to 5, second day is from 9 to 12.. and then the hours spent discussing on this camp and the camp itself will most probably be counted in as cip hours.. so that means i earned quite alot... around 30 hours.. wow.. liddat this year, my cip hours total up to around 70+.. okae, so i next year retire from cip le. woohoo! den can truly concentrate on my work.. and then the skool tell me to go for electives rite? den i say i second year, gotta study, den i show them my end of year results.. see whether they can see no to my studying or not. hmph. must study....! must catch up! i cant lose to this few stacks of paper!!
den the meeting commenced at 8.30 am.. and it ended at 5pm.. it's woah, veri tiring.. den i reached home at around 6pm.. den i lost complete memory of wad i did at home besides playing com games from yahoo!..
17 nov
today, i kana another meeting.. budden i cant stay for long since i wanted to go and bake muffins!! shhhh... cannot tell teacher, i told her i got tuition. hehe..
den i met cherie at 11.45am sharp leh! she not late, i not late!! wow, it's a miracle.. haha.
den we went to library cos i kept thinking that we needed a recipe. BUT, we dun need a recipe from the start; we're using cake mix. we just need the cake mix, 1/2 cup of oil, 1 1/3 cups of water and 3 eggs.. see? so easy to memorise.. budden i oso tot that one packet of cake miz not enough for 30 muffins [stoopid me].. in the end we made TOO MUCH MUFFINS. we made 60 large muffins, 30 small muffins.. there's no medium sized ones cos...... the medium ones expanded into big ones and the small ones did expand, but they were constricted by the tinny cupcake paper.. hehe.. and we only wanted to make 30 medium sized ones! ahh!! so many leftovers! i ended up taking 16 big ones and a few small ones... the small ones was meant to be split among the 2 of us, budden i suddenly tot of putting the small ones into the container meant to carry the muffins meant for the class.. so i put alot of my share of small muffins into the class'.. den cherie stuffed one of her leftover big muffins into my share.. haiz.. so i went home witha much bloated bag.. felt so "burdened".. haha..
18 nov
today, i was so tired that i woke up at around 11.30.. den liddat i only slept at 2.30am.. so liddat i slept for 9 hours.. hm, acceptable lar. at least i got some rest.. didnt do much besides writing econs notes and napping.. felt veri lethargic when halfway writing, so i slept at my studying table.. hehe..
aiyar, today nothing much happened, so far..
tonight is the last episode of chrno crusade.. i cant bear the tot of this. i love two animes so far. it's inuyasha, and chrno crusade.. how can these two be taken away from me so quickly? izzit a sign for me to start studying? hm, i think so...
btw, i started thinking abt the singaporean teens' language usage.
see ar.. when typing "coming", some will actually type "cumming". it's obscene.
"cumming" was used in msn chatrooms which contained many horny pple. okae, lemme simplify wad i just sad. "cumming" is used as another word for "erecting". you know wad's "erecting" rite? it involves sexual intercourse remember?? so how can confuse the simple word of "come" with "cum"?! and "cum" is actually sexual discharge! ahh! i was almost pulling out my hair when i kept seeing this word. irritated. is it meant for the english language to end with us!?
and there're MANY other words which have become distorted and disgusting. i dun wanna think abt it for now.. haiZ.
15 November 2005
morning dreams
i had two remember-able dreams. first dream, i was a skoolgal who fell in love with a male teacher who left the skool a second after i realised that i like him. but he didnt leave the skool bcos of me. he went home.
second dream, i was a handsome skool guy who likes a female skoolmate who likes me too. and the whole skool is kinda celebrating as in they used the chance to do some clubbing in skool. it's wow! the skool has a disco! budden i missed my gal so much that i left the party to accompany her in a quiet room. we just stood there and hugged each other for a long time as we we'll never see each other ever again once i let go. and den we soon let go and were happily walking when i felt my bladder on the verge of bursting. so i settled her down outside the toilet and i went into the toilet room in which it looks veri much like the toilet for the handicapped, veri big and spacious with only one toilet bowl.. den a gal was hiding inside and refused to go out.. so i just went in the toilet, closed the door, told her to face the wall and dun look at me pee.. soon, somebody rushed into the toilet when i was abt to unzip and left the door wide open. by that time i was on the verge of crying le.. den suddenly, got a toilet bowl which is attached to the wall [that one which allows guys to stand and pee] appear rite infront of me when i was at the door trying to get those peeps outta the toilet. den i cannot tahan le.. den i screamed out, "LET ME PEE!!" den i just unzip, rested my right leg on the wall and peed. now, the leg blocked the "view", so there wasnt any obscene part shown. but, by that time, the commotion had got the whole skool running towards the toilet. den i was facing the wall, so the "camera" was on my right and the skool was on my left. and as the pee GUSHED out like a fountain, the whole skool looked on. and it really looked like a fountain with yellow water!!
dunno wad i tokin abt? nvm.. one day i film it down for you.
second dream, i was a handsome skool guy who likes a female skoolmate who likes me too. and the whole skool is kinda celebrating as in they used the chance to do some clubbing in skool. it's wow! the skool has a disco! budden i missed my gal so much that i left the party to accompany her in a quiet room. we just stood there and hugged each other for a long time as we we'll never see each other ever again once i let go. and den we soon let go and were happily walking when i felt my bladder on the verge of bursting. so i settled her down outside the toilet and i went into the toilet room in which it looks veri much like the toilet for the handicapped, veri big and spacious with only one toilet bowl.. den a gal was hiding inside and refused to go out.. so i just went in the toilet, closed the door, told her to face the wall and dun look at me pee.. soon, somebody rushed into the toilet when i was abt to unzip and left the door wide open. by that time i was on the verge of crying le.. den suddenly, got a toilet bowl which is attached to the wall [that one which allows guys to stand and pee] appear rite infront of me when i was at the door trying to get those peeps outta the toilet. den i cannot tahan le.. den i screamed out, "LET ME PEE!!" den i just unzip, rested my right leg on the wall and peed. now, the leg blocked the "view", so there wasnt any obscene part shown. but, by that time, the commotion had got the whole skool running towards the toilet. den i was facing the wall, so the "camera" was on my right and the skool was on my left. and as the pee GUSHED out like a fountain, the whole skool looked on. and it really looked like a fountain with yellow water!!
dunno wad i tokin abt? nvm.. one day i film it down for you.
november 14
haiz...
went to west mall this evening to watch "doom".. quite nice.. the effects looked veri real. especially the monsters.. it's veri much like resident evil..
here's the plot:
a group of soldiers were sent to recover research data of ancient life on mars after a specific group of 6 scientists conducting that research sent an emergency message to the HQ to save them from "something" which started and ended with screaming. i mean, the entire voice message was in fact, a woman and a man screaming their heads off.
so the whole group were sent to mars via "the ark", an orb-like thing which sucks the pple from earth, to the destination not on earth aka mars. and there's this scientist who experience major turbulence prob which sent his lower half to another galaxy, while his upper body went to mars. he's called pinky. really, he is called pinky. i will mention him again later.
when they were at the portion of the entire place where the eerie message was sent from [i mean, the entire place is veri much like the interior of a spaceship.. but there're many divisions; there's alot of research segments where they supervise on many different things all associated to mars], the first part of that lab was in fact a place where they kept all kinds of domestic animals - dogs, mice, parrots, etc. when they first entered, the whole "zoo" went screeching and cawking. den they go round the whole place even went to the huge drains.. on the way round, they met 4 of the 6 missing scientists. but those scientist were oredi dead. and they were in fact, mutated! and in the first place, the soldiers [including the rock] tot that the "thing" came from the outside. but actually, the "thing" was a human! i'll tok abt that later.
