being veri upset now.. cos i kinda gonna get over mr wee.. budden.. i've got a new crush.. [darn..] dunnoe if it's convenient to say it here... kinda embarrassing.. i can juz say that he was there for the class chalet too.. after the chalet, i couldnt stop thinking abt him.. argh, i hate myself whenever i know that i am not worthy of that person's love, and yet i simply willingly fall into this bottomless pit..
went back to fairfield today.. had to collect my $150.. had to take one last thorough look at the skool before i move on in life, right? kept looking into the classroom when i came across it.. looking at the lockers my classmates used to own.. looking into the classroom, the furniture, the photos.. nothing much has changed.. juz that the pple who used to use that room wont be using it anymore.. our presence is no longer there.. no more authentic dirty jokes and laughter from 4e.. after today, there is no more such thing as a "tight" 4e'04.. no more.. everything's gone.. wad's left, is the wonderful memories.. okae, i am hoping that i'll remind myself not to remember the guys.. they polluted the memories.. even though they did bring much fun and laughter.. if only they were more responsible in their ways.. more considerate.. more kind.. more humane.. haha.. i can carry on forever and ever when it comes to seeing thru pple's flaws.. [including myself]
