okae, i admit. i am veri easily affected. by pple whom i love. okae, saying that is the same as not saying.. who wont be affected by pple they love? im crappy.
and i got more crappy, more agitated and more worried abt this fren. how come darren suddenly no more friendster account? and how come he so long no come online? den wad was he trying to say when he emailed me saying "send me your email please!", when i dun have a clue abt wad he want? and wad was he trying to say in his second friendster email, which had no content, nothing? [cos when you cancel your friendster account, friendster will remove all traces of you, no more testimonials left by you, all emails you had sent to pple will be removed, as if you had never been in friendster. just nice i didnt get to read the msg before he cancelled the account, which means that when i opened the notification and i saw nth besides an empty email.]
does he know that this sudden action of his made me feel disoriented? it's like, you are toking to a person halfway when that person suddenly cut you off and walk away.. i do not like that attitude.. im an oddball, that i just found out.. and his action made me assume that he dun like me. made me assume that he had always been making fun of me. see how i make these ugly assumptions? cos i cant come out with a nice one since there are hundreds of assumptions, probably thousands.
okae, i dun tok abt him now. the more i think the more angry and worred i get. honestly, i dun want my assumptions to be correct.
headache, eye-ache [eye super dry], ear-ache [mother keeps yakking and yakking and yakking and yakking and yakking at my ear].. last night even got fever, until i gotta struggle keeping my eyes open for me to watch my fav show.. i love those tvb drama serials.. hongkong actors are better than singapore ones.. singapore ones act until super fake, if you look closer, you can actually notice that many artistes dun have convincing expressions. be it eyes, face, it is so easy to know that they are only concentrating on saying out wad is on the scripts.. their eyes cant express the characters' feelings.. the singapore veterans at leas got std.. it's those who have came in a few years ago.. i cant tahan their acting.. okae, nvm.. im just being critical.. so i dun like watching those made-in-singapore serials.. it makes me super sian..
okae, i gtg.. got alot of hmk to do this time..