then on the way, a few soldiers were killed by the "things". note: there are more than one "thing". den when they went back to the "zoo", all the animals had been killed and eaten, with their insides spilled over the cages and the floor. and there he was, a dead scientist eating mice. den the dead scientist saw human! guess his first reaction. correct! he jumped towards them. and if you tot that he wanted to eat them, that's a wrong guess. but i tot so at first. in fact, he just wanted to infect them. to make them become his kind. but at first, after he had drank some of their blood to quench his thirst. but of course, he failed after being showered with bullets from the frightened soldiers.
and there was this devout Christian soldier who was attacked and infected by the "disease" which caused such mutation. he rose from the dead, only to find himself in such carnal state. but at that time, he was conscious. he didnt want to become a demon. so, he did the sign in which the his right index an middle fingers point to the heart, the mind, the shoulers and he started banged his head furiously against the seemingly unbreakable glass window. and while he was banging away, sounds of his skull crushing into bits were vivid with his fierce grunts. it's like, omigosh. he made such wonderful sacrifice. but kinda broke my heart to see such things happening. but hey, i paid to see such things happen. so nvm. back to the story.
and then the monsters came and were conquered. and as they slowly got used to seeing these monsters, a female scientist [who was sent by the HQ to retrieve data with the soldiers and is oso the lead actress and is the twin sister of one of the soldiers, one of the leading actors. there are two leading actors and one leading actress. one of them is the rock.] slowly found out with the remaining few, including her bro, that the specific group of scientists had done experiments on human. in which they extracted the chromosomes from the ancient life on mars and injected into a criminal who commited numerous murders and was sentenced to imprisonment. in other words, he became the guinea pig. and he was a bad guinea pig. he mutated into the first demon.
[erm, i gotta let you know this. there were humans on mars b4. they're not only humans, but superhumans. they have 24 chromosomes, unlike the usual 23. so they're exceptionally intelligent and possess superhuman powers. but there's another thing. there were superhumans and demons. it's bcos of the 24 chromosomes, which was a result of bioengineering at that time, that there are these two species. the wholly good ones become superhuman, those with bad genes become demons. and the show hinted the the demons killed the superhumans in the end. thus, that civilisation ended. and soon, humans came in to wreak more chaos. why izzit that humans always screw things up?]
den the first demon started attacking all 6 of the scientists and thus, most of them got infected and mutated. and oso, there's another thing not so similar to resident evil, the infected ones first die. den they wake up. at that point of time, they still look human. just that their blood got looks like red sewage water and that the wounds inflicted rot super fast. slowly, they mutate further into full-fledged demons. they become much stronger and uglier.
soon, there left 3 pple. the twins and the seargent. all three had managed to orb back to earth with 2 remaining soldiers and a whole lot of pple. but they were still locked up in a place on earth since the security system had rebooted and was on standby mode - meaning, nobody goes in and nobody goes out.
the male twin got shot by his own gun when the bullet rebounded back to him during a massive shooting, but not infected. the seargent was dragged and infected by the monsters. man, the seargent so cold-blooded; he killed one of the 2 soldiers for disobeying him. the other soldier got taken away by the demons and was killed. but he didnt mutate. he just remained dead. okae, back to the "survivors".
and guess where the male twin got injured at crotch. so he was bleeding fast and was on the verge of dying. den the sis quickly injected the 24 chromosomes into him since she knows that he will become a superhuman, not a demon. den he fainted. or maybe died. i dunno. i just know that he woke up to find that the sis was missing and that all his wounds have healed and that the wound at the crotch is not longer there. so his fatherhood had been sustained! woohoo! haha..
den he took his gun and started looking everywhere. ah, at this part, the director must have felt bored and wanted to play counter strike. now the screen only shows the gun at the lower portion of the screen and the audience being the male twin's eyes, you know wad i mean? den he met pinky!! but now, pinky had oredi been infected and mutated into a demon. but guess wad? the demon is in pink in colour! and he looks exactly like a slug with sharp teeth at his mouth! but, the demon dun have legs since it's in another galaxy, so it's still on the wheelchair he had been attached to for ten years.. so veri funny!! the superhuman sawed away the wheelchair and the demon was busy balancing and roaring at him.. den the guy killed the poor demon.. and now, the cs scene ends. back to normal mode. you can see everybody, including mr superhuman. btw, he's called john. or izzit jon? aiyar, nvm.. and his twin sis is called sam, short form for samantha.
den he killed ALL the demons except one. that one, was the seargent - the rock. it's omigawd, those rippling muscles. he got veri nice muscles. and he looked just nice. he was not too bulky, oso not as weak-looking as the ordinary american men. he's the rock. hey! back to topic.
the seargent, due to his muscles, was a much stronger opponent who had became stronger and quicker. the superhuman had oso become stronger and quicker than before. and well, the superhuman was called "ripper" in his squad, meaning he's one strong opponent too.
but. the seargent had a veri strong high-grade weapon which can cause alot of damage. den here comes something stoopid. the superhuman managed to disarm the seargent. at this time, if playing cs, wont you like, upgrade your weapon by going to the better weapon and taking it? well, this superhuman walked to that weapon and gave it a glance b4 agreeing with the seargent to fight with the latter by hand. STOOPID la. why not he just take up that weapon and blow the guts outta the bad guy?! den the were fighting and fighting and the rock was beginning to mutate into a full-fledged demon. it's like OH NO!!! so the superhuman quickly forced him to the orbing place and "pushed" the demon into mars. then as a farewell gift, the superhuman threw a greenade into "the ark", which sent the greenade landing right onto of the demon. at this point of time, the demon could only do wad? SCREAM. and den he exploded into pieces..
den the superhuman [who looked kinda more handsome after being injected] carried his sis [who was suddenly unconscious for no apparent reason] to the surface of the earth. and that ends the story with him saying,"everything's gonna be fine" or something liddat.
and my legs had became jelly and i was on the verge of puking and i was kinda spasming. and i was giddy and had a massive headache which had been going for quite a long time.
den my bro sent my sis and i and his galfren [she kana infection after the abortion] to the galfren's hse downstairs and just dumped his two sisters there with his car. and soon, everything happened. my sis drove the car and i was having the headache and was veri urgent to meet mr toiletbowl. den soon, my mother was there scolding me for not telling her something and she went "i hate you. i hate you forever." and she ordered me to slap my mouth 10 times and she carried on saying "sickening child.."
adn you know wad? i almost wanted to hate her all again. in the past, i couldnt find the reason to love her. until now, i can find reasons. one, she's my mother. we're blood-related and nothing can bring us apart. two, she's alone. she needs a companion. my father is working overseas and having his affairs, my sis is living in boon lay, my bro treats this place as a motel and he never bothers to care abt my mother. so left me to bear with her.
somehow, i am the rubbish bin. everybody dumps their frustrations on me and i cant do anything. nobody has ever been there for me to vent on. and i cant bear the tot of venting on anybody. nobody deserves such a thing. my mother only cares for me when she feels like it and she ignores you and hate you and vent everything on you when SHE FEELS LIKE IT.
i understand why she needs to vent. she is lonely and she had led a miserable life. she never once really experienced happiness. even her childhood was unpleasant.
but so was mine. i never even had a childhood. all i could remember was her beating me and flinging me to the concrete gound, kicking me at the chest after i accidentally spilled some pencil shavings, throwing satay sticks at me. i never remembered her showing any love for me. i had never been hugged by my parents ever since the age when i became aware of homework. i never remember experiencing love from my parents. my father was always abroad, earning money for the family and having 22-yr-old galfrens.. my siblings, there's something called age gap. they have their own happy days together.. and i always get left out when it comes to them reminicsing the past. everytime when they go "last time arr..." den i go silent. i have nth to tok abt. they're in their own world. is that called the happy days of childhood?
now, i can only depend on God's love. frens are too far and they are never gonna be 24/7 there for me. they have their own probs, own worries. they can do without mine.
went to west mall this evening to watch "doom".. quite nice.. the effects looked veri real. especially the monsters.. it's veri much like resident evil..
here's the plot:
a group of soldiers were sent to recover research data of ancient life on mars after a specific group of 6 scientists conducting that research sent an emergency message to the HQ to save them from "something" which started and ended with screaming. i mean, the entire voice message was in fact, a woman and a man screaming their heads off.
so the whole group were sent to mars via "the ark", an orb-like thing which sucks the pple from earth, to the destination not on earth aka mars. and there's this scientist who experience major turbulence prob which sent his lower half to another galaxy, while his upper body went to mars. he's called pinky. really, he is called pinky. i will mention him again later.
when they were at the portion of the entire place where the eerie message was sent from [i mean, the entire place is veri much like the interior of a spaceship.. but there're many divisions; there's alot of research segments where they supervise on many different things all associated to mars], the first part of that lab was in fact a place where they kept all kinds of domestic animals - dogs, mice, parrots, etc. when they first entered, the whole "zoo" went screeching and cawking. den they go round the whole place even went to the huge drains.. on the way round, they met 4 of the 6 missing scientists. but those scientist were oredi dead. and they were in fact, mutated! and in the first place, the soldiers [including the rock] tot that the "thing" came from the outside. but actually, the "thing" was a human! i'll tok abt that later.
then on the way, a few soldiers were killed by the "things". note: there are more than one "thing". den when they went back to the "zoo", all the animals had been killed and eaten, with their insides spilled over the cages and the floor. and there he was, a dead scientist eating mice. den the dead scientist saw human! guess his first reaction. correct! he jumped towards them. and if you tot that he wanted to eat them, that's a wrong guess. but i tot so at first. in fact, he just wanted to infect them. to make them become his kind. but at first, after he had drank some of their blood to quench his thirst. but of course, he failed after being showered with bullets from the frightened soldiers.
and there was this devout Christian soldier who was attacked and infected by the "disease" which caused such mutation. he rose from the dead, only to find himself in such carnal state. but at that time, he was conscious. he didnt want to become a demon. so, he did the sign in which the his right index an middle fingers point to the heart, the mind, the shoulers and he started banged his head furiously against the seemingly unbreakable glass window. and while he was banging away, sounds of his skull crushing into bits were vivid with his fierce grunts. it's like, omigosh. he made such wonderful sacrifice. but kinda broke my heart to see such things happening. but hey, i paid to see such things happen. so nvm. back to the story.
and then the monsters came and were conquered. and as they slowly got used to seeing these monsters, a female scientist [who was sent by the HQ to retrieve data with the soldiers and is oso the lead actress and is the twin sister of one of the soldiers, one of the leading actors. there are two leading actors and one leading actress. one of them is the rock.] slowly found out with the remaining few, including her bro, that the specific group of scientists had done experiments on human. in which they extracted the chromosomes from the ancient life on mars and injected into a criminal who commited numerous murders and was sentenced to imprisonment. in other words, he became the guinea pig. and he was a bad guinea pig. he mutated into the first demon.
[erm, i gotta let you know this. there were humans on mars b4. they're not only humans, but superhumans. they have 24 chromosomes, unlike the usual 23. so they're exceptionally intelligent and possess superhuman powers. but there's another thing. there were superhumans and demons. it's bcos of the 24 chromosomes, which was a result of bioengineering at that time, that there are these two species. the wholly good ones become superhuman, those with bad genes become demons. and the show hinted the the demons killed the superhumans in the end. thus, that civilisation ended. and soon, humans came in to wreak more chaos. why izzit that humans always screw things up?]
den the first demon started attacking all 6 of the scientists and thus, most of them got infected and mutated. and oso, there's another thing not so similar to resident evil, the infected ones first die. den they wake up. at that point of time, they still look human. just that their blood got looks like red sewage water and that the wounds inflicted rot super fast. slowly, they mutate further into full-fledged demons. they become much stronger and uglier.
soon, there left 3 pple. the twins and the seargent. all three had managed to orb back to earth with 2 remaining soldiers and a whole lot of pple. but they were still locked up in a place on earth since the security system had rebooted and was on standby mode - meaning, nobody goes in and nobody goes out.
the male twin got shot by his own gun when the bullet rebounded back to him during a massive shooting, but not infected. the seargent was dragged and infected by the monsters. man, the seargent so cold-blooded; he killed one of the 2 soldiers for disobeying him. the other soldier got taken away by the demons and was killed. but he didnt mutate. he just remained dead. okae, back to the "survivors".
and guess where the male twin got injured at crotch. so he was bleeding fast and was on the verge of dying. den the sis quickly injected the 24 chromosomes into him since she knows that he will become a superhuman, not a demon. den he fainted. or maybe died. i dunno. i just know that he woke up to find that the sis was missing and that all his wounds have healed and that the wound at the crotch is not longer there. so his fatherhood had been sustained! woohoo! haha..
den he took his gun and started looking everywhere. ah, at this part, the director must have felt bored and wanted to play counter strike. now the screen only shows the gun at the lower portion of the screen and the audience being the male twin's eyes, you know wad i mean? den he met pinky!! but now, pinky had oredi been infected and mutated into a demon. but guess wad? the demon is in pink in colour! and he looks exactly like a slug with sharp teeth at his mouth! but, the demon dun have legs since it's in another galaxy, so it's still on the wheelchair he had been attached to for ten years.. so veri funny!! the superhuman sawed away the wheelchair and the demon was busy balancing and roaring at him.. den the guy killed the poor demon.. and now, the cs scene ends. back to normal mode. you can see everybody, including mr superhuman. btw, he's called john. or izzit jon? aiyar, nvm.. and his twin sis is called sam, short form for samantha.
den he killed ALL the demons except one. that one, was the seargent - the rock. it's omigawd, those rippling muscles. he got veri nice muscles. and he looked just nice. he was not too bulky, oso not as weak-looking as the ordinary american men. he's the rock. hey! back to topic.
the seargent, due to his muscles, was a much stronger opponent who had became stronger and quicker. the superhuman had oso become stronger and quicker than before. and well, the superhuman was called "ripper" in his squad, meaning he's one strong opponent too.
but. the seargent had a veri strong high-grade weapon which can cause alot of damage. den here comes something stoopid. the superhuman managed to disarm the seargent. at this time, if playing cs, wont you like, upgrade your weapon by going to the better weapon and taking it? well, this superhuman walked to that weapon and gave it a glance b4 agreeing with the seargent to fight with the latter by hand. STOOPID la. why not he just take up that weapon and blow the guts outta the bad guy?! den the were fighting and fighting and the rock was beginning to mutate into a full-fledged demon. it's like OH NO!!! so the superhuman quickly forced him to the orbing place and "pushed" the demon into mars. then as a farewell gift, the superhuman threw a greenade into "the ark", which sent the greenade landing right onto of the demon. at this point of time, the demon could only do wad? SCREAM. and den he exploded into pieces..
den the superhuman [who looked kinda more handsome after being injected] carried his sis [who was suddenly unconscious for no apparent reason] to the surface of the earth. and that ends the story with him saying,"everything's gonna be fine" or something liddat.
and my legs had became jelly and i was on the verge of puking and i was kinda spasming. and i was giddy and had a massive headache which had been going for quite a long time.
den my bro sent my sis and i and his galfren [she kana infection after the abortion] to the galfren's hse downstairs and just dumped his two sisters there with his car. and soon, everything happened. my sis drove the car and i was having the headache and was veri urgent to meet mr toiletbowl. den soon, my mother was there scolding me for not telling her something and she went "i hate you. i hate you forever." and she ordered me to slap my mouth 10 times and she carried on saying "sickening child.."
adn you know wad? i almost wanted to hate her all again. in the past, i couldnt find the reason to love her. until now, i can find reasons. one, she's my mother. we're blood-related and nothing can bring us apart. two, she's alone. she needs a companion. my father is working overseas and having his affairs, my sis is living in boon lay, my bro treats this place as a motel and he never bothers to care abt my mother. so left me to bear with her.
somehow, i am the rubbish bin. everybody dumps their frustrations on me and i cant do anything. nobody has ever been there for me to vent on. and i cant bear the tot of venting on anybody. nobody deserves such a thing. my mother only cares for me when she feels like it and she ignores you and hate you and vent everything on you when SHE FEELS LIKE IT.
i understand why she needs to vent. she is lonely and she had led a miserable life. she never once really experienced happiness. even her childhood was unpleasant.
but so was mine. i never even had a childhood. all i could remember was her beating me and flinging me to the concrete gound, kicking me at the chest after i accidentally spilled some pencil shavings, throwing satay sticks at me. i never remembered her showing any love for me. i had never been hugged by my parents ever since the age when i became aware of homework. i never remember experiencing love from my parents. my father was always abroad, earning money for the family and having 22-yr-old galfrens.. my siblings, there's something called age gap. they have their own happy days together.. and i always get left out when it comes to them reminicsing the past. everytime when they go "last time arr..." den i go silent. i have nth to tok abt. they're in their own world. is that called the happy days of childhood?
now, i can only depend on God's love. frens are too far and they are never gonna be 24/7 there for me. they have their own probs, own worries. they can do without mine.
11 November 2005
argh.. couldnt come online for almost a week, almost pulled out all my hair.. so i could only do my blog entry via microsoft word.. and now, im cut-and-pasting my recent entries into my blog rite NOW.
Wednesday, 9th november 2005
Suddenly, I felt like telling the peeps around me something.
When I die, do cry for me. I dun intend to say, oh, dun cry for me.. I dun want you all to be unhappy bcos of me..
I only want to know that I have done enough to make pple cry over my death. I want to know that I matter. This thought may sound selfish. But who doesn’t want to know that he is important enough for pple to be at a loss when he leaves this place?
Maybe I will no longer think and feel the same after a few years.. but right now, I do have such selfish thoughts and im not afraid to admit it.
And the reason why im typing with my sentences starting with capital letters is bcos im typing into Microsoft word and it has this instinct to do this thing for me.. irritating. Hey! My “irritating” started with small letter! aiyar, nvm. The worse thing that happened is that I cant find the internet connection. And I see the modem in front of me, blinking happily to show that the connection is on. ARGH. Starting to pull hair le lar….
Next thing to tok about... suddenly, when I was in the toilet [it’s the place where I had many inspirations.], I suddenly tot of the definitions of a true friend.
A true friend does not bind you down with her wants. She lets you fly free and supports you in every [wise] decision you make.
A true friend wants the best of you. She will do anything to make you happy, but that does not definitely include dying for you just to cheer you up.
A true friend does not want you to take the wrong step in life and will gently guide [or nudge] you to the right path.
A true friend will never be selfish towards you. She gives with a smile, and takes with a thanks-a-lot and a kiss.
A true friend loves you for you and she’ll never want you to change for her.
A true friend trusts you with all her heart and will always be giving you the benefit of the doubt.
I sincerely hope that I do satisfy at least one criteria to be a true friend……… budden my heart is telling me that I am still on a learning path to being a true friend.
Thursday, 10th November 2005
Today, my legs almost broke and my eyelids almost sealed shut while I was on the bus home..
Firstly, I slept at two thirty last night cos I watch my TWIN OF BROTHERS: LAST EPISODE… it started at 1.21am and ended at 2.01am.. omigosh.. my heart break lar.. even though it isn’t veri touching, but try to imagine lar.. you love somebody but you are gonna die. Den liddat if you tell the one you love that you love her, she will love you more. But you are dying! How? Her heart will be more broken.. so liddat gotta tell her that you have made a decision that will disappoint her, to make her think that you dun love her; bluff her… den liddat she can give up on this love easier.. but in the end she found out.. but too late, you died.
Aiyar, that scene veri sad lar.. budden I dun really like the scriptwriter. Feel like bashing him/her up. WHY MUST THEY DIE!? Haiz.. so many ways to end this story. Why must end it liddat?
Haiz.. you dunno wad I toking.. nvm.
Secondly, I woke up at 9.05… almost late for the submission of gpf and individual file. But cherie and Alvin worse den me.. they late until gotta take taxi.. cherie even forgot to bring money.. in the end she called me.. den I forgot to bring down my wallet, so in the end, I went back and tok it down.. haiyo. Den at 11.30, I called alvin’s home the second time [first time nobody answered] and found out that he was at home.. it’s like “AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!” I kinda screamed into his hp. Den I calmly told him to come to skool. Den we went to decide on the class t-shirt.. haiz.. pocket burn hole.. $30!!!! First time I buy class t so ex.. last time only $10.. and den can design on it oso.. haiz.. nvm.. it’s occasionally only..
Thirdly, we went to lot one to have lunch. But before we went to eat, we wandered around since cherie gotta go home to take her money out.. I bought a plastic ring! Budden I slowly felt that it’s quite big.. maybe I’ll just wear it at home.. After lunch, we dispersed.. jialing went to meet her frens, june and shandy went home, cherie, shaoqin and me went to the library.. den we went to the cinema there to take postcards, but left the “exorcism of Emily rose” postcard and there were some gruesome pics at the back of the card.. but I nvm, took it.. the others didn’t take it.. the whole time, we were discussing wad to make and bake.. suddenly felt like baking again.. so we discussed until I blur-red.. so I erased all dates, will ask them when we will really meet to bake muffins.. den we went to je central to look at the essential “materials”… veri ex leh!! Haiz.. nvm.. maybe I go Giant and see see.. maybe it’s cheaper there.. hehe.. will propose to them to go Giant and buy the some ingredients instead..
Kk, im super tired now..buaiz..
Heyhey.. I just found out something. My bro’s galfren went for an abortion this afternoon. Omigosh…….
Friday, 11th november 2005
okae, the pms issue is finally over!! woohoo!! and i can finally connect to the internet with my father's help!! woohoooo!!!! wanna kiss this laptop rite now.. budden cannot.. aiyar, dun wanna tok so much now.. wait this blog entry too big.. may bore you to death.. hehe.
Wednesday, 9th november 2005
Suddenly, I felt like telling the peeps around me something.
When I die, do cry for me. I dun intend to say, oh, dun cry for me.. I dun want you all to be unhappy bcos of me..
I only want to know that I have done enough to make pple cry over my death. I want to know that I matter. This thought may sound selfish. But who doesn’t want to know that he is important enough for pple to be at a loss when he leaves this place?
Maybe I will no longer think and feel the same after a few years.. but right now, I do have such selfish thoughts and im not afraid to admit it.
And the reason why im typing with my sentences starting with capital letters is bcos im typing into Microsoft word and it has this instinct to do this thing for me.. irritating. Hey! My “irritating” started with small letter! aiyar, nvm. The worse thing that happened is that I cant find the internet connection. And I see the modem in front of me, blinking happily to show that the connection is on. ARGH. Starting to pull hair le lar….
Next thing to tok about... suddenly, when I was in the toilet [it’s the place where I had many inspirations.], I suddenly tot of the definitions of a true friend.
A true friend does not bind you down with her wants. She lets you fly free and supports you in every [wise] decision you make.
A true friend wants the best of you. She will do anything to make you happy, but that does not definitely include dying for you just to cheer you up.
A true friend does not want you to take the wrong step in life and will gently guide [or nudge] you to the right path.
A true friend will never be selfish towards you. She gives with a smile, and takes with a thanks-a-lot and a kiss.
A true friend loves you for you and she’ll never want you to change for her.
A true friend trusts you with all her heart and will always be giving you the benefit of the doubt.
I sincerely hope that I do satisfy at least one criteria to be a true friend……… budden my heart is telling me that I am still on a learning path to being a true friend.
Thursday, 10th November 2005
Today, my legs almost broke and my eyelids almost sealed shut while I was on the bus home..
Firstly, I slept at two thirty last night cos I watch my TWIN OF BROTHERS: LAST EPISODE… it started at 1.21am and ended at 2.01am.. omigosh.. my heart break lar.. even though it isn’t veri touching, but try to imagine lar.. you love somebody but you are gonna die. Den liddat if you tell the one you love that you love her, she will love you more. But you are dying! How? Her heart will be more broken.. so liddat gotta tell her that you have made a decision that will disappoint her, to make her think that you dun love her; bluff her… den liddat she can give up on this love easier.. but in the end she found out.. but too late, you died.
Aiyar, that scene veri sad lar.. budden I dun really like the scriptwriter. Feel like bashing him/her up. WHY MUST THEY DIE!? Haiz.. so many ways to end this story. Why must end it liddat?
Haiz.. you dunno wad I toking.. nvm.
Secondly, I woke up at 9.05… almost late for the submission of gpf and individual file. But cherie and Alvin worse den me.. they late until gotta take taxi.. cherie even forgot to bring money.. in the end she called me.. den I forgot to bring down my wallet, so in the end, I went back and tok it down.. haiyo. Den at 11.30, I called alvin’s home the second time [first time nobody answered] and found out that he was at home.. it’s like “AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!” I kinda screamed into his hp. Den I calmly told him to come to skool. Den we went to decide on the class t-shirt.. haiz.. pocket burn hole.. $30!!!! First time I buy class t so ex.. last time only $10.. and den can design on it oso.. haiz.. nvm.. it’s occasionally only..
Thirdly, we went to lot one to have lunch. But before we went to eat, we wandered around since cherie gotta go home to take her money out.. I bought a plastic ring! Budden I slowly felt that it’s quite big.. maybe I’ll just wear it at home.. After lunch, we dispersed.. jialing went to meet her frens, june and shandy went home, cherie, shaoqin and me went to the library.. den we went to the cinema there to take postcards, but left the “exorcism of Emily rose” postcard and there were some gruesome pics at the back of the card.. but I nvm, took it.. the others didn’t take it.. the whole time, we were discussing wad to make and bake.. suddenly felt like baking again.. so we discussed until I blur-red.. so I erased all dates, will ask them when we will really meet to bake muffins.. den we went to je central to look at the essential “materials”… veri ex leh!! Haiz.. nvm.. maybe I go Giant and see see.. maybe it’s cheaper there.. hehe.. will propose to them to go Giant and buy the some ingredients instead..
Kk, im super tired now..buaiz..
Heyhey.. I just found out something. My bro’s galfren went for an abortion this afternoon. Omigosh…….
Friday, 11th november 2005
okae, the pms issue is finally over!! woohoo!! and i can finally connect to the internet with my father's help!! woohoooo!!!! wanna kiss this laptop rite now.. budden cannot.. aiyar, dun wanna tok so much now.. wait this blog entry too big.. may bore you to death.. hehe.
06 November 2005
jin tian
heyhey.. im back!
today quite sian.. watched finish "twin of brothers" only to find that tmw or the day after tmw den last episode.. make me sad for nth.. cheat my feelings!!
watch finish den i went to yew tee to meet the gals and alvin.. den june, cherie and i went to the fairprice at the mrt station and went to buy food and drinks.. den sheryl came.. den alvin appeared squatting down at the mrt station.. den he looked so sad.. okae lar.. he just sad that he didnt sleep enough..
den we had op until around 6.30pm.. den i went to buy dinner for mother and oso for myself..
budden i remembered that she dun like to drink the soup from outside.. den i have 2 packets of that outside soup lor!! in the end, i poured away one and threw away the other one before i reached home.. den i oso threw away my dinner.. wanna slim down and i had no appetite.. dun scold me!!! i just threw away $3.50..
okae, show start le.. gtg..
tok next time.
today quite sian.. watched finish "twin of brothers" only to find that tmw or the day after tmw den last episode.. make me sad for nth.. cheat my feelings!!
watch finish den i went to yew tee to meet the gals and alvin.. den june, cherie and i went to the fairprice at the mrt station and went to buy food and drinks.. den sheryl came.. den alvin appeared squatting down at the mrt station.. den he looked so sad.. okae lar.. he just sad that he didnt sleep enough..
den we had op until around 6.30pm.. den i went to buy dinner for mother and oso for myself..
budden i remembered that she dun like to drink the soup from outside.. den i have 2 packets of that outside soup lor!! in the end, i poured away one and threw away the other one before i reached home.. den i oso threw away my dinner.. wanna slim down and i had no appetite.. dun scold me!!! i just threw away $3.50..
okae, show start le.. gtg..
tok next time.
05 November 2005
suddenly, i felt..
suddenly, i felt that all guys are irresponsible. all guys are not good company. must be bcos i've never been up close to a guy who deserves to be praised.
look at my family's guys! my father got affair, my brother got pms [which resulted in infancy]. wad to do liddat? havent my mother suffered enough after knowing that her husband's been betraying her in the past [i assume that he has learnt to be guai]?! must my brother break her heart again!? i dunno how to face them now. i dunno how to face my mother, i dunno how to even look at my bro without thinking about the baby. i cant tell my mother anyway.. it's always better that the culprit turns himself in. even those criminals who turn themselves in receive a lighter sentence than those who were forcefully arrested by the police..
and my class. when has there been a guy whom i know is faultless? my current class.. no, let's narrow to my pw group.. alvin is..............indescribable.. he's a bit self-righteous, a bit irresponsible, a bit of this and a bit of that which makes me feel like kicking him in the ass.. but somehow, he can make me laugh.. how do such guys actually do that? women can love and hate them at the same time.. haiz.. will there be a male who will be faultless? anyway, you can never find a human being who is perfect in everybody's eyes.. you can only find a perfect God, the God who will always meet our standards and beliefs and will never disappoint us. He will never be irresponsible and repulsive in our eyes. you may be a muslim, a buddhist, a taoist, A CHRISTIAN, anything... but isnt your God the most wonderful thing that ever happened in your life?
i myself find that my GOD is the best. He loves me soooo much.. but there's one thing. He loves us Christians alot rite? den He once said that He's a selfish God.. and that we do not love any other idols under His instructions rite? den why can He love so many of us at a time? His one leg can ta4 so many boats ar? den liddat should we be jealous of each other or wad?
oh no, i have misunderstood his love as romantic love.. it can oso be partially fatherly love since He created us so He can be called our Creator aka out Father.. His love has many segments.. and that it covers every aspect of our lives.. it transcends everything that we believe in. awwwwww... how i wish i can go up and kiss Hiim on the cheeks. but i cant. im a sinner. why do i say so? i dun tell you! you ownself think out why.. there are many sins that we commit everyday, no matter wad. it can be wad we said - vulgarities that i heard from june today -, wad we do - cherie once accidentally pointed middle finger.. haha-, wad we think, etc.. but wad matters most is that we are willing to lay all of our sins in front of Him and repent. until now, i have been trying to overcome one of my devils in my heart and i have yet to win the battle. i have lost many times, but i'll keep trying. i will keep puching myself to not give up on myself.
maybe i have interpreted something or said something that is of the wrong opinion of God, but this is wad i truly think. wanna share with me wad you think about being Godly and being God's child?
my blog seems quiet [mostly cos i didnt out a tagboard.. well, i DUNNO how to!! me techno-idiot!! especially with computers, laptops, all electronic devices.. i just know how to use, i dunno how to install, fix and such.. lucky got my father to do the dirty work.. haha..].....
haiz...
do you find the irony? why are my words such negativities/solemnities and that my blogskin is so lively and cute? must be cos i appear to be lively and cute but that in me, it's all seriousness... but hey, i do get optimisitc at times, it's not everyday that im liddat, rite..??
okae, that's all for my "early" morning reflective entry!!
look at my family's guys! my father got affair, my brother got pms [which resulted in infancy]. wad to do liddat? havent my mother suffered enough after knowing that her husband's been betraying her in the past [i assume that he has learnt to be guai]?! must my brother break her heart again!? i dunno how to face them now. i dunno how to face my mother, i dunno how to even look at my bro without thinking about the baby. i cant tell my mother anyway.. it's always better that the culprit turns himself in. even those criminals who turn themselves in receive a lighter sentence than those who were forcefully arrested by the police..
and my class. when has there been a guy whom i know is faultless? my current class.. no, let's narrow to my pw group.. alvin is..............indescribable.. he's a bit self-righteous, a bit irresponsible, a bit of this and a bit of that which makes me feel like kicking him in the ass.. but somehow, he can make me laugh.. how do such guys actually do that? women can love and hate them at the same time.. haiz.. will there be a male who will be faultless? anyway, you can never find a human being who is perfect in everybody's eyes.. you can only find a perfect God, the God who will always meet our standards and beliefs and will never disappoint us. He will never be irresponsible and repulsive in our eyes. you may be a muslim, a buddhist, a taoist, A CHRISTIAN, anything... but isnt your God the most wonderful thing that ever happened in your life?
i myself find that my GOD is the best. He loves me soooo much.. but there's one thing. He loves us Christians alot rite? den He once said that He's a selfish God.. and that we do not love any other idols under His instructions rite? den why can He love so many of us at a time? His one leg can ta4 so many boats ar? den liddat should we be jealous of each other or wad?
oh no, i have misunderstood his love as romantic love.. it can oso be partially fatherly love since He created us so He can be called our Creator aka out Father.. His love has many segments.. and that it covers every aspect of our lives.. it transcends everything that we believe in. awwwwww... how i wish i can go up and kiss Hiim on the cheeks. but i cant. im a sinner. why do i say so? i dun tell you! you ownself think out why.. there are many sins that we commit everyday, no matter wad. it can be wad we said - vulgarities that i heard from june today -, wad we do - cherie once accidentally pointed middle finger.. haha-, wad we think, etc.. but wad matters most is that we are willing to lay all of our sins in front of Him and repent. until now, i have been trying to overcome one of my devils in my heart and i have yet to win the battle. i have lost many times, but i'll keep trying. i will keep puching myself to not give up on myself.
maybe i have interpreted something or said something that is of the wrong opinion of God, but this is wad i truly think. wanna share with me wad you think about being Godly and being God's child?
my blog seems quiet [mostly cos i didnt out a tagboard.. well, i DUNNO how to!! me techno-idiot!! especially with computers, laptops, all electronic devices.. i just know how to use, i dunno how to install, fix and such.. lucky got my father to do the dirty work.. haha..].....
haiz...
do you find the irony? why are my words such negativities/solemnities and that my blogskin is so lively and cute? must be cos i appear to be lively and cute but that in me, it's all seriousness... but hey, i do get optimisitc at times, it's not everyday that im liddat, rite..??
okae, that's all for my "early" morning reflective entry!!
04 November 2005
heyhey! today was one sian day.. well, kinda..
getting sian of pw. veri sian. why? cos we this afternoon decided to redo the whole video thingy cos ours, compared to the other groups in the class, is a whole mess!! the animation is.....erm......hehe.............have much space for improvement.. the filming part is bleah. so we redid the filming and kinda "borrowed" the skool's cam and went to the loft and the gate to film alvin, the latecomer.. aiyar, den i this morning den found out that we have a dry run until one o'clock! it's like omigosh, i have a meeting with my cca peeps from 11.15 to 12 lor!! so in the end the meeting was cancelled for the SECOND time and we gotta rearrange the meeting time again.. haiz.... just wanna tell them something oso so hard sia..
we oso took some pictures as a class.. budden got quite a number of guys didnt come cos they were away and didnt had to come for pw! so jealous... i woke up at 6 am lor!! and imagine them snoring their heads off at the same time. Ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....... but nvm, they spent a year for that privilege.. so NVM. i wasnt being sarcastic k?
den when i reached home, showered, forced myself to eat the pear that my mother cut for me, and den i just plonked on the bed and slept hours away until the seven o'clock show on channel u started.. i forgot the show's title, but i know there's a shuai ge called mingdao from the 183 club!! i missed the first part cos i was still sleeping away. [i do not snore.]
haiz... gonna miss so many more peeps after this year.. somehow, every year i have to bid some classmates farewell.. well, last year was a more serious case.. i lost 40 classmates. 40. wad a huge number.. this year i only lost 5.. next year how?? haiz.. so many pple come and go. they flutter into my life and float out again, only that when they leave, they bring along a part of my heart.. so now, my heat has holes everywhere.. too many holes to count now.. im trying veri hard to fill those holes up with God's love, my family and frens' love and my love for myself.. i think im succeeding..
im learning to move on in life right now, wanna join me in this journey??
haiya, today got nothing much to update le..
getting sian of pw. veri sian. why? cos we this afternoon decided to redo the whole video thingy cos ours, compared to the other groups in the class, is a whole mess!! the animation is.....erm......hehe.............have much space for improvement.. the filming part is bleah. so we redid the filming and kinda "borrowed" the skool's cam and went to the loft and the gate to film alvin, the latecomer.. aiyar, den i this morning den found out that we have a dry run until one o'clock! it's like omigosh, i have a meeting with my cca peeps from 11.15 to 12 lor!! so in the end the meeting was cancelled for the SECOND time and we gotta rearrange the meeting time again.. haiz.... just wanna tell them something oso so hard sia..
we oso took some pictures as a class.. budden got quite a number of guys didnt come cos they were away and didnt had to come for pw! so jealous... i woke up at 6 am lor!! and imagine them snoring their heads off at the same time. Ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....... but nvm, they spent a year for that privilege.. so NVM. i wasnt being sarcastic k?
den when i reached home, showered, forced myself to eat the pear that my mother cut for me, and den i just plonked on the bed and slept hours away until the seven o'clock show on channel u started.. i forgot the show's title, but i know there's a shuai ge called mingdao from the 183 club!! i missed the first part cos i was still sleeping away. [i do not snore.]
haiz... gonna miss so many more peeps after this year.. somehow, every year i have to bid some classmates farewell.. well, last year was a more serious case.. i lost 40 classmates. 40. wad a huge number.. this year i only lost 5.. next year how?? haiz.. so many pple come and go. they flutter into my life and float out again, only that when they leave, they bring along a part of my heart.. so now, my heat has holes everywhere.. too many holes to count now.. im trying veri hard to fill those holes up with God's love, my family and frens' love and my love for myself.. i think im succeeding..
im learning to move on in life right now, wanna join me in this journey??
haiya, today got nothing much to update le..
02 November 2005
last night
heyhey!! me yesterday too tired to even come online.
went out at 4pm to go to popular to go stationary-shopping!! budden in the first place, i went to je to meet the gals to go to marina south as a group.. so i was too engrossed in the shopping until i lost track of time and ended up late.. and the gals were being happy that they finally came earlier than me.. -.-'' but nvm, i managed to buy things that i like.. budden i got cheated! those rings, used to act like the ring file without the file, veri hard to open! i last night try until fingers swollen.. den i this afternoon ask frens to open den can.. hehe.. i got OOP.
den we went to marina bay using the east west line.. den i went to buy my bus concession since it's about to expire.. budden the staff from the passenger service sold me the train concession!! ah!! den lucky i got check my receipt cos the price changed from $27.50 to $25.. den i told her.. den she gave me the "huh?!" expression... -.-'' in the end, she allowed me a free ride from marina bay to city hall cos i had to revert the concession stuff in a ticket office and almost the entire singapore's ticket office closed for the hols and the only one open is in city hall.. den i dun wanna waste time so i just left without my frens while telling wanru to tell them that im off for a while.. in the end, the whole group decided to come after me to accompany on the ride to city hall.. i felt so guilty lor.. liddat waste their money.. den in the end we chat and chat all the way lor.. den when we finally reacher city hall, we alighted but only i got pass that machine.. den at the ticket office i gotta narrate the WHOLE story to the one at the office.. den she give me the look that i felt that im being scolded by teacher.. den she explained to me that if i want to reverse the process gotta cancel the current bus concession.. den i see left a few days den nvm lor.. in the end, i bought the bus concession from 1 nov to 30 nov for 24.90.. haha, i saved $2.30.. i veri stingy hor? budden no choice.. money not meant to be wasted.
den by the time we were on the train back to marina bay, june was oredi there.. in the first place, she went to causeway point to watch "skeleton key" with her frens.. haiyo..
den we finally left the mrt stations. yay!!
we den took the one and only bus service : bus no. 400, to the place where we will have steamboat... you know zeng fa huo hai xian?? it's my classmate, amily's father's steamboat restaurant leh!! in the end we paid $2 lesser each! which means that we saved $16 altogether! wow... budden in the end the money saved went into a $10 stuff toy we bought from a deaf and mute hawker and lots and lots of drinks!! i myself drank 3 cans.. wow rite? budden no choice, the weather was too hot when standing infront af a stove.
den we take alot of stuff.. wanru and i even went to get 2 containerful of prawns which actually looked huge in their shells but were actually quite small.. but guess wad? the prawns were alive and jumping when we first got them, den the uncle no tell us wad to do.. so we went to wash the prawns at the clogged up and stinko sink.. how? we opened the containers a lil and poured the tap water into the container and den pouring away the water.. that can be called as rinsing lar.. cos we cant possibly take out all one by one and using soap to wash rite!? and note: every prawn will have a pointy thing at the head which is razor sharp and will get sharper as the prawn grows bigger. so that "horn" is huge lor.. reminds me of a rhino. den the waitor told us that we make the prawns unconscious before we out them in the boiling soup.. so wanru and i shake and shake and shake the containers with cherie and sheryl making some noise and face.. but that's reality. we kill to eat. or else where do the sweet and sour chicken and fish cutlets come from?
in the end we ate until 10 plus.. and when the bus came, some peeps cut queue and sheryl was quite pissed.. but wad can we do? we will all end up in the same bus rite? doesnt mean anything when someone cuts your queue, just that he boards the bus earlier.. and i was actually pushed up the bus!!! wow! hahahahahaha..
in the end we couldnt find seats for the whole group to sit so we stood lor.. den will standing, we continued chatting.. somehow we can find alot of things to chat.. on the bus, we were toking about cherie being detained and how the new syllabus goes abt.. it's more complicated than the current one.. and sounds more competitive. haiz.. cherie cannot have the mentality that she had studied everything in the first year hor!! there will always be new things to learn that you didnt even knew existed. continue learning, continue studying k?
den when i finally reached home, it was 11.15pm.. wow i was dead beat. waited for the stoopid bus for 15 mins.. and then i noticed an indian who kept looking at me.. so pissed. wondered if he was eyeing my breasts or my valuables. now i super wary of them..... sorry lar.. wad do you expect from a gal molested and robbed by an indian? [i didnt report that he touched my butt]
den i watched tv until 12.30pm... cos i wanted so much to catch "chrno crusade" on ch56.. it's soooo nice.. comparable to my "inuyasha".. btw, "inuyasha: season 3" is over.. and that's all.. they didnt bother to make a season 4 lor!! and the comic version got 400++ lor! ANGRY.
and today, i had pw session from 11am to 1pm. which meant that i had to wake up at 9am.. but nvm, i even managed to wake up at 4am to find myself having a bad stomachache from the dinner. den i went to toilet and sh*tted for quite a long time.. until nth came out but i knew that there's more.. budden i was so tired that i gave up and went back to sleep.. so when i woke up again at 8.30am, i had another series of stomachache and i went to toilet to settle the remaining crap. wad a release! budden in the end, when i was abt to present for my pw, the stomachache came together with nauseousness.. [is there such a word? haiyar, i just felt like puking.]
and you know wad?? alvin, our pw group leader, our team member, the one part of the presenting team, DIDNT COME TO SKOOL. he didnt even know that there is a session this afternoon.. and guess wad excuse he gave? HANDPHONE SPOILT. so wad!?? the teacher repeatedly told the class abt today's session during class before the "hols" started lor!!! ANGRY.. in the end, four gals presented the entire thing. and for his part, we split it into 4 sections and i kana the first part again.. hehe.. i somehow like to present suddenly.. den i present the short short part den i suddenly said "bye bye" and the whole class suddenly erupted into laughter.. haha... most probably cos they were expecting more of the thingy from me and that the "bye bye" came veri abruptly as an outburst.. hehe.. i felt that i can be a comedian.. haha.. yar, my comments were quite good.. got alot of nice comments.. haha.. out of a score of 5, i had a 4.. hahaha.. budden my assessor will be super strict leh!! how? wad if he super critical??? wad if he give super bad comments?? and den h's skin super dark lor.. which means that he got potential to have a super black face! liddat i will nervous! ah! the assessing will be in 6 days! ah! okae, i gotta cool down and start drinking honey to clear my throat.. budden this afternoon, my performance wasnt up to my expectations. i was stumbling on my words and that i still got refer to the slide [which is a no-no] and that i was kinda disheartened by how the audience wasnt even listening.. and since they wont even listening, they couldnt come up with a question to ask the group when it came to the Q&A session. so ANGRY. but not as ANGRY as i am towards alvin.
okae, i toked alot le.. still waiting for cherie to come online and upload the photos we took last night and today onto the Net... i wanna watch my twin of brothers!!! budden my mother dun like, so i cannot watch. feel like crying.. she never bothered with wad i liked. in her eyes, only her son's prefernces and her likes mattered.
but nvm, im used to it. now that's the bad part. how can someone be used to such bad practise? it means that i have oredi given up on getting her to take note of wad she had been doing, how she had been hurting my heart.
i cant take it any longer.
went out at 4pm to go to popular to go stationary-shopping!! budden in the first place, i went to je to meet the gals to go to marina south as a group.. so i was too engrossed in the shopping until i lost track of time and ended up late.. and the gals were being happy that they finally came earlier than me.. -.-'' but nvm, i managed to buy things that i like.. budden i got cheated! those rings, used to act like the ring file without the file, veri hard to open! i last night try until fingers swollen.. den i this afternoon ask frens to open den can.. hehe.. i got OOP.
den we went to marina bay using the east west line.. den i went to buy my bus concession since it's about to expire.. budden the staff from the passenger service sold me the train concession!! ah!! den lucky i got check my receipt cos the price changed from $27.50 to $25.. den i told her.. den she gave me the "huh?!" expression... -.-'' in the end, she allowed me a free ride from marina bay to city hall cos i had to revert the concession stuff in a ticket office and almost the entire singapore's ticket office closed for the hols and the only one open is in city hall.. den i dun wanna waste time so i just left without my frens while telling wanru to tell them that im off for a while.. in the end, the whole group decided to come after me to accompany on the ride to city hall.. i felt so guilty lor.. liddat waste their money.. den in the end we chat and chat all the way lor.. den when we finally reacher city hall, we alighted but only i got pass that machine.. den at the ticket office i gotta narrate the WHOLE story to the one at the office.. den she give me the look that i felt that im being scolded by teacher.. den she explained to me that if i want to reverse the process gotta cancel the current bus concession.. den i see left a few days den nvm lor.. in the end, i bought the bus concession from 1 nov to 30 nov for 24.90.. haha, i saved $2.30.. i veri stingy hor? budden no choice.. money not meant to be wasted.
den by the time we were on the train back to marina bay, june was oredi there.. in the first place, she went to causeway point to watch "skeleton key" with her frens.. haiyo..
den we finally left the mrt stations. yay!!
we den took the one and only bus service : bus no. 400, to the place where we will have steamboat... you know zeng fa huo hai xian?? it's my classmate, amily's father's steamboat restaurant leh!! in the end we paid $2 lesser each! which means that we saved $16 altogether! wow... budden in the end the money saved went into a $10 stuff toy we bought from a deaf and mute hawker and lots and lots of drinks!! i myself drank 3 cans.. wow rite? budden no choice, the weather was too hot when standing infront af a stove.
den we take alot of stuff.. wanru and i even went to get 2 containerful of prawns which actually looked huge in their shells but were actually quite small.. but guess wad? the prawns were alive and jumping when we first got them, den the uncle no tell us wad to do.. so we went to wash the prawns at the clogged up and stinko sink.. how? we opened the containers a lil and poured the tap water into the container and den pouring away the water.. that can be called as rinsing lar.. cos we cant possibly take out all one by one and using soap to wash rite!? and note: every prawn will have a pointy thing at the head which is razor sharp and will get sharper as the prawn grows bigger. so that "horn" is huge lor.. reminds me of a rhino. den the waitor told us that we make the prawns unconscious before we out them in the boiling soup.. so wanru and i shake and shake and shake the containers with cherie and sheryl making some noise and face.. but that's reality. we kill to eat. or else where do the sweet and sour chicken and fish cutlets come from?
in the end we ate until 10 plus.. and when the bus came, some peeps cut queue and sheryl was quite pissed.. but wad can we do? we will all end up in the same bus rite? doesnt mean anything when someone cuts your queue, just that he boards the bus earlier.. and i was actually pushed up the bus!!! wow! hahahahahaha..
in the end we couldnt find seats for the whole group to sit so we stood lor.. den will standing, we continued chatting.. somehow we can find alot of things to chat.. on the bus, we were toking about cherie being detained and how the new syllabus goes abt.. it's more complicated than the current one.. and sounds more competitive. haiz.. cherie cannot have the mentality that she had studied everything in the first year hor!! there will always be new things to learn that you didnt even knew existed. continue learning, continue studying k?
den when i finally reached home, it was 11.15pm.. wow i was dead beat. waited for the stoopid bus for 15 mins.. and then i noticed an indian who kept looking at me.. so pissed. wondered if he was eyeing my breasts or my valuables. now i super wary of them..... sorry lar.. wad do you expect from a gal molested and robbed by an indian? [i didnt report that he touched my butt]
den i watched tv until 12.30pm... cos i wanted so much to catch "chrno crusade" on ch56.. it's soooo nice.. comparable to my "inuyasha".. btw, "inuyasha: season 3" is over.. and that's all.. they didnt bother to make a season 4 lor!! and the comic version got 400++ lor! ANGRY.
and today, i had pw session from 11am to 1pm. which meant that i had to wake up at 9am.. but nvm, i even managed to wake up at 4am to find myself having a bad stomachache from the dinner. den i went to toilet and sh*tted for quite a long time.. until nth came out but i knew that there's more.. budden i was so tired that i gave up and went back to sleep.. so when i woke up again at 8.30am, i had another series of stomachache and i went to toilet to settle the remaining crap. wad a release! budden in the end, when i was abt to present for my pw, the stomachache came together with nauseousness.. [is there such a word? haiyar, i just felt like puking.]
and you know wad?? alvin, our pw group leader, our team member, the one part of the presenting team, DIDNT COME TO SKOOL. he didnt even know that there is a session this afternoon.. and guess wad excuse he gave? HANDPHONE SPOILT. so wad!?? the teacher repeatedly told the class abt today's session during class before the "hols" started lor!!! ANGRY.. in the end, four gals presented the entire thing. and for his part, we split it into 4 sections and i kana the first part again.. hehe.. i somehow like to present suddenly.. den i present the short short part den i suddenly said "bye bye" and the whole class suddenly erupted into laughter.. haha... most probably cos they were expecting more of the thingy from me and that the "bye bye" came veri abruptly as an outburst.. hehe.. i felt that i can be a comedian.. haha.. yar, my comments were quite good.. got alot of nice comments.. haha.. out of a score of 5, i had a 4.. hahaha.. budden my assessor will be super strict leh!! how? wad if he super critical??? wad if he give super bad comments?? and den h's skin super dark lor.. which means that he got potential to have a super black face! liddat i will nervous! ah! the assessing will be in 6 days! ah! okae, i gotta cool down and start drinking honey to clear my throat.. budden this afternoon, my performance wasnt up to my expectations. i was stumbling on my words and that i still got refer to the slide [which is a no-no] and that i was kinda disheartened by how the audience wasnt even listening.. and since they wont even listening, they couldnt come up with a question to ask the group when it came to the Q&A session. so ANGRY. but not as ANGRY as i am towards alvin.
okae, i toked alot le.. still waiting for cherie to come online and upload the photos we took last night and today onto the Net... i wanna watch my twin of brothers!!! budden my mother dun like, so i cannot watch. feel like crying.. she never bothered with wad i liked. in her eyes, only her son's prefernces and her likes mattered.
but nvm, im used to it. now that's the bad part. how can someone be used to such bad practise? it means that i have oredi given up on getting her to take note of wad she had been doing, how she had been hurting my heart.
i cant take it any longer.
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